p class="MsoNormal"Will./p
p class="MsoNormal"My saviour./p
p class="MsoNormal"He lifted me up when I lost all hope on Maveth and kept me sane. Without him I would have starved. I didn't know which plants were edible on that godforsaken planet but with the way I was heading it wouldn't have mattered. My body had already started breaking down the fat of my liver into ketones to stop the breakdown of proteins in my muscles for glucose. I was starving. Literally. I had killed the beast 10 days ago and I was running out of unrotten flesh to eat. Then I found Will. He took me in and saved me. I always held out hope that somehow I would be able to return. Until I didn't. Dr Gardner asked me when I lost that hope and I didn't answer him I knew when it was: when the bottle hit the rock. My chances of escaping died then and a part of me did too. I am hollow and I'm ashamed I used Will to fill the gap./p
p class="MsoNormal"48 days./p
p class="MsoNormal"That's how long I was with him as more than just two people stuck in this hell. I will never regret them. If I had to lose hope I'm glad it's with him. I grew to love him or well what he represented. Survival. I was happy with Will and he protected me and gave me a chance to live. Yet I didn't do the same. I knew reaching for Fitz would mean Will wouldn't make it. I knew Will facing off against that thing was potentially deadly but I still went ahead. Isn't it hilarious that the person who kept me alive I possibly killed? He is one of the bravest men I have ever met. /p
p class="MsoNormal"My saviour./p
p class="MsoNormal"He lifted me up when I lost all hope on Maveth and kept me sane. Without him I would have starved. I didn't know which plants were edible on that godforsaken planet but with the way I was heading it wouldn't have mattered. My body had already started breaking down the fat of my liver into ketones to stop the breakdown of proteins in my muscles for glucose. I was starving. Literally. I had killed the beast 10 days ago and I was running out of unrotten flesh to eat. Then I found Will. He took me in and saved me. I always held out hope that somehow I would be able to return. Until I didn't. Dr Gardner asked me when I lost that hope and I didn't answer him I knew when it was: when the bottle hit the rock. My chances of escaping died then and a part of me did too. I am hollow and I'm ashamed I used Will to fill the gap./p
p class="MsoNormal"48 days./p
p class="MsoNormal"That's how long I was with him as more than just two people stuck in this hell. I will never regret them. If I had to lose hope I'm glad it's with him. I grew to love him or well what he represented. Survival. I was happy with Will and he protected me and gave me a chance to live. Yet I didn't do the same. I knew reaching for Fitz would mean Will wouldn't make it. I knew Will facing off against that thing was potentially deadly but I still went ahead. Isn't it hilarious that the person who kept me alive I possibly killed? He is one of the bravest men I have ever met. /p