Won't be able to write a lot throughout the next weeks. I'm visiting my parents and old friends, then a friend and my family come to visit me over christmas and for New Year I'm going to Austria. New Year with snow =) So, I hope you at least like that chapter. I do actually =) Enjoy!
And yeah Suspenderlove you were right, that was definitely from "Imagine me and you". I loved that movie and that was actually my favorite scene in it apart from the one in the back of Luce's shop, that was hilarious :D
Remy spent the rest of the day at her father's. She took the day off anyway, so why not use it?
Victor went to the park with her in their old neighbourhood. They walked in a comfortable silence, Remy's arm linked with her father's, a huge smile plastered on her face. She was going to talk to Allison the next day. Today all that matteres was having a wonderful day with her dad and enjoying every minute of his company. God, she had missed him so much.
"Remy?" Victor asked quietly, careful not to startle his daughter.
"Yes dad," the brunette answered surprised that he broke the silence.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
Remy didn't quite know what he was talking about.
"I...I was going to wait until Ally was ready to meet you. Telling you about her and then not introducing the two of you would have been kind of rude. I'm sorry. As soon as everything's okay again, you will definitely get to know her. I promise."
"I was not talking about your relationship. But I really want to meet her. She must be special if you love her that much."
"Yeah, she really is," Remy said, looking at nothing in particular, her eyes shining, while she day dreamed of the beauty that was Allison Cameron.
That's when she realized she still didn't know what he was talking about earlier.
"Sorry, so what were you really refering to?"
"I was talking about your Huntington's," he said, almost in a whisper.
She stopped in her tracks and stared at him, her mouth slightly hanging open, shocked about his question and not quite sure how to answer him in an appropriate way.
"You knew for over six months," he continued, "and didn't think it would be neccessary to tell me about it? I would have been there for you!"
"Dad, I-"
"All these years I wondered if you were okay and if you would ever come to see me again. I wondered if you ever tested yourself. I wondered if my daughter would be dying without me even knowing it. God, I didn't even know where you were! How could you do that to me?" Victor sounded desperate, but really could you blame him? As his daughter came to him the day before he just wanted to be there for her and for that didn't say a word about it, but now he just had to spit out what had bothered him the last six years.
"Dad, I was going to tell you. Just not yet. I just didn't want to hurt you," she said, her eyes pleading with him to understand her. "I didn't know how you would react and that's why I was afraid to tell you."
"I had the right to know!"
"Like I already said, I would have told you...sooner or later," she said, looking at the ground.
"Why did you leave me?" he asked, changing the subject, still looking desperatly at his daughter, begging for answers to the questions that tortured him through the last years.
"I went to college dad," she answered as if to state the obvious. She still hoped he would just drop this conversation and have a nice day with her after all these years. But somewhere in herself she understood that he had to ask those questions.
"I'm not a fool, Remy. You only visited me ONCE in all those years since you left for college. That was six years ago, six years! You broke my heart. You were everything to me."
"You saw someone in me that I wasn't," she mumbled mostly to herself, tears welling up in her eyes that she desperatly tried to stop from falling.
"What? I saw my lovely daughter who was all I had."
"No," she almost yelled at him. "You saw her, and that's not what I was. I'm not like her dad and I will never be. I'm not Mom. Everytime you looked at me, you saw her and I couldn't stand it. It was like I didn't even exist. When you smiled at me, it was because you imagined she was still there and when you were sad you knew that I'm not what you wanted me to be. I saw how it tore you apart. And seeing you like that tore me apart." By now Remy was crying, tears running freely down her face.
"Honey, that's not what it was like at all. I loved you with all my heart," he said stepping nearer to his daughter, putting his index finger under her chin to lift her head so that she was looking at him again.
"Sure, it wasn't," she said looking past him. "It doesn't even matter anymore, it's in the past. Can we just not talk about this right now?"
"We are talking about this now, who knows when your next visit will be," he scoffed. "Remy when I looked at you I saw my wonderful daughter and not Tara. When I smiled at you then it was because I was lucky to have such a beautiful daughter at my side," he started. Finally Remy looked at him surprised about what he just told her. "When I was sad," he continued, " then it was because I knew that you had to grow up without a mother. There where just things that I couldn't offer you. And I was also terrified since I knew that you had a 50% chance of having the disease, too," he explained to her, never taking his eyes away from her. "I was afraid of losing you, too."
Tears were still rolling down Remy's cheeks and when he opened her arms to her, she accepted the hug without hesitating a second. She cried silently with her head on his chest.
"I missed you dad," she said, her voice almost cracking.
"I missed you too kiddo," he answered in a calming voice.
Two minutes later they ended the embrace but Victor still had his arm around his daughter's shoulders and her arm was still around his waist as they continued their promenade through the park.
"So, tell me more about Allison. What is she like? I think I don't have to ask about the looks, I'm sure she's beautiful," he said, smirking at her when she poked him in his side.
"She is beautiful, she is a blonde, well not naturally but right now she is," she said smiling at him. "And her eyes, god her eyes. Emerald-green. I could get lost in them forever..."
They continued their walk, Remy telling him all about Allison and their relationship. About the wonderful world they had created together and the more she told him about it the more sure she was about talking to her the next day and getting her back.
So that's it, I hope you enjoyed yourself while reading this. I'm trying to update as soon as possible, but I don't think it will be earlier than next monday.
But their are definitely some surprises for you in the next chapter =)
