Toradora Two
The Celestial 4 of College
Chapter 2/ Enter the Phoenix: Here comes Feng, the Chinese red bird
Feng´s Pov:
Oraniashin, a large town here in Japan, a place on earth on which I felt really home.
It was a warm day of summer, as we finally were back in our home town.
After months of touring around in various lands and towns, we finally had returned back to our home.
"Feng, can you put your unicycle in the toolshed please!" My mother asked me.
"Sure in a second!" I replied, as I stretched after the long drive in the car.
My mother, Maya Huang-Arashi, was the old Lion tamer of the Oraniashin traveling Circus, she has been worked as such an artist for a little over 30 years, before taking a break after raising me and my Sister and then she took back onto her duties.
Same as my father, she had been born in an Artist-family, but unlike him she was a friendly open-minded woman, always ready to experience new ways.
On the other hand my Father, Cheng Huang, was the current director of the Circus and a serious, one-way-minded, strict father.
He was really marked by tradition and as such he wanted my older sister Chi or me to later overtake the Circus from him.
That we had different plans with our lives, mostly didn´t really interested him.
That has been so since we were kids, whenever he was against something we did, he let us feel how much he disliked it.
Still, I cannot say that I hate him beyond believe, after all he was my father and he do wanted us to have a good living.
Still his value perception, was so damn old, almost primordial.
However to my Older Sister, Chi Feng, he had close to nothing to say anymore, she had her own head and that was something my father disliked the most.
When his orders are ignored, he can get really and easily pissed, believe me that is nothing one wants to freely experience.
So I also was kind of afraid about tonight, when I will ask him, to be able to get a break from the circus for a while.
I didn´t wanted my College life to run just like my High school-life.
Changing every 1 and ½ months the school, having little to no real friends outside of the Circus, never experience the happiness of going out with a girl, or going to karaoke with the friends.
My whole life was made out of a routine, of waking up, eating, train my act, preparation for the show, showing off during the show, ending my act, going to the Circus intern school, going back to my caravan, eating and sleeping.
It was a hard life for an 18 year boy in puberty, ever since I was 6, I was trained as the High-wire acrobat.
I cannot count how often I broke my legs, or my arms or dislocated my shoulders.
Still whenever I failed to that time, I had been scolded and punished by my father, which mostly tantamount in him beating the crap out of me.
So yeah, even if I try to hide it and make a false and happy expression to this mean game, I really hated my life.
Still there is a speck of light in this darkness of the everyday life.
Or better said, there once has been one.
My childhood-friend Rima Kurokame, she was the daughter of our old trapeze artist.
She and I, as well as our siblings, we always went along with each other, more than with the other kids from the Circus, we each were like one side of the same coin.
She was lively, and always happy, she smiled the whole day and she seemed to shine, whenever she showed her act during her show.
We swore to always stay together, to go in a relationship with each other, and to marry someday, so I thought.
But then it happened, 10 years ago, her father, beside of her brother her only remaining family member, fell during a show and the security net ripped.
He survived the accident but ever since that day he was Paraplegic.
Seeing no purpose for his children to get in the same danger, he left the circus alongside of them after a massive argument with my father.
Ever since this day, I haven't seen her anymore.
I had no idea where she went or what happened to her and her Brother.
Seichiro, Rima´s brother, was a tall grown and more serious-minded boy who always tried to reason his sister, but who also always reached out for his own dreams.
Same goes for my Sister Chi, who, after a serious argument with father, managed to enroll into a normal College here in Oraniashin.
She is to be in the last grade this year.
She started a model-carrier to pay for her school fees, since dad denied her any help, also she lived in an own apartment.
So to say she had built up her own life, much to the anger of my father, who wanted her to come back to the circus.
That whole theme was something, about we do not speak when he is in our surrounding, for he only goes berserk as soon as he hears it.
To him, Chi was being a disgrace for his honor.
