Rating:
This chapter is Rated M.
The reason this chapter is Rated M, is because there are sexual references and sexual scenes.
This chapter does get hot and heavy. There's no home base, but there is third base!

For the fans who don't want to read Rated M details, I suggest you stop reading when Rose says, "and what do you want to do to me?" and continue reading when Dimitri says, "Hmm. Relax, my beautiful."

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Authors Notes:
I can't believe the amount of reviews I received about Christian's death! I'll write this again - you are all wonderful!
I know it's hard on some of you, because Rose believes he is gone, but please trust me, it was for the story.
Also, many things can still happen in this story. I know how it ends, and I will say please don't give up hope yet. There may be a way for him to return. :)
If you are unable to read the M rated sections: please notify me in a review and I will give you a brief outline.

Disclaimer:
The author Richelle Mead owns the Vampire Academy universe. I Want To Experience Love is a Vampire Academy Fan Fiction story and it is not intended to infringe on any copyrights held by Richelle Mead or Razor Bill Company. Richelle Mead is the creator of the Vampire Academy characters, however this story is my original work. Copyright 2010 by xx-RedRoseBlackThorn-xx. No copying or reproduction of this work is permitted without my express written authorization.

CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX

Life Resolution

The room was spinning. I groaned and laid my body back down on my bed. I badly wanted to be sitting out in the waiting room at the medical clinic, but my body wouldn't let me. After the fight I had with Dimitri in the emergency room, I was physically exhausted, and not long after he pulled me out of the room... I fainted. I was an emotional and physical wreck. The next thing I remember was waking up in my own room in my own bed, not able to move without feeling like I'm going to gag. I tried reaching over to the table near by to grab my glass of water, and I suddenly had another head spin. I moaned and rolled onto my side, as Dimitri walked into the room.

"Hey beautiful," his velvet voice spoke. "Sorry I wasn't here when you woke up. How are you feeling?" He reached up and brushed the hair out of my face, tucking it behind my ears.

"I feel like shit," I glared at him, letting him know I wasn't letting him off the hook about dragging me away from Christian.

"Here, have some water." He handed me the glass and I was about to take a full gulp when he said, "not that much, just a sip. You need to go easy, otherwise you are going to be resting in this bed a lot longer than you intend."

I took a sip of water and dramatically smiled up at him. His caring expression didn't change; it was like he was ignoring my attitude. He continued to caress my cheek, while I lied down, lost in my thoughts.

"Dimitri," I whispered. "You heard me, didn't you?" I knew he heard me whisper "I love you," to Christian.

He nodded his head.

"It's not what you think." I said in defence. "I – He – It's not the same love. I love you with my heart, my mind, my body and my soul. I just never really told him how much he meant to me, and saying 'I love you' felt right. It was the shortest way I could explain how I care about him without rambling on. I would never say it to his face. I just wished I... If that was you there instead of him, I would be-"

"Rose, it's okay. You don't need to-"

"But I do. I want to explain. I owe-"

"No. No you-"

"Would you just let me-"

Dimitri's lips were on mine, that instant. They were warm and soft. They showed loved and tenderness.

"Thank you for my room," I muttered into his neck.

"I thought you were feel more comfortable in here."

"I wasn't talking about bringing me here. I was talking about cleaning up my room."

"I know what you mean, Rose," he smirked.

Dimitri passed me again the glass of water and I took little sip to satisfy him. I pulled him down on top of me, but he shook his head and moved to lay down beside me. I gave him a pout, but he just chuckled and told me to rest. I let my arm rest on his chest, and his breathing rhythm helped me fall to sleep. It took a while for my eye lids to drop fully, because every time I tried I would see Christian's face and I would shudder. Dimitri would try and bring me closer to his body, but realistically I couldn't get any closer. The closest I could get was, well, intimacy, and that wasn't going to be happening right now. Dimitri made it quite clear. I woke up to an empty bed. It was disappointing to find he once again, let me wake up without him beside me. I was about to turn over and try to get more rest, until I heard muffled voices outside my door.

