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4th August 1917

Dear Diary

Oh God how I miss Jack, I miss kissing him, waking up to him, having him lying beside me. His smile, his voice, his everything, I don't know how I've lasted this long without him. Today I got two letters both from Jack, one of them got delayed as the date was last month and the other one was the first of this month. I was so happy to read them; his letters are one of the two things keeping me going right now. But I'm scared at what he has to do tomorrow. I'm really surprised that that they didn't go over some parts of the letter with a black pen, like they did to some of Emma's letters.

You'll never guess what I found out today! Well I've missed my period twice, and I thought that it was just because I was worried about Jack but then for the past couple of days I've started to throw up in the morning, I again put that down to being worried but went to the doctor about it anyway just to make sure nothing was seriously wrong. And guess what, the doctor said that I'm pregnant! I am so happy; I'm carrying a piece of Jack around with me and I never knew. I'm thinking that it was from the last night he was here, 28th May, which means that I'm just over two months along. I just wish Jack was here with me. I haven't told anyone, and I don't really want to, I want Jack to be the first person to know. I can't believe that I'm going to be a mommy, and Jack is going to be a daddy. I just hope he gets home in time; I know he wouldn't want to miss it for the world. We've always talked about having children and here I am pregnant and he's not even here. Well it's not his fault is it…

It's so quiet here without Jack, and I sometimes go over to Emma's house but, I feel like she's so lucky her husband is safe and when she goes on about how worried she is, I want to tell her to shut up! I know it's not very nice but, Jack is in much more danger than Daniel is. She should be lucky he only went to translate, I know I would be.

I feel so lonely without Jack here, I'm so happy but so upset at the same time. It feels so weird him not being here, I just wish that Jack was here to hug me and tell me everything was going to be okay. As I write this I'm laying on his side of the bed again, holding one of his shirts. It's the closet thing I've got to him apart from the necklace he gave me which I wear all the time. Jack has to come home, our love survived the freezing waters of the Atlantic and they're going to survive this war too…right?

For some reason I feel myself thinking more and more about Titanic. I said to myself that I would try not to as all it does is upset me; I almost died as did Jack. I don't know what I would have done if that had happened. Sometimes I wonder what ever happened to my mother, I mean she was horrible to me for most of my life but she's still my mother and she gave life to me, like I will to this baby in less than seven months.

Anyways I'm going to go now as I have to feed two now and after that I'm going to write to Jack, I'm thinking about writing the good news in the letter but I'm not sure... I just wish that I could actually tell him in person, so that I could see the reaction on his face.

Rose

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