Haha I know, quick update.

One warning though, I have seen a lot of spoilers and while I'm not working off of those some of them may appear in my story because they fit too perfectly not to. But from here on out I am pretty sure my story differs enough that I am on my own.

Disclaimer: I do not own Gossip Girl or its characters

Rated: T mostly for language. This one isn't really M but it is a pretty high T lol.

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No, this was not happening, he had not just walked in on Blair and Nate. No that hadn't happened. He had not just seen his Blair in the arms of his best friend. No. Chuck shut his eyes tightly, hoping that when he reopened them, this would have all just been part of his imagination. But he opened his eyes to see the same thing that he had just witnessed, except now Blair was trying to reach him, which for her involved climbing over the bed. He knew at very least he needed to cool down before speaking to her so he shoved Serena out of the way and took off out of the room.

Oh no, no, no, no. She had to catch Chuck, she had to tell him what had just happened wasn't what it had looked like. Serena moved out of her way and Blair was able to catch him halfway down the stairs. "Chuck, please, wait."

Chuck felt Blair's tiny hand grabbed his shoulder and heard her say his name and he couldn't resist turning around.

Blair inhaled deeply. She could see the careful control that Chuck was trying to maintain. He was doing his best not to lash out at her and say things that he didn't really mean. "Nothing happened."

Nate appeared at the top of the stairs and Chuck shifted his attention momentarily. "She's telling the truth man. We were just talking. Well actually I did something really stupid when she first got here, but I can still feel the sting of the slap that followed. She was helping me work some things out man I swear."

Chuck's eyes flicked back to Blair. "What did he do?" Chuck said curtly.

Blair wasn't about to lie. "Well, he kissed me but . . . " and she couldn't stop what happened next as Chuck bounded back up the stairs and punched Nate.

"Chuck man, I'm sorry . . ." was all Nate got out and he didn't even try to defend himself physically. There was no point Chuck was going to hit him and he definitely deserved it.

Chuck swung his fist hard into Nate's jaw and Nate went down but after the one punch Chuck backed away.

"Man did you have to punch me?" Asked Nate standing up fairly quickly and rubbing his jaw.

"Sorry Nathaniel, don't kiss my girlfriend again and I won't have to punch you again." Chuck said, with a lot less hostility than one would expect.

"Hey wasn't that line on like 7th Heaven?" Nate said lightheartedly.

Everyone laughed, it was like a huge ice breaker before Serena finally chocked out "You watched that show?"

"Come on Blair, lets go talk." Chuck said quietly, taking Blair's hand and leading her down to the formal sitting room downstairs away from the laughter. Chuck smiled a tense smile at her as he led her down trying to let her know that he didn't blame her for what had just happened but he knew that he hadn't succeeded in reassuring her because of the doe eyed look on her face.

When they reached the sitting room Chuck took both of Blair's hands and said simply," I'll tell you what I know and then you tell me what happened. Okay?"

Blair nodded and Chuck continued. "So I saw you get Nate's messages. When you got the first one, you mouthed his name." Chuck could tell Blair wanted to say something and he put a finger to her lips. "Let me finish Blair." She nodded again. "After when you said you were going to your mother's I knew that you were lying but I figured that I had to trust you and you wouldn't lie to me without reason. As hard as it was to watch you leave, knowing where you were going, I had to do it to prove to myself that I trusted you." Chuck took a breath. "Then I texted Serena and told her that Nate needed us all and we headed over. This leads us to me walking in on you two embracing. Okay now it's your turn."

Blair began talking after taking a deep breath. "Well, Nate texted me that he needed me. At first I told him no but he begged so I said that I would come. I don't even know why I lied about it. I guess I thought that you would get angry and jealous." Blair said looking down.

Chuck took one of his hands out of hers and proceeded to lift her chin so that his eyes met hers. "Blair, look at me. It's okay that you thought that."

"No it isn't" Blair said quickly. "You trusted me to not cheat but I couldn't even trust you not to get jealous Chuck, I feel awful."

