Little change up here, gonna do it in Shane's POV, excuse me, never used Shane's POV before, I may fail. And it's also the reason this update took so long to write!

What a fucking douche.

He couldn't take getting dumped and had to go all super douche bag vampire on us. I know Claire knew nothing about what just happened. I was still holding her, and she was shaking.

"Claire, baby. What, are you okay."

"No, Shane! I'm not okay! Do I look like I'm okay?"

"Um …"

"I almost married a freaking vampire, for crying out loud!" That stung like a bitch. I always though that we would get married, but now she was talking about this Steven douche.

She must have seen it.

"Shane, I .. you know it means nothing now."

"What does, Claire. Us?"

"No! every time I was with him, it was you. Seriously, Shane. I don't think I could love anyone else as much as I love you."

"Love. Ha!" I had turned bitter. This was too weird and it cut me like a knife. I took Claire by the hand and took her upstairs. "Claire, before you came to Morganville, sure I had a few girlfriends. But when I got dumped it didn't hurt. Then I lost my sister. My own little sister who I had watched grow up and play with her dolls. Damn, she annoyed me. But, like Eve, I loved her in my own special little way. Little Lyssa." I laughed nervously. "Then we left, dad became a drunk, hit me. Mom wasn't right. But, she remembered Morganville, yeah. Then one day I found her dead, floating in a bloody bath." I looked into Claire's big brown eyes, and the look of horror was all I saw. She was hurting. Good. " I came back, dad's orders. He wanted me to map out the town, so he could come back and screw this town up. It was already screwed. And then Eve brought in a little, bruised girl. You'd finally decided you wanted to come to the big house. The moment I met you I knew you were something special, jailbait. Always, I knew that you were the girl for me. Your short black hair, big brown eyes, everything. You were perfect. And mine. We spent everyday together. Then Bishop got you, and me. You'd just turned seventeen, remember. About a week later, you left. Your lucky Amelie had let you go, behind Bishop's back. But you know what Claire. You never saw what happened, the day we defeated him. You never saw someone we all knew, some of ours family, get killed before our eyes."

"No .."

"Yeah, Claire. Michael, Eve and I watched Sam Glass die right in front of us. Michael saw his grandfather get killed. But, as they say: the show must go on. And we all knew Bishop was a brilliant actor. We got rid of him, as you can see. But when I saw you in Common Grounds, I though, God, are fucking with my mind, maybe you are real. Then, fucking Steven came along. Ha! Look how good that turned out .."

"Shane, stop it!"

"Oh, screw that, jailbait. You are my one and only, were my one and only. Don't you forget it. You know every time I see you, it hurts my heart so much I want to scream in agony. It was a good pain, but not anymore. I don't want to erase you from my life, Claire. No, that would hurt too much."

"Are you saying .."

"I'm saying, us, this. Isn't happening. It'll have to be. For my sanity, and yours. See ya Claire Bear. Yeah."

I sighed. That hurt more than non computer game sports.

I could never have ever done that, in a million years. The pain was too much. And, right now, the pain was unbearable. But I was numb, why did I say that. Why did I say that we could never work.

Oh, yeah.

If I didn't, I might have gone insane.

Sorry for the short update, writing in Shane is difficult! And also because I'm wanting to focus on Trail of Blood for a while, and I promise (dear god I keep on doing that) I will update Dear Dead Diary, because I miss Myrnin! And I also hate that Microsoft word does not Myrnin is its dictionary, I hate going back and checking on it. Anyway, new Trail of Blood - gonna have some fun with it, and also appearances from an amazing band! Who will it be, go check it out ;) Thanks xxxx