So I know that I said that it would be like week before the next update but I wanted to get this up, I'm not sure why, guess that I wanted to be nice.
Then I just wanted to point out that I did a small little mistake with the previous chapter, at first chapter 7 was the same as chapter 6 but that have been changed so if you haven't read the right chapter 7 I would recommend that you'll do that. It'll be necessary for later chapters.
Please let me know what you think I love to know your thoughts.
Chapter 8 You are me before her
"Hey Sum. I'm going to go down to that club." Ashley said and she was on her way out through the door when she let her step sister know what she was doing.
"Do you want some company?" Summer asked and looked over at the other brunette.
"I don't think so; I kind of need to get away. You know being alone but not alone at the same time. Just having a chance to think." Ashley said and gave Summer a weak smile.
"That's okay. I just might stop by with Seth later on but if you still want to be alone then just let us know." Summer said.
"Okay. But you know if you and Seth are coming then Ryan will come and if he comes then my guess would be that Kyla will come along too. That will mean that Marissa is alone. So my conclusion is that I'll see all of you later." Ashley said before she left.
"Maybe not Marissa. She has been good friends with her flask during this last week or more like weeks." Summer said and the girl was afraid of where this would be going.
"Okay but if you all come. Take her with you. I don't care on how you do it dragged her, drug her. Maybe the last one isn't the best one." Ashley said. Hearing Summer talk about Marissa made Ashley realize that the girl that Marissa was now was just like the girl that she had been before.
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Marissa was in her room. She just needed to find that bottle and after that, the beach was waiting for her. It was calling her name.
The lanky girl knew that the tide was about to turn. And she needed to be down at the beach. That one thing was the last thing that she had that was a reminder of the blonde girl that had left. The tide was the one thing that made her feel closer to Alex, that was something that she needed.
"where the hell is my bottle." Marissa yelled and that was a cue.
It's was the cue that Julie Cooper- Nichol needed. The older woman entered her daughters' room. "Looking for this." The woman said and held the bottle showing it for Marissa.
"Yeah, so thanks for bringing it to me, mum." Marissa said and walked up to her mother waiting for the bottle to be handed to her.
"not that fast. You need help." Julie said.
"I don't think so. You know how it ended the last time you tried this." Marissa said and gave her mother a look, which would have put Julie Cooper- Nichol six feet under.
"That I do but this time there is no one here that would say something else. So you have two choices, talk to someone that can help you, that meaning AA or someone that has the experience about this or I'm sending you to Rehab." Julie said and looked at Marissa; the girl could see the concerned eyes on her mother.
"I need to take this." Marissa said and held up her cell phone.
"Fine, but just so you know this is far from over. And this conversation is not over and we will talk about this when you get back home." Julie said and left with the bottle of vodka and the older woman saw the flask that was laying on the desk and she took it too.
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Ashley was sitting alone down at the Bait shop; all of this that was happening around her was just making her miss Spencer even more.
"hello." Someone said and Ashley looked around to see who it was that was talking to her.
"Luke." Ashley said, just letting the boy know that she had seen him.
"so I was thinking that we could go out some time." Luke said and looked at Ashley.
"Luke." Ashley sighed out." I thought that I already told you that I have a girlfriend. That would mean that I'm not interested in you."
"I know that but then again she isn't here." Luke tried this time.
"Luke, you know, sometimes a no is really a yes and sometimes like this time, a no is really a no." Ashley said and gave the boy a weak smile that was all that she could muster up to do.
"I have heard that before but I think that you need to have fun. And you would have fun with me." Luke said and he was thinking of all the fun that the two of them could have.
"I know what you mean but I don't need ti have that kind of fun with you." Ashley sighed. "you know I can have plenty of fun on my own."
Luke tried some more pick up lines most of them as lame as the ones that he already had used. And Ashley just kept on turning him down; it was something that she was getting tiered of.
"Luke." Someone said, and Ashley was really thankful for whoever it was that was there to take Luke away from her.