Chuck brushed Blair's hair out of her face and tucked it behind her ear, sending shivers down her spine. "Finish telling me what happened and then we can discuss the trust thing, okay?"

Blair looked into his eyes for a moment more before continuing. "Well I got here and Nate basically jumped me." Chuck's grip on Blair's hands tightened. "Don't worry, I pushed him away and smacked him." Chuck's grip released a little and he gave Blair a small smile, which she returned. "I was going to leave, I told Nate that what he did was stupid and I loved you and he stopped me from going. He told me that he just wanted to know who he was and that without me he honestly didn't know. So then we talked about how I had gotten over him, about the fact that a girl couldn't define him, and eventually that he couldn't go around sleeping with ever girl he met." Blair looked at Chuck pointedly. "Nate explained that he did it because he thought it worked for you for so long and I told him that he could never be that guy."

Chuck tensed up, the hurt obvious in his eyes. Blair still thought that Nathaniel was better than him, that Chuck was beneath her.

"Hey now," Blair said quietly, "Let me finish before you start judging what I say."

This time it was Chuck's turn to nod, unwillingly accepting the fact that Blair had the right to explain herself.

"Nate then told me that it wasn't your identity either. Which I always knew but the fact that you admitted that to him, meant a lot." Blair gave Chuck a big smile. By this time, they were a lot closer together than how they had started, they were almost touching all over. "Then we talked about you and what I meant to you. Nate claims that I am the reason you found your identity, which I'm still not sure I believe but then I got the subject back to Nate. I told him that he had something that I didn't have last spring, people to support him."

At this point, it was Chuck's turn to look ashamed. He had put Blair through a lot last semester.

Blair bent down to catch his eye before standing back up. He of course followed her. "Don't worry about that Chuck, it's in the past." Blair gave Chuck a quick kiss on the cheek before continuing. "So, Nate and I talked about how he had all these people who cared about him and would be there for him, no matter what. Then we talked about Jenny. The fact that Nate actually has feelings for her and never really had feelings for Serena or Vanessa. I told him to stay away from her until he was better and we talked about mine and Jenny's new friendship. I told him I needed to go home and he helped me up. I gave him a hug, just as friends, and you guys walked in."

Chuck exhaled. Nothing had happened, he had continually reminded himself that he trusted Blair but it was good knowing that he was right in doing so. "Okay about the trust thing, then I have to tell you something." Blair cocked her head inquisitively. "Trust thing first, surprise later." Chuck said jokingly before becoming serious. "Blair, it was difficult for me to just stand by and let you go to Nate but I needed to prove to myself that I could do it. I don't blame you for not telling me. I have given you a million reasons to think that I would get pissed and none to say I wouldn't; while, you have already been working on showing me that I'm the only guy for you. When I saw you in his arms, I freaked out a little but I maintained control for the most part." At this Chuck smirked.

"Chuck that's not fair and you know it. Not that I don't want you to trust me, because I definitely do, its just you act like I can do no wrong, even when I mess up, you act like I don't and it scares me." Blair whispered the last four words.

I never promised you a ray of light
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday

"No I don't," Chuck said in disbelief. "Blair, you never have to be scared of me and you didn't do anything wrong in this case though. . . "

I give you everything I have
The good
The bad

Blair interrupted. "See there it is again. I did do something wrong Chuck. I messed up. I lied to you."

Why do you put me on a pedestal
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below

Chuck immediately started talking. "I already told you, I gave you no reason to be able to trust me, so there is no reason . . . "

So help me down
You've got it wrong
I don't belong there

"CHUCK I LIED TO YOU!" Blair screamed. Taking her hands out of his, she ran one through her hair and stopped halfway through, griping her beautiful curls.

One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me

Chuck was immediately silenced, by Blair's outburst. He didn't understand why she was so upset. He told her he wasn't angry. It's like she wanted him to be mad. "Blair, I don't get it this time. I don't understand." Chuck said tersely.

