(AN: This is my second fan fiction. I'm so sorry if my writing isn't that great. I'm working on it. If you are a Beetlejuice fan please read my story a beetles new beginning. I'm having a bit of writer's block with that story so I'm working on this. I'm sorry if I do not update much due to the fact that I'm working on my other story.)
Disclaimer: I do not own the Teen Titans. If I did, they would probably have a movie out by now with real people.
And now a work from our heroes!
Star: PLEASE DO THE REVIEWING OF THIS STORY!
Cyborg: Yeah man! It would make Zozo extremely happy!
Beast boy: *Changes into kitten * you know you want to!
Today is our finale day in Tokyo. I wish we never came, every bad thing that could have gone wrong, went wrong. I'm not one to usually dwell on the past unless it was about my father, but I always thought things would be different. Especially for me and another bird member of the team. But what did he do? He went and kissed my best friend who he had, had a crush on for the past year and a half. I always thought that deep down that maybe, just maybe, it was me who won over his heart. My logical thinking was telling me that because of the fact that he chose to save me from my father and to go to the deepest part of hell to find me, that something would change. I never should have shown so much emotion when I hugged him. Good thing no one picked up on that. They must have thought I was still hung over that Dragon. I refuse to think or even say his name, that traitor!
"Raven! Dude! Time to get up! The hotel is having a buffet in our honor! And Star wants to go sight seeing!" Beast Boys voice broke me out of my thinking. I walked up to the door and opened it so he could just see part of my face.
"I'm not hungry. And I need to be alone. Staying up so late has messed with my meditation cycle. We should be lucky this hotel isn't in ruins yet." And with that I slammed the door in his face and made my way back to my bed. Just as I was getting comfortable in my lotus position there was another knock upon my door.
"Raven! Are you all right? You haven't eaten anything for almost two whole days. Is there anything we need to talk about?" I just stared at the door, my heart racing at the sound of his voice. I mentally put up the blocks in my head so he had no way of knowing what was really going on. I knew that now meditation wouldn't be an option. I don't need it anymore anyway. It just made me feel better.
"Raven? I know you're in there!" Still I didn't think about answering. I just wanted it to be tomorrow. Then I would be home and happy, or as happy as I could be seeing Robin and Star together.
All the sudden I heard the beep, beep of the key sliding into the lock and allowing access to my room. I closed my eyes and started chanting my Mantra right away to make him think I was in deep mediation, which I obviously wasn't.
"Oh" Was all I heard, and I opened one eye to see non other then the boy wonder himself. I floated down onto my bed and stared at him with a look that could seriously kill. "Uh, can we talk?" Was all he said.
"Well obviously you can. Since that loud obnoxious voice seems to be working." Yeah I know a lame comeback. But one, that's Robin! And two it's ROBIN! When ever he looks at me I loose it. I just can't help it, so of course I had to try.
"Uh yeah. So I'm worried about you. You have been acting different. Not coming out even when they have the tea that you like. Not even raising an eyebrow when Beast Boy and Cyborg are fighting about food. Or even when Star mixes up English. You used to show the slightest bit of emotion but now everything you do is cold." He's rubbing the back of his neck, which means he's nervous. Well he should be.
"I just don't like being so public. To many people." I kept my explanation short. Since I don't want to reveal the truth behind my words.
"We fight crime, everyone knows who we are. We have to live with that." Explains Robin.
"You can. All I wanted to do is make up for what we almost lost. I didn't want everything I ever did to become public. Nor did I want to have cameras shoved in my face every time I go get tea from downstairs. I can't even call room service without them asking me questions or asking for my autograph. This isn't how I want to live my life. At least at the tower it's private and I can go downstairs." So much for short explanations.
"Then if you feel that way maybe you shouldn't be a Titan." Robin said.
"Fine. You know what? I don't really have any other place to go expect one. And that's back to hell. So, after we go back I'll get my things and leave. Now if you don't mind." I didn't want Robin to see me cry, so I did the only thing I could walk right on past him and out that door.
"RAVEN! Wait!" But I didn't stop. I just kept walking; I walked past Beast Boy and Cyborg, and Stare fire.
"Azarath Metron ZINTHOS!" And with that, a black raven took over my body and I disappeared. I found myself in the sewers believe it or not, crying my brains out. The girl who had complete control over her emotions now looses them because of some dump boy and my friends. Who needs friends anyway? Not me that's for sure. I didn't even think I should have joined the team but he talked me into it. Why must he know how I work? Or how to push my buttons. I mean I know we have a bond and everything but wait! The bond! Crap. He knows my emotions. And I let them go to far right now to pull them back. Hopefully my sadness would out weight my love for the boy blunder.
"Raven can you here me? Raven!" Of course. I brought my communicator with me thinking if someone or something attacks, then I would know. I of course didn't think that he would attempt to communicate to me via my communicator. Do you see what this boy does to me? He turned me into Star! Always forgetting things, letting her emotions spill all around me. One that always wants Robins attention. Maybe if I ignore him he will go away. Just like a zit. Yes, think of Robin like a zit. Zits are gross; maybe if I think or make myself think that Robin is gross like a zit I wont like him. And it wouldn't be hard for me whenever I see him and Star together.
"Raven. The bond. There's so much sadness," It sounded like he was gasping. Like he was just feeling what sadness and depression feels like for the first time. Of course I know his whole history and how he felt, of course I know Bruce Wayne is Batman because of Robin. But Robin doesn't know I know. He just thinks I can feel what he feels. I taught him how to control everything, and he does it so well I envy him. Shouldn't I be able to do that better? Since after all I was never supposed to show my emotions nor feel them for that matter.
"Raven please. Talk to me. I… we can't have you doing anything rash! Or you can't leave us" Does he really even care? Does he feel me becoming filled with doubt at every word he says? Like that I hold the team together? Without me everything would crumble? I doubt it. I doubt it all! They don't care about me. So what he traveled to hell to come and save me, he would have done that for even Beast Boy. I am no better then Beast Boy. I'm just as annoying; I'm a demon from hell. I guess that's just one of my many "amazing" powers.
"RAVEN ANSWERS ME PLEASE!" Is he crying? Robin doesn't cry. I have to shut it off; I have to shut him out! Just breath, breath Raven. Don't think about him or anyone else. Just breathe and put yourself into your place. Back on Azarath where everything was better. Breath. Breath, good okay just keep doing that and everything will be better.
"Raven oh god! No please no!" What is he screaming about? I realized then, I shut off my side of the bond. Does he think I'm dead?
"Dude. I can't find Raven anywhere. I'm gonna check the sewers." Crap Beast Boy! I could blend into the shadows, or let him find me. I can't move, I just can't. And with that my world went black.