Finally, it's over, I hesitated with the end, ShizNat, happy-ending, and some of you wanted smut. I have to satisfy everybody. Thanks for reading, reviewing, and following.
~I won't change myself~
Ending: I changed.
Tears flew despite her will. She observed this funerary stone right in front of her. She bitterly regretted her actions if she had not had a bitch, she does not end up in the cemetery, to apologize constantly for her bad behavior. She remembered what had happened three months ago.
Flashback.
Shizuru after having received the call from Arika was in a panic, she did not know what to do, her first reaction was to join Natsuki, and as this was not long she was out of her coffee shop, she probably went to her home. And she took the bus, but it was far away. Viola rushed to her car and called the police, and she notified them what was happening. Next, she took the road. She had to find Kuga, if anything happened to her, she will never forgive herself, not after the loss of their baby.
Watching on the sidewalk the road, she saw in the distance Arika, near an alley with a knife in her hand... Shizuru stopped her car in the middle of traffic and immediately walked toward the aggressor. Her heart beat faster; she thought she will collapse when she saw Natsuki on the floor, she held her abdomen, crimson liquid escaped behind her hand which contained blood. She seemed stunned and weak, and the intersex heard the cold words of Akira, who had completely lost her mind.
"I'll get rid of you Natsuki, everything is the fault of Shizuru if you die." The blue haired woman was in tears, she begged to be spared. But it seems that Akira had no more rationality, she was ready to end definitively her prey. She walked over her, the crazy woman was ready with the final blow, but the Kyoto-Ben beauty threw herself upon her ex one-night stand; and swung to the ground. The knife fell to the ground, and Arika was down, but she took her knife and used it as self-defence. Shizuru screamed when the skin of her face split in two, she had received a blow that marked the right side of her face. Blood dripped, and when she realizes the situation, she realized that Natsuki was in great danger.
"You'd better not move, or it's over for her." The knife was against Natsuki's throat, and she cut her marble skin, a thin vermilion liquid appeared.
"You must stop this madness Akira! I called the police. Can not you hear them? Leave Natsuki alone, and you will be fine, you will not have any problem." The named seemed to panic; she was holding her weapon to Kuga, which was as white as a corpse.
"You're right, I have to stop this!"
"No!" Shizuru screamed when she saw the blade away, to slay her victim.
End of flashback.
"You should stop blaming yourself Shizuru. It's not your fault." A well familiar voice commented. The later wiped her tears; she did not dare to face her interlocutor.
"You know it's my entire fault, if I had not played with her feelings, she would not have done that! I was wrong."
"I know, I was there too Shizuru, do not you think I'm haunted by this story? Every night I have nightmares. I imagined that she kills me, or you, and it's her corpse I see every day and night, and I'm alive. I see continuously her image, her face; how she kills herself, all that blood that escaped from her. It's horrible; I feel I'm going crazy!" Kuga scolded while Shizuru bit her lower lip. Although it was a horrible thought, she was happy that Arika has committed suicide, rather than taking the life of her beloved ... she was really despicable, everything was her fault, this story upset her, and she completely changed.
"I'm sorry ... sorry ..."
"I do not care about your excuses Shizuru, you are a coward, you told me that you loved me and then after you reject me, again, I want to help you, to help each other, but you stay away from me."
"And Reito, he should not be happy if we became close." Shizuru growled, she staggered, and then she turned around.
"You can really be a bitch when you want, how dare you to be jealous? When you're just pushing me away? I really waste my time again, I finally wanted to give you another chance, but you did not change at all like you promised me, it was all lies. "
"Yes I'm a bitch, you should know, because of me, you lost our baby." Natsuki looked more pained, Shizuru knew she was only hurting her. She had always done. Now she drowned by her mistakes, the loss of this child, and she had this scar to her face too.
"No, it's not your fault ... just like Arika ... Shizuru, you wanted me away from you, and you managed to achieve your purposes. I am no longer with Reito because he broke up with me when we kissed at the hospital, also, he noticed, unlike me, I always loved you. But it'll be easier now; I agreed to take the post of Director in one of the cafes belonging to my boss in Spain. So we will not see again from tomorrow evening. Goodbye, Shizuru." Natsuki went while the chestnut continued to cry silently, she said to herself, it was good thing that the bluenette left, however, her heart thought otherwise, it would implore her to stay at her side, and forever, but what was she offer her? More suffering? Then, she noticed the shadow of the only person she had ever loved far away from her.
She knocked the door and waited. Natsuki opened the door and was surprised to see Shizuru. The latter smelt alcohol.
"What are you doing here? Are you drunk?"
"No, I just drink a beer. I'm fine, now, I know what I want. I don't want to run away anymore. I know what I want, and it's you, it always been you."
Her fingers gripped her hips strongly, Natsuki's hands escaped from her back, and Viola kissed her, it like she was starving, she as hungry. Natsuki gently pushed away Shizuru, and she said out of breath:
"Please, slower. It's too faster for me, it's not I dislike, but I need a little more time."
"I'm sorry."
"No it's fine, I perfectly understand you. I miss you too."
Shizuru missed badly the noises that slipped from her mouth, to feel her against her body, and moaned her name. She needed that woman, she forget a moment all their problems. She loved her.
"I love you Natsuki. You are the first woman who made my heart beat this way, I'm totally afraid to love you. That you reject me or you will find better than me, a real woman or man."
"Shh." Natsuki smiled and kissed gently the chestnut beauty. Her kisses traveled down her spine before the bluenette lightly biting her cheekbone. They removed their clothes without paying attention. They directly went to the bedroom, tiring with playing; Natsuki pushed the intersex to sit on her knees.
"Fuck." She whispered sensually, The Kyoto-Ben woman felt the arousing. She always dreamt of this moment. Kuga's hand run to her thigh and rested on her member which moved to her firm touch. They stared at each other like it was the first time they will make love.
"Say what you want Natsuki." The red-eyes beauty teased.
"Make me say it if you can." The bluenette answered back, with a cocky smile.
"Ok." She smirked, and pressed her back into the bed, she kissed her throat and collarbone, down towards her breasts, she wanted to taste her, and it was so long the last time. Shizuru swallowed as she caught sight of her naked form and let slipped. "Beautiful. You are the most beautiful women I'd never seen." Kuga blushed, it was the first time her lover said those words. She felt so shy. She even cried.
"Natsuki? Why are you crying? Did I do something bad again? I'm sorry. Please, forgive me." A worried voice asked, and removed those tears. And Viola did not move, afraid to break that beautiful woman.
"No, I'm happy, I very happy. Please, continue." She begged. "Later we will talk, I need you now."
"Natsuki…fine…"
"Shizuru." Natsuki gasped, her head hit the pillow as a tongue worked at her clit, and she moaned, she was close to begging. "Ok, ok, you won. I beg you. Fuck me, and now! Please!" She didn't care what she just said, she only wanted her. Shizuru hurriedly put the condom on. She was so nervous; she even tried thrice, but without any luck. And others fingers help hers.
"I've never been so nervous." Shizuru joked even if it was the truth.
"Me too."
Shizuru spread her legs as the chestnut beauty slowly pushed into her. She moaned out loud when she was inside of her, stretching her. Natsuki ran her fingers through her smooth honey hair. Her lips touched hers.
Shizuru picked up her pace, it was different from the others time, more gentle, it was not only sex but much more. They both groaned. Kuga wrapped her legs around the intersex, pulling her closer, and deeper.
Viola pulled back out, only to thrust back in, harder, faster. Natsuki arched her back and whimpered Shizuru name. The only sound in the room was their breathing and the sound of their hips smacking against each other. Both getting close to their release
"Fuck, Shizuru!"
They both reached the edge and fell over it, clinging to each other.
"Natsuki!" After they finished making love, they stayed silent in the bed.
"That was –" Kuga started.
"Perfect," Shizuru smiled and added with a whisper, "I'm glad you're okay."
"It was a great goodbye." Viola seemed lost and she stuttered:
"Goodbye?"
"Yes, I mean, you came here, because, it's a way to end our story, right?"
"Right…" The pairing stayed silent. "No, I want you to stay here, with me. I don't want you to leave me. Never." Natsuki locked her lips, before, she was ready to stay, but not when she decided to leave, it was better for her. She needed to escape this life and to begin a new one.
"I-"
"I know I won't force you. It was not my intention. Also, I always dream to go to Spain, but unless you don't want I stay with you." Natsuki blinked, and was surprised.
"You want to go to pain with me? Really?"
"Yes, well, if you still want of me? A new life, a new start? A new us? You will be the only one for me, I won't see another woman, I don't want them, I need you. I love you."
"Of course!" The bluenette shouted and kissed her lover.