"Oh, hi Ryan." Luke said when he saw that one of his friends was there.
"Thanks." Ashley said as she looked over at Ryan and she gave the boy a small smile.
"No problem." Ryan said and took Luke with him when he left. "Summer wanted me to tell you that we are sitting over there in a booth."
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Marissa sat down at the beach looking out over the ocean; this was a night that she wanted to forget.
And the only way that she could forget was to take a drink but that was taken away from her tonight too. It was her mother that had done that maybe she did care about her daughter after all was something that was running through Marissas' head.
"I miss you so much." Marissa said out loud, looking out over the calm ocean.
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The lanky brunette had entered the club; maybe she would be able to get that drink after all. As she made it down the stairs so that she could get to the bar, she saw that there was someone that she recognized at the bar.
"Ashley?" Marissa asked as she made it down to the stairs and up to the bar.
"Yeah." Ashley said and turned around to see who it was this time. "Oh. Hi Marissa I didn't know that you was here."
"Neither did I." Marissa said and continued and pointed to a seat and asked "is this seat taken?"
"No, you can take it." Ashley said.
"Great. So why are you here?" Marissa asked as she sat down on the stool next to the shorter brunette.
"I kind of wanted to get away, just trying to get my mind of some things. And have a chance to relax." Ashley said and gave Marissa a smile when she thought about a blonde girl that she was missing like crazy.
"I kind of know what you mean." Marissa said.
"So why are you here then?" Ashley asked.
"You know I kind of miss Alex, and besides that I need a drink." Marissa confessed to the brunette that was sitting next to her, this was like the first time that she really had confessed this to someone outside of the friend zone.
"I'm sorry to hear that but why do you need a drink?" Ashley asked maybe she could get Marissa to open up a bit more and to get to know the girl that was hurting.
"Yeah I know that it's not the best thing. But you know it helps me to forget." Marissa said and then continued "Even if just for a while or an hour or so." After that she tried to give Ashley a smile but it didn't reach her eyes.
"But that is just for a while as you said. That can't be that much of a help." Ashley said hoping that this wouldn't close the other girl of maybe it could be a help for her to hear Ashley talking about her problems or more like former problems.
"That might be so but at least it helps." Marissa sighed, she knew that Ashley was right but she didn't want to make this happen again, letting someone in that then would turn around.
"I can tell you a drink won't help in the long run. After a few days or weeks of just one drink or two or three and so on it soon will be a bottle." Ashley said and looked over at Marissa trying to see if she was listening to what she was saying.
"And after that bottle what is the next step?" Marissa asked, she wanted to know what the next thing was but at the same time she didn't want to know.
"That is different from person to person but what you should do is hoping." Ashley said.
"Hoping?" Marissa asked she didn't know what the shorter girl meant by that.
"Hoping that someone will come around that will be able to help you out from that place that you are in that makes you do this." Ashley said.
"I'm there." Marissa said, and this was the first time that she had said something like that to someone. It's strange how easy it was to talk to Ashley about all of this but she couldn't understand why it was that way.
"Hoping?" Ashley asked this time and Marissa nodded.
"You want to know something, I was there one time." Ashley said, maybe that was the reason that Marissa had it so easy talking about this with the brunette next to her. "it was Spencer that helped me."
"I don't think that I have someone that would do something like that for me." Marissa said and looked down on her hands.
"I think you do. Better yet I know that you have someone like that." Ashley said and placed a hand on Marissas' back. Ashley could tell that this girl was near a break down.
"Who would that be?" Marissa asked, she couldn't think straight.
"To start with you have Summer and my guess is that both Seth and Ryan would be there for you in a heartbeat." Ashley said and gave Marissa an encouraging smile.
"What if that's not enough." Marissa said and gave Ashley a query look.
"Then I'll be there to help you." Ashley stated and gave Marissa a hug. She knew that this was something that the taller girl needed.
Maybe this was what the start of a great friendship and maybe Marissa would be able to be someone that everyone knew that she could be.