To me however, Chi was a heroine, after all she managed to reach her dreams, no matter the problems she got with dad.
Me on the other hand, I had as well as nothing of my own, I had dreams, really, but they were never realizable, that at least was Dad´s opinion and his opinion ruled, at least so it always has been at home.
Ever since I had my own Driver license, I insisted to live in my own Caravan during the Circus tours, to at least have a little bit of privacy.
I corresponded with Chi, ever since she left us, and she was making me courage to finally grab my life with my own bare hands by its horns.
She told me to go to dad and to straight forward tell him what I wanted to do with my life.
Still, how should I approach my father, it was not as if I was the most courageous boy; not minding the matter that I, ever since an attack on some of our artists five years ago, got lessons in martial arts and self-defense.
No matter what, it was bound to get loud this evening.
"Feng, are you coming for dinner tonight?" Mom asked me.
"No, I still have a stew in my caravan which has to be eaten, so I will eat in my place, sorry Mom, but..., um well, I got to tell something to you and dad, something important!" I stated and looked at her in all seriousness.
"I understand, come to us whenever you are ready to speak!" mom stated and I nodded before I bowed.
"Well then of to cook!" I stated, as I went into my caravan.
Ever since Chi vanished, Dads´ mood was constantly going worse, so much that I decided to keep my distance to him.
Mom showed me how to cook and do my house chores effectively, this way I was able to live mostly for myself in my caravan during the last year.
I bought my own food and clothes through the money I got from my Artist job, here in the Circus, this was one of these days where I forced myself, every month, to come close to my father.
I know, it was cruel to my mother, to not be at her side during this year, still, she understood why I kept my distance to father.
His surrounding was a minefield.
And there was no future in sight, in which this fact ever would change.
"Vrrr, vrrr!" Suddenly my phone buzzed.
I looked to see that I got a text from Chi.
"Look what I found?" I read before I scrolled down, there seemed to be a picture in this message.
I opened it only to get the shock of my life.
"But, but how?" I thought as I almost let the phone falling to the ground.
There she was, she looked different and not as cheerful as I knew her, but this girl on the picture was definitely Rima-chan.
"Where do you found her?" I texted back.
"In my College, she has been there with her brother at the day of the school festival, I think she decided to enroll!" Chi texted back to me.
"You mean the Oraniashin College, are you sure, is that really real?" I asked.
"100% positive, her brother went in the class next to ours, we constantly passed each other without noticing.
I only noticed him, as he was elected to become the vice president of the School committee for this year, which was a week ago.
I didn´t told you anything, because I wanted to confirm that it was him indeed.
I couldn´t bear it to make you false hopes, so I took my courage together and asked him yesterday, as he and his sister were at the day of the school festival.
It are indeed them!" Chi replied.
"I see, so you think she is to enroll in that very same College, alright, this is everything I need, I will tell dad about my decision, now I have an even better reason to absolutely get into a normal college, since I still have a Promise to fulfill!" I texted.
"That's my Brother, go grab the devil by his horns!" Chi encouraged me over SMS.
I closed it and sat myself on my table.
"The time has come, I found you at last, Rima-chan and this time, I won´t let you go so easily!" I said, almost menacingly smiling.
Not that I am such a sick psycho, who wants to rule over a woman´s life, mind you.
I can´t change this menacing, intimidating psycho grin, after all I had my father´s genes, so I also had his scary face when he is angry and boy he can be really intimidating, if he wanted to.
These eyes which seem to penetrate your soul, only with looking at you; seeing this look, you normally instantly surrender his will.
And I also had my mother´s genes, she always had that fierce look, when she was dealing with the lions during the show.
So in a way I was a perfect mix of them both facial expressions, I tell you I often got problems due to that, I am not exactly a thug, but I often got dragged into fights at those various schools.
People just tend to get me in trouble for nothing, or they run away from me, thinking I will do the most insane things with them.
