AN: So I noticed that when I talk as Gossip Girl I never indicate whether I'm sending an overall message visible to all the characters or simply narrating. So from now on if I am narrating it will also be in italics.

One warning though, I have seen a lot of spoilers and while I'm not working off of those some of them may appear in my story because they fit too perfectly not to. But from here on out I am pretty sure my story differs enough that I am on my own.

Disclaimer: I do not own Gossip Girl or its characters

Rated: T mostly for language. This one isn't really M but it is a pretty high T lol.

THE FIRST PART IS DEFINTELY MATURE!!!! Skip to the next line if you don't like this kind of stuff

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Chuck pulled Blair onto the bed, he knew that Blair was on birth control pills so he didn't bother with other forms of protection, not tonight. All the emotions running through him in that moment were insane. He was angry and disappointed and upset and he just wanted her so fucking badly.

Blair looked up and saw it in his eyes, the hungry passion that had consumed them both many times before. But this time there was an urgency to it that hadn't been there before; one that was almost fearful in nature. Maybe even their ids knew that they were running out of time together. Maybe that was fueling the fire behind this sudden assault on their emotions. All Blair knew was that she had to be touching Chuck. Any part of her at any time that wasn't touching him was a waste.

My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

Chuck was aware that they were running out of time. But he tried to push it out of his mind. However, he couldn't help but think that with every touch, every kiss, that they were coming closer to their deadline. All too soon Blair would be turning eighteen and that meant that she would be getting married. So Chuck quit trying to push it away and instead used it. He used all of the urgency he was feeling in his love making. He practically ripped off her clothing, but she didn't seem to mind because she was too busy trying to do the same to him.

This fire rising through my being
Burning, I'm not used to seeing you

Blair dug her fingers into his hair. Almost pulling, she was holding on so tightly, as he kissed and sucked on her neck. She knew that it would leave hickeys, but she didn't care. Being with him made her not care. So she let him continue this patter, working his way down her body. Sucking on the curve of her breast, grabbing her anywhere and everywhere he could. He grasped her thighs and pulled her legs over his shoulder before bringing her to orgasm with this mouth.

I'm alive, I'm alive

With her fingers still intertwined in Chuck's hair, she tugged his head back up to her mouth, where she kissed him deeply. She reached her hand down to help Chuck and found it wasn't necessary, he was already heard, so instead she guided him to her entrance, not that he needed any help there either.

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

She felt so damn good, thought Chuck as he moved inside her. They started rough and messy but as he moved inside her he slowed. He brushed hair out of Blair's face before bending down and kissing her earlobe. "I love you, Blair."

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

Only Chuck knew how to make her feel this way thought Blair to herself. She didn't know if it was because he was so experienced or if it was actually because they were so connected, so in love. She liked to think it was the later. "I love you too."

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they all choose you

Their love making had been slow and steady for a long time. Chuck sometimes even amazed himself at his stamina. But eventually it started to become too much. He knew that Blair was getting close again as well because he knew her. Her fingers were grabbing and scratching at his back. He quickened his pace and she began to scream.

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

As she hit one of the most intense orgasms that she had ever had, she screamed, she cried Chuck's name. The one and only name she had ever cried during sex without forcing herself to do so. So she screamed and dug her nails further into his back, knowing that he wouldn't care. She knew he was close as well and she wanted him to experience the same pleasure she was so she tightened her grip on him in just the right way to finish him.

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Maybe he was biased but Chuck was certain that Blair was the best he had ever had. She knew exactly what to do to bring him relief and she looked incredible doing it. So as he thrusted into her one more time he allowed himself to let go.

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me, all I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe…

Blair had never allowed him to cum inside her before and it felt so different, like she was telling him that she trusted him, telling him that she was his and she loved it.

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed

They both finished at about the same time; exhausted from their activities they fell asleep.

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A few hours later, close to midnight, Blair heard her phone buzzing. She had a text message. Probably just Gossip Girl telling them that they had all failed her little challenge. When she actually read the message she gasped.

Upon hearing Blair gasp, Chuck instantly awoke. During the time that they had been together last spring he had become attuned to her stirrings and sounds so that he could help her with her little problem. He sat up but was relieved to find her still sitting on the bed and not on the bathroom floor. "What is it Blair?"

Blair simply turned to face him and held out her phone.

