Rating:
This chapter is Rated M.
The reason this chapter is Rated M, is because there are sexual references and sexual scenes.
This chapter doesn't go into too much information about sex, but I'm being cautious.
For the fans who don't want to read Rated M details, I suggest you stop reading when Rose says, "I don't want it any other way."
Beta:
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Authors Notes:
I've read all of your theory's for 'Last Sacrifice,' and they are very interesting. :)
Here is the chapter a lot of the fans have been waiting for!
Let me know what you thought about this chapter, please!
Also just remember, it's the beginning of Rose and Dimitri's intimate relationship, so over time things will heat up more!
Disclaimer:
The author Richelle Mead owns the Vampire Academy universe. I Want To Experience Love is a Vampire Academy Fan Fiction story and it is not intended to infringe on any copyrights held by Richelle Mead or Razor Bill Company. Richelle Mead is the creator of the Vampire Academy characters, however this story is my original work. Copyright 2010 by xx-RedRoseBlackThorn-xx. No copying or reproduction of this work is permitted without my express written authorization.
CHAPTER NINETEEN
My Lust Control
I was walking to my bedroom in a hurry. Not too far in the future, Dimitri was going to be joining me. After eating my birthday cake with my family and friends, I thanked them very much for the surprise and for making my eighteenth a birthday to remember. Dimitri told me to run along first to my room because we couldn't leave together; otherwise, it might look suspicious. He was still officially on guard duty so he would only be able to come when everyone had left and taken off to their dorms for the night.
After messing around with the key in the lock to my door, I finally got inside. Closing the door, I laid my head against it to rest. Tonight had been amazing, but there was still much more to come. Smiling to myself, I tried my best to clean up my room as much as possible. I picked up all the clothes off the floor, putting them either back in the clothes drawer or in the washing basket. I made my bed with blue silk sheets and blankets and puffed my pillows up. I closed the curtains, tapped the touch lamp until it was on its lowest setting, making the room have little light but still relatively dark, (as dark as it can be, since in the Moroi world it's day time outside). I walked into the bathroom to brush my teeth and added perfume.
Knock, Knock, Knock.
My heart starting beating extremely fast and I ran the short distance to the door. There he was – Dimitri. He was wearing what he wore to the party, as so was I. He also had a bag with him that looked rather bulky.
"May I come in?" He asked with a small smile.
I nodded all too eagerly and slid to the side of the door, to let him in. After shutting and locking the door behind me, I turned around to the most gorgeous chocolate brown eyes. I reached up on my toes and kissed him on his lips.
"What's with the bag?"
He raised his eyebrow and said, "An all too enthusiastic beautiful young lady forgot the presents her loving family got her."
I gasped as I had totally forgotten about the gifts I was given. The wrapped gifts. I immediately thought about what my friends would think of me, but I'll make sure to thank them all tomorrow.
"I was too caught up in my own world, that I forgot."
"It seems that way," he said while sitting on the end of the bed.
"Should I open them?"
"It's up to you," he shrugged.
I sat beside him and smiled. "I want to open them."
Dimitri passed me a medium sized present, with a card attached to the top. I carefully opened the envelope and read it aloud.
"Dear Rose, congratulations on turning eighteen. I hope you enjoy your gift, from St Vladimir Guardians." I looked up to Dimitri, who tried not to laugh. "You knew about this?"
"Yep, open it up."
I opened it and it was a small trophy palate. It had my name in the middle and all the awards I had won, since starting the academy at the age of four.
"No way," I laughed. "I'm going to treasure this forever."
Dimitri handed me another envelope which was from Carly, Lucia, Meredith, Shane, Bruno and Todd. They had all given me $50, which ended up as $300 in my savings account.
Next was Eddie's present. I ripped it open to find out it was a Digital Camera.
"Oh my god, how awesome is this?" I turned the camera on.
"It looks like a decent one too, Rose. Don't lose it," Dimitri stated.
I leaned in closer to him and he put his arm around my waist. I pushed my arm out and tried to take a photo of Dimitri and me. I turned the camera around to have a look, and it wasn't too bad. Dimitri had a little smirk on his lips and I was showing all my teeth.
Next was a present from Lissa. It was shaped like a book, and I started to wonder what kind of book she would be giving me for my birthday. I have to admit I was a little nervous when opening the present. I held it in my hands and looked all over the cover. It was a digital photo album. It was like a book, except it had photos on the page instead, like pictures of a story. The cover of the book also had a photo as a cover. It was of me and Lissa when we were two years old.
"You were a beautiful baby," whispered Dimitri.
"Yeah sure, if you think me being chubby is beautiful."
"Rose, whether you're skinny or fat doesn't make a difference because you'll always be beautiful."
I pecked him on his lips and looked through the photo album with him. At the beginning of the book were photos of me when I was born, including mum, and went up until I met Lissa. There were photos of us in the mud, crying, laughing and even playing with Andre when he was a child. My age kept getting older in the photos, and some of them I didn't even know were taken. I saw a photo of Lissa parents teaching me how to ride a horse, plenty of photos with Mason and Eddie and it kept going up into the age of was now. Surprisingly there was a photo of Adrian and Christian in the photo album, but that wasn't the biggest surprise of all. The biggest surprise was the photos of Dimitri and I. There was one with us training, one when we went shopping earlier in the year and one at the Ski Lodge.
I looked up at Dimitri and he was still staring at the last photo in the album. It was me when I replaced Christian for Lissa at the Royal dinner at the Ski Lodge.
"You're not angry are you?" I asked quietly.
He looked straight back at me and said, "Why would I be angry? This was a lovely idea."
"I thought you might be annoyed at the fact that Lissa took these photos, without your knowledge."
"It surprised me at first. She was sneaky about it," he reached up and rubbed my cheek down to my neck with his thumb. "But I'm not angry, I like these photos. I just didn't think I would see myself in a photo with you... yet. The emotion in your eyes is... strong."
"That's how I look at you. My connection and need for you is strong."
We stared into each other's eyes until Dimitri broke away and handed me another present.
"It's from your Mother."
"I'm worried. She hasn't brought me a present since I was ten," I winced.
He smirked and tried to recover himself, "she is trying her best, Rose."
I opened the present and it was a mobile phone. It wasn't one of the new Iphone's but it was a LG enV touch mobile phone. Dimitri helped me set the phone up, and noticed a note in the box. It was from my mother telling me to add her number at the bottom of the page in the phone, and give her a text when I set the phone up. So I sent her a text and thanked her for the gift. I also got Dimitri's number from him and added him as Dee. It was in case someone saw the text, so I could say it was a girl I met at the Ski Lodge. I don't know what he put my name after; I guess that's something I will have to find out.
Dimitri stared at the next present, and his lips came together in a straight line.
"Dimitri, who's it from?"
He breathed in and passed it over to me. I looked at the name and sighed.
"I didn't ask him to."
"Even if you did, it wouldn't have mattered to him. He does whatever he wants to do and he gets away with it," he growled.
"I've spoken to him lately, and he has changed. Maybe it won't be so bad," I insisted.
Dimitri watched me carefully open the tiny present and froze once he saw what was inside. I stared at it for a while myself, not believing what my eyes showed me. Adrian had given me a credit card. I couldn't believe it; however, it was so like him to show off his money. But giving me a credit card – what was he thinking? I couldn't use it, knowing it would be his money I was spending. I just couldn't do it, and I am going to tell him that as well.
"I'm giving it back to him," I said frustrated.
"I believe that's a good idea," Dimitri said, barely moving.
"There's only one more present to open," I said, pointing to the last box in the bag. "Let's get this over with."
Dimitri didn't move to pick up the present, so I reached over him and picked it up myself. As I was starting to go back to my sitting position, he grabbed me by my hips, and pulled me down on him, so he was now lying on his back. He didn't let go of my hips, however he did bring his lips to mine and kissed them like there was no tomorrow. I moaned against his lips and moved my hands up to let his hair down. My legs parted and were now over his. I tried to move myself up his body, but he caught on and stopped the kiss. I pouted and he only chuckled at me.
"You have Christian's present to open, remember?" he teased.
"I suppose I could open it," I murmured, still annoyed that Dimitri pulled away.
"Well if you aren't interested, then I guess I'll be putting it back over here," he said taking it back to the bag.
"No wait. Of course I want to open it. I'd love to see what Fire-boy got me," I grimaced.
I opened the wrapping to find it had another layer of wrapping to open. When I ripped it off the second time, there was a third layer.
"Oh, for fucks sake Christian," I growled.
Instead of Dimitri getting up me for my language, he did the opposite; he chuckled.