However, logically I wasn´t really innocent about it, I do fought often when I am the witness of injustice, when I witness someone to be mobbed, then I just have to protect the poor and weak.
That was ever so, since I was a child.
Many children in the classes, in which we, Rima and me, went to together, were derogative of our state as the Circus-brats and more than often they tried to pick fights with us.
Rima, usually cheerful and happy around me, was actually really shy and kind of a crybaby if it came to meeting strangers, so since I was a child, my greatest task back then, was to ensure Rima´s safety.
I won´t even think about all the cruel things, she must have encountered during all these years, without me on her side to protect her.
Now that I found her again, it is my mission to keep on protecting her.
"But for this I first have to get near her, and for this I absolutely have to go into this College!" I mumbled.
"Alright, let´s get this done!" I stated determined, as I rapidly ate my stew.
I cleaned the dishes and plates, dried them, and put them away, before I went up in the house, to talk with Mom and Dad.
I was nervous to say the least.
I knew that Dad will surely flip, but it was a necessary evil to take.
"Mom, Dad, i´m coming in!" I Stated.
"Oh Feng-kun, nice to see you too, to come here for once!" Dad stated with minor venom in his voice.
"I´m sorry father, but anyways, I have an announcement to make, where is Mom?" I asked.
"She´s doing the laundry!" Dad only said, without looking up from his newspaper.
"Okay I will wait then, until she comes, this has also to do with her!" I said.
"Whatever you say, suit yourself!" Dad stated and mumbled something unheard, but I think I heard the word `coward´.
It lasted a 20 minutes until mom returned, 20 of the most uncomfortable minutes of my entire life.
I could feel dads scary aura radiating over to me, choking me mentally.
"So Honey what was it you wanted to tell us!" Mom stated and ripped me out of this strange kind of scary aura-choking feeling.
I braced myself before I spoke.
"I want to get a three years break from the Circus to attend College!" I said straightforward, bowing before them.
"Aha, and who´s going to take upon your duties in the circus?" Dad asked.
"How about you search for another Tightrope-acrobat then, it´s not like you have to pay him or her more than you do to me don´t you, so I don´t really see a problem there!?" I told to Dad confused.
"Where do you want to live?" Dad asked.
"Well here, I guess, where else?" I asked confused.
"Oh so you think I will allow that to you, so easily, first you quitting my Circus, leaving me all of a sudden and then you think that I will let you live here, in my house, from my Money!" Dad asked, laying the Newspaper aside, his expression was murderous.
"Well it´s not like I didn´t mostly lived for myself the last whole year, I paid my own stuff and kept myself out of your business and I had a job.
So I still don´t see any problem there, it´s not like I would try to become a freeloader.
I logically would go working after school, paying for my own stuff, just like last year!" I stated to him.
"I See..., I bet Chi told you to do so, not?" Dad asked with narrowed eyes.
"No she didn´t!" I Replied.
"Oh I beg you pardon, it´s not as if I don´t know that you are in contact with her!" Dad stated.
"Well she is my sister after all, even when you don´t want to have anything to do with her, doesn't that mean that I as her brother have to do the same, don´t I?" I asked.
"So you won´t do the same I do, but you are willingly to do the exact same as your sister did?" Dad shouted enraged.
"Oh please, this is my own decision, being an Tightrope-acrobat can´t really be anything I'm good enough for, I want a respectable job, a job by which I don´t everyday risk my life!" I stated coldly.
"Pah and what else will you do, face it boy, you are an acrobat and you will always be one, you aren´t good at anything else, so why trying, stay with what you good at and do that!" Dad shouted.
"And what then, becoming a Circus director like you?
I beg your pardon but that´s so not what I want!" I replied.
"Who care´s what you want, you are my only son, and after your sister demonstrated me of how little she cares for the family, all my hopes are lying on you, you will be my successor, whether you like it or not!" Dad shouted rising from his seat.
