3 Days Later

Lexi was in her bed wasting away. Her family was away. It seemed like they were miles away. The physical distancing was vast and the mental distance alarming! She yearned to yell at them to come to her but it was like they were on a escalator and just floated away from her. Higher and higher till she couldn't see them anymore. She heard a soft clicking sound. Ok no not again. Please no! she whispered. The radiation machine was turned on. She blinked and she was in the room with it. She was scared the clicking intensified and grew louder. I'm gonna have you Lexi! The clicking told her. You can't escape. The clicking was not deafening. She tried to climb out of her bed but she was too weak. The clicking was now menacing. No! she said and thrashed about. Her whole body was in the machine now and she was hot. She grew hotter and hotter and hotter till…

Lexi gasped and her eyes popped open. Her head lay limply to the side. Her brow was coated with sweat. She swallowed audibly. That nightmare had been awful! it was he 2 fears combined, her family leaving her and that awful clicking machine! At last she had her last bout today. Later she started day 0 of her bone marrow transplant. The radiation had somehow been even worse than the chemotherapy. She'd lost more weight. She had been slim to begin with but it had been a healthy slim. Now she looked awful. After a month of all this her face was sunken and her bones protruded from her skin. She was alone because this was really strong stuff they were doing. Total body irradiation or TBI as it is known. It is a preparative regiment for the transplant. They are completely suppressing her immune system to prevent rejection of the donated marrow. It also destroyed the residual cancer cells. It had been given in multiple small doses. God but she was scared of that machine. It reminded her of a coffin in a way. It was this big white machine with a hole in the middle where you were lain on a table and pulled inside. As you lie inside there is a nasty sound like a hammer hitting off metal. She winced as she remembered the sound. Her lungs and head had been shielded but it didn't weaken the noise. It haunted her dreams. Then there was the imaging machine. That one wasn't so bad but she still didn't like it. They checked her progress by it daily.

She got moved back to her normal room today and she got to see her family. For someone who had wanted to be alone she had missed them terribly. Especially her Ethan. They came to see her everyday and waved at her from her window but it wasn't the same. She yawned. God she had just freaking woke up! She felt like a baby again. All she did was sleep! She probably slept more than Daniel for gods sake! She closed her eyes and thought of her brown eyed prince. She smiled. She had loved seeing him through the glass the past couple of days. He'd brought a white board and a felt tip and wrote her messages. They'd had an I love you more war. He'd wrote me love you more and she kept shaking her head. He kept saying yes I do too. Brought a smile to her face on a dull day. He teased her about her present too. Wouldn't give her a clue as to what he had bought her. He'd wrote bet you wanna know don't you. She nodded eagerly. He'd smiled devilishly and said no, na na na na! and there's nothing you can do coz ur in there and I'm out here! Then he did the daftest victory dance and stuck his tongue out. He's just so adorable and she honestly couldn't love him more then she did! He did all this stuff for her and she did nothing for him in return. Except maybe upset him and send him away. No more though. She had to get better and make this up to him! She yawned again. God she felt unbelievably tired. A doctor walked in with a face mask.

"Hello Alexis."

"How about I get a pen and write a smiley face on there?" she asked. "Plus how many times it's Lexi!"

"Hey that's a good idea!" the doctor said smiling. Well his eyes looked like he was smiling. "You ready for your BMT?"

"As I'll ever be." she told him.

"Well what will happen is the anaesthesiologist will come down and put you under then when your asleep we'll go into theatre and do the procedure. Then you'll go to a private recovery area for an hour or two till your awake then you can go back to your room."

"Aahh yes my four beige walls. I was thinking of asking my dad to decorate for me. The beige got real boring real quick. And did you know there are 57 tiles on the ceiling?"

The doctors eyes crinkled more. "No Lexi I didn't. Thanks for letting me know."

"No problem. How was my dad with the procedure?"

"He was fine."

Lexi nodded. "My dad is the best!"

"Ok Lexi the next time I see you, you'll be asleep."

"Yeah an I'll probably wake up with a moustache drew on with permanent marker huh?" she asked playfully.

"Of course and glasses too!"

She smiled at him. "Thanks doc."

"You'll be fine Lexi trust me!" he said softly.

She nodded. The anaesthesiologist knocked and walked in.

The doctor smiled at her again and then walked away. She lay back on her bed as more drugs were pumped into her IV. Making there way through her system.

Here we go again! She thought.

A/N short filler chapter. hardest part for lexi 2 go through right here. decimated immune system. will she get ill and die? who knows? keep reading and as always i hope ur enjoyin my story x