But standing from here
You wouldn't say so
You wouldn't say so if you were me

And I
I just wanna love you
Oh
Oh
I
I just wanna love you

Blair turned around and took a deep inhale, before facing Chuck again. "Chuck you've been letting things slide ever since we got together months ago in the Hamptons. You explain away all of my little mistakes yet equate all of your missteps to major flaws."

I always said that I would make mistakes
I'm only human and that's my saving grace
I fall as hard as I try so don't be blinded

When Chuck stayed quiet, Blair continued. "You have to realize that I mess up too. I screw up just like you do. I lied to you and I shouldn't have. I was wrong and you have to deal with these things now. You can't just push them away or they are going to build up. Then one day I'm going to do something small or big, who knows, and you aren't going to be able to deal with it. That's why I'm scared. "

See me as I really am
I have flaws and sometimes I even sin

So pull me from that pedestal
(Pull me from that pedestal)
I don't belong there
(I don't belong)

Nate did that. If there is one thing I am sure of after today, its that Nate thought of me as some perfect girlfriend, who couldn't screw up, couldn't make mistakes, then when I did, everything fell apart. I don't want that to happen to us Chuck. I can't handle that happening to us. I don't want to mess up but I know I will because I'm not perfect. I'm just me." By this time tears were pouring down Blair's face and she was barely chocking out the words.

One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me
But standing from here
You wouldn't say so
You wouldn't say so if you were me

Chuck walked over and wrapped his arms around Blair. Pulling her tiny frame to him.

Why you think that you know me
But in your eyes I am something above you
It's only in your mind
Only in your mind

Damn it she was right and he knew it. He had been doing exactly what she claimed he was. He loved her so much that he was refusing to see any flaws, any mistakes. "I'm sorry Blair, I'm so sorry." Chuck held her while she cried. "I thought I was so aware of all of your imperfections, but I think those imperfections made you perfect to me. Ahh, I'm as lost as Nathaniel sometimes." At this Blair couldn't help but laugh.

One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me
But standing from here
You wouldn't say so
You wouldn't say so if you were me
And I
I just wanna love you
Oh
Oh
I
I just wanna love you

"I'm still not angry about tonight Blair. I love you and there's no crime in that but I see your point. I'll try my best not to fall into the clichéd "the sun itself sees not 'til heaven clears" type of thing."

Blair's head snapped up. "Chuck Bass, did you just quote Shakespeare?" Blair had a look of surprise on her face, one that was only about a third exaggerated.

"Don't look so surprised Blair, I actually like learning on my own terms, that just happens to come from my favorite Sonnet. Do you know what it means?" Chuck said in return.

"Of course I do Chuck, I am poised to be valedictorian." Blair replied defiantly.

"Well," Chuck rebutted raising his eyebrows.

"Okay, fine, I don't." Huffed Blair, she didn't like admitting that she didn't know something.

Chuck smirked and Blair batted his arm playfully. "Just tell me and quit gloating Bass."

His face warmed to a smile. "It means, that people are blinded from reason by love. So what I'm saying to you is that I will try my hardest not to do that. I will attempt to be as unbiased as possible for you."

Blair smiled, she knew this wasn't something people normally asked their boyfriends. Seriously how many girls went around asking their boyfriends to get mad at them. But she knew this was right and the fact that Chuck understood her meant everything to her. Blair reached up and kissed him hard.

Chuck laughed as he struggled to detach Blair from himself. "Wait Blair, wait." Blair finally pulled back frustrated. "The surprise. I haven't told you the surprise."

Those words caused Blair's eyes to light up. This must be good if he was willing to stop her onslaught of kisses to tell her. "Well, what is it?"

"So I had a visitor today." Chuck began teasingly.

Blair was getting impatient "AND . . .?"

She was adorable when she was anxious and Chuck couldn't help but draw it out, smirking his trademark smirk the entire time. "Yes, after you left."

"CHUCK BASS tell me right now." Blair demanded.

"Okay, okay," Chuck said laughing. "Jenny stopped by to talk to you."

Jenny? Blair wanted so badly to interrupt but she knew that she would find out sooner if she just kept quiet.

