Author Note: & I am back, thank you so much for all the love. I LOVE READING YOU'RE REVIEWS, so keep them coming. You can even tweet me at Klarolinetrends if you want ;) I have been inspired by episode 8 to write this chapter, hope you enjoy reading it as much as I loved writing it btw the story is from Bellamy, Clarke and me (Narrator's) perspective, just in case if you were confused
Opposites
Clarke
I cannot sleep, no matter how hard I try too. Maybe I should stop trying, I try too hard for everything. I try hard to keep everyone happy and safe, when all I can think about is crawling under my sheets and crying till everything disappears. No Clarke, you cannot let yourself think such things, everyone on the ark is depending on me and this is the only way I can make them think that daddy was honorable, but sometimes they just need to understand that I am only a seventeen year old teenager, I can only take so much.
Uh, why am I thinking so much. Bellamy tells me I worry too much and don't live in the moment. I don't know what exactly he means by that because he certainly doesn't either. He is always acting like an ass and bossing people around but for some reason I envy his bravery, his protective nature. I wish to have someone want to protect me like Bellamy protects Octavia.
Suddenly Clarke felt butterflies in her stomach, the bad kind. And within minutes she run out of the ship and into the jungle to vomit again.
Bellamy
It has been two months since we landed on the toxic earth to see if it will livable again, to see if perhaps mankind can finally return home, and for the past month I cannot go to sleep without thinking about her, and suddenly she was standing in front of me. I looked at her right in the eyes; she began to walk towards me.
"Clarke, why are you up?" Bellamy asked out of concern
" I couldn't sleep," she said
" Why not." he paused " is something bothering you?" he began to ask again.
"Yes, in fact someone is bothering me?" she replied immediately
" Tell Finn to suck it," he said almost smirking
" It's not him," she said moving closer to Bellamy.
Suddenly she was right before my eyes, I could feel her breath on my noise, and I couldn't contain myself from wanting her.
"Who else could it be?" I asked hoping she would not suspect anything.
" YOU, Bellamy Blake. You're making me… loose my sleep, my need to want to think about other things," she said and I almost smiled with my eyes.
" Me?" I asked almost paralyzed
She moved closer and closer to me till I could feel her body against mine. I could see her staring at me lips like she craved me as much as I desired her.
" DAMN IT" Bellamy shouted as he woke up from his sleep. What are you thinking Bellamy? His subconscious asked him. He held his face hidden with his two hands, and suddenly he heard coughing coming from outside.
"Clarke?"
Clarke
" What is wrong with you?" demanded the voice behind Clarke; she turned around to find Finn standing in a straight posture with his arm across his chest.
" I don't know" is all Clarke said and began to walk back towards the door.
" Why are you avoiding me?" shouted Finn still standing firm.
" I am not" Clarke shouted back annoyed.
" Well, it certainly seems like it" Finn began to walk towards Clarke
" What the hell do you want from me?" Clarke asked almost about to loose her sanity.
" Nothing" Finn said defeated.
Clarke turned to walk away when Finn held her hand tightly, and brought her closer to him.
" LET ME GO" shouted Clarke almost touching his chest
" Pretty sure, she said to let her go" a voice came from behind Clarke and Finn.
Clarke's head turned to meet Bellamy's eyes.
Bellamy
" I said let her go" I shouted again and Finn let go of her hand and walked away just before looking right at me.
Clarke began to walk towards the ship.
" Why was Pretty boy mad?" I asked without thinking before opening my mouth.
Clarke stopped right before the ship and turned to look at me, " I don't know".
" Well a girlfriend should" Bellamy said to Clarke
" I am not his girlfriend" Clarke shouted at Bellamy for the first time. They had argued before but she was never this angry or shouted in such manner, it made Bellamy want to hold her tight and say " everything will be okay".
" I was talking about Raven" he said instead almost disheartened by Clarke response.
" OH" was all Clarke could come up with after embarrassing herself.
" Do you. I mean are you guys?" he paused " is he? Do you or did you guys have a thing" he finally asked hesitated.
" WHY DO YOU CARE" she began to shout again.
"I don't. I just" Clarke had left him speechless yet again.
" No, were not together" if that's what you are asking, " not that it's any of you're business" she was getting worked up.
" Were you vomiting again?" he changed the subject, hoping she can forgive and forget. In fact that was his real concern that brought him outside.
" Food poisoning, not that it's any of you're business!again" she said frustrated.
" Calm down Princess" Bellamy said putting his arms up in defense.
Clarke just looked at me and she turned to walk to the ship, and I followed her.
" Wait, why are you awake at this time" Clarke turned to ask me, and I felt paralyzed for a moment.
" Hmm, I was… I need some air" I managed to say as soon as I could open my mouth.
She give me a suspicious look, which made my heart sink. I felt a cold air going through my lungs into my abdominal.
Soon enough she climbed up the stairs and left me to my thoughts, What If She Knew What Woke Me Up? I asked myself.