Apologies for the long wait, University and work doesn't make it any easier than Jason Rothernburg, if you know what I mean ;) we'll try and update sooner this time around :) Enjoy.
I can't open my eyes...The hurt. Am I dead? is this how it feels to find peace? I try to move and I was able to, shocked at what I just had felt... Pain. I've never heard such thing. How can a dead person feel pain... and suddenly I started hearing voices. Background noise... and then a voice I was very familiar with.
"Bell?". "Can you hear me? Bell?". She kept calling.
OCTAVIA... I could finally put her in place. I felt her hands try to shake me out of my position and with force I finally managed to open my eyes.
"Bellamy, I thought I had lost you." She begun to cry and held her older brother tightly.
"I am fine, I feel fine." He reassured her, holding her still in his arms. "How did I get here?"
"A grounder brought you in."
"A grounder? What you mean?" he asked confused. "Clarke.. Where is Clarke?" he asked impatiently.
"I'll get her. Try not to move, your wounds still need healing." Octavia climbed up the stairs to the third floor of the spaceship.
Why does it feel weird to be here, I feel like I have come from the dead.
"Bellamy?" There it was, that voice he longed to hear every time for reassurance when he was lost, for comfort when he was in agony, for advice when he was confused. The voice that made him feel a thousand things all at once, the voice he hated, the voice he couldn't do without. His sanity.
"Clarke." He pressed his lips together, like always.
"You're okay." She hides the tear that is forming in her eyes, and the tingling feeling her stomach is giving her.
"A grounder brought me here?" Bellamy's curiosity quickly took over the fact that Clarke was worried for him, he completely missed it.
"Yes. Lincoln, he brought you here two weeks ago and..." Before Clarke could finish, Bellamy cut her off.
"Two weeks?". His eyes widened and he pressed his lips harder, forming a perfect jawline that distracted Clarke for a second. "I was unconscious for two weeks?" He asked, at the horror of what he had missed.
"Yes. But you're okay now." Clarke reassured him by placing a hand on his shoulder. He felt a warm feeling take over him, he could feel his hair standing against his body. "I'll let everyone on the good news." She smiled at him and Octavia, who was quietly watching all of this, then turned and walked down the stairs.
"I can't decide whether I love or hate her more." Octavia said still gazing at the door. Bellamy threw her a confused look. "She closed the space ship doors when Murphy and Atom left you behind, and I could have sworn I hated her more then I hated the chancellor, but than.."
"What changed?" He asked surprised at her sister's reaction.
"Than you made it, and she spent every day and night taking care of you."
"Clarke? she took care of me?" He wasn't sure about what he had just heard, but for some strange reason it made him happy. Made him feel things that he couldn't explain.
"Yeah, she wouldn't leave your sight. She was determined to bring you back, she wouldn't give up on you." Octavia explained, Bellamy was left speechless.
she did that... for me?
"Raven?". "Monty?". Called Clarke as she entered the camp where Monty and Raven we're taking care of the radio's and the rest of the technology for their survival.
"Clarke, Here." She heard Jasper shout, he was standing over Raven and Monty, whom were laying down under a giant machine.
"Bellamy is conscious." She broke the news.
"That's amazing." Monty stood up and Raven did the same.
"How's he doing?" Jasper asked.
"He still hasn't healed properly but he is up and that's a good sign." She explained. "Where is Finn?" She asked.
"He was just here" Raven begun to look around. "Didn't even see him leaving, that's weird."
"Never mind, I'll find him. You guys great job here." she give me a sincere smile before taking off.
Clarke looks around for Finn, but she doesn't spot him anywhere. But she notices Nicole approaching her.
"Hey Clarke." she says a little nervously.
"Hey.." Clarke forces a smile.
"How's Bellamy?"
"Stable." Clarke keeps her answer short and quick.
"Can I maybe see him?" She asks afraid of what Clarke may say.
"I am not sure why you're asking me? if he doesn't mind that I don't understand what my consent means." Clarke plays dumb, like she isn't jealous, like she doesn't care that Nicole wants to see Bellamy, she pretends and lies to herself over and over again as the question raises in her mind.
