So I know it has been over a month but I really don't want to just quit writing, so for anyone who is still interested here's Chapter 7. And I must add that I am terribly terribly sorry for not updating sooner, I actually had this chapter ready at one point but my computer crashed so now I have to start over again. Anyways, I hope you like it and as always please read and review.
One warning though, I have seen a lot of spoilers and while I'm not working off of those some of them may appear in my story because they fit too perfectly not to.
Disclaimer: I do not own Gossip Girl or its characters
Warning: I am marking this chapter as rated M because the beginning is a little sexual but I don't anticipate that it is enough that the whole story needs to be rated M.
Chuck responded to her kiss with just as much passion as she had kissed him with. It was amazing how much he wanted Blair, and not just because she was beautiful. He wanted her mind, her body, her heart, he was 100 in love with her and he knew it. Somehow finally admitting this made him desire her even more. So as he allowed his hands to explore her body and remove her articles of clothing, he began to feel a fire that he never even knew existed before this point. He let his kisses trail down her jaw line to the special place on her neck where he knew she loved to be kissed.
She couldn't think. It was as simple as that. Chuck was trailing kisses down her neck and there was this intense need and desire rushing through her body. She didn't just want Chuck, she needed him. Blair wasn't thinking about what everyone else was going to think, she wasn't thinking about how she was going to break up with Marcus, she was just thinking that she needed Chuck. She could feel her body getting impatient though. And when she felt Chuck move away from her she tried to grip into his hair and back to stop him.
Chuck was amused that Blair wouldn't let him pull back. He let her win for a minute because it wasn't like he wasn't enjoying their intense make-out session but eventually he had to reach back and detach her arms from him. When he heard Blair make sounds of frustration, he couldn't help but smirk. "Hold your horses Blair, I'm just getting some protection."
At hearing that Blair smiled and started to reach over and take off his shirt.
Wow was she impatient, Chuck couldn't help but think. Not that he was any less so, he just knew that they had to take precautions or they might regret it later. But he had never realized before how difficult it was to put on a condom while someone was trying to take your clothes off. Once he had finally finished he got started removing Blair's undergarments.
Chuck was removing her matching La Perla bra and thong set when she realized that there was something very important that she had yet to make clear. So as he finished Blair set up. She could tell that Chuck was confused by the look on his face and he propped himself up on one arm to see what was the matter. "Don't worry, nothing's wrong." Blair clarified, "I just realized that I have something important to tell you. Something that you have made clear to me, but I haven't done the same for you."
As Blair said this, Chuck saw the sweetest, most angelic smile he had ever seen cross Blair's face. Chuck knew what she was about to say before she even opened her mouth and he reached up a hand to cup her cheek. "Blair, you don't have to say it just because I did. I don't want to rush you, I want you to say it when you are ready . . ."
Blair placed one finger on Chuck's lips to get him quite before she said the words that she had been feeling for so long without even knowing it, "I love you. It wasn't something I expected to happen and I can't pinpoint the moment that it did, but I do, I love you. What I felt for Nate was nothing compared to what I feel for you."
"I don't think anyone has ever said that to me before, with the exception of my mother." Chuck interrupted without thinking.
"Chuck, I wasn't done." Blair reprimanded with a small smile. "I'm sorry it took me so long to admit that I cared, and even longer to admit that I am in love with you. I want to be with you, regardless of what has gone on between us. I can't deny the fact that we fit."
"Can I talk now?" Chuck said with a smirk. When Blair nodded, he spoke. "It wasn't like I was rushing to admit my feelings either, but I should have, because I think that I have probably always loved you. You were the only girl that I ever respected enough not to try something with. Sure you were Nate's girlfriend but that wouldn't have stopped me if I hadn't already cared. You are beautiful, smart, classy, and sexy as hell, in short, everything that I have ever wanted." Chuck noticed Blair blush as he admitted things he never thought he would. I'm sorry for the things I've said and done, I was stupid and insecure and that is probably not going to go away over night, but I'm working on it."
Blair didn't break the intense gaze traveling between them as she replied, "Chuck, I know who you are and I will never ask you to be someone else. I could never ask you to change for me."
"Blair, there are some things that I want to change. I want to be the kind of guy that you can count on to be there for you, the kind of guy that you can be in a relationship with."
"I know you have insecurities though and I'm willing for us to have a relationship that might not last because of that, but I'm going to put my all into it for as long as you want me."
"Forever, I will want you forever Blair." And with that Chuck kissed her. This time it was different. No less amazing or less passionate, but there was a spark even more special than before.
"Make love to me Chuck." Chuck understood the significance of those words. This wasn't sex, this wasn't an scandalous affair like before, they weren't screwing each other, they were making love. They were moving together in perfect harmony and as he pushed inside her and she arched her back there was a feeling of rightness, of perfection. Regardless of the flaws in their relationship, their love, was perfect. When they were done, Chuck simply held her and let her sleep.
Chuck simply laid there watching Blair sleep curled tightly against him. Her hair may have been tangled and her make up may not have been fixed but he thought that she had never looked more beautiful. Glancing out the window to the pool, Chuck got lost thinking about what had just happened between them. He had confessed everything to Blair and instead of feeling nervous or uneasy about her thinking he was too complicated, too damaged, he felt complete relief. That wasn't to say he wasn't still insecure, who wouldn't be with their very first relationship being so new, its just that he felt that he finally could be completely open with someone. Blair knew him, knew everything about him and still wanted to be with him. Chuck was so lost in thought that he didn't realize that Blair had awakened until she started talking.