I finally got through the layers of wrapping and my eyes widened. Christian had gotten me an Itouch. I couldn't believe it. Christian knew me quite well. I've been wanting one for ages. I turned it on and noticed there were already songs on there. The playlist was named Christian, not spontaneous at all. I laughed out loud and Dimitri gave me a questioning look while raising his eyebrow.
"Christian decided to add some songs for herself."
He chuckled and said, "Herself? How come I wasn't notified of his sex change?"
I laughed back at Dimitri because it was the first time I had heard him play around. I gave him an ear plug and put the other in my ear. I clicked on the first song and it was 'Disconnected' by 'Trapt'.
Dimitri pulled out his earplug and said, "Defiantly not my taste in music, my sweet."
"I'm so lucky. I've been gifted the best presents, and I have the best friends. Not only that but I have the best boyfriend."
For the second time since I've known Dimitri, I saw him blush. He stood up and grabbed my hand. I saw his other hand move to the pocket of his suit pants and in his hand was a box.
He cleared his throat and said, "There's one more present left."
I looked at him shocked, with my eyes wide and mouth wide open. He had a box, he was holding my hand, we were both dressed up, and it was birthday. It can't be an... engagement ring, could it? No, Dimitri wouldn't propose to me. Then what else could it be... Oh dear, he is going to ask me to marry him. Oh my god. I can't breath, I can't breath. I mentally hit myself. Shut up you idiot. This is the guy you love, what else would you say other than yes.
"Rose, you take my breath away when I look at you. I can't think straight when you're around me. You and I have had our differences, but in the end they come together as one. I want to spent my life with you until I die, and even then, my soul will be forever yours." He opened the box and it took my breath away.
There, in my eyesight, were two beautiful matching gold rings. The rings had two bands and on each band was a heart. On one band was an emerald heart and the other was a ruby heart. My heart was racing a thousand miles an hour, and I was so shocked at Dimitri's proposal. He wasn't asking me to marry him, so I felt a little disappointed. At the same time, I wasn't ready to get married.
"Rose, will you do me the honour, of accepting this promise ring?"
"Yes, yes yes!" I jumped up and wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him with full force.
"Steady Rose," he chuckled and pulled me back. "I still didn't put it on."
He slipped the ring on my ring finger and it fitted perfectly.
"Dimitri! it's perfect!"
"Just like you, my love."
"You didn't need to give me anything. I already have you, that's all I need."
Dimitri held my chin up to look him in the eyes, "I know I didn't need to give you anything, but I wanted too. I know it's not an engagement ring, but I'd like to think it's the next step up from where we are now. The ring signifies my love, my protection, my friendship and my soul, because it's all for you."
"As the other ring means the same to you, Dimitri. Where is the other ring?" I looked around franticly.
"It's here," he showed me the ring in the box.
"Let me put it on you, as you did for me."
As I was lifting the ring out of the box, I noticed there was engravings on the inside of the bands. On the inside of the first band of the ring, it had 'навсегда'. I don't speak Russian, so I'll have to ask Dimitri, but on the inside of the second band was the date '17/09/09'. I let out a loud gasp when I realised the date. It was the day Dimitri had caught Lissa and I in Portland to bring us back to St Vladimir.
"It's the date I fell for you, Roza," he said with a big smile.
"As I fell for you, Dimitri. Please tell me something though..."
"Of course." He looked worried by my choice of words.
"What does it say in Russian?"
He laughed and said, "навсегда it means 'forever'.
"nar vek ki," I said trying to coping how he said it.
He let out a natural laugh and said, "Here copy me. Na..."
"Na."
"Ve..."
"Veh..."
He chuckled, "no, Ve..."
"Ve."
"Ki."
"Ki."
"See Roza, you can do it. Now, try and pull it all together. It rolls off your tongue, naveki."
I took a breath, closed me eyes and thought about the word. Dimitri was actually willing to teach me this word, so the least I could do was remember it.
"I love you Dimitri, naveki."
He cupped my face and brought my lips to his. "You better be careful, we are bound together now."
"I don't want it any other way."
My hands found his loose hair, while his rested on my hips. I reached up and softly moved my lips along his. He responded almost immediately and moaned against my lips. Dimitri made the kiss accelerate, and it picked up speed rather fast. He was in total control of our lips moving. He started to suck on my bottom lip, and I moaned out in pleasure, taking in some air. He slammed his lips back to mine and his tongue traced my bottom lip for entrance. I accepted his offer and our tongues found each other. Our tongues were battling for dominance, having there own war to win. Finally, he won. Once again, Dimitri had control over my body.