"Thank you." Nicole makes her way into the spaceship as Clarke watches her body disappear into the ship, Clarke's heart sinks but she shakes off the feeling and continues to look for Finn.
"How could you possibly trust Lincoln." Bellamy shouts at Octavia.
"He saved your life Bell." She shouts back, angry, hurt, her brother is accusing the man she madly in love with.
"That doesn't mean he is trust worthy..." He calms down a bit but she is still angry.
"Clarke trusts him, I trust him, he is one of us now." Octavia still very much defensive about Lincoln.
"In that case I must talk to Clarke, she let's her guard down to often."
"What reason could he have besides wanting to save you for saving you?" Octavia asks her brother.
"Who knows what his real motive is? he could be doing it to get close to you."
"You're impossible.." Octavia shakes her head as she looks at her brother, who will stop at nothing to blame Lincoln. "Bell.." She opens her mouth to say but Bellamy cuts her off.
"Nicole!". He forces a smile. "What are you doing here?" Bellamy asks, as he tends to remember the last time he spoke to her, was when he fought with Clarke and left camp returning like this...
"I came to checkup on you, but it looks like it's not a good time." Nicole gives Bellamy a nice, genuine smile.
"Actually.. we're done. He is all yours." Octavia walks out of the room and leaves her brother into a mess, she knows he wants to avoid.
"There you are." Clarke says as she approaches Finn, who is seated on a tree, right outside their camp.
"Hey to you too." he says.
"I want to talk." She raises her eyebrows at him.
"Looking out for the enemies, in case the followed Bellamy into the camp." He explains why he is seated on the tree.
"Bellamy is fine, and I am sure if anyone was following him they'd come by now."
"I don't care how he is doing, I just want to keep us safe." Finn admits jealously.
"What's your problem?" Clarke gets frustrated.
Finn jumps down the tree and lands right in front of Clarke. "I am not gonna pretend like I am not jealous of that bastard, and I am sure as hell not going to pretend like I don't see anything between the two of you."
"You make me sick Finn. You completely forget to mention your arc girlfriend and than pursue her all over again after you tell me you supposedly 'love' me? and than get mad at me for giving Bellamy medical help?" She begins to turn red with anger and pain.
"I've paid consequences for my mistakes... and as far as Bellamy is the topic, we both know it was far more than medical help." He shouts angry.
"Whatever, think and say what you want. I only came here to tell you that if you plan on pursuing Raven again you sure as hell make sure you don't hurt her again because than you'll have to deal with me." She warns him.
"I want to pursue y.." Clarke cuts him off.
"Don't. Don't take another step. Whatever we had, it's over, it was over the minute you lied to me, and this is me giving closure to it once and for all." She turns around and begins to walk away.
"Don't come back running, when he breaks your heart." She hears him call out from behind her, she doesn't turn back becasue she doesn't want to give him the satisfaction of him hurting her, getting to her, and most importantly making her cry.
"Look Nicole, you're a very nice girl and you deserve to be happy." Bellamy assures her. "But I am afraid, I am not the guy for you." He says.
tears begin to fall from her eyes. "I love you Bellamy." She says as she wipes her tears away from clouding her eyes.
"I'm sorry." Bellamy said not sure what to do, he never knew what to do with women cried around him, was he to comfort them? let them be? he never knew.
"Is it because of Clarke?" Bellamy jumped at the mention of her name, Nicole was waiting for an answer.
"What? No, No." Bellamy mouths spilled before he could even begin to put Nicole's words together.
"Than? what is it?" Nicole asked, still crying.
"I just don't feel." He says coldly, without meaning to.
Nicole walks in closer to him as he stands still, unsure of what she is going to do next. She than places her hand on his face and closes her eyes to place a gentle kiss on his bruised lips. "Good bye Bellamy." She whispers into his mouth. He doesn't close his eyes but when he finally looks up to set their bodies apart, his eyes fall onto Clarke, who had been standing at the door, staring him dead in the eyes.
"Clarke." he says softly, hoping for all of this to be a dream, mentally telling himself not again. But Clarke's brings him back to reality, She bits the inside of her cheek as she watches him stand still in Nicole's arms and for that split second she knows what she is feeling is Jealousy.
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