Well guys! I'm back. I should be doing my science right now…. Oh well!
"Dude. I think she's waking up!" Ugh, Beast Boy. Of course that would be who I was waking up to.
"We should go get Robin. He has requested we find him when she has awoken from her slumber" Starfire great.
"Dude I'll do it. I found her anyway. Mind telling her if she wakes up before I come back who saved her butt from being eaten by a Tokyo alligator?" Tokyo has alligators? He should have let it just eat me then.
"Alright grass stain will do." Cyborg. Thank god, if I were happy to see or hear anybody right now it would have to be him. "Common Rae! You have been out for about three days. You have to get up. If you don't, it would kill Robin. He hasn't eaten or slept while you were out. We took you home to get you better medical treatment. I doubt you can hear this. But I thought you should know" Now he's making me feel bad, Robin started this, he should feel this way. I opened my eyes, to find the light way to bright and the sound of my steady heartbeat.
"Hey Star. Hey Cy" I said. Next thing I knew there was a screaming and hysterically crying Starfire.
"Oh friend. I am so happy you are okay. Are you feeling better?" Those big eyes, the ones he could never refuse.
"Yeah Star. I'm feeling better. I don't know what came over me."
"Well I do. You didn't come out of your room for a while. Barely ate, then when we saw you your stress levels must have soared through the roof. Knocked you out, since your body needed awhile to heal and all." Maybe I could just blame everything on stress. It seems like the only possible explanation I can give if anyone asks what happened.
"Guys we have a problem. We need to get the Gotham and fast. Batman's having villain problems. The Joker took hold of Arkham Asylum." Robin did look beyond stressed. I didn't do that to him did I? I mean I couldn't have, well maybe I did since my emotions did run wild. But he could have rested, but instead he hasn't eaten or slept since we got home. Should I still leave? Should I still keep what I threatened? I was going to go through with it anyway, since all I seem to do is bring the world pain.
"Alright dude. Well uh leave so that you birds can, you know talk!"
I gave him a glare that would make hell freeze over. Smart ass changing, thinks that he can get away with snarky side comments.
"I don't have time to "talk" Boy blunder. I just woke up from about like who knows how long. And all I need to do is pack. And get some things in my room. Hope you understand." And with that my black energy took hold of my body and I was gone.
In my room
In my room everything was packed and ready to go, again. But my mind wasn't ready, I couldn't stand what happened between us, and well it was all Stars fault. Ugh, why am I blaming her? She's the closest person I ever had to a sister or a best girl friend. Just get a hold of yourself Raven! Cy told you he would come and knock on your door when they were ready to leave. You might have time to get some meditation in before he comes. Or maybe you can meditate in the T-Ship on your way there. It might be hard but you have done it before.
I made my way towards my bed, imagined myself floating and I was lifted a couple of feet into the air. I chanted my Mantra and felt calm running through my veins. Maybe it would be a good time to visit Nevermore again. I used my energy to summon my mirror, and I felt the big hand grab me and drag me in.
"Is she really here!" Called brave.
"No, she just felt a pull towards a rock that came through her mirror." Remarked Rage while glaring towards brave.
"RAVEN YAY!" Squealed happiness.
"Refrain from using all emotions or I will be forced to take action." I replied while being squashed to death by happiness.
"Would it kill you to smile?" Purred a little emotion that I despised with all of my stone cold heart. Love, we had many encounters but none to this magnitude, because judging by where she was standing, she teamed up with rage and Jealousy. I have come to rely that emotions are really a pain to deal with. They never act the way you want them to, and I get it. I don't really know anything about emotions because I never really used them, but still! I hate them almost as much as I hate Beast Boy's jokes, and that's saying something.
"I don't know, but I don't exactly want to die, so why risk trying?" I replied to her. In reality most people would be completely weirded out by the fact that they are talking to themselves, but me? Nope, everyone on Azarath can talk to their emotions to get a better understanding. Since I was never really able to use or show or even acknowledge my emotions I really only used to use my mirror to tell them to shut up. Emotions really are wasted on me, but what can I say? I never got the point of them, nor had a strong desire from one of them. Well up until Robin saved me from hell. I might have had a little tiny crush on him before that, ok, ok, I have always liked him. I hate admitting it, but he was the first to really accept me into the team, followed by Cyborg. But I could never like Cyborg; he is too much like a brother to me.
"Very funny Raven." Love replied with a frown.
"I know. I get my sense of humor from a dear friend of mine, most of you know him as Beast Boy." I replied drily.
"Why are you really here?" Replied Intelligence. They know of course, they just LOVE hearing it from me. They will drag the answer out of me, and wont stop until I comply. Of course they guessed that I would go along with their little game, and think that I haven't caught on, but I am not in the mood.
"How do I get rid of these feelings I have for Robin?" I asked blankly like it was an everyday question. Love and happiness squealed in delight, while all I did was cringe. Why me? I silently begged. "Stop being so happy, or loving for once in your short attention spanned life, and fix my problem." My face got red, my hands balled into fists, and I was talking through my teeth.
"Not that easy sunshine." Replied Love.
"Make it that easy. You're my emotions, shouldn't you be able to control that stuff?" I so did not get this whole emotion thing, like at all. I would be so happy to back to ignoring them as they strive for attention and suffer. Ha, as if I could ever actually get a break from them.
"Not happening. Go back to wherever you came from, and go figure out your problem yourself." Replied laziness. For someone so lazy, she was pretty darn sarcastic.
"Gee thanks lazy. Real team helper right here." I growled then disappeared. Not one of the good visits with the annoying bunch of….
"Yo RAE! I have been pounding on this door about seventy times." Crap, how long was I gone? Didn't feel like forever?
"Raven! I'm coming in are you ok?" Damn it, its Robin. I grabbed my headphones stuck them in my ears like I couldn't hear anything they were saying. Then went to go open the door.
"Hey guys. Sorry, I felt kind of stressed and put on music. I couldn't hear anything." I gave them what I hoped to be a reassuring smile.
"Alright. Well let's just go." I grabbed my things and set out the door. But was stopped when a strong hand grabbed my wrist.
"Look Rae, I know how you feel about him. I understand where you're coming from. Really I do. But let's put all of this behind us and just have a good mission ok?" I nodded. My expression remained neutral and cold. I tried telling myself nothing has changed, everything is okay. This is just a crush, it goes away right? Though, I have never been one to really understand emotions even being able to talk and feel them from other people. The concept has always left me baffled. I never take anything for how it is; everything just needs to be analyzed fully for me to understand it. I guess that's what always made me flock towards Robin. I guess I now know what this emotion is, love.