Face It
Paragade
Shepard liked being a nice person- making people happy. Most people were usually left in a better mood than she met them in. That also left her feeling warm and fuzzy. The people she worked for, or fought against, always saw it as a weakness. She didn't really understand that. No one likes feeling bad or angry. Angry people made stupid mistakes.
With all that in mind, there were days where Shepard did not mind shooting people. Or throwing them out of windows, or jamming electric tools in their backs, or shooting explosive material underneath them.
She couldn't help it. There were just days where you were angry at everyone, and shooting people just felt fantastic. It was a great release.
The second great part about it was that, mostly, people did not question her renegade moments. It was real easy to make up excuses when you were commander. But, of course, she didn't really let other people just do that. Garrus was her best example. Jacob, too. And Miranda. And Jack. And other people's children... she meddled in a lot of things. Everyone ended up forgiving her for her interference, so it was all good.
Fact was, she could toe the line and still be okay.
Inwardly- she'd apologize to the people who died unnecessarily because she was thinking ahead. Cathka had been one such person- in the end, though, she might've saved Garrus' life by doing that. She supposed that shouldn't feel guilty, but being such a nice person...
She laughed as she took another shot.
Nice people didn't kill people with a smile.
Most days.