I slowly sat up in bed, too worried that I might not be able to walk yet without feeling dizzy. To my delight, nothing too dramatic happened. I took it slow, and reached over for a sip of water. I pulled the bed covers away and realised I was only dressed in my bra and underwear. Dimitri must have stripped me down when I was asleep. I risked the chance to stand up, and when I did I had no problem with my balance. It seemed the rest did me good. I sneaked up to the door and placed my ear on the wood, listening to the voices on the other-side.

"Doesn't her age concern you?" Tasha's voice was disgusted.

"No."

"Not even just a little bit?"

Dimitri sighed, "I'm not going to lie. We do have several years between us, but mentally and emotionally she is at the same standard."

"You're kidding right? You saw the way she acted before. That is not at the same mature standard."

"Tasha, she was losing someone she clearly cares deeply about. You would be the same. No, you were the same. I saw that you wanted to follow her straight in there. You would have if I didn't turn up when I did."

"That's the difference," she paused. "I could have, but I didn't. I'm more stable for you Dimka. Why can't you see that?"

"I'm not going there again with you Tasha. I've told you what I needed to say," he spoke sternly.

She huffed and sweetened her voice. "Does she know?"

There was a no paused on Dimitri behalf.

"Know what?"

"Does she know about you?"

"Yes, I told her," he hissed.

"And? She won't wait for long. You know that right?" I detected the smile in her voice. "She'll say she'll be there for you, as long as you need, but she will get tired. She won't be able to stay and wait. She's too young to understand the responsibility. I'm not. I've always been there for you Dimka."

"If that's what she chooses than I won't stop her from leaving, but until then, I'm going to keep holding onto her," he whispered.

"It's such a shame. Will you at least consider my proposition?"

"I will rethink it over, but my answer still stands. I'm staying with Rose until she doesn't want me any more"

"It won't be too long now, Dimka. It'll be easier on you and me if you come with me now, instead of later. Why didn't you answer my calls?"

"There was nothing to say..."

"Why are you doing this? There is plenty to say..." She sighed, "I gave you time and space after you made your decision to stay here, hoping you would finally see sense and change your mind. Obviously, she has diluted you."

"Tasha, you are a close friend of mine. I do not want to have to ruin our friendship," his warning brought my body to shiver.

"Consider me warned," she laughed, "I'll be waiting for you. You and I are meant to be, there is no other for either of us."

Dimitri growled, "that's where you are wrong! I have found someone else, and they love me back. I'm sorry you haven't been able to find someone to return your love, but please, be happy for me. I've finally found someone who I can connect with on a whole other level. Don't I deserve to have that?"

"I returned your love, Dimitri. She is too young to understand love!"

"Rose understands more than you give her credit for. She is an extraordinary woman," he gloated.

She gave a soft sly chuckle, "that's why I don't doubt that she knows there's a better life out there for her. Where she doesn't need to wait. Where someone can show her how much they love her. I'm doing this for you, Dimka. I'm looking out for you!"

I heard a loud thud on the wall, and realised it must have been Dimitri hitting the wall in fury. He doesn't get angry often, but when he does, you should know not to push his buttons. Either Tasha obviously doesn't understand, or she just doesn't give a shit. I think I'll go with she just doesn't give a shit.

"I show her all the time, Tasha. She knows how much I love her," he seethed.

I heard a cackle and a softer, "I bet she does," fade away.

I realised Tasha had walked away, and Dimitri would either: walk away and get some fresh air, or walk back into the room. I quickly moved away from the door and pulled the covers of the bed up. I heard the door handle turn, so I shoved my eyes closed. I felt the bed move down in weight and Dimitri lips kissed my temple. I stayed still for a while, hoping that he didn't realise I was awake. I started to move slightly and stretch my arms.

"One of these days, I'm going to have to teach you how to eavesdrop without being detected," he whispered in my ear.

I froze, and thought how I could respond. How the hell did he know?

"I'm intrigued, Comrade. Why would you think that?"

