A White Demon Love Song

by Caiti Rose

Chapter Six: Never Gonna Change

Making love to Rosalie had proven to be less helpful than before. First of all, it had lost all its passion and romance. In fact, I don't think I would call it "making love" any more. It was purely a release. Second of all, I could tell that Rose knew what was really going on. I could tell by her touches, her kisses and the facial expressions she held. I could even see it in her eyes. And lastly, how the hell was I supposed to use it to rid my thoughts of Bella when she was all I could think about during? I would touch Rosalie, rub my hands down her cold, marble skin, all the while closing my eyes and picturing... wishing… that I was feeling the warm, soft skin of Isabella Swan.

This was all getting too crazy for me to comprehend. Was I in love with her? It sure as hell didn't feel like the pure lust it felt like in the beginning. I found myself skipping school a lot. I also found myself going hunting with Japer, Alice and Carlisle. (The three of them usually went out together. They went out farther than the rest of us, making sure Jasper was nowhere near any humans. Once we start feeding, it's hard to control ourselves.) The more time away from Edward, the better. Which also meant the more time away from Bella, the better. I didn't like that part of it too much, but I knew if I would ever rid myself of this stupid crush, I would have to stay away from her. I started skipping school so frequently that Esme had to call the high school and tell them I had been ill. It wasn't until one rainy Thursday morning that I decided I wanted to go again.

I was towel-drying myself off from my shower when I was hit with Bella's scent. I looked over at the clock. It was 7 in the morning. She should be on her way to school. I opened my door just a crack to see what she was doing here. I caught her voice in the middle of a hushed argument with Edward.

"That really doesn't seem too fair Edward."

"This isn't up for negotiation." Edward's voice had finality to it. Any once else would concede right away. But I knew better. I knew Bella better- I should say.

"You're not being reasonable. Nothing is going to happen to me at school! I am not staying here while you hunt. I am going." I was surprised at the harsh tone she took with him.

"Bella, please." Edward's voice had lost its severity. I could tell he would give up before her. "I don't feel comfortable knowing you won't be protected."

It was then, that without thinking, I wrapped the towel around my waist and pushed my door open. "Bella's fine. Don't worry about her." Because I had stayed out of Edward's way recently, he knew I had been trying to get over my infatuation, and therefore had softened up to me a bit. I knew he appreciated my efforts. "I can watch out for her if you want."

He raised an eyebrow. "You're going to school today?" Suspicion dripped from his voice.

I could see Bella's eyes widen at the sight of me in a towel. I watched her eyes wander over my body and I smirked, and then quickly thought of something else. Hopefully Edward hadn't caught that. "Yeah, I decided last night. Too much time alone. I'm going crazy cooped up in here all day. Besides, Thursday is Taco Day." I winked at them. It was no secret that tacos had been my favorite food before I was changed. I still enjoyed the smell of them. It made me nostalgic. Brought back memories.

I studied Edward's face for a long while. I could see he was conflicted. He was apprehensive about my sudden urge to return to school, but he liked the idea of me watching out for Bella. I knew which side would win though. Bella's safety was the most important thing to him.

"Fine, then." He said somberly.

I grinned and walked back into my room to get dressed. I could hear Edward telling Bella that he would be back before she knew it. I rolled my eyes as I pulled a wife-beater over my head. It had been warmer this week. And I knew I needed a shirt that would show-off my muscles. I pictured Alice laughing at me. She always called me "a girl" when it came to clothes. I was always looking for things that would compliment my physique. I would then retort that I had worked hard for a body like this, why not show it off?

I smiled to myself thinking about this light-hearted exchange between Alice and me. That was a better time, before she was scolding at me whenever I saw her. I suddenly got annoyed and my smile faded. Why didn't they trust me? Alice and Edward. I told them a thousand times. It didn't matter how I felt about that human, I would NOT do anything to jeopardize our family.

I grabbed my school back, now shoved in the back of my closet, and walked out my door again. "Ready, Bella?"

She smiled at me, a truly happy, earnest smile, and nodded. I had missed being around her so much, and I could almost feel in her smile that she had missed me just as much. No. My thoughts we fierce and wild. No, she loves Edward. She didn't miss me. She barely knows me.

I walked down the stairs and pulled her into a one-armed hugged, then turned to usher out the door. Before I could, I felt an ice-cold hand on the exposed skin of my shoulder. "Bella, will you go wait for Emmett in the car?"

Bella looked from Edward to me and back again, then walked out the front door and to my Jeep. I turned to look at Edward, eyebrows raised. "What's up?"

"You remember what we discussed?" Edward's voice was nothing more than a quiet but vicious growl.

"Relax. I gave you my word. I won't touch her." I turned without looking in Edward's eyes and walked to the car.

It was true. As excited as I was to be alone with Bella, I wouldn't do anything. We'd laugh and joke and talk and get along wonderfully. But at the end of the day she would return to Edward and she would be his and he would be hers. That's just the way it was. And the way it always would be…

A/N: Thank you all so much for the wonderful reviews and words of encouragement! They keep me going. And a special thank you to Neea for wishing me luck with school. I could definitely use it these days ;)