Josh stood up pissed and walked out of the hospital as soon as he saw Kerry's figure walking towards him pissed off already he stormed passed Kerry tried to open her mouth to talk to him but she saw that there was no point in it. If Josh lost Shannon she didn't know how he would cope Shannon had put him back together and now if she died Josh wouldn't cope not again. Kerry sighed before walking up to Lawson and asking him about Shannon's condition
"She is in surgery, a through and through that's about all we know" said Lawson as he went after Josh through the hospital doors. He saw Josh his head in his hands as tears fell down his face memories of Grace in hospital coming back to him and Shannon's body convulsing through Leon's monitors back at Base
"Josh" came Lawson's voice Josh turned his body around with extreme quickness thinking that Shannon had been taken out of surgery
"Is she out?" asked Josh hope written through his face
"No Josh she isn't Kerry, Stella and Michael are inside waiting" said Lawson noticing the way that Josh's face dropped
"I should have been there" growled Josh his hands gripping the railing his knuckles turning white
"No Josh, NOBODY could have predicted it If I could have do you think that she would have left base this morning? No" said Lawson trying to figure out in his head how everything had gone so wrong
"I know but I couldn't help Grace I was away from her and I was away from Shannon, Lawson If I lose her I wont be able to keep going" said Josh a tear sliding down his face
"Josh what happened to Grace it wasn't your fault" said Lawson placing his hand onto Josh's shoulder
"yeah I know that is what Shannon taught me, I love her Lawson, every bloody person I love ends up dead" growled Josh another tear sliding down he face
"I know that you love her Josh and don't think that it is your fault that people have died, it was never your fault so never blame yourself" said Lawson noticing the glass hospital door opening as he saw Kerry walking through it he sighed, Josh sensed his change and looked behind him wandering what had happened before Kerry reached them Josh's temper rising, Kerry spoke
"Josh you cant blame me I couldn't predict what would have happened" said Kerry anger crossing her face
"I SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE" yelled Josh Lawson quickly pinning him to the rail behind him as Josh went to punch Kerry.
so what do you think about this chapter? I will upload the next part by the end of the weekend (next three days) sorry got more exams coming up plus SO much school work that it isn't funny. Reviews seriously make my day :)