Dimitri kissed a trail down my neck, "you can never fool me, Roza."

"I'm starting to believe that's true," I sighed. "I didn't hear all of the conversation. Only the bit I woke up too."

"I know." He kissed my nose and his eyes turned worried. "You're feeling better then?"

"Yeah... I think the rest was needed. I managed to walk up to the door without falling. That's a pass, isn't it?"

Dimitri nodded and laid back down on his back. His face turned cold and distant. I wasn't sure whether he was angry that I eavesdropped or if he was just pissed off at Tasha. My eyes found his knuckles, where they were starting to bruise and had scratches.

"You know it wasn't necessary for you to punch the wall for dramatic effect," I smiled.

"I'm sorry you had to hear that."

"I'm not. I'm glad I got to hear it. She is a bitch..." I stopped and saw his pained face. "Thank you for supporting me."

His head turned towards me, "why wouldn't I? I would protect you with everything I have."

"I know you would. I appreciate it. Are you sure... you – are you sure you want to be with me?" I blurted out all at once in a hurry.

Dimitri pushed me down further on the bed, and held his body over mine. "There is no one else I want to be with."

I nodded and kiss his chin. I couldn't reach up to his mouth. I knew Dimitri loved me back, but I had to ask had and make sure, and yet again, Dimitri let me speechless. I was one lucky woman to have Dimitri Belikov – the god! I held his right hand with my own and brought it up to my lips. I kissed each knuckle on his hand, making him close his eyes. He opened them up, realising that I had finished and pulled his weight away from my own. I was feeling cold and moved out of bed to put a shirt and pants on. I knew he took the clothes off me because I wasn't well, but now I was feeling the cold. He didn't seem to notice, because he continued to stare up at the ceiling. I moved back under the blankets and I felt detached and wanted his body on my once more. He closed his eyes and sighed. He needed to rest and be alone, but he was in my room. I intertwined our fingers, and gave his cheek a peck before closing my own eyes to relax. The room was silent with only our breathing making any noise in the room. I was the one to break the comfortable silence after what seemed like hours, but I don't think he minded.

"Dimitri..."

"Mm," he murmured and pulled me closer to him.

"We are in this for the long run... You don't want to back out, do you?"

Dimitri's eyes were still closed when he answered me, "I want to be with you. If the thought scares you, then I suggest you say something before we make a proper commitment."

"I'm not leaving you. Ever," I stated firmly. "What proper commitment did you have in mind?"

"Engagement, marriage, living together, children, work, grandchildren."

"They all sound so nice, but what are we kidding. We can't have it all."

Dimitri's eyes popped open and he turned on his side to look at me better. "Why not? Why can't we have it all? We can make anything happen. I will try and give you anything and everything."

"Queen Tatiana will hardly even let us get married, let alone work or live together. And children... that's impossible. You know we can't have children," I whispered.

"Roza," he purred, "if I have to, I'll quit. You can still be guarding Princess Vasilisa, and I'll find work someone else. We can get married and live together. Tatiana won't have a say in the matter. As for children..." he trailed off. "It isn't impossible. You can still have children. I'll still love him or her as they are my own. We can make it all happen."

I looked at him in shock. His face was showing all honestly and sincerity. What he was saying was that he would retire from the duty he loved and cared dearly for, so he and I could have a life together. He would also sacrifice his love for me so we could have children. There was no way I would have sex with a Moroi man in the hopes of becoming pregnant. I wouldn't do that to Dimitri and I couldn't see myself even thinking like that.

"Oh, Dimitri. There are other ways. We will work through them. How about I just get through graduation first," I softly chuckled.

"I think that is a wise idea," he said.

"You're not leaving me before than are you?" I hesitated to ask. Dimitri gave me a questioning look and I responded, "the mission. What's going on there?"

"The council has had enough of all the threats and break ins. They think they have enough information to support where the Strigoi are for an surprise attack."

"Since when has the council been known to take action into their own hands? What about the policy of not hunting down Strigoi?"