I reluctantly pulled out of the kiss to breath, but his lips never left my skin. He nibbled from my earlobe, down my cheek, and along my neck to my collarbone where he planted heavy kisses. The want I had for him was starting to boil and I pushed him back onto the bed. He stared at me, and I saw desire in his eyes. I gave him my best man eating smile and playfully bit his neck. He let out a hiss and I moved up to look him in the eyes. He took the advantage to kiss the top of my nose and find his way to my neck. He found a sensitive area on my neck, and he knew it because I couldn't keep in the moan I made. I felt his teeth bite down and tongue swirl around on my neck.
I don't know how I thought straight, but while he was sucking, I slid my hands up his shirt, to feel his wonderful, sculpted muscles. His sucking became harder. Not too hard to hurt, but not soft either. I then realised it was because he felt me touching his chest. I let my fingers trail down to the bottom of his shirt and then found his suit. I slowly undid his buttons to the best ability I could without moving my neck to see. He let go and I found it easier to breathe again. He followed my glaze to his suit and he yanked the suit open, with buttons falling off.
"I had a way of taking it off, without destroying it," I giggled.
"You were going too slow," his voice was low.
Dimitri then flipped me over so I was now the one lying on the bed. He was looking down at me with a small smile on his lips. He started to nibble on my jaw and slowly trailed down to the other side of my neck. He then bit it and sucked on it like he did on the other. I had no doubt that he left a major love bite on my neck, soon to be another. My hands went to the bottom of his white shirt and pulled it up. He pulled away from my neck and moved so I could lift the shirt over his head. I took in his body, kissing his delicious lips. His hands trailed up my thigh under my dress, and a frill of desire heated up in me. I kissed him down his neck and all the way to his chest. I then slowly made my way to the end of his stomach, right above his pant line. I felt him shiver above me.
"That's not fair, Roza. You are able to see me, yet you are still covered," he purred beside my ear.
"There's nothing stopping you," I managed to squeak out.
He looked me in the eyes, and I gave him a small smile, letting him know I'm ready. He flipped us over again, and I was now straddling him. He never took his eyes off mine as he slowly left a burning trail on my skin where his fingers touched. His fingers caught the zip at the back of my dress and he slowly brought the zip down. With his eyes still looking in mine, his hands came to the dress straps and slid them down my arms. With the dress now floppy, revealing a small part of my Elsa Floral lace bra with cute little bows. He sat up, taking me with him. However, I was now standing. I bit my lip, preparing for Dimitri to see my body fully for the second time, (Victor's lust spell was the first). He noticed my hesitation and asking permission with his eyes.
My eyes must have told him my response, because his hand only needed to pull the dress down a little bit, and it fell to the ground. Dimitri's eyes roamed all over my body, and a smile was tugging on his lips. He pulled me to him, while growling and I was now sitting on him, with my legs around his waist. His lips moved with mine, showing me love and hunger at the same time. My hands moved within his hair. One of his soft, calloused hands threaded in my hair while the other wrapped around my back. I started feeling the need to be closer to him, so I tried pushing myself closer, my core feeling a hardness beneath me. Dimitri groaned and his head stopping moving on my neck.
The silence continued between us and before I spoke to Dimitri, I wanted to make sure my breathing was even. He didn't move his face away from my neck, but his breathing was slowing down as well. It was then that I realised that we had gone too far for Dimitri. As least we got this far right? But god, I wanted him so bad. No, still want him. His hold on me was still tight and my hands never left his hair.
"Dimitri..." I whispered. "Hey, look at me."
Dimitri moved from my neck and I saw the pain in his eyes.
"It's okay. You've made this the best night I've ever had." I was waiting for him to have a mood swing, but it didn't come. Yet.
"This was meant to be your night." He struggled to get the next sentence out, "it was going to be our night."
"Oh, Dimitri. It was our night and it still is." I cupped his face in my hands. "I love you, naveki."
Dimitri's emotion didn't change; not a crack of a smile, or emotion in his eyes. It was then I realised the information I had looked up. It was ways to stimulate a guy who is afraid of commitment, hence, intimacy. I wanted to give it a go, but Dimitri stopped here. I wanted to get just a tad more intimate with his body, to try at least one of the experiments.