Chuck then threw a curveball. "How would you like to go on a date tomorrow night? Like a real one. I would pick you up, we could go out to dinner. Nothing too public but you know, not at home either." Chuck sat quietly waiting for Blair's response, he knew that he had confused her, forced her thoughts to change tracks.

"Chuck, that has nothing to do with what we are talking about, quit changing the subject. Anyway, it doesn't matter, you know we can't because of Gossip Girl." Blair said, she was obviously irritated.

"That's where you are wrong, it has everything to do with what we were talking about. Gossip Girl isn't an issue anymore for us. Thanks to Jenny that is." Chuck said smiling broadly.

"Chuck that doesn't make any since!" Blair replied frustrated once more.

Chuck smiled again, waiting on Blair to connect the dots and it only took a few seconds before he saw her beautiful brown eyes illuminate.

"Jenny, turned Nate into Gossip Girl, for us?" Blair said, clearly as a question.

Chuck nodded. "She made a deal. She gave Gossip Girl the info that she wanted and Gossip Girl didn't post anything about us, ever."

Chuck didn't have to tell Blair what that meant. She knew all too well the threat that Gossip Girl had posed to their plans. "OMG," was all that Blair could get out. "I can't believe Jenny would do that. That's huge."

"I know." Chuck replied suddenly serious. "Now what do you say to dinner."

Blair decided to pay him back for his teasing earlier. "Hmmm, I'll have to think about it." But she couldn't hold out when Chuck made his puppy dog face at her. "Fine" Blair said. "Of course I want to go to dinner."

Chuck immediately cupped her face and pulled her to him. Kissing her just like before. It was so freeing. There was a sense of reckless abandon that didn't even need to exist because they were in a way in the clear. Their tongues were dancing together as Chuck pressed Blair against the nearest wall. They were already heated from the argument and they allowed excitement of the moment to overwhelm them.

Chuck ran his hands up her skirt and grasped her thighs, hoisting her up around his waste. As Chuck was reaching for her underwear, Blair heard the bark of a dog. Nate's dog never use to bark when she and Nate were making out. Wait a minute thought Blair, Nate's dog, Oh shit they were in Nate's sitting room about to have sex.. Suddenly Blair's mental processes caught up to her hormones and at the last possible moment she grabbed Chuck's hands on her thighs and pried them off.

At first, Chuck just thought Blair was being rough. It wouldn't have been the first time that she had scratched him during sex. But when she pulled his fingers off her thighs he didn't know what she was doing.

Once Chuck's hands were off of her Blair gracefully managed to land on her feet. Where she immediately started fixing her clothes.

Chuck was astounded. The only time they had ever stopped in the middle of foreplay before was when Nate had interrupted them before the Debutante Ball, never had they stopped of their own volition. "What the hell Waldorf?" Chuck said, his sexual frustration pouring over as his raging hard on was having trouble going back in his pants.

Blair got down on her knees and got his pants zipped before quickly standing back up, much to Chuck's dismay. But then she added through clinched teeth. "Look around Chuck, where are we?" which Chuck did and Blair saw both surprise and astonishment cross his face. Then in a low seductive voice she added. "Now while I still have momentary control over my hormones I suggest we move to the limo before we end up christening Nate's living room."

"Yes ma'am ." Chuck replied. "But when we say goodbye to our friends you are going to have to stay in front of me unless you want them to know what we've been up to." Chuck added with a smirk.

Blair laughed out loud before pulling Chuck out into the foyer.

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Nate sat on the stairs holding an ice pack to his jaw while Serena stood against the wall shaking her head. "I don't understand you Nate."

He wasn't entirely sure what Serena was still doing here, "Serena, what are you even still doing here. I didn't call you, I didn't ask you to come."

"Nate that's not what I meant." Serena said a little exasperated, she didn't know why she hadn't left yet either. "I want to understand you, I do, but you have to talk to me."

Nate was annoyed. He and Serena had been friends for a long time but right now, if she was in his life it would only complicate things because the only one worse at actually solving problems than him was Serena. "I don't need you to understand, my life is too complicated right now to go around explaining everything to every person. I called Blair because she knows what's going on with me and she could help. All you ever do is complicate things."