"Under the circumstances, they believe it is the right time to put matter into our own hands, with the upper privileged. They're certain they know where they are hiding out," he informed me.

I punched the bed, "that's insane, and suicidal. As long as it's none of their own, they'll put us in danger!"

"Hey," he said as he held my hand in his. "We are well prepared."

"How? You don't even know how many Strigoi are there. What about Victor? You and I believe he is working with them... they don't know that. If they did, they would know it would be more dangerous. Dimitri, please don't go."

"You don't have faith in me?" He asked with a small teasing smile.

"Sure I do," I frowned.

"Everything will go to plan, Rose. Graduation is only less then two weeks away. The mission will be finished by then."

Dimitri seemed so confident I didn't want to let him down, so I smiled and nodded. He rubbed my arms up and down, sending a shiver down my spine. I jumped on top of him and giggled. He moved his lips to my neck and started nibbling. I moaned and moved my neck back so he could have better access. I frowned when I suddenly remembered Tasha, and I pushed away.

"Did I hurt you?" Dimitri asked.

"No... I, ah... thought of something, or... someone."

Dimitri gave me a worried look, "tell me."

"Don't get mad at me, but, well, I can't help but think about Tasha."

He frowned, "why?"

"She seems to really want you away from me. What if she doesn't stop until she gets you?"

"She'll be waiting a very long time. She isn't going to get me, Rose. She had all the time in the world to convince me to be with her before I even met you, and it didn't work, did it? Nothing is going change."

"Okay, I believe you. We promised to be honest with each other, right?" He nodded and waited for me to continue. "I do get jealous when I see you two together. I know I shouldn't but I do. It's the same when you see Adrian and I together." Dimitri's eyebrows furrowed. "I trust you not to go fuck her, or whatever you men do, that's not what's making me jealous..."

"What's making you jealous?" Dimitri asked curiously.

"The fact that I can't be with you when you're with her. You can call it 'marking what's mine' or I'm being 'possessive' but I just feel like that."

"Roza, I told you the other day that you could come over and I'd include you. I wish I knew about this sooner."

"I just want to feel like an adult, you know? When I'm with you, you make me feel powerful and loved, and wiser. But that doesn't change the fact that I feel, so... I don't know... insignificant when she's with you. I don't know if that's the correct word to describe how I'm feeling..."

Dimitri closed his eyes and it looked like he was in pain. "Roza, I didn't realise I was hurting you."

"No, no." I jumped up to stop him from blaming himself. "It's not like that, I think I'm just feeling insecure... or a child like Tasha puts it," I mumbled.

Dimitri held my face with his left hand, so I would look at him, "you're not a child. Do not even think that," he said seriously. "If you're insecure, then I'm just going to have to secure you."

"It's not you... it's me. So cliché, isn't it?"

I saw movement on his lips, "maybe a little cliché. It's just as much me, as it is you. I'm not very experienced in the relationship sector."

I snorted, "and you think I am?"

Dimitri raised an eyebrow, "you're more experienced than I am."

I open my mouth wide enough for a grasshopper to jump in. I can't believe he was bringing in my past flings. It's not like I had intimacy with them, just a bit of making out. It's not like he denied kissing Tasha. Dimitri slid his finger under my chin and closed my mouth shut, while letting a little chuckle escape.

"I can not believe you just said that."

"What?" he said faking innocence. "I'm just stating a well known fact."

"I sure as hell didn't sleep with any of them!"

"I didn't say you did!"

We stayed there glaring at one another until I said, "Dimitri, this is the first serious relationship I have had, and it's a learning experience for me too."

"I know, I know. It's a good thing we can learn together, isn't it?" he said with a small smile.

I couldn't stay irritated at him for long, I never could. "Yeah. We are both going on the long curvy road together," I said giving him a peck on the lips.

"I'm going to try harder now. Now that I know how you feel," he whispered.

"Don't try too hard," I whispered back, "I don't want my boyfriend to burst brain cells thinking up ways to secure me."

