I'm broken I truly am
It is because of him
I hide behind a mask everyday
I smile even though I want to cry
I laugh even though i want to hide
I skip even though I wish to be dragged
I talk to him even though my heart breaks
I stare I can't help it
I'm obsessed
I freeze when he looks my way
Like having my feet encased in cement
When he looks away
It's like being tossed
In a freezing cold lake
I'm sinking
I'm drowning
And I can't breath
My lungs fill with ice water
As the darkness surrounds me
And it feels good
Till I feel someone shaking me
I hear him calling my name
But it's just my best friend
I blush
when I realized I was drooling
I wrote poems songs stories
All about him
I can't stop loving him
Though I try
But the harder I try the more I fall
Into darkness
I'm stupid for loving him
Cause now I can't stop
It's like a never ending rollercoaster
I got on
Now I can never get off
Circling the centre
The loops making me dizzy
The exhilaration making me feel like bursting
The drops making my stomachs do flips
But I can never reach the centre
Where he is
The bars constricting me
From his touch
And even when the track verze closer
He turns away
The excruciating pain I feel
By feeling unwanted
I cry most nights
Others i sob
Wallowing in my own self pity
I try to move on
Love someone else
But the feelings are too strong
I acted calm
The day he said he loved her
But I truly broke inside
Till this day
He ignores me
And all I can do
Is smile