"You make me weep and wanna die. Just when you said we'd try, Lovin', Touchin', Squeezin' each other. When I'm alone all by myself you're out with someone else Lovin', Touchin', Squeezin', another"

-Journey "Lovin', Touchin', Squeezin'

James and Choir broke apart when the sound of Jo's laughter came. It sounded like they were only feet from the door. When they looked, sure enough Kendall and Jo walked in. Jo had her arm wrapped around Kendall's. They came to a dead stop when they saw James and Choir. All four wore a guilty look on their faces. Kendall almost instantly tore his arm from Jo.

"Choir..." he breath. He took a few steps closer to her. "When did you get here?"

Choir cleared her throat and after a moment she answered. "Just now actually. I'm staying with you guys till my father gets better. I put my stuff in your apartment and decided to come looking for you. I just got off the elevator and James was standing here waiting to get on," she said smoothly. James looked at her for a second with an astonished look but was quick to fix it. Kendall eyed James for a moment.

James gave him a small smile and pressed the elevator button. "Guess I'll be leaving. Have some cookies to bake," The elevator doors opened and with one last touch on Choir's shoulder he entered.

Choir looked at Jo and then back to Kendall. "Wait for me, James," she said.

"Wait- Choir, let me explain," Kendall said.

Choir looked at him raising an eye brow. "Explain what? You were only hanging with Jo. There's nothing for you to explain. And it's not like we're together so you're free to do whatever- I mean whoever you want," she said and the elevator doors closed.

Kendall heaved a heavy sigh and jabbed a finger against the elevator button. Jo folded her arms against her chest. "So now what?" she asked. Kendall rolled his eyes and hit the elevator button again.

When Kendall finally entered his apartment his mother greeted him. "Hey sweet heart," she said and walked over to him. Kendall, however, was too focused on Choir who was sitting on the couch with Logan talking amongst themselves. Well Choir was talking, Logan was gawking at Kendall. Carlos had also stopped eating his spaghetti for a moment to look at Kendall. James continued to prepare the cookies. "Choir is going to spend Christmas with us. Is that okay?" she asked.

Kendall brought his eyes to her and shrugged his shoulders. "Why wouldn't it be?" he asked causally. The mom eyed him suspiciously for a second then smiled.

"All right," she said lastly and gave him a small pat on the back before going back to helping Katie on her lap top. Kendall walked over to Logan and Choir. Logan looked up but Choir kept her head down knowing already that he was there.

"Can we talk?" he asked. She was silent for a moment but looked up at him with a smile.

"Sure," she replied and got to her feet. Kendall grabbed her by the hand and directed towards his bedroom. Choir and James eyes met for a second but she looked away feeling bad.

"Will be right back out, mom. We need to talk for a second," Kendall said. The mom pointed a finger at him.

"I'll give you 10 minutes," she said. Kendall nodded in agreement and vanished behind the door with Choir.

It was quiet for a minute. Kendall was trying think of something to say as his mouth opened to say something but closed it and shook his head.

"Just say it already," Choir said impatiently. Kendall's expression turned incredulous.

He sighed. "Don't hate me,"

"I don't hate you," she said honestly.

Kendall smiled and walked over to her grabbing her hands in his. "Then we can work this out," he said quickly. Choir pulled her hands from him.

"No we can't. I don't want to work anything out. You'll always have a place in my heart but I'm not going to do this for the third time-"

"This time it's going to work."

"How? Huh?"

"When you left I had some time to think. I know I went about this all wrong- I should have asked you-"

"You should have trusted me!" Choir snapped.

"I know, I know but can you blame me? After the mess that happened with James, you and I went through, I couldn't help but feel threatened and insecure," Kendall said trying to reason with her.

She grabbed Kendall's face and pulled it close to hers. They had their eyes closed. "I choose you Kendall," she said.

"I know..."

"And like you said, you could see it in my eyes that I loved you. That right there should have told you that I was yours forever and always,"

"I'm sorry I screwed things up," he breath.

"Me too..." She let go of him and took a step back. Water built up in her eyes, and even Kendall's eyes glossed over. "

"What are we suppose to do now?" he asked.

She smiled softly and turned to look at the door. When she turned back to Kendall she shrugged her shoulders. "Lets get back out there before your mom gets mad," she said.

"I meant about us?" Kendall chuckled softly.

Choir thought for a moment. "We can be friends if that's okay with you?"

"Guess that's better than nothing," Kendall said.

Choir took in a deep breath as she ran a hand through her hair.

"You seem unsure," Kendall said.

"It's not that. I just think it's going to feel weird."

"Tell me about it."

"But it's for the best."

"If you say so," Kendall paused biting his lip. "I hate this," he said.

"I know but hey I'll only be here for a few days and soon you'll never have to see me again," She said trying to make it sound like a good thing. Choir went to go and turn but Kendall grabbed her hand.

"Don't do this Kendall," She said. But he ignored her and pulled her into a hug.

He held her close burying his face into her shoulder."No matter what happens I think I'm always going to love you," he said.

When they came out from the bedroom Kendall's mom was putting Choir's suitcases against Katie's bedroom door. "Choir, you'll be bunking with Katie," she said.

"Great that's fine with me," She said.

"Yay! A roommate," Katie exclaimed sarcastically. Choir raised her eyebrows.

"Be nice," Kendall said.

"Yeah, yeah..." Katie said and picked her lap top up and headed into her room. Choir looked at Kendall and he smiled.

"Once she gets to know you she'll be nicer," he said. Choir laughed.

"Well, I'm going to go get my things sorted," Choir said and rolled her suit cases into Katie's room. Katie then closed the door.