"Oh yeah well I tell you what, not everyone always has to dance after your whistle, I will go to college, no matter what, and don´t even try to stop me!" I stated rising as well.
"Oh yeah fine go, go and you will see how far you come, from me you won't see one single Yen!" Dad shouted.
"Fine I don´t need your money anyways, I have plenty of my own!" I shouted.
"We will see, as long as you live under my roof you do what I tell you!" Dad shouted his massive beard was almost vibrating as he came around the table.
"Very well, I have a caravan of my own, so I will just keep on living there!" I Shouted.
"Ha, it´s gonna be funny to see you falling, let´s look how long you can live without my money, I will count the hours before you stand before my door again, begging to come in and I will cherish that moment in the fullest!" Dad laughed evilly, with that matching menacing smile of his.
"That won't ever happen!" I stated with my own.
"We will see, now get out of here, before I choke you to death!" Dad shouted, as he grabbed me by the collar.
"Let go of me your bastard!" I shouted, before he hit me right in the face.
"You are a real disgrace and it is a shame for me to call you my son, unfortunately are you my only one, so you better give up on that stupid wish of yours.
You are only living in a dream, if you ever think you will be free to live the way you want, you will crawl back to me and I will watch you coming back, laughing at you, you miserable, unthankfully, little prick!" Dad shouted.
"Ha, watch me rise father, watch me out of my shadow, you will only see my back and bite my dust!" I stated, as I ripped myself of him.
"You little...!" Dad shouted trying to hit me again, but I caught his hand.
"From now on we are separated parties, so don´t ever dare to hit me, or I will beat you up!" I stated menacingly.
"Oh I would like to see that, Feng!" Dad stated mockingly.
I turned around and stormed up in my room, to pack my belongings.
"Feng, Feng, are you serious about this!?" Mom stated as she came up.
"Yes I am, if that dumb butthead won´t help me to find my own dreams, then I have been the longest time depended of him.
Chi is right, as long as he has his will he is happy, but as soon as something goes against his ideals, he goes berserk and destroys everything!" I said with venom.
"I know he is a handful but he is your father after all, he only wants the best for you!" Mom tried to convince me.
"Maybe but leading a Circus is a job doomed to fail, it's not as if I don´t know that the Circus is standing right before the financial collapse, and he wants me to overtake this business which has no ounce of future anymore.
He wants me to overtake his mess what he makes, I beg your pardon.
I mean, let´s be serious, out of 1.000 people how many are going to the Circus anymore, 100, 90, perhaps 80 the very most.
Having a circus is an entire game of loss, you pay more for the equipment maintenance, the animals, the energy-costs, the water-costs and the paychecks of the artists or even the renting of places to stay, than you actually get back in, through the few people who are actually coming to watch our show during a week.
No one is interested in going to see a circus show anymore, but that's something dad just won´t realize!" I stated.
"He tries to ruin our life, if he wants Chi or me to inherit this near bankrupt business!" I mumbled.
"I know, after all I make the finances, but still, the Circus has always been your father's life, so it´s only that he...!"
"Exactly, it is his life and not mine nor is it Chi´s, we want to life our own life, not having to worry when we are bankrupt and when we are drowning in debts.
You are making the financial books, so you know how many artists already have left the Circus ever since 2 months, 5 artists at once and we have like only 20 anymore, this will never reach to pay all the expanses of what it takes to maintain the whole business.
But Father, he is just too stubborn to get that fact in that thick head of him.
The Circus he loves so much, makes more expenditures than revenues, he has to accept this fact!" I stated with a hard voice.
"When I have a family of my own, I want to be sure that I can feed them all, and not to have to worry the question, of when we will land on the street, due to massive debts I inherited by my father!" I stated merciless.
"But Dad and his fucking Pride and sense of tradition, he is ruining everything.