"Dimitri, I'm going to tell you something, but I don't want you to get mad at me." He moved his head so he was looking me in the eye and waited. "I did more research," I waited for him to snap, but he didn't. "There are ways where I can slowly try to stimulate you, and you'd do the same for me. So we can slowly build up our intimacy. But, it can only work if... if you let me get a bit further."
Dimitri moved us out of our sitting position; leaving me sitting on the bed while he was standing up, looking like he might blow.
"What are these things?" He said through gritted teeth.
"Um... well I'll just tell you about the first step for now." I sneaked a peak at his face and quickly looked down again. "You have to touch my breats," I said in a low, soft voice.
"What's that meant to do?" His voice wasn't as gritted but still harsh.
"It's meant to let you get a little physical with the opposite sex. It's so you've got control. You'll be touching me... I'm not touching you." I bit my lip waiting for him to yell.
"I can't do this," he said turning around to grab his shirt.
"Wait! Please, it might help. It's worth a shot, right?"
He looked at me like I was blind, "you honestly want me after..." He couldn't even finish it, he looked so disgusted with himself.
"Yes, I do. I'll always want you. I know you want me too Dimitri. I see it, I... feel it. All I'm saying is give it one shot, and if it doesn't work, then I won't pursue it."
He closed his eyes, and I knew he was thinking about it. "I'll give it a go, but... only for you."
I stood up and Dimitri still showed no emotion. I wrapped my hands around his waist and pulled him to me. My head was resting on his chest when I felt his big, strong arms hold me tight to him.
"Да благословит вас Господь, Roza. Вы - единственный - этот мир, кто мог нарушить мой барьер. Я нуждаюсь в Вас также, моей любви." He said to me softly.
"What did you say?" I asked looking up at his face. It had now softened.
"God bless you Roza. You – are the only one – in this world, who could break my barrier. I need you too, my love."
I shook my head, "That's just too much for me to remember."
He gave me a crooked smile and I went up on my tip toes to give him a chaste kiss. It was then that I realised I was still only wearing my underwear and bra set. I blushed and bit my lip. He arched his eyebrow and I explained.
"I just realised – what I'm wearing."
He looked over my body once more and gave me a big smile. "You look sexy, don't ever be ashamed."
I bit my lip and moved closer to his body. I twined my arms around his neck and his hands went to my hips. Out lips met, and they moved in a slow synchronisation. He pushed me back onto the bed with his body leaning on me. He wasn't using all his weight, because he had both hands on either side of my face holding him up on the bed. His wet kisses trailed along my neck to my collarbone. He slowly kissed further down my chest and stopped just above my bra. He then picked up his trail from underneath my bra and went down along my stomach. I let a moan escape, and I felt his smile on my skin. He trailed his kisses back up, to above my bra and my body arched up to his. His hands unclasped my bra and I felt the weight of the bra drop.
Dimitri pulled the bra off and took me in, his eyes darted from my breasts to my eyes and his lips clashed with mine. My breasts were now free rubbing against his bare chest, and the feeling was surreal. Dimitri's hand travelled to my left breast, and started to play with it. I let out a gasp and he stopped and looked at me. I gave him a little nod, and he continued to kiss my lips while fondling with my breast. Dimitri's mouth left mine and moved down to my free breast. Dimitri started to suck on it, and a laughing moan escaped my lips. I then felt his teeth nibble on my tit, and I started squirming around under him. I wanted him so bad; I needed him!
He froze on my breast, and I knew he got to a point which would be too much. I didn't say anything; not wanting to embarrass myself, since I was basically naked, except I had underwear on. His hand started to play with my other breast, and I didn't know what was happening. His lips sent a wonderful sensation through my body when he attached them to the breast he was working on earlier. His tongue swirled around making me moan more frequently. He then swapped sucking that breast and the first was now getting a massage.
He finished with the other one and kissed all the way until the middle of my breasts. Both of his hands went to my hips and he kissed the middle of my cleavage. He looked up into my eyes, and I gave him a smile for succeeding with the first step. I brought his head to mine and we made out a while longer. He let me unbutton his pants and all he was left in was his boxers, and that was fair for me.
He laid down on my bed and pulled me towards him. No words were needed, we knew what each other was thinking. We laid there looking into each others eyes, for so long. My eyes started to get tired and he moved to relax on his back. I placed my head on his chest, and the next thing I knew, I was dreaming happily in the arms of the man I loved.