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The author Richelle Mead owns the Vampire Academy universe. I Want To Experience Love is a Vampire Academy Fan Fiction story and it is not intended to infringe on any copyrights held by Richelle Mead or Razor Bill Company. Richelle Mead is the creator of the Vampire Academy characters, however this story is my original work. Copyright 2010 by xx-RedRoseBlackThorn-xx. No copying or reproduction of this work is permitted without my express written authorization.

CHAPTER SIX

Close Encounter

I was squirming around in bed. I did not want to wake up yet. It didn't feel like it was morning. I squeezed my eyes tighter. Nope, not working. Damn. I shifted my body to turn around and flew my arm over my head. Except it didn't hit the soft mattress beside me, it hit something harder.

I wasn't going to let it disturb me enough to open my eyes. I must have just reached over too much and hit my bedside table. I groaned and pressed into the object which was in my way. It wasn't as hard as a table. I started to move my hand down, patting the obstruction. I felt a soft chuckle rumble against my hand at the same time the bed shook.

I immediately opened my eyes. It was Dimitri. He was lying beside me on the bed. If that's what you call lying on my bed. Half of his body was not even on the mattress. He should have woken me up so I could have moved over for him.

"Dimitri," I whispered and sighed.

He placed a hand over mine, "I don't think this is wise."

I had no idea what he was talking about. I was still half asleep. I looked at where his hand was on top of mine and quickly shoved my hand away. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to -" I was stuck for words. When was Rose Hathaway stuck for words? Maybe when my hand is inches away from certain areas of his body... Not that I didn't want to discover his body, because I really wanted to.

I must have had a funny look on my face because he asked, "Too late to see me? I must have woken you when I came to your bed."

"It's never too -" The word didn't come out of my mouth and I found it hard to breathe. The next thing I knew I was coughing on my own moisture in my mouth. "Late." I began to cough again. Dimitri got up and passed me my water bottle. I took a few sips and said, "How embarrassing."

He just chuckled. "It's nothing to be ashamed of."

I looked around confused. "How did you get in here?"

"I have my secrets," he whispered and showed me his keys. Of course, why didn't I think of that? "Don't you want me in here?" He got off the bed ready to leave. "I can go if it makes you uncomfortable."

I started to protest and he held up his hands to surrender. "I'll stay, settle down," he said with a teasing tone.

"This is a dream, isn't it?" I asked.

"No, why would you think that?" He lifted his eyebrow.

"You would never be in my room, nonetheless lying next to me on my bed."

He looked at his hands and said, "That was inappropriate, I'm sorry."

I snickered. This is a dream. I looked at my arm and pinched it just to make sure it wasn't. "Ouch."

"Rose, what are you doing?"

I looked at him with shock. "This is real?" I could barely make it a whisper. "Why are you here?"

He looked amused. "It's real and I'm here, because if I remember correctly, I said I would see you tonight." His guardian mask came through.

"You didn't have to. I said I would wait until tomorrow." I couldn't help but smile. He came to me tonight, without me telling him too.

"Tomorrow we seem to be going to Missoula. We wouldn't have time to talk." His guard was still up.

"Talk. Talk, yeah." I became restless. I didn't know what to say. I realized there was nowhere for Dimitri to sit in my room. I looked at the bed and noticed I was hogging it all, so I slid over closer to the wall and patted my hand beside me. Dimitri nodded and sat.

There was a long silence. He didn't know what to say either, even though there was plenty to talk about. To begin with, I wanted to talk to Dimitri - not guardian Dimitri and yes... there is a difference.

I broke the silence. "You must not be comfortable," I said pointing to his clothing. "You have been in them all day."

He looked at his clothes and shrugged. "It's not important." Is he insane? Of course it's important.

Maybe I could help you out of those clothes. I secretly said to myself.

"I don't think that's a good idea, right now."

"Hmm," I looked at him confused.

"You said, maybe I could help you out of those clothes," He smiled his half smile.

"Shit. I didn't think I said that out loud." I blushed while looking away.

"It was more of a whisper," he chuckled. At least he wasn't getting worked up.

"So where do we start? I have never had to discuss things like this before." I started to play with my fingers and put my head down. "It's new to me."

His hand touched my chin and brought my face up to his. He brushed his lips against mine. "Start from the beginning."

"When I first met you I didn't like you at all. I hated you for bringing Lissa and I back to the Academy." He smiled at me. How was me hating him funny? "The more time I spent with you, the more I understood you. That's when the crush began. I didn't think about it as a big deal at first but when we fell victim to Victor lust charm, well that says it all," I looked up to Dimitri slightly chuckling.

"What is so funny?" Didn't he take me seriously?

He reached over and tucked a loose strand of hair behind my ear and his fingers trailed along my neck. He suddenly tensed. "I know what happened from there, Rose." His voice was stern. He didn't want me to bring up the last two months, and that was fair enough – to a point.

"You said start from the beginning, Comrade," I joked.

"Don't call me that."

"What do I call you? I can't call you mine." I was being a bitch again.

He inhaled a big breath and exhaled slowly.

"Start from when this all started." His eyebrows pressed together. "Start from when were we in the gymnasium."

I looked at him for a short period without saying anything. I was constantly searching for his eyes, which wouldn't look in my direction.

"Dimitri." He still wouldn't look. "Dimitri." My voice was a little louder. "Dimitri." My voice was demanding.

He slowly turned his body towards me on the bed. "Look at me." He lifted his head. "I want to be able to talk to you about everything, but it's really hard when you block me out about us."

"You can tell me anything Roza." He placed his hand on top of mine.

"I don't want you to be professional. I want you to talk to me like an equal. Just you and me."

He looked me in the eyes and nodded.

"I know you said that we can't be together, but sometimes I don't care. I want to break the rules, because I want to be with you. Every day I see you, I want you more and more. Breaking the rules and leaving Lissa would be painful without a doubt, but that will be nothing to how happy I would be because I would have you. It's you. It has always been about you and it will always be about you. I just don't know what else I can do to show you." I looked up at his face and quickly looked down.

He didn't say anything for a while and I was getting nervous. I shifted positions on the bed. I wasn't going to say anything until he responded.

I felt his fingers caress my cheek and he brought me towards him. He lightly kissed me on the lips. He didn't move away from my face. Our foreheads were leaning against each others. The smell of his aftershave was making me dizzy.

"How long have you been thinking about this?" he finally asked.

"When you told me you couldn't live without me."

He kissed me again on the lips. "Running away is not an option right now."

"But Dimitri..."

"No Roza. You will be graduating in a few months. It's important you stay here at the Academy.

"I want to be with you." My eyes started to water. Was he rejecting me?

"You graduating from the Academy is very important. Whether you like to admit it to me or not, you know it. You want to graduate. I want you to graduate." He wiped away a tear that leaked from my eye. "You're important to me Roza and I want to do the right thing for you."

"You're pushing me away again," I sobbed.

"I'm not pushing you away. After you graduate we can discuss what can happen with us, but until then we need to control ourselves." He wiped away more tears.

"So you're not saying we can't be together?"

"I'm saying for now, we need to get you through school without you being kicked out," he chuckled.

"Okay." At least he wasn't ruling out us being together. That's one problem down... heaps more to go.

"I think it's time I apologize," he said. "I lead you on and then I go -" I pushed my finger against his lips.

"Please don't." I was starting to get my headache back. "I think I've heard enough about that for one night."

I knew there were other problems to talk about like: Why is he in contact with Tasha Ozera again? Why was there a meeting about Victor Dashkov? Why does he pull away when I get to close? Will we both still be guarding Lissa? Why does he get jealous of Adrian? So many issues to address but now wasn't the time.

He studied my face and pulled me close, "I never wanted to hurt you."

"You didn't and you haven't." I rested my head in between his shoulder and head. His neck was so soft. "How was today?" Changing the subject seemed ideal. The subject of Victor Dashkov was still on my mind.

"It was long and tiring," he said while stroking my back.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I wanted to know more information about Victor.

"You know I'm not allowed too." He was drawing patterns on my shirt.

My hand was rubbing up and down his back as well. "It can be our little secret."

We stayed there for awhile just holding each other. It felt so good, him against me. I wanted to be like this every day but as I knew Dimitri too well, tonight would be the last piece of physical contact I got apart from training.

"I wish I could stay like this with you forever," I said against his neck.

"It's nice, isn't it?" He kissed the top of my hair.

"Very." I kissed his neck. This was a real gamble, but I felt so different around Dimitri. A good different. "What were you talking to Alberta about two weeks ago?" Yep, another subject I couldn't let go for tonight.

He became very stiff and stopped rubbing my back, "You know who it was about."

He didn't seem to mind my kiss on his neck earlier so I was going to try my luck again. It could go in my favour and I needed to know how Tasha Ozera was taking my guy away from me again.

"I know that." I kiss him on his neck. "I want to know -" I kissed him twice more moving up his neck "what it was -" another kissed under his jaw "about." I kissed him on the lips.

"Rose I can't -"

I pushed him down on the bed. "Don't you dare say you can't tell me, because it's just you don't want to." I was going to keep using my seductiveness. It was working right? He wasn't pulling away.

"It's getting late. You should get some rest; we are leaving early in the morning."

I lifted my leg over the other side of his body. I was now straddling him and I gave him my man eating smile.

"I don't want to rest. I want to talk to you, because it might be the last time you talk to me," my finger poked his nose.

He placed his hands on my face and pulled me close to his lips. He was teasing me. "You can always come and talk to me Roza."

"But can I always do this?" I pushed my body down on his and our lips met.

It was a slow meaningful pace that our lips moved at, showing our affection and tenderness for one another.

We stopped the kiss and looked into each other's eyes. I saw lust in his. He moved his left arms around my back and was pushing me closer to him. I scooted up his stomach to rest of just below his ribs. My hands were resting onto his chest.

We spoke about training and his bad taste in music, for what seemed like a long time. It's wasn't hard to make fun of each other. He was feeling more relaxed around me since our talk tonight.

I was starting to feel tired so I laid back down on the bed, and rested my head on his chest. He didn't seem to mind.

"You're beautiful," he whispered against my ear.

I opened my eyes to see a sleeping Dimitri. He must have fallen asleep not long after me, because he would have left the room before I was awake and used it to his advantage.

My head still lay on his chest with his arms wrapped around my waist.

Why not treasure this moment, I thought. Slowly, I sat up, looking over his body at the bedside table. It was nearly time to get up and get ready for a day in Missoula.

Dimitri's hold on me tightened as I reached for my water bottle. He looked so gorgeous when he was asleep. I slowly lay back on the bed beside him. He started to shuffle and I kissed his forehead.

He opened his eyes and smiled.

"Morning," I addressed him.

"How did you sleep?" he asked while he turned his head for the time.

"Really well. One of the best nights I've had." I had a double meaning behind my words. I wasn't sure if he caught on.

"I have to go get ready for the trip today, my sweet." He kissed my nose.

"Your sweet?" I screwed up my nose.

He chuckled and pulled off the blankets. "Dimitri," I said frustrated. "I thought I made it clear that you wouldn't be comfortable in those clothes."

"It's not like I brought another set on comfortable clothes with me." He moved out of my embrace and stood up. "I came straight off the plane to be here with you."

I stood up and wrapped my arms around his waist. "I could have helped you."

"Rose, I have to go get ready." He kissed the top of my head. Why did he do that? One moment he is all in for the romance, and then when we start to get more intimate he pulls away. It's like he remembers who he is with and then doesn't want to be around me.

"There is something I want to tell you first." I put my serious face on. "I saw something weird happen today. Jesse and Ralf are up to something."

"What did you see?" he asked intrigued.

"I was on my way to the library when I saw Ralf harass this new student, Lucia Lombardi." I rubbed my hands together to try and warm the chills away. "He had her up against the wall and Jesse was keeping watch. He wasn't doing a very good job because he didn't see me looking."

I saw a smile play on Dimitri's lips, "Maybe because you are using your ninja skills."

I laughed and said, "I'm serious, Dimitri." I play slapped his chest. "I think they are really up to something. I was watching her in the library, she has no friends to talk to or protect her."

"I'm sure it's nothing to worry about. Jesse and Ralf are always up to their tricks and nothing ever works out."

I sighed. "Yeah, I guess you're right."

He kissed me on the cheek and walked towards the door.

"Wait." I grabbed his hand and pushed him towards the bed. "I want my goodbye kiss."

"And why should I give you a goodbye kiss?" His fingers were rubbing up and down my arms.

I started to kiss his throat and slowly moved up and down against his body. "Because it's going to be a very long time before I get to be this close to you again and I want to remember it."

He moaned against my push onto his body. "Rose..."

I laughed and pushed my lips to his. His hands came up into my hair. He started to slowly move against me. Our kiss was getting rougher and his hands ran onto my back. At least he hasn't freaked out and moved away yet.

We were making out for a while before we pulled apart. We were both deeply panting. I could feel something hard against my upper thigh. I realized I gave him a hard on. It made my stomach flip thinking I could make him do that.

I started to move my body against his again when he pushed me away.

"Dimitri. What are you doing?" I asked shocked. He hadn't been soft when he pushed me away.

"Leave me alone Rose," he demanded and with that last statement, he was out of the room.