If he would be smart, he would sell the whole damn thing, pay his artist and then still, have perhaps enough money for you guys to live the rest of your lives, but no, he has to stubbornly hold on a dying dream!" I spat in disgust, as I finally was done with packing, most of my belongings were in my caravan anyways.
And due to always having to travel around I hadn´t much belongings to begin with.
"Anyways let´s stop from him, I will not go all too far, I decided to enroll in the Oraniashin College here in the town, the same as where Chi is going to!" I stated.
"I See, and what exactly do you want to do, which job are you aiming for?" Mom asked me.
"I don´t know yet, but I will find out what my strengths are, and then I will get a respectable job, by which I have fun and which I would like to do!" I replied.
"I see, anyways, here, I knew that this day would someday come, so I saved this for you, take this!" Mom stated as she took out a check book.
"But mom, I can´t...!" I tried but she interrupted me with a finger on my lips.
"You can and you will need it, the way I know it, your father is already cutting off all money supply and no matter how many you have saved on your bank account, it won´t work out for three entire years.
Just look at it like the start-capital of your new life!" Mom stated and I didn´t know what to say, so I simply embraced her.
"Thanks so much mom, I love you!" I stated and she pressed herself on me, shedding a few tears.
We stood there for a few minutes, before she pulled away.
"Feng, listen good to what I have to tell you.
Sometimes you have to run away from old things, to find the path into a worthy future.
This way doesn´t always must be easy, it can be rocky or you can be standing in front of a wall sometimes, there are times where you ask yourself if it was the right way to go, and there are times where you want to go backwards.
Still, as I said it is a rocky way, but if it leads to your dream, then it is worth all the hardships.
So you got to keep a cool head and overcome all obstacles no matter what, only then you can find your future and perhaps true happiness.
However there are also times where it is necessary for you to stop running and to turn around, to embrace something you thought you had lost, to make sure you get what is most important.
There are times where you receive love, when you expect it the least and there are times where you seek a love, which is not meant for you.
You must find a way to see, when these moments come, so you can choose the right path in time.
No matter what you are going to do, make sure that you will be alright, and please write me sometimes okay.
Let me know how you are and what happened so far, and also greet Chi from me!" Mom stated, as she brought me downstairs.
"I will, mom, no fear I will be alright, I will get good grades and get my life in the right direction, so that someday I can return full of pride to you and dad, than I can show him what it means to move on from old things!" I said.
"I know you will just be careful out there..., you became so manly in the last years..., it is hard to say goodbye to you..., don´t ever forget, no matter what will happen, you will always be my little boy!" Mom said and I smiled.
I laid the luggage to the ground, before I embraced my mother.
"I will miss you mom, I don´t know if he cares thought, but please, tell Dad that I will miss him too, and also tell him that I will come back, to see him being proud of me, no matter what!" I stated and she nodded.
"I will, be carefully and make the best out of what is given to you, got it?" Mom stated and I nodded as I picked up my luggage and went to my caravan.
Well then, Sayonara mom, I will write to you as soon as I found somewhere to stay!" I said to her and she nodded.
"Sayonara, my son!" Mom said, as she kissed me goodbye.
"Sayonara mother, see you someday!" I said, as I sat myself in my car.
A Ford Thunderbird from 1970, which I had found on the Junkyard, I repaired it for 5 years straight, getting help from my artist friends.
Everything worked on it and I loved this car, really.
"Well then, see you!" I said and Mom nodded, from out of my car´s window, I could see dad standing on the balcony.
Out of respect I wonk, but he only turned around and walked back inside.
"Heartless bastard!" I mumbled.
"Well then here we go!" I said, as I started my car and drove away, winking after mom.
"Well then, where shall I drive?" I stated after a while of driving through the town.
"Vrrrr, Vrrrr!" Suddenly my Phone buzzed.
I stopped on a corner and took it out to see that Chi was calling.
"Hey, Sis!" I answered the phone.
"Hey, Nii-chan, how was it?" She asked.