"I'll try and keep that in mind. Rose, I'm sorry about Christian."

"Me too," I said muffled as I pushed my head harder into his chest.

"You don't have to act brave in front of me. I'm the one person who you can show your true self too," he said rubbing my back soothingly.

I moved my mouth away from his shirt so he could understand me, "I know. It's just... I don't think I have the energy to cry any more, at least not at this time. Christian told me what to tell Lissa, but I, I don't know if I can go near her. She is going to be so upset with me from keeping it from her as it is."

"She will understand over time. She'll just need time to grieve and mourn, but you don't need to rush into it. Tasha said she wants to keep it on low for the moment, she is trying to wrap her head around it as well. It will give you time to think about how you will tell Lissa. There is no rushing, okay? And if you need me, I'll be there."

I nodded and moved my lips to his neck and left wet kisses on his skin. I felt his body react and smiled to myself. He pulled me closer to him and sucked just below my ear. He always knows how to send my body into a frenzy.

"How much alone time do we have?" I asked.

"I have duty in a couple of hours," he mumbled onto my neck.

I groaned, "a couple of hours won't be enough."

He lightly kissed all the way up to right behind my ear. "It's long enough to do the things I want to do to you," his voice was husky.

I giggled and pushed him down to the bed, "and what do you want to do to me?"

He didn't answer, but instead brought his lips to mine. He sucked on my bottom lip while pushing me closer to him by my hips. He tried opening my mouth for him to enter fully, but I wouldn't oblige. I wanted to tease him. I heard him groan and he lightly nibbled on my lip. His hands slowly traced my stomach while ascending up my chest. His tongue traced my bottom lip moving up to my top lip, begging for me to finally let him in. I bucked my hips, as my answer of no. His fingers traced the outline of my bra, sending my body into a frenzy. His fingertips slowly traced patterns around to my back to unclasp my bra. My bra was now loose enough for him to slip his hands into, and that's just what he did.

Dimitri cupped my breasts, and moaned into my mouth. I let out a loud gasp, and opened my mouth for him to play with. His tongue plunged straight in, and he didn't hesitate to taste my tongue and take control. My lips were now moving with his, his tongue tracing the outline of my mouth. The sound of our tongues clicking together was surrounding the room. I fisted his hair into my hands, and kept his head close to mine. I reluctantly pulled away from his warm mouth to catch my breath. Dimitri, however, didn't seem to need to, because he started kissing my neck. His hands started playing with my breasts again, which earned a loud moan from me. He separated from my skin and looked me in the eyes. He must have seen what he wanted to see, because he lifted my shirt halfway up my stomach and put his head through. His head was now situated between my stomach and shirt, completely hidden from me.

"Dimitri," I whispered shakily, "what are you doing? Don't hide from me."

"Hold still."

I did as he said, and he started pulling the bra strap down my arms, and pulling my arms through. He then pulled the bra down and off it came. He threw it across the room, and I heard a little "ting!" as it had hit something. Dimitri blew on my left breast, which made me get cold and my nipple harden. He kissed around my nipple and then on it. He kissed it three times, before sucking it. It felt so good. His mouth was so warm and soft. He then started to lick around the nipple; slowly extending to lick my whole breast. His hand came up to my other breast and fondled with it, to make sure it wasn't feeling left out. Dimitri licked my nipple once again, but this time swirled his tongue around it while sucking. A moan of contentment escaped my lips, while I consciously bucked my hips. He growled and started to bite down. At first it wasn't very hard, but the more frequently I moaned or sighed; he would bite slightly harder.

He took turns and paid my other breast a visit. I loved how he would make me feel, but I wanted to be able to make him feel something as well. So I started tracing his abs with my fingertips, and slowly traced the top his his jeans. I popped the button of his jeans open after several attempts. I found it hard, considering he made me squirm around on the bed and I couldn't see what I was doing. I pulled his zipper down and stroked his erection. He sighed and pulled his head out of my shirt and looked at me with lustful eyes. I pulled his jeans down, down to his thighs and he took care of the rest, pulling them down past his ankles. I brought his head back up to mine, and our lonely lips came into rhythm. Our tongues fought for dominance, thrusting against each other. I knew he needed to be in control, but so did I. My hand rubbed his erection popping up through his boxers. He groaned and pushed it further into my lower stomach.

