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~I won't change myself~

Part 5: Misfortune.

POV Shizuru

It's been several weeks since Shizuru played the secret admirer. She thought it was a good idea to woo her bluenette, she won't rush, she just tried to make her smile by her good intention, and Viola was happy. The protagonist with crimson orbs had not realized until now, that when they had their physical interaction, she had paid attention to the little details that seemed insignificant to her.

Shizuru knew Kuga's favorite color, blue /gray; she loved cats because they were independent, strong. She loved lilies, especially white and Thai food, everything spicy. Then the chestnut woman gathered all this precious information to deliver gifts to Kuga, perfume, flowers, stuffed cat, dark chocolate, a snow globe. And at first, the Kyoto-Ben woman imagined that this would be a burden to buy all those purchases, she did not like shopping, or it was only for the essential. However, she was addicted to this game, she was happy to offer pleasure, to offer something else than her body to make someone happy. And that's all she had missed because she was afraid to deliver her feelings, that's why she behaved like a fool, a jerk. And it was a strange sensation when she thought about Natsuki, she could not stop smiling and humming. She even secretly envied those couples who kissed and held hands, who said easily 'I love you'. However, she did not know if she was to say the sentence: 'I love you too' she liked Natsuki, but she had great difficulty in openly express her love, and then, she showed the bad side of her. Nobody cared about her, when she slept with women, they simply go. Natsuki was the first person who loved her…

Shizuru tried the soft approach, but she wanted action and not necessarily sex. No, she wanted to see the reactions of Natsuki when she received another of her present. She wanted to tell her she was sorry for her behavior, she was immature and pathetic. But she could not bear to let her beloved to her rival. She wanted her second chance, even if she does not deserve it, she could not give up, it was not in her nature. As for Reito, he had spoken to her parents about her relationship with women; he simply wanted to hurt her. The chestnut still heard her mother screaming it was not a way of behaving; she was ashamed of her actions. She even cried, her father slapped her and said he did not understand why she was so fickle. But Shizuru had no explanation; she did not try to justify herself, because yes she had been wrong. She finally regretted her actions, some of them.

And here, she observed in her car, Natsuki was at work, she served customers coffee. Shizuru rubbed her temples, and sighed, she looked like a stalker, it's already few days she watched the bluenette, and she smiled. She quietly watched the delivery guy get into the cafe, and he headed straight to Kuga, there was a short discussion, and Natsuki seemed to glow ... the woman was so beautiful. Shizuru felt her body warm, and she slapped her cheeks, then she squealed in pain. No! She became completely crazy! When she realized that Natsuki watched towards her car, Viola tried to escape from her intense emeralds, wriggling down the wheel, but she forgot to remove her seatbelt, and it was a real torture to hide herself, her nose even took damage, next, her eye hit against the gear lever, the top of her blouse was pulled toward her chest, and she did everything possible to remove this belt.

"Damn, you're scaring me Shizuru, you are losing more and more neurons! If I keep talking myself to myself, I will not be the only one to be scared of me ... "The young woman sighed and waited a few minutes. She slowly raised her head to the window and inspected the area, she saw Haruka bringing a lunch to a customer. Shizuru sighed, and stood up and she sat more comfortably in her seat. A noise made her jump, and she noticed that someone was in the shade and then she turned her head to the side. To her amazement, Natsuki glared at her. The named knocked on the window, and the drive had no choice, she opened her window.

"Haha, Natsuki, what are you doing here?" The so-called rolled her eyes and crossed her arms against her chest.

"I could ask you the same question Viola, don't you notice that you are only a few meters from my workplace?"

"Oh, that's right, I did not notice. I'm lucky!" The intersex laughed stupidly, and she winced to her words.

"Misfortune you mean. I see, it's again a waste of my time. I am leaving. "

"Natsuki! Wait!" Shizuru did not see what she was doing; she escaped from the window of her car and fell abruptly on the floor. She groaned in pain, today was not her day, and it seemed that the bluenette did not bother to turn around to see if she was fine. Pouting, the beauty with rubies did not lose hope. She followed her beloved, avoiding being crushed by a car, and then finally, she found herself in the cafe. She did not know what to do, so she went to the counter to place his order. She looked at Natsuki who was preparing a coffee; she wore a ponytail, and Viola saw her perfectly white neck, she licked her lips, it's seemed forever she didn't taste her sweet skin. When Kuga turned, she was surprised to see her ex one night stand, she burned her hand with the hot coffee that she had just prepared. She hissed in pain, and Viola stepped over the counter and rushed to her wolf.

