* Contains curse words
Woohoooo! My longest chapter yet...aaanndd saddest!
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Happy Reading
-Bauer05 :)
I walk alone down the empty streets
Drowning in my despair and helplessness
Betrayed by own flesh and blood
Mummy, why do you watch on?
Why do you laugh is Tomas hits me and rapes me?
Daddy, why did you leave me here?
Why did you turn your back on me when I needed you most?
Tomas, why do you do the things you do to me?
Is it because you long for the one thing you haven't got?
My brothers, why are you so hateful and cruel?
What possessed you to turn your backs on family?
I know that I am vulnerable
I know that I am weak
Pathetic and useless
This family is built up on foundation of lies
Beautiful on the outside
But ugly and twisted on the inside
You ask me constantly why I am the way I am
I never answer because you already know
You know that you are all the reason why I am so fucked up on the inside!
Why I wake screaming and crying from the night terrors!
Why I crave love yet flinch away from the mere thought!
Why I have become an empty shell that is only a fragment of what it used to be!
I want to rip your limbs of you one by on
I want to make you watch as I skin you alive
I want to hate you for what you have done to me
But I can't
My own heart forces me to love you all unconditionally
Despite all you have done
My heart still clings on to the past
All of those good times
They are my comfort
My anchor to my sanity
They will be my undoing