My thumbs curled into his boxers and pulled them down over his hips. He let out a hiss and sucked my neck. Dimitri kicked his boxers all the way off. His erection was now free for me to play with. My thumb rubbed the pre-cum off the tip of his penis and he sucked harder on my skin. I tried to remember what I did last time to make him feel so good. I curled my hand around his penis and started to move my hand up and down. His hands on my hips tightened and he started to moved his hips up and down. I fastened the pace and he started to moan. Knowing I was doing it correctly, I used my other hand to play with his balls. Dimitri bit down hard on my neck, and I let out a loud gasp. It hurt, but it turned me on a hell of a lot more. Not long after, I felt Dimitri shake and pant for breath. I had given him an orgasm; I smiled to myself. When he caught his breath, he licked and kissed the bite mark on my neck, various times, in a caring gesture.

I rubbed his back in a calming matter and he trailed wet butterfly kisses all the way from my lips to my collarbone, down my arm and my shorts. He pulled my shorts off in one swift movement and rolled us over. He kissed and licked around my underwear and down my legs. He slowly kissed and sucked my inner thigh and I didn't know how long I could just lay down and take it without needing more. He ascended to my hips and rubbed his fingertips over my core. I dug my fingers into his shoulders, while he continued to tease me.

"Dimitri, I can't... oh fuck... I need you," I pleaded.

I needed him inside, so bad. He didn't seem to be hesitating any more when we got close, so I thought he would be alright to finally do it. I needed to be close to him. I always needed to be close to him. I just wanted the pain to go away for a moment. His erection was certainly hard again, and I knew I turned him on. I knew he wanted me, but instead of being inside me, he flipped us over again so I was now on top of him. He gave me a chaste kiss on the lips and pulled my underwear off.

"Do you trust me?" he asked.

"Yes," I whispered.

"If you want me to stop, you tell me straight away."

I bit my lip and nodded. Both of his hands came up and held my hips. He started to pull me forward and I scooted my way up to him. I was now resting on his chest not too far away from his face. He pulled me closer, and I soon realised what he was doing. He wanted me to sit above his face. I moved up and placed my core above his head. My hands held on to the bed headboard and he placed soft kisses around my vagina. He started to suck on my clit and I let out a loud moan. It felt amazing. It was a different feeling all together, and it was a feeling I didn't want to stop. He moved his tongue around. Going in between my flaps, and the edges. He slowly entered his tongue into my opening, and I shuddered in responds. He did it a few more times, before going back to sucking on my clit. I bucked my hips into his mouth; causing him to lick my opening and rub his thumb on my clit. It sent me into overdrive and I felt maximum pleasure building up inside my lower stomach. I moaned and groaned together, which caused Dimitri to laugh. His laugh caused vibrations to go up through my body, and that's all that was needed for me to release.

I rode my orgasm out; holding on extra tight to the headboard. Dimitri cleaned me up, by licking my cum up into his mouth. He let me know he was finished by pinching my bum. I lifted myself off, and laid down beside him. We didn't say anything to each other. I was too stunned by what had happened. My body felt great. I felt great. Dimitri just acted on an intimate gesture towards me, more intimate than we have ever be before. His mouth was in my vagina. Fuck. Just thinking about it turns me on. The release was needed, because I was still holding onto my emotions about Christian. There was still so much that had to be done, but now wasn't the moment to think about it. This moment was about Dimitri and I. I looked up at him and he was smiling down at me. I leaned up and gave him a full wet kiss. There was a different taste in his mouth, and I realised I was tasting my own cum.

"That was..."

"Unbelievable?" he suggested.

I laughed, "yes, that describes it perfectly."