His words stung her a little. They had been friends for so long yet he didn't want her involved in his life right now. "Nate, I'm just trying to be here for you. I want us to be able to be friends."

"And we can be. Just not right now. This stuff that I am dealing with is partially because of you and I need to get things sorted out before you get involved again. Honestly Serena, when have you ever been able to help someone through something without getting involved or making it worse." Serena was taken aback, she wasn't very found of this version of Nate, "Never. And right now, right now, I can't afford for this to get any worse. I have things that I need to sort out and while I'm glad that you want to be friends these are things that you aren't going to be able to help me with. So please Serena just give me some space."

This Nate was honest. Brutally honest, but on some level Serena knew that he was actually right. He may be mean or rude but that was his way of coping. Of dealing with whatever it was that he didn't want to talk about. So all that she could do was respect his wishes. "Okay, Nate, okay. Just know that when you are ready, I'll still be here."

Nate smiled a small smile, looking up at Serena from the stairs. God she was beautiful, but he realized without a doubt that he didn't have feelings for her past friendship, for the first time he could remember, he didn't want her. "Thanks."

At that they both heard Blair scream.

Nate rolled his eyes. "Please don't let them be having sex in my mother's sitting room."

"Nate I think they are just arguing, sounds to me like Blair is just yelling at Chuck." Serena said laughing a little.

"Ha." Nate replied. "You've never heard Blair in bed." Nate added with a smirk similar to one Chuck would give.

"Gross Nate, I so didn't need to know that." As Serena replied they heard a crash.

"Oh well, I hope at least they don't break anything. The grandparents are pretty much covering us right now but mom would still be pissed if any of the crystal got broken." Nate said shaking his head. Those two were like forces of nature, you couldn't keep them apart if you tried.

Serena couldn't help but laugh again and Nate joined her as a disheveled Blair and Chuck appeared in the foyer. Blair standing directly in front of Chuck.

"So did you guys work things out?" Serena questioned raising her eyebrows.

Blair, obviously out of breath replied. "Yes S, everything is fine, we are just going to head out." It was difficult to talk. It felt like she had just run a marathon and she could feel Chuck's hard on against her back. She was just trying to get out of there as quickly as possible but what was said next surprised her.

"You guys didn't break anything during your sexual escapades did you?" Nate asked rather good naturedly.

Blair tried to keep a straight face. "I don't know what you're talking about Nate." But as she finished she and everyone else burst out laughing.

After several minutes Chuck tightened his grip on Blair's hand and spoke. "Nothing's broken and we didn't have sex so your living room is still perfectly clean, but we do need to head out. It's almost four and we all have school tomorrow." He began pulling Blair out of the room as he backed up.

"Oh look Chuck Bass is concerned about school." Serena added sarcastically. "I never thought I'd see the day. I however am also going to head out." Serena said as she grabbed her purse and walked out the door.

As Chuck and Blair were walking towards the door themselves, after saying their goodbyes of course, Nate put a hand on Chuck's shoulder and Chuck turned around. "Hey man, are we cool?" Nate asked almost nervously.

Chuck turned his head to a smiling Blair before facing Nate again. "Yeah man, we're cool."

"Bye Nate" Blair added before stepping through the doorframe.

"Goodbye guys and thank you both, for everything." Nate said sincerely, shutting the door behind them.

Spotted: B, C, and S all at N's house. Looks like the Breakfast Club is back together dealing with yet another crisis. I don't know if I want them to succeed this time. Tonight is a night for realizations, whether its realizing that your letting yourself be blinded by love, realizing that your friends are going to be there for you no matter what, or maybe realizing that sometimes there are friends that you are better off staying away from.

xoxo

gossip girl

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AN: Hey guys. To those of you that I promised some Darena action, I'm sorry it's coming this section just took longer than I thought so it will have to come later.

I have exams right now and honestly I'm not sure if I am going to continue this story, I' a little low on inspiration right now, lol.

Oh yeah, the song that I used part of is Halo by Bethany Joy Galeotti