Once again, thank you to everyone for taking the time to read this, you guys are the best. :]
Okay, so I just learned shift+enter - go me! ;]
I hope you guys like this chapter - just a little warning though, Edward is a little more scary in this one, very ooc.
When I got inside Charlie was in the kitchen. I dropped my keys on the table next to the door and walked to the staircase, in a daze.
I knew Charlie knew I was home, apart from seeing him spying on me the fact that he was banging around loudly in the kitchen - making his presence known - was a give away.
"Bella?" I heard Charlie call, the fake surprise in his voice was evident. I rolled my eyes.
"Yeah Dad?" I stopped, swaying slightly with my foot on the first stair.
"You.. you want some breakfast?" he stuttered, I smiled at his awkwardness.
"Do you want breakfast Dad?" I turned and walked into the kitchen. He was sitting at the table, his paper way too close to his face, I was sure he was trying to hide something.
"Pancakes?" I asked, already pulling the ingredients out.
"Mm, yeah that'd be great" he put his paper down on the table and I could see exactly what he'd been hiding - a huge smile.
"What are you so happy about?" I asked as I crossed the room and grabbed the eggs and milk from the fridge.
"Oh nothing" he said, still grinning at me like the cat who got the canary.
"Dad.." I said, raising my eyebrows with a smile. If you're gunna spy on me then I'm gunna make you admit to it.
"I saw you and Jacob outside" Jackpot! "I've seen the way he looks at you Bella, that boy right there is infatuated" he grinned at me.
"You really think so Dad?" I asked.
"Oh absolutely," he pushed his chair away from the table and I watched him walk over to the coffeepot "I've only ever saw that particular look once before"
"When was that?" I asked, mixing the eggs in with the flour.
"With Billy and Jacob's mom" he gave me a knowing look and I grinned at him.
"I really like him Dad" I said, a blush creeping over me "I don't know why I didn't see it before, it just hit me a couple days ago"
"Neither do I Bella, Billy was always telling me that Jacob was in love with you, I couldn't see it myself - although even when you were little Jacob was always around you - as soon as you got here from Phoenix he'd have Billy bring him over to see you" he said, a little smile tugged at the corner of his mouth.
"Thank you Dad" I turned and gave him the brightest smile I'd given him in a long time.
"No problem," he leaned over and kissed my temple "Just be careful sweetheart" I glanced at him, he was rarely ever affectionate - although I knew that he loved me and he knew that I loved him we hardly ever vocalized it.
Charlie went back to his paper and I made his breakfast in relative silence. A million thoughts whizzed in my brain. If what he'd said was true I had to talk to Edward. Today. I made a plan to call Edward as soon as I'd had a shower, just before I headed over to Angela's. I would tell him that I was sorry but I just didn't feel the way I used to about him and that it was over. Simple. I set Charlie's pancakes down in front of him and headed upstairs. I definitely needed a shower. As much as I love beach-hair, this is not the look I wanna go for tonight, I thought pulling my hands through my hair.
I headed into the bathroom and turned the hot water faucet on. I let the water run over my hand before I undressed. I got into the shower and felt my worries about tonight almost melt away. I hope he's ready for what I have to say. I wasn't 1OO% sure which boy that applied to. I wrapped a towel around me and towel-dried my hair in front of the bathroom mirror. My hair was naturally wavy when it dried so I decided I would leave it like that tonight; it was too humid to really style my hair anyways.
I got about a foot into my bedroom when I suddenly felt like someone was watching me. I turned and almost screamed when I saw Edward, "Shit, Edward!" He was sitting there, stone-faced. He was so anger I could feel it rolling off him in waves. I subconsciously pulled my towel tighter around me.
"Bella" he said, his tone flat and cold.
"Edward" I almost whispered, I couldn't lie - this side of him always scared me.
"Did you see Jacob?" he asked.
"You know I did" I rolled my eyes, he was trying to play his little mind games - make me admit to what he already knew.
I closed my bedroom door, the last thing I needed was for Charlie to hear me and think that I was talking to myself. Edward was edging towards me. Like a tiger stalking it's prey.
"I trust that you two talked about what was so important that you had to visit him in the middle of the night?" he said, I nodded and he smiled strangely. I closed my eyes for a second and suddenly he was right in front of me, I gasped and took a couple steps backwards.
"Good," he said, that strange smile still on his face "Because I can't let you go to La Push again, it's far too dangerous and you know that"
"Uh, I'm going to La Push in a few hours - it's no more dangerous than going to a house full of vampires Edward!" I shouted, praying Charlie hadn't heard.
"We would never hurt you Bella, Jacob on the other hand-" I cut him off.
"Jacob wouldn't hurt me! He was the one who picked up the pieces when you left me!" I yelled, I was sure Charlie heard that. I retreated as far as I could, my back collided with the wall. Oh shit.
"You know it hurts me to know that I was the cause of so much pain for you Bella," he said "But you know that I'm only doing what's best for you"
"You're doing what's best for me? Edward, you have no idea what's best for me!" I shoved him, all my pent up frustration was taking it's toll. Of course he didn't move even the slightest inch but it gave me the upper hand, Edward was shocked.
"You keep telling me what to do, who I can see, how to think, how I should behave!" I slid away from him and stumbled to my window "You're so over-protective and jealous - Edward, you're suffocating me!"
"Bella.. I'm only trying to protect-" I cut him off.
"I don't need you to protect me Edward" I grabbed hold of my window ledge, I felt like I needed some kind of support "I need to live my own life, I need to make my own mistakes!"
"I am letting you live your own life Bella" he stated, bringing his hand up to run through his hair.
"No, Edward, you're not! You follow me around, you have Alice spy on my future, you sneak into my room when I'm not here - which by the way is very creepy! I don't feel like I have a say in my own life anymore" I ranted, he was staring at me like a kicked puppy again. Stay strong Bella, you have to do this.
"I only do that because I love you" his voice wavered a little.
"That's the problem Edward, I don't love you anymore" I sighed.
"Bella I know you don't mean that" he said, he reached out and grabbed my wrist before I could even blink "You're just confused, you've been spending too much time in La Push with those mutts" I clenched my fist when he called the Pack that, he noticed and I could've sworn he sneered.
"Edward get off!" I pried at his fingers hoping to loosen his grip, his hand felt like a vice around my wrist "I swear to God, Edward, I'll call for Charlie! Let go now!"
That struck something in him; if I was willing to call for help when Charlie didn't even know he was here then Edward knew full well that I was willing to lose him.
"Bella I-"
"No, Edward, just leave - there's nothing left to say" I pointed to my window, rubbing my wrist with my other hand; he just stood there staring at me "NOW Edward!"
He walked past me and was out of the window in a matter of seconds. I heard the soft thud as he landed and the whoosh as he took off; I knew he was gone.
My knees buckled and suddenly I was sitting on my floor, in front of my open window; clutching my redden-wrist. It wasn't the pain of breaking up that had me sitting there, it was the lack of it. I was more upset about knowing that I would lose Alice, Emmett, Jasper, Esme, Carlisle and even Rose. I expected there to be tears, maybe even a little doubt on my part but then I hadn't expected Edward to react the way he did; that's when I knew he wasn't the person I'd fallen for anymore - he'd changed.
I hope Alice forgives me.
Dun-dun-dunn! ;]
So what did you guys think? Edward's scariness was the hardest part to write + I'm still not 1OO% about it, let me know what you thought? :]