"I'm glad you enjoyed it."

"That's an understatement, Comrade. Now if you don't mind... I've got business to attend too."

Dimitri raised an eyebrow and growled when I held his shaft in my hand. I let go when he pulled my shirt off over my head, exposing the naked breasts he had owned in the beginning.

"We won't be needing this," he growled.

I smiled at him and lifted his shirt off his body, "as we won't be needing this."

Dimitri and I made out. It was very hot! He didn't hold back like he normally would. It was like the conversation he had with Tasha had made him stronger. We felt up one another; rubbing and touching, both of us moaning and sighing. Dimitri was beautiful to me all the time, but even more so when he smiled with contentment. I descended on Dimitri and his eyes opened wide when he realised what I was about to do.

I popped my head up and gave him my man eating smile, before moving my mouth down to his penis. I let the tip of my tongue trace the tip of his knob, and he hissed and bucked his hips. I hadn't done this before and I didn't know what to do, so I went with my gut instinct. I opened my mouth wide, hoping his erection would fit inside my mouth. He was incredibly huge, and I was going to be embarrassed if I couldn't even wrap my mouth around him. His penis went in, and I closed my mouth so my lips were rubbing against his skin. I slowly started moving up and down, and finally found a rhythm to take him on. He moaned my name and hissed occasionally. From his reaction I was positive I was doing an alright job. His hands came to my head and he started to move my head to the pace he wanted. I followed his direction and I let my teeth graze his shaft. It caused him to buck his hips, which pulled his erection further into my mouth. I let my hand play with his ball sack, and he closed his eyes and grabbed a hold of the bed sheets.

"Roza – I'm... I'm close... you have got to-"

I swirled my tongue around his tip once more, and took him into my mouth again. He let out a moan and I felt him explode inside my mouth. I took one gulp, and swallowed his cum. I pulled away from his erection and climbed back up his body. His eyes were still closed, so I kissed them both before crashing my lips to his, making sure he tasted himself as he made me.

"Thank you," he breathed against my forehead.

"I don't know about you, but I'm stuffed."

"Hmm. Relax, my beautiful."

Not long after, Dimitri kissed my forehead and told me he had to start getting ready to leave for his duty. It took a while for us to be fully dressed. We kept interrupting each other with kissing or groping. Dimitri was just about to leave when he said...

"I'm going to enquire about changing Moroi."

"Is that such a good idea?"

"We can't be together, if we are guarding Lissa. I'll want to protect you ins-"

"- Instead of Lissa. Yeah, okay, okay. I get it," I sighed. "What will you say if they ask why?"

"I'll say the truth."

"Dimitri," I said shocked. "You can't."

"Relax. I'll just admit that because of us working so close, I don't want to have to take the risk. After losing Lord Zeklos, I don't see them having a problem with it."

"Who... who would you be guarding instead?"

Dimitri shrugged, "no idea. I don't get given a choice. I'll request to guard a Moroi at the Royal Court. That's the best I can do."

"Are you sure you want to do this?" I asked concerned.

"Yes. Nothing you can say will change my mind."

"I love you, Dimitri Belikov."

"I'll do you anything for us. For you."

With that he gave me a kiss and left. I thought the room better be cleaned up, so I took the sheets and blankets off my bed, and put them in the washing machine. I put new sheets on the bed, and continued to clean the rest of my room up. I felt dirty afterwards, so I walked to the bathroom and turned on the hot water tap for the bath. After several attempts to make the water warm, and not too hot or too cold, I hopped in and started to relax.

After two hours, I decided it was time to leave the bath before I turned into an old lady. The water relaxed my muscles and I felt all fresh. After changing into new clothes, blow drying my hair and brushing my teeth; a knock came from my door.

"Won't be a moment," I yelled.

I opened the door and saw Carly standing there. Her eyes were puffy and red.

"Hey Carly, what can I do for you?"

"It's... it's Eddie," she stumbled.

"Does he want to talk to me?"

"No," she cried. "Eddie's sick!"