"Oh my god, Natsuki! Are you alright? Your hand is very red; you have to cool it with cold water, and very quickly. "The named would argue that she did not need help, and in result her hand was sink in cold water. She wanted to get out of this grip; however, Viola seemed not to let her go. After her hand became less painful, Kuga abruptly withdrew from the Kyoto-Ben womanizer.

"What do you want from me? Are you not tired to hurting me?" Natsuki shouted exasperated, she does not understand this woman.

"No ... I did not want to hurt you ... ... I'm sorry for everything I've done…you endure so much pain...I was blind, stupid, selfish, a jerk, I want to apologize."

"You do not need to apologize, you were clear from the beginning, and there would never be anything other than sex between us. It is me who was wrong to feel anything for you. And when I stop our relationship, you fucking did not care. Then disappear from my life and I will forgive you, but if I see you continually I will hate you!"

"I love you."The word escaped of the chestnut's lips; she did not want to say theses words, at least not now. The honey-haired beauty was expecting a slap, insults, but not that. She was covered with a drink, the smell was, and recognizable it was orange juice. She finally noticed that Natsuki and she were not anymore alone, Haruka was also with them, and she looked pissed.

"You! How dare you to come here and say that! Nobody believes in your lie. After all, Natsuki endured because of you! I order you to go away or I'll call the police. No, I'll throw you out! "The blond licked her lower lip, the pitbull was back, the intersex could not blame the blonde to protect her friend, she was very grateful to her.

"I know I was wrong ..." Haruka laughed, but she did not want Natsuki to suffer again. She turned and saw that her friend was gone. It was a good thing; she was going to say all she felt to this womanizer.

"You have been wrong? Breaking Natsuki's heart? For making her hoped that one day you could return her feelings?"

"Yes."

"Oh, Madame thinks an apology will fix everything? This will make Natsuki forget the loss of her baby? Reito is better than you, he cherishes her, he treats her like a queen, and he pays attention to it. He will not see another woman. That's what we call love."

"I know ... ... the loss of her baby? Mine? When? " The Kyoto-Ben beauty stuttered while a weight fell on her shoulders, she had to hang on against a chair to not fall apart.

"Yes Her baby, whom you would never have wanted to have with her. It was a few days after your break-up. Unlike you, she wanted this baby, even though the other partner would have never wanted, you must be thrilled not to have that burden. You can have a quiet life. "Viola fell to the ground, tears fall on her cheeks. The blonde thought the chestnut was faking, but when she saw her gasp and saying my baby ... then she realized that Viola was sincere and deeply hurt. However, it was too late, the damage was already done.

"So you see Shizuru, no matter what you say, it's over." The latter got up and walked like a zombie. She pushed a customer and did not apologize, and she left the cafe. Outside, she collapsed on her knees.

"Natsuki ... I'm sorry, please forgive me, I'm sorry ... what did I do ... my daughter or my son ... he's dead because of me ... I do not deserve you ...I will let you…you deserve someone better than me…" The mobile phone of the beauty with crimson rang, but she paid no attention to the call, then the call was repeated three times, then she took the call, and she spat:

"What!"

"Shizuru, you should not speak like this to me love." The so-called frowned and looked at the name of the caller.

"Arika? What do you want? I don't have time to waste with you."

"You remember when I say that you will suffer Viola? You know, your bad behavior will turn against you, or rather against the one you love so much. Natsuki? Right? Poor girl, she was not lucky with you. But it will be her end." Shizuru stood up and seemed to be concerned with this threat.

"What do you mean?"

"Hmm ... for example, if she happened to be in an accident, it would be a shame. She seems upset, you still do something wrong, but I will end her suffering, and you will feel the pain for once. "

"Wait! No! Do not hurt her, it's me you want to hurt, not her! "Shizuru yelled while the line went dead.