"As you expect, Dad was anything but amused, still, I won´t go back to him, not until I have made my own life so far..., anyways, do you think I could crash for a while at your apartment, I will try to find an apartment for as soon as possible, I promise!" I asked her.
"Sure I would love to help my poor, kicked out, little brother to find the rope of his future life and to finally grab it!" Chi stated.
"Uhm, yeah, anyway thanks, but can you tell me where it is, i´m kind of a bit lost here!" I asked her.
"Sure, it's Orange-street, number 265!" she stated.
"Orange-street, who the hell came up with that name, anyways, I will be there soon okay, ah is there anywhere a place to park my Caravan?" I asked her.
"Sure, if you are fast you have two places free right before the house!" Chi replied.
"Awesome, will be there in a second!" I stated, before I closed my phone, I tipped the number and street in my navigation system and drove to the address.
It seemed to only be a 30 minutes away from the College, nice.
I parked my Car with the Caravan on the parking, took my packed belongings, the rest of the stew and went up to my sister's apartment.
I rang the bell and the door opened in less than a second.
"FFFFEEENNNGG!" Chi shouted in happiness, embrace-flying at me.
"Hey Chi, how are you?" I asked her, I haven´t seen her for more than a year in real.
The car was only since 3 months repaired and ready to drive and my license I only got a month ago.
"Oh i´m fine, but c´mon in, the landlord kills me if I make too much noise in the night!" She said and I nodded.
I went inside and instantly was blasted by the neat and rather large apartment.
"Nice, really nice!" I stated.
"Mi Casa es su Casa, make yourself a home!" Chi stated.
"I surely could imagine to live in such an apartment, so this is what you get as a model, quite convenient!" I stated.
"It is, well..., you are not quite bad-looking yourself..., why don´t you try yourself as a model as well?" She asked me jokingly.
"Naww, I will leave this stuff to you, I rather be the guy behind the cam!" I Stated.
"So is that, well I guessed you still have your hobby of photography, say why don´t you make this to your job, becoming a professional photographer, or perhaps you go in the film industry, or journalism, I think they also have lessons for that at the college!" Chi stated.
"That could be one possibility, oh well I will see what I can do, right now I still have to learn much for the enrollment exam, I guess!" I stated weakly.
"Ah yeah, well your grades aren´t that bad if I remember right, I hope you didn´t slacked off on your lessons while I was gone?" She pouted.
"Of course not, why would I, I may not be much fond of always having to change the school, still, that doesn't mean that I slacked off on my lessons.
Still it was hard, the further away from school we had our shows, the more and more I was tired for either the one or the other.
I am glad that from now on I can concentrate myself on school, but as I said I won´t be a freeloader, so I will look to find an afterschool job to earn money on my own, so that I will be able to soon get my own apartment!" I stated.
"Well I will logically help you as best as I can!" Chi stated.
"Thanks sis, but I guess we better go sleeping, tomorrow will be a busy day, anyways, i´m taking the couch if that´s okay for you!" I stated.
"Bullshit, I have a giant bed in which I lie lonely and cold every night, you logically sleep with me in my bed!" Chi stated.
"But, Sis, I can´t possibly sleep in the same bed as you, I mean..., wouldn´t that be weird, I mean I am no kid anymore, i´m an adult man and you are an adult woman so...!" I stated shocked.
"Oh cut the crap, hell, we are only siblings Feng, we saw each other in the bathtub before we even knew what sexuality is, so don´t make a fuss about nothing!" Chi sighed.
"I guess you are right, anyways, can I perhaps use your bathroom for a while, I haven't been in the tub since this afternoon!" I stated to her.
"Sure go on!" Chi only waved off.
"Thank sis, also thanks for dealing with me!" I said bowing before her.
"Well if the father can´t understand you, just depend on me!" Chi replied jokingly.
"Will take on that word of yours!" I said, before I vanished in the bathroom.
