Oh my gosh, I'm really sorry that it took me so long but my friend just left today and my parents are here so there's lots of work to do AND in Germany we have presents on the 24th so shopping and wrapping up presents and so on. And I don't have holidays yet. Tomorrow last day in university. Finally! So I just hope I can make it up to you with that one. DRAMA baby =)

Remy tried to move, tried to start her car but found that she couldn't. Had she really just given up her job? This just can't be. What would she do now?

She was breathless, as if she ran a marathon or ran for her life. She laid her hands on her knees and tried to take deep breaths, hoping that it would calm her. Every breath hurt like shit. God why did she always leave her inhalator at home. Well okay normally she didn't need it at work but she needed it now. She tried to mentally tell herself how to breathe.

In…and out…in…and out. Come on Remy you can do this.

Slowly calming down she looked into her rear-view mirrow. What she saw there shocked her to say the least. She felt a shiver running down her spine. Was that really her reflection? Was she that person in the mirror staring back at her?

She saw what people saw. Her cover. The walls that she had built up. But her appeareance didn't show what's going on inside of her. Except from the deep red cheeks she looked perfectly normal. Too normal.

It's obvious that you're dying, dying
Just living proof that the camera's lying*

Yeah, people knew she would die at some point in the next 10 years. But they only saw her Huntington's killing her. They didn't see what was burning her inside out, the reason for her inner death.

Suddenly she was shaken out of her thoughts by a vigorous knock on her window.

"Remy, are you okay?"

She looked at her intruder and when she saw the blonde standing next to her car she pressed the button to lock her car, again breathing faster.

"Come on Remy, you can't be serious. Just open the door and talk to me," she heard the damped voice through the windows of her vehicle.

She didn't answer and after a few seconds she took her glance away from her former girlfriend. She took the steering wheel in her shaking hands and stared out of the windshield.

Don't look up just let them think
There's no place else you'd rather be in now
You can't turn back
Because this road is all you'll ever have*

"Remy please, we need to talk," she heard the voice continue.

She couldn't. She had to get away. She needed a way out. Fast. She let her right hand move to the key in the ignition. Her shaking hand turned the key around and started the car, never turning her head to look at Allison.

Just as she was about to drive out of the parking space she saw Allison standing behind her car. She cursed inwardly and rolled down her window to scream at her former lover.

"Get out of the way!"

"No, we need to talk, Remy!"

"Move or I swear I will make you move! Don't let me tell you twice!"

Allison was shocked. Would the brunette really hurt her? Did she hate her that much?

"Cameron! Move…NOW!"

Allison almost felt the brunette's anger herself. She realized that tears were running down her cheek. Slowly she moved to the side and watched as the younger doctor drove off with screaming tires.

But when the brunette drove by were that tears what she saw in Remy's face? Did she really mean those things? And if not, why would she act that way?

Cameron wasn't sure what she felt. Was it dissappointment? Was it anger? Was it concern? Did she feel anything at all?

After Remy left Cameron didn't know what to do, so she went back to the ER to work of her desperation. 3 hours later she was about to go when the doors to the ER opened one more time and another patient was brought in.

"Car accident. 29 year old woman…"

The rest was tuned out by Cameron when she saw the brunette being brought in. She ran over to her and held on to her hand while they brought her to a room.

"Ally?" It was only a whisper and Remy's eyes were barely open but Allison still noticed it.

"Yes baby, I'm here everything's okay," she said, trying to soothe her but mostly herself.

"Al, I … I'm sorry. I want you to know…" After that the brunette's eyes closed again, her head falling to the side.

"Remy, no… no you can't do this to me. Please."

When the lights go down
And there's nothing left to be
When the lights go down
And the truth is all you see**

"No pulse," a doctor next to her said.

Allison's vision went blur. Tears running down her cheek uncontrolably. She felt as if she couldn't move. The hand she held felt lifeless.

"Cameron you have to move. Get away from the table," a doctor called at her. