I'm in love with her and yet it kills me to say that because i saw her earlier with Chris, it's funny to think that used to be me with my arms wrapped round he kissing her sneakily even though there was nothing to hide, it was obvious everyone knew...
It was a dream finally come true to know that I'd be the only one to hold her, comfort her, protect her, love her...
It all came crashing down though when Melissa came back, i can't believe how stupid i was to actually think it was mine the dates didn't even add up...
Michael asks where she is when he comes down at the weekends, i just make up something stupid because i don't want to tell him the real reason. Every weekend we used to take him to the park together play with him or watch him play holding each other...
Since I've been back at Waterloo Road I've put on a brave face acting like everything's fine when really my heart breaks every time i see knowing that i can't hold her. I've always been strong with women but Rachel she's different I've never felt like this before about anyone, it's weird. I love it when she smiles it's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen and it's nice to know she's happy...
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"Daddy can we watch Bob the Builder please?"
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I love Rachel Mason...