Chuck's eyes skimmed the Gossip Girl blast about Nate quickly. "What the hell? No one else knew, how did Gossip Girl find out?"

"It doesn't matter," Blair said quietly, "neither of us would have been able to do this to Nate."

Chuck nodded, "You're right, I know you are but I still can't fathom how anyone else could have identified him."

It suddenly clicked with Blair, she knew who had done it and as much as she would have liked to be mad, she couldn't be. Jenny had a right to hate Nate right now.

Chuck saw it in Blair's eyes when she figured it out so he skipped the normal questioning and went strait to the point. "Who?"

Chuck knew her so well, Blair thought. He knew when she had even the slightest inkling of something. "Jenny."

Chuck, upon seeing that Blair wasn't angry, just nodded. Yeah Jenny had a right to be pissed off at Nate right now, he just thought she would have taken her anger out in a different manor, one that didn't include Gossip Girl. "Nate's going to need us, now more than ever."

"I know" Blair responded. "But why does everyone's life have to fall apart at the same time? Can't anyone be happy."

Blair's phone buzzed in his hands, he went ahead and read the text before passing it to her and couldn't help but chuckle. "Well B, from the looks of the text you just got Serena seems to be doing just fine."

Blair was confused until she finished the text. From Serena, yep, her best friend was doing great.

B

OMG Dan and I just made love on the roof of the Met. Even I have never done that b4. It was amazing. Hope things with C are great :)

3

S

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Nate saw the message on his phone and couldn't contain his anger. He slung his phone across the room, shattering it into several pieces. Why couldn't people just mind their own business. He had told himself that he didn't care about that stuff. He didn't care what people were saying about him but now they were saying that he was "lost," no one was suppose to know that.

Nate put on his head phones and laid down on his bed. He didn't want to be like this, he didn't want to be lost, but he didn't know who he was anymore. He had never defined himself, not once in his life. He had just been who his parents wanted him to be, who Blair wanted to be, he had no clue what he wanted and everyone knowing wasn't going to help. Nate had never come to terms with the fact that he didn't have a real identity before. He hadn't been Blair's boyfriend for almost six months yet he didn't know who he was without her. He had gone strait from Blair to Vanessa to Serena to Jenny and he had no clue where this left him. So he sent a text message, hoping she would answer.

I need u

He sat there in his room waiting on an answer. Ten minutes passed and he was about to pick up the phone and call her when his phone beeped.

that's a bad idea and u know it

Yeah he knew it was a bad idea, he just knew that he needed to talk to her, to see her, he needed to know.

please, u'r the only one who can understand

He thought that that would get her. She had told him once that they would always be there for each other.

r u at ur house?

Nate knew then that she had caved.

Yeah

The next message was her quickest reply by far.

b there in 10

Nate breathed a sigh of relief. She really was the only one who could understand what he was going through. He was positive. But would she be willing to help him through this. When she had been lost he hadn't been there for her, hell it was his fault but maybe just maybe she would forget that and help him with this.

Who're you texting N? Another lady?

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"Don't go Serena." Dan pleaded, trying to pull her back down onto the blanket.

"I'm sorry Dan I have to." Serena said pulling on her boots.

"Can't you do whatever this is later. Please." Dan said. "This is the first alone time we have had since we've gotten back together."

"I know Dan but this is important." Serena replied. She really did have to go, even though she would have much rather stayed here. She was apparently needed, or at least that is what the text claimed.

"Okay, okay, I said I would be more understanding this time" Dan said releasing his hold on her.

Serena turned back around, now fully dressed and gave Dan a quick kiss on the mouth. "Thank you." Before heading to the latter on the roof.

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When Jenny saw Gossip Girl's text she immediately ran out to the sidewalk and haled a cab. She had to go tell Blair it was her so that Blair didn't get angry. She would have told her before but she was afraid that Blair would stop her from doing it and regardless of Blair's loyalty to Nate the benefit of this outweighed the cost. She knew that Blair was going to the Palace to meet Chuck so she knew exactly where to find her, she just hoped that she wasn't going to interrupt anything.

She knew that Bart and Lily were both out of town, Erik had gone with them and Serena was with Dan tonight so Chuck and Blair would be the only ones there. Jenny knew where the spare key to the apartment was like most of Erik and Serena's close friends but she thought she should knock anyway just in case.

When no one answered, she went ahead and let herself in. "Blair." Jenny called out.

When Chuck emerged from his room fully clothed Jenny was a little surprised. "Chuck, I'm sorry, I was looking for Blair, I assumed she was here, and I used the spare key under the fire hydrant in the hallway." Jenny was rambling.

"Shh, Humphrey, It's okay. Blair left about half an hour ago, she was heading home for the night because her mom is in town this week." Chuck said politely leaning up against his doorframe.

"Oh, okay. I really wanted to talk to her. There's something I have to tell her." Jenny said. She was so nervous. She wasn't comfortable around Chuck. Not because the stuff at the beginning of Freshman year, its just she didn't quite know how to act around him.

Chuck interrupted her again. "If it's about the Gossip Girl thing, she already knows that it was you." Chuck said standing all the way up and walking toward her a bit.

Damn it, Jenny thought to herself, Blair was going to be so pissed off at her. She wanted to tell Blair herself. What had she gotten herself into. Maybe, maybe she could tell Chuck why she did it. That might be easier.

Chuck saw the frantic look on Jenny's face. The girl looked fucking terrified. So he decided to go ahead and inform her that Blair wasn't pissed off. "Don't worry, she isn't mad, she knows about what happened with you and Nate and she thought that you had the right to reveal it, it just wasn't something that she could do herself." He saw Jenny visibly relax. "I on the other hand, thought that you could have handled it better. After all, you have to know what Nate is going through right now, you've seen him, you've been around him, yet you potentially pushed him further down just to keep Gossip Girl from blogging about you. Are you really that shallow?"

Jenny went from scared, to calm, to furious all within a couple of minutes. Chuck didn't have the right to talk to her like that, not after what she had just done for him and Blair. So she took a few steps closer to Chuck. "No Chuck, actually I'm not. In fact I didn't do it for me at all. I made a deal with Gossip Girl. I revealed the mystery man and she didn't post anything about the relationship between you and Blair. So after what I just did I think you should probably be a little less condescending."

Chuck Bass was taken aback and, an even rarer occurrence, he was speechless. For a long time he didn't say a word; he simply studied this girl in front of him. This girl who both he and Blair had done awful things to last year had done this for them. She had had the chance to gain immunity from Gossip Girl, to decide what Gossip Girl did and didn't post. He had tried to pretend earlier that it was shallow to want that but that kind of power was enormous in their world, yet she had given it up for them. Chuck looked her up and down. He opened his mouth and shut it twice before he finally said. "Thank you."

Jenny who had stood there allowing Chuck to process what had just happened simply replied. "My pleasure." She turned ready to leave.

"Hey Jenny," Chuck called out, using her actual name, something he didn't do to anyone very often. "Can I tell Blair?"

She had been surprised to hear her name. Chuck usually called her Humphrey, or Little Brooklyn but he had actually called her Jenny. She had kind of wanted to be the one to tell Blair but she figured that it would probably mean more coming from Chuck so she nodded.

"If you ever need anything, let me know." Chuck said sincerely. Offering his services in that way was another thing he rarely did, Chuck didn't like for anyone to think that they could rely on him, but after what she had done for him, the words just kind of slipped out.

After considering this for a moment Jenny replied. "Okay, I will." Before turning and leaving.

Chuck was still amazed and he couldn't wait to tell Blair what had just happened. They still had to find a way out of this but thanks to Jenny Humphrey things had just gotten a little less complicated.

Spotted: J leaving C's suite with a smile on her face. S fleeing the roof of the Met leaving a half clothed Dan still up there. Where are you going in such a hurry S? As for B and N, both seem to be in hiding, wonder why? Only time will tell.

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Nate was pacing by the time he heard the knocking on the door. When it sounded he felt an instant apprehension wash over him. She had come, he didn't know if this was a good thing or a bad thing, she shouldn't be here, he knew that but he needed to figure this out and he had a feeling that she was the key to doing that. When he opened the door and saw her standing there he felt the apprehension go away, immediately replaced with relief. "Thanks for coming." Nate said opening the door.

"I told you, I would." Blair replied.

Sometimes things don't go quite as we expect they would. Sometimes we get surprised. What happens during those times, may very well be the most important things of all.

you know you love me

xoxo

gossip girl

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AN: I hope you all enjoyed it. I'm particular found of this chapter and as always, please review :)