Look who got Alec up earlier! This one is longer, but it was needed. After Magnus' next chapter, things may start to progress. It will be slow though, so not sure when the smut and lemons will come to play. With a child in the story, different times will be made for the steps they take. Magnus also needs to figure out Alec's big insecurity, which will be when it's needed. Hope you like the reaction and how Alec handles it.:)B

ALEC

Turning away from Magnus was hard. A lot harder than I thought it would be. A kid, a little girl that depends on him. Could I help with that? Did I want to? I was twenty two, just out of college, just now out of the closet to my parents. Was I ready to be in a relationship like that? I didn't know. I still don't. It was never considered before. Don't get me wrong, I know teens have sex, and babies can come from that. I just never thought that a man I wanted to be with would biologically have one.

I vetoed the train, which I knew would cause Izzy to panic if she ended up beating me home. She left before I did to meet that guy for a late breakfast, early lunch, thing. I finally make it to my building and the doorman waves as he opens the door. It was weird, having a doorman. Izzy's job paid better than mine, though, so we were able to live with one. I walk up the stairs, prolonging my journey. My sister was going to ask questions that I couldn't answer. All I could tell her was Annie was a little girl who had been sick. I didn't even ask if there was a chance for her to become sick again. Cancer isn't something to take lightly and the fact that little girl lost most of her hearing from it hurt me.

I make it to my floor and open the door to see Izzy on the couch. She looks up and gives a small smile, trying to be reassuring, I'm positive. I just shake my head and walk the small hallway to my room. I didn't want to talk about it, yet. I needed to figure out my feelings before figuring out how to answer what Magnus needed me to, we both needed an answer to. It was a difficult decision. I turn my radio on, but dim the lights. The lights flickering help and I know music would be a bigger outlet if I could hear the words to the songs. I lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling. I watch the lights catch some of the glitter of the old popcorn ceiling and think of the man I left. He didn't sparkle at work, but it fit him. His eyes were also more pronounced with the guyliner and made the yellowish green in the center of his brown pop.

I shake my head before emotions crowd me. I knew I needed to make a decision my head and my heart could agree on, the issue was figuring out what that decision would be. I sit up and pull my laptop to me, turning it on and opening up a document. I then type out the pros to having a relationshiop with Magnus.

PROS: he's fun, smart, good looking, honest, passionate, kind hearted, fair, already understands me differently than others.

CONS: I can't talk so he made get tired of that(Jordan did), _

I stare at my computer trying to come up with something about Magnus that would turn me off him. I also knew I shouldn't compare him to Jordan, but it was hard. Jordan was the first guy to give me a chance and not ditch me right after sex. Not that I knew anyway. We also dated a while before that happened. I then add dating someone with a child list.

PROS: he would be very caring, compassionate, responsible, great dad.

I almost delete the last one, but Magnus was, I could tell. It takes a strong person to keep a sick kid. My parents just drew the line at gay, I guess.

CONS: Time? dating?

The Cons, I couldn't really answer those. I didn't know how the dating would go, or how much time Magnus would have since he does have a girl. What I did know was he seems to have sacrificed a lot to have her. Custody battles are bad and if he gained it, either the mother's a piece of shit or she didn't want their daughter. I turn my face as outside light pours into my room and see my sister poking her head in.

"Simon brought some food. I wanted to wait for you. It's chicken." she signs.

I smile and nod, letting her I'll be there in a moment.

I grab my laptop, finally ready to discuss my lists with my sister. This was how I worked. I made the list and she helped me get my thoughts in order so I could make the best decision for me. I walk out and sit it on the coffee table. Izzy must be in the kitchen as it's just a nerdy guy sitting in a chair. He gets up and waves. I wave and turn to find my sister. She comes out of the kitchen as I turn and hands me a plate. I let out a breath and sit on the couch, Izzy in the floor so she can use the table, and the guy in the chair he was in. We don't talk, well I don't. I know they are, but Izzy can't use her hands so I don't know what they're saying. She takes my plate, and theirs, to the kitchen for me and then sits back down.

"What did you find out?"

I glance at the guy and Izzy smiles. "This is Simon, he's different. I'm going to talk as I sign so he knows what's going on. He wanted to meet you."

I nod and she introduces us, explaining to Simon how she's going to talk to both of us. I open up the laptop and turn it face her. I give her a minute to look through my lists and then she looks up.

"Daughter? Really?"

I nod. I see her face scrunch as she thinks. I know she's trying to figure out her thoughts as well and so sit back. Simon motions for me and I look at him. He motions to the seat next to me and I nod. He moves and gives me a sheet of paper.