Chi´s Pov:
It has been two years since I last saw my brother in real life and I must say, he really grew to a nice looking young man, his red hair was even longer than the last time we met, his well-trained muscles showed off under his shirt by every movement.
He always had been the more sportive of us, I on the other hand was more the show off, having inherited my mother's old place as the Lion tamer 10 years ago.
So I kind of knew on how to wrap the angriest men around my finger, to tame the beast within them.
Still, modeling was my life, ever since I once did is as a job during my vacation, it became my passion, I soon was known as Chi Huang the model.
Well so long until my father found out about it, he was furious that time, he shouted at me and slapped me in his rage, multiple times, Feng tried to stop him but only got punished himself.
In the end I had enough and so I decided to run away from home, my mother found out about my plan and she helped me, she gave me money to help me with the start of my new life.
I promised her to send her photos from my life, I however don´t know if they ever reached her.
I wanted her to know that I was alright, and I only could tell her this over my brother's phone, it was a pity.
So seeing my brother now in the same situation as me back then, I just have to help him of course, same as he once tried to help me.
"We are the Edemah Ruh, we know the songs the sirens sang.
See us dream every tale true, the verse we leave with you, will take you home!" I heard my Brother singing, all of a sudden, in the bathtub and I had to chuckle.
Beside of singing, he was well versed in Guitar as well as in Violin-playing, or instruments in general, which was an inheritance of our father.
Before the same became the director he played as replacement boy in the Circus orchestra, having learnt to play various instruments.
Also was Feng really sportive and mastered many different kinds of sports.
It was a part of his act during a show, showing various skills on the Tightrope.
I was mostly there to show my mother's old tricks, with Trixie, Sando and Merveille, our three lions.
"Dance to the whistle, to the play, to the story, to infinite encores.
Laugh at the royalty with sad crowns and repeat the chorus once more!" I sang, as answer to my brothers singing.
Through traveling in various lands, we not only explored the typical culinary culture but also the historical culture, as well as the music, old and new, of these lands.
Whenever we found a nice band with cool songs, we tried to play them ourselves, us and the Kurokame children, Seichiro and Rima.
"The music of this awe, deep silence between the notes, deafens me with endless love.
This vagrant Island earth, a Pilgrim shining bright, we are shuddering, before the beautiful, before the plentiful.
We the Voyagers!" He sang to me and I heard him chuckling, after a while.
"So you are challenging me to a chorus battle, very well!" I mumbled.
"We were here, roaming through the endless prairie, writing on an endless story, building up a Walden of our own.
We were here, grieving at the sadden faces, conquering the darkest places, time to rest now and to finish the show and become the music, one with Alpenglow!" I sang again.
It was really nice to sing again with him, we always did when we were little, during the campfire, at the last night at a location.
"Where is the wonder, where ´s the awe, where is dear Alice knocking on the door, where is the trapdoor that leads me there, where the real is shattered by a Mad Marsh Hare.
Where is the wonder, where ´s the awe, where are the sleepless nights I used to live for, before the years take me, I wish to see the lost in me.
I want my Tears back, I want my Tears back now!" I heard him singing and I admired his voice again.
It went louder and louder, before he was standing next to me on the balcony.
"It has been a long time, since I last felt myself so free again!" he said and I nodded.
"It sure has, it´s good to have you back with me brother!" I said and leaned on his hard shoulder, I may be taller than him but he was a man after all, and it has been a long time, since I could lean against a man all carefree.
"I am the voice of Never-Neverland, the innocence in dreams from every man.
I am the empty crib of Peter pan, a silent kite against the blue-blue sky.
Every chimney, every moonlight sight, I am the story that will read your real, every memory that you hold dear!" I sang to him as I nuzzled on his side.
"I wish for this night time, to last for a lifetime
the darkness around me, shores of a solar sea.
Oh how I wish, to go down with the sun
sleeping, weeping, with you!" He sang.
"Hehe, I give up for this time, i´m too tired to keep going, so what you´re saying, shall we hit the hay?" I asked him.
"Sure thing, i´m exhausted too, the argument with dad and the nice bath from earlier made me quite sleepy!" he stated.
"I can relate!" I stated and so we went back inside, closing the door to the balcony carefully.
"So about that thing with the bed, uhmm are you really sure about that?" He asked me.
"Of course I am!" I stated with a stubborn tone.
"Alright, I excuse myself in advance for everything you might see in the morning or if I snore!" he said and I chuckled.
"Oh c´mon it´s nothing I haven't seen before, I told you that already!" I teased him.
He kept on blushing cutely, no matter his attitude or his look, he actually was rather shy around people, especially girls.
Something, which changed ever since Rima and her brother vanished, before it was Feng who was energetic and happy upon meeting new people.
To be honest I was quite worried about Feng, ever since Rima vanished, he hasn´t really laughed anymore and i´m not speaking about his usual laugh, or his evil killer laugh, no I mean a real heartfelt laugh.
I had a hard time, to make him happy again, after his girlfriend vanished out of his life and as he finally was more or less happy again, I vanished due to my issues with my father, which let him spiraling back in unhappiness.
All my efforts had gone futile in that one night, 2 years ago.
And now with his own issues with Dad he has nothing to laugh anymore.
I really wish I could help him, after all, there was a reason I wanted to.
After I found the Kurokame siblings, I saw my chance to make Feng happy again, however I only had a year to do that, for after this school year I was done with College, and I intended to go towards America to become an even more famous model.
So I wanted to at least see Feng smiling again, the same goes for Seichiro, as he told me, a few days ago as we met in school.
He too wanted to go towards America, to attend a professional school for architects, and so it was his greatest wish to see Rima smiling again.
I didn´t told this to Feng, but Rima, according to Seichiro, had changed much, over the last 10 years.
Various different relationships went down the drain in the cruelest ways possible and each one marked Rima-chan, so much that she too lost her smile.
It broke Seichiro heart, also due to the fact that he was the last remaining member of her family, as he told me her father died a year ago on a heart attack.
Ever since he cared alone for her.
He was happy as he heard that Feng never forgot Rima and that he was willing to find her.
Seichiro laid all his hopes in Feng, to be able to make Rima smiling again.
"Hey sis, which side shall I take?" Feng asked waving a hand in front of me, which broke me out of my trail of thoughts.
"Suit yourself!" I replied.
"Alright then I take the right one!" he said as he slipped under the covers, and instantly fell asleep.
I smiled, he still was a hard-core sleeper and as soon as his head hit a pillow, he was far away in dreamland.
Still the life of a Circus artist, is hard so it´s no wonder that he wants to relax the most, in these few moments of peace.
I Slipped next to him under the bed, dressed in a negligee and my panties, I scooted over to him and pressed him on me.
As I said, in a way I missed the warmth of a male body next to me, ever since my last boyfriend cheated on me and I kicked him out.
But I also had missed to feel Feng's presence, his touch, his big eyes who looked up to me, his heartfelt smile, missing all this lead me to embrace him strongly, like a Lion-mother her child.
"I hope you can find her, within this dark sea she is drowning, your Pearl of light!" I stated, as I stroke a strain of red hair out of his face.
I stopped dead in my tracks, as I saw him crying.
"My poor, dear little brother!" I stated motherly, as I embraced him strongly and cried on his side.
I missed him so much.
"I hope tomorrow will be a good day!" I mumbled half conscious, falling asleep.
Oh how wrong I should be.
A/N: Hey guys, nice to see you again, yes as a few of you might have seen, I edited Chapter 1 and advanced it a bit, and here is the second Chapter, which introduces two of the new Characters, Chi and Feng Huang.
In the next Chapters we will meet our old main Characters, Taiga, Ryuuji, Ami and Minori and afterwards we meet Rima and Seichiro Kurokame