"Lot on your mind?" Blair said with in a soft voice. Blair had been watching Chuck stare out the window for several minutes because she could tell that he was deep in thought and she didn't want to disturb him. Finally she couldn't wait any longer to see what he was thinking so she started talking.
"Just you" Chuck said as he kissed her forehead.
"Shit" Blair suddenly exclaimed as she extracted herself from Chuck and jumped off the couch completely naked. "Shit, shit, shit, I have to go meet Marcus." Blair started grabbing clothes off the floor, not even noticing the look on Chuck's face. If she had, she would have stopped immediately because Chuck was pissed.
"Wait a second Blair" Chuck said grabbing her arm. Blair flipped toward him with a confused look on her face. "I'm not okay with that. I'm not just going to be your side guy again. I thought you understood that before we made love."
The look on Blair's face went from one of confusion to one of understanding, as she realized what Chuck thought she was doing. Chuck thought she was going back to Marcus. Once she understood, Blair softened her eyes and smiled down at Chuck who was still sitting on the couch. She walked over to him and sat on his lap. Blair reached up her hand to his face and kissed him. Deeply and passionately.
At first Chuck didn't respond to her kiss but he couldn't resist her long and soon he was pulling her into him. He still wasn't sure what was going on but he could never resist Blair. He felt her giggle into the kiss "What now Waldorf?" Chuck said, with his lips still against hers.
To talk Blair had to pull back. "Ahh Bass, you didn't think I was going back to Marcus did you?"
"Maybe" Chuck said blushing a little himself. He realized that his insecurity issue had caused him to jump to conclusions as usual. "You know I'm still working on the whole trust thing and the first thing I thought when you said you were late meeting Marcus was of the time before the Cotillion when you left to meet Nate."
"I haven't really given you a precedent for trusting me so I can't really blame you but I do have to get dressed." Blair said as she stood back up, with more difficulty this time because Chuck really didn't want to let her go.
Blair was gathering her clothes as Chuck who had simply been relishing the view started speaking again. "Why don't you just rejoin me on the couch. Marcus can deal with you being a little late." Chuck said with a smirk.
"Well," Blair started with an innocent look on her face, "I was going to break up with him, but . . . "
Chuck jumped off the couch and immediately started picking up clothes. "In that case, let me help you."
The sound of them laughing as they half gathered Blair's clothes and half kissed made Marcus want to vomit. It was taking serious restraint for him not to go running down the stairs to the media center and kill Chuck. But he knew that he couldn't if his plan was going to work and as hard as he had prepared for this, he wasn't going to blow it now.
There were a lot of things that money and power could buy you. One of those was surveillance system installed in under an hour flat. Which he had realized had been necessary the second he had read the card on Chuck's flowers this morning. The maid had done exactly as he asked and shown him anything else Blair was receiving. They must think he was so stupid, that he wouldn't pick up on their clandestine romance, no he had known all along. The second he mentioned Blair's name in front of Chuck he had known that Chuck was in love with her. When Chuck was filling him in on all things Blair, Marcus had seen right through the act. He had always suspected that Blair might be using him, especially when she invited him to the Hamptons with her, but he wasn't sure what she was using him for until he saw her face when Chuck walked through the door after their game of tennis. Blair was using him to make a guy jealous and that pissed him off, he was not some kind of rebound guy. He had kept a close eye on them. Noticing them each sneaking looks at the other throughout dinner, he had watched them at the pool from his room. Watched as he touched her and kissed her. Blair was his and nothing upset him more that to see someone touching his things. Their hallway conversations made him even angrier. That is when the plotting began. Blair might have started off as good publicity but she was gorgeous and fiery, with a body that screamed "fuck me." In short something worthy of possessing. Plus nothing made him want something more, than someone else telling him he couldn't have it. Provoking Chuck that morning had been so much fun. He had loved dangling Blair in front of his face, knowing that there was nothing Chuck could do about it. So he persuaded the maid to bring him anything sent to Blair and when he saw Chuck's note he called some of his people and had them sneak in and install a video and sound surveillance system in the media center that linked to his bedroom. It hadn't been difficult with everyone either out or locked away in their rooms. Blair hadn't even been awake yet. He had thought it was a long shot that he would actually get something good from the surveillance but it turned out to definitely be something that he could work with.
The day was about to get really interesting. He chuckled to himself about the fact that Blair actually thought he was cooking for her. He had never cooked a day in his life and wasn't about to start now but that was the romantic thing to say so he had said it. He straightened up his tie as the machine finished running. But to think Blair actually though that she was breaking up with him tonight. It was almost laughable. No Blair wasn't going to breaking up with him at all, Marcus thought as he inserted a copy of the footage into a case and slide it down in a gift bag. This was one present he was sure Blair wasn't going to enjoy.
Careful who's watching B because sometimes you play games with the wrong people. In which case you just might get burned.
AN: Hope everyone enjoyed the update, sorry it took so long. As always, please read and review.