"Can you teach me without Izzy knowing? I want to show both of you I'm different. She's told me about some of the guys."

I look up at him, my eyes wide. He just nods and I can see his questions, his hope. I nod and hold out my hand for a pen. He gives me on and I write my number as well as a message. "Text me, my phone will blink."

He nods and gets the paper just out of sight as Izzy looks up.

"Well, You like kids, Alec. You've always wanted one. What's the question? I mean, I get the dilemma, but what's your main hangup? This seems like you already know the answer you want." she signs as she speaks.

I let out a breath and sign. "It's a big thing, Izzy. What if something happens? What if I get close to the little girl and something happens? It would be double the hurt if I had to leave her as well. Not to mention what it'd do to her."

She nods, thinking on that for a bit. I mean, yes, I knew Annie wasn't an issue. The ending was the issue, the risk of letting in two people instead of one. I didn't know if I was ready for that.

She looks at me and smiles. "Can I tell you what I really think you should do?"

I nod and she continues. "I know you care too much for just friends, like Jace. You need to explain the insecurities. Explain Jordan. He's not Jordan, you have to remember that. I think if you guys go slow, let the relationship progress slower than it normally would, it would be better for all three of you."

I set there, not replying. I went over what she told me in my head twice. I wanted to make sure I understood what she meant.

I look at her and smile. "Develop the relationship as friends, build up. That's what you mean, yea?"

She smiles and nods. I smile back, giving a nod. This is why I wanted at least day and a half because I didn't know if she'd be home for me to talk to already. It usually takes me about an hour to hash everything out if she's here to help me. She's blunt and will tell me exactly what I need to hear, not what I want to hear. It's complicated, but I wouldn't have another way. My phone blinks and I look down at it.

"Can we talk?"

My brows furrow as I look at the message. I don't want to look up because Izzy will ask what Magnus said, but it wasn't Magnus that texted. I look up as Izzy takes my phone and then her angry face looks at me. We don't do anything but sign. I know Simon is confused because he can't follow what's being said. Basically getting asked about Jordan wasn't on my to do list today. He hadn't messaged me in a month, not since we caught him. Izzy was with me when we did, as he wanted to finally meet her and she him. He didn't count on us being early. We argue for about ten minutes and then she comes closer to me.

"Please, just follow your heart. Alec, I don't want to see you hurt and I know which one is more capable than that. I would text Magnus to get some of you more intense questions answered. Don't give me that look, I know you have some."

I wrinkle my nose and shake my head bit, which makes her laugh.

"Promise to let Jordan go, don't do this to yourself."

I nod. She gets up, letting me know she's going out with Simon for some music thing. I watch the door shuts and look at my phone. The message was still up. I knew why. I ran into his brother two days ago and he told me the girl left him. I shake my head and delete his message, I didn't need that. I knew that more than Izzy did.

I open my messages and look at Magnus' face. He took the picture on the train home one day so I could have it. I smile as I notice a dimple in his left cheek and a twinkle in his eye. I blew out some air as I sit my face on my hand. I didn't know what to say to him. Would he think it was too soon for me to make a decision? He knew Izzy was my voice of reason and he didn't know that she wasn't supposed to be here. Should I just wait? I really had some other questions I needed answered, though. I nod and type, sending a message before I lost my nerve.

"Hi."

I set the phone down and close my eyes, my head leaning back on the couch. I feel the vibration of the phone. I pick my head up and look down.

"Hi?"

I smile. "I didn't know what to type. Can we meet? I have more questions."

I get up to get a glass of soda as I wait for his reply. I come back and turn on a movie, making sure the captions are in place as he texts back.

"I can tomorrow. I'm decorating Annie's room."

I look at that one. I contemplate on what to say for a bit before asking if he knows where Java Jones is since it's in the middle of our stops.

"Yes, good coffee."

He doesn't have his normal happy faces, but I'm sure he's nervous as well.

"Noon? That too late? early?"

He replies fast and I smile. "Noon is fine, Annie's staying with my friend tonight. :)"

"OK, see you then."

I put up the phone and start the movie, hoping that with the questions, my final decision will be the right one for all of us.

Alright, guys and the thoughts rehashed with Izzy. Hope you liked the chapter. I am not sure when the next will be, but I will try to get something up soon. I need to figure out the conversation and which questions to ask. Any suggestions to questions for Alec and Magnus, don't be afraid to write them below. Also, don't forget to leave any questions and comments you have for this chapter! I love every single one that is written :)B

GUESTS: As always, thank you! Glad you liked the last update :)B