"Should we be worried?" James asked. Everyone laughed. Kendall made his way over to James who had turned to check the cookies in the oven. When he turned Kendall was taking a seat on one of the seats.

"So did you and Choir fix things?" he asked.

"She only wants to be friends. She said I'll always have a place in her heart but she doesn't want to be together," Kendall said.

James stared at him for a moment then spoke. "Are you okay?" he asked concerned.

"Not really, but what can I do right?"

"Well if you need to talk, I'm here for you," James offered sympathetically.

"Thanks man," Kendall said appreciatively.

Meanwhile Katie was in her room watching Choir as she sat on the top bunk. Choir was looking at her too because Katie had spent the last five minutes glaring at her.

"Are you going to kill me?" Choir asked.

"Blondes..." Katie said rolling her eyes. Choir furrowed hers.

"You don't like me very much do you?" Choir asked.

"You turned my brother into a hopeless idiot. So I can't say I'm much of a fan," She said in a cocky voice. Choir nodded. "But I can say he was much happier with you," Katie said. "So what's up with you two anyway? Decided to relight the candle?" she asked.

"Um..no. We called it quits. Well I called it quits. Kendall reluctantly agreed," Choir admitted.

"Sorry to hear that," Katie said honestly.

Choir changed the subject as she noticed Edward Cullen and Jacob Black on her wall next to the door. "It's like a crime to have Edward and Jacob together on your wall,"Choir laughed. Katie looked at her posters and laughed. "So what team are you on?" she asked.

"Team Shut the Fuck Up," Katie replied. Choirs eyes went big but bursted out laughing. Katie laughed along.

A knock came at the door and the mom popped her head in. "Katie, Maggie called and she wants you to sleep over,"

"Awesome!" Katie said getting to her feet. She turned and looked up at Choir. "It was fun talking and stuff but I gotta go,"

"Have fun!" Choir said.

It was around 12 am when Choir awoke. She heard the door to the bedroom and her heart began to race. "Choir you awake?"

Even though it was pitch dark, she didn't have to see the face to recognize who's voice it was and it made her heart stop then start racing again. She sat up. "James? What are you doing in here?" she whispered. James closed the door and Choir turned on the touch light on the wall next to her head. He walked over to the bunk bed and started up it. "What are you doing?" she asked. She quickly tried to fix her hair. When he was fully on the bed he crawled over to her and went in for a kiss. She moved her head back. "James!" she said.

"What?"

She scoffed in disbelief "What? Are you out your Big Time Mind?" She asked. James pressed a hand against the touch light and smiled. She could see his white teeth flashing in the moon light. She went tense as he ran a hand up her leg.

"Maybe..." He trailed off and pressed his eager lips against her.

Choir pushed him away. "James. No. You have a girlfriend and Kendall-"

"It's over isn't it?"

"That maybe so, but I still love him and you, hun, have a girlfriend. Remember?" James sat up feeling guilty.

"I'm sorry it's just you kissed me-:

"You kissed me," Choir corrected pointing her index finger at him. He grabbed it and held her hand in his. She quickly yanked it away but James smile widened.

"We kissed each other," He finally corrected.

"It was a mistake,"

When she said that James smile faded. "Why are you denying what's in front of your face?"

Choir's left eyebrow rose. "And that would be..." she trailed off waiting for him to answer.

"That you and I are perfect together?" When James said that Choir scoffed a laugh and jumped down from the bed.

"Out." She ordered gesturing towards the bedroom door. James swung his legs off the top bunk.

"Not until we talk about what's going on between us." James said.

"Nothing. Happy? Now leave." She ordered again.

"If nothing then why do you keep kissing me when you claim you're sooooo in love with Kendall?"

"First time, I was confused by who I actually liked. I was dazed by you and fascinated with Kendall. I choose Kendall cause I felt a stronger connection. Second time, I was hurt by seeing Kendall and Jo swapping spit by the pool. And I'm sorry I used you to try and feel better. But I didn't feel better. I felt worse. The problem that could have been created. Kendall would hate you and he would feel even more hurt than what he already is because of me. I can't put him through anymore pain," She grabbed him by the hand and pulled him down from the bunk bed. "Swear to me you won't tell Kendall about our kiss. It'll break his heart. If you love him too you will-"

James jumped down from the bed. "All right. ALRIGHT!" James voice got louder.

"Shhh!" Choir hissed at him looking at over her shoulder at the door.

"I promise," he whispered. Choir sighed. She turned on her heel and walked over to the door. When she opened it, Kendall was there. His arm was stretched out to open the door. There eyes were locked on one another.

"Kendall," Choir voice squeaked.

Kendall looked at James then back to her. "I heard a bang. I just came to see if you were okay...if you...fallen...bed..." his voice was vague as he was trying to think as he talked.

"It's not what you think," Choir said trying to assure him. She turned to James. "James and I just had a talk and now we're done and he's leaving." She said sternly. James pressed his lips together and nodded.

"What she said." He said and began to walk towards the door.

"James," Choir called softy. When he turned around she wore a sympathetic look. "I am sorry," she said honestly.

"Yeah me too." He said and returned to his bedroom. When they heard the door close Choir spoke.

"Thanks for checking on me,"

"No problem," He said. When he turned to leave Choir followed after him but stopped at the door.

"Hey," She said.

Kendall turned around. "Yeah?" he asked yawning.

"Can you come to the hospital with me tomorrow? To visit my dad. I don't want to go alone." She said. Kendall faintly smiled and nodded.

"Sure," He replied.

Choir smiled. "Thanks."

"I'm just happy you can come to me for support."

She smiled. Kendall turned around and went back into his room. Choir closed the door and pressed her back against it then sighed profoundly.