Here's the next chapter guys. I hope you like it

One warning though, I have seen a lot of spoilers and while I'm not working off of those some of them may appear in my story because they fit too perfectly not to. But from here on out I am pretty sure my story differs enough that I am on my own.

Disclaimer: I do not own Gossip Girl or its characters

Rated: T mostly for language. This one isn't really M but it is a pretty high T lol.

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"Well are you going to let me in?" Blair said with an impatient tone. What was she doing here? This was a bad idea and if Nate didn't let her in soon she might just leave. She really shouldn't be here, she had lied to Chuck about where she was going. Blair didn't know why she'd lied to him it was just something about the way that Nate had sounded in those texts that she just didn't want to explain to Chuck but that still didn't explain why she had lied.

"Of course." Nate said opening the door and standing aside, motioning Blair to come in.

Blair walked into the Archibald's brownstone and Nate motioned her to continue on upstairs. That wasn't unusual. They never stayed downstairs, that was just for the parents. Blair wasn't even thinking and just continued on to Nate's room. Nate followed her in and closed the door. "Thank you for coming Blair."

Blair had been facing the other direction and spun around. "Why am I here Nate?" She had shown up because they had promised to be there for each other but she needed Nate to tell her why he had asked her to come.

In response Nate took two large steps forward, grabbed Blair's face, and kissed her.

Blair was shocked, that had been the last thing she expected and she was frozen. Nate was kissing her and she could feel herself responding before she really realized it. Blair suddenly unfroze and pushed Nate off her before smacking him. "NATE, what are you doing? I came here because I thought you needed someone to talk to. I wanted to be able to be here for you, but I love Chuck. We've been over for more than six months Nate and that was your decision."

"I'm sorry Blair." Nate said looking down. "It's just, I don't know who I am anymore, the last time that I really knew who I was, was when we were dating. I never had an identity apart from you and I never tried to figure that out. It feels like its all just come crashing down around me and I don't know how to be alone. I just thought that maybe if we could go back to how we were everything would be okay again and I would know who I was." Nate sat down on the lounge at the foot of his bed and let his head fall into his hands.

He was even more messed up than Blair had previously thought. She wasn't sure how to help him with this, but she knew that she had to try. Blair got on her knees in front of Nate. "Nate," He didn't look up. "Nate, look at me." Nate finally looked up. "We were never really good together, neither of us knew why we were together in the first place and we can't look to that for our identities. I figured that out last year, I couldn't let being your girlfriend couldn't define who I was and you can't do that either."

"But how Blair, how am I supposed to be myself, when I don't even know who I am." Nate said running his hands through his hair.

"Well first of all, sleeping with every girl you come in contact with isn't going to help." Blair said, scolding him in a way.

Nate looked up and grimaced. "I know, I just thought that it worked for Chuck for so long that maybe it could work for me. I could be that guy, the one who didn't care."

Blair's eyes softened. "Archibald, you could never be that guy. It's just not in you."

Nate smiled "Yeah, and after talking to Chuck I know that that was never his identity. He didn't find that until he found you."

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Chuck opened the door before Serena even had a chance to get out her key. "Hello sister."

Serena rolled her eyes. "Okay Chuck why was it imperative that I come home immediately? I was actually having a nice night."

"Oh I know, I saw your text to Blair. Humphrey must be so disappointed that you had to leave." Chuck said, just like his old self.

"You're disgusting Chuck. Now tell me why I'm here." Serena said still right in front of the door.

"Nate needs us." Chuck said sobering up.

"Nate, you called me here because of Nate. I can't help him." Serena said turning and getting ready to leave.

"Serena," Chuck said grabbing her arm. "He was there for you last spring."

Those words were enough to remind Serena of the promise that they had made to each other. If one of them did something, they all did it. "Okay, what do we do."

"Well Blair is over there right now," Chuck said pointedly. He had known when Blair left that she had been lying to him. He could read her too well, plus he had seen her mouth Nate when she received the first text. "But Nate is going to need all of us."

"Wait, Blair is over there, with Nate, alone, and you're okay with that?" Serena said mouth gaping.

"Don't be so surprised Van der Woodson. I trust Blair." Chuck replied picking up his coat.

"It's just, just, I know how protective you are. I didn't know that you guys had gotten that level of trust in your relationship." Serena said, not moving.

"Well we have." Chuck said turning her around and leading her out. Well at least he hoped that they had. He could trust Blair, he could. He just had to keep reminding himself of that and he wouldn't lose his temper."

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Blair was jolted. "Wait, Chuck said that, out loud?"

"Blair, you just don't know your effect on him do you? You matter more to him than anything and he thinks of you like a goddess. To him you're everything." Nate said. He thought that she deserved to know what she meant to Chuck.

"I'm no goddess." Blair said.

Nate replied without thinking. "I wouldn't be so sure of that Waldorf."

Blair blushed furiously. "Now, enough about me, you're the reason I'm here. When I was getting over you, and Chuck, and the whole scandal last spring, what I needed the most was time around people who loved me either way. At that point I was a little limited, everyone hated me, so it was mostly just me hanging around with Serena, Dorota, and ironically enough Dan. But you have a whole support system Nate. You've got Chuck, Serena, me, and you probably even have Jenny. Even after what you did to her."

Nate listened to Blair because he knew that she was right. Yeah he was a little messed up right now, but he still had his friends. Something Blair hadn't had and look at her, she was as strong as she had ever been. "I feel like such a drama queen." Nate said disgust apparent in his voice. "What was I even thinking, acting the way I was?"

"Nate, you are confused. There is nothing wrong with that. It's okay to be lost. Serena told me about what happened and I know that that had to hurt. You guys have always had something."

"No we haven't Blair, I just wanted so badly for a connection to someone that I equated what I felt for her to feelings of love. I've never really loved Serena, it was always you. Then I couldn't deal with the thing with you and Chuck. I was so hurt that I couldn't see reason, so I just jumped from relationship to relationship trying to force connections. Ironically enough, the only person I think I might have actually connected with is Jenny and I've screwed up any chance of a relationship ever happening there." Nate said.

Blair could tell that just talking was helping Nate. It was like he was working through some thoughts and ideas just by talking to her. This was good, it was working. "I wouldn't be so sure about that Nate. Jenny does care about you. But I don't want you trying to get involved with her romantically until you have some more of this figured out because if you hurt her, you are going to have to deal with me." The threat at the end what she said was definitely real and she could tell that Nate knew.

"When did you two become such good friends? Last time I remember, you guys hated one another." Nate honestly wanted to know.

Blair laughed. "It's actually a long story. It happened fairly recently. Actually in the elevator . . ."

Blair continued relaying the story and Nate couldn't help but smile. They were easily his two favorite girls and he was glad that they weren't at war anymore. "I'm glad." Nate said when she finished.

"Now, that's the Nate I remember." Blair said lightly. "I should go though, it's really late and I am supposed to be at home."

Nate stood up and helped Blair to her feet. "Thank you again." Nate said.

Blair reached up and wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling Nate into a hug. "Anytime Archibald."

Neither Nate nor Blair even heard the door open. "What the hell is going on here?"

Oh shit. Both Nate and Blair thought as they jerked apart and faced the door where Chuck stood looking irate with a disappointed looking Serena right behind him.

Children, children, children don't you ever learn. My advice for today: If you're with someone, try not to get caught in the arms of someone else.

xoxo

gossip girl

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AN: I know this one is kind of short but it was a good stopping point for this section. As always please review :)