Sorry guys that it again took me so long to update. University is just unnerving at the moment. I just want to scream like all the time. But still, here it is, chapter 6.

Have fun reading!

Eight days since the break up and Allison finally felt like she needed to go on in some way, pretend to get better and fool herself into thinking things would work out somehow sometime. So tonight she decided to go home and sleep at her appartment for the first time since Remy broke up with her. It was not a big step, but it at least was one.

When she came out of the locker room and went through the hallway she saw a light in the lab, remembering the time she found Remy there one night.

She just had to know. She couldn't ask Allison out for a date without knowing. That wouldn't be fair. So that's how she happened to be in that little dark room. She switched on the little lamp on the desk and after testing herself printed out the result. Her face froze when she saw the red line on the paper. She tested positive. She had Huntington's.

That's it. I can't ask her out. It just wouldn't be fair, she thought to herself.

She took the paper and crumpled it in her hand to a little ball when her hand clenched to a fist. Staring off into space, she made no move to go home.

When Cameron walked down the hall she saw light in the lab. She made her way over and when she looked through the loop of the door she saw Remy sitting at the desk with the printer staring at nothing in particular, holding a piece of paper in her clenched fist. She thought about leaving again but when she saw the lost expression on the brunette's face she just had to enter the room. She slightly knocked and walked in.

Remy's head shot up and she looked at the intruder, gasping when she saw who it was.

"Hey," Cameron said with a soft voice. "What are you still doing here? House let you do lab tests at night?"

"I…eh, yes he did," she answered, not knowing whether she should tell the blonde the truth or not.

Allison knew she was lying. She saw the pain in her eyes and she wanted nothing more than to take it away and give her eyes their usual beautiful glow again.

"You want to get out of here? Grab a few drinks or something?" Cameron didn't really know what to do so she just thought of something to continue the evening. Maybe in a longer conversation the woman would open up to her.

Remy wasn't sure if she just heard right. Is she just asking me out? On a date? No, I can't do this. It wouldn't be right. She looked at her for a few seconds and then turned her gaze to her hand. She threw her test results in the trash can and stood up.

"No, I can't. I'm sorry. I should go now. See you."

When she walked past Cameron she saw the dissappointment in the blonde woman's eyes and blamed herself for not being able to give her what she wants.

After Remy left Cameron thought about looking at the piece of paper but knew it wasn't her business and left the room after a while.

Since that encounter a week has gone by. Three days Allison saw her nowhere. She asked House about it and he just told her that she took some time off. And than on the fourth day she saw her walking in in the morning. She looked tired, exhausted. How was that even possible after three days off.

Remy never talked to her unless it was something about a patient and whenever she wanted to talk to her in private the brunette left. Sometimes she didn't even say why she just said "I have to go," or something like that.

When Allison left the hospital that night she saw Remy in the parking lot. She ran to catch up with her and tapped her on the shoulder.

"Hey stranger," she said smiling, trying to ease the tension between them a little bit, since she didn't even know why there was any tension. She buried her hands in her pockets und looked at the brunette, biting her lower lip.

"Hey Ally, look I don't have time right now, I-" Allison was tired of that sentence and cut her off.

"You have to go, I know. But either you tell me what's going on or you're not going anywhere right now. Why the hell are you ignoring me. Have I done something wrong? It's been one week Remy." She looked at her more intense trying to find something in those sad ocean blue eyes of hers.

"What? No, this is not about you. You have done nothing wrong. It's difficult okay? Not something I'd like to talk about in the parking lot of the hospital," she said looking at the ground.

"So what is it then? Why didn't you want to go out with me? And why aren't you talking to me ever since I asked you to?"

"I did talk to you!"

"No, work related things don't count. And you didn't answer my question. What is it? Do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend? Am I not your type?" Cameron was hurt, she needed to know if she was fighting for a lost cause.

Remy's head shot up. Not her type? How could she think that? "No no no, that's not it. Look, I really like you and I wanted to go out with you, it's just… I can't!" Remy lowered her head, again looking at the ground.

"What's that supposed to mean. You can't. You're not in a relationship, so either you want to or you don't."

"No, it's difficult."

"I have all the time in the world," she said looking at Remy. When she saw her struggling she continued more gently. "Just give it a chance okay? Go out with me. Just one date and then you can still say, you don't want this."

"I…Allison, I really can't do this."

"Yes you can. Tomorrow night is open stage night in our bar. I'll be there at eight and I hope you'll come, too. If you don't come…well then I at least know where I stand."

Cameron turned around and left Remy standing there. She just hoped the brunette would be there tomorrow night.

Of course, now she knows that Remy found out about her Huntington's that night but back then she just thought the brunette didn't want to go out with her because she wasn't attracted to her, just not interested. Thinking about the illness of the younger doctor made her heart ache. 10 years was just not enough. She was so young. And even worse was that she knew she would be dying. Everybody dies and even people that are much younger than her do but most of them don't know it. She knows. That's the problem. That is what's killing her inside and Allison knew that.

Looking through the slightly open door she saw Kutner doing some lab tests and thought about entering for a split second but thought better of it. She left the hospital and when she drove home alone she finally realized what it meant, that there would be no Remy waiting for her at the appartment. She's not just alone in the car, she will also be at the appartment tonight and the following night and that after the following night. She's alone!

That's it. I'm sorry. I'm just so fucking tired. I can't help it. But the flashback was already written so I just had to make it fit in. Hope it's not too bad. Another flashback is already written but not the chapter to put it in and it also is not the one for the next chapter. That one isn't ready and I have a friend of mine visiting me at the weekend so I don't know when the next update will be. Hopefully on sunday, but I don't promise.

Hope you still enjoyed this chapter. Just leave me a little review and tell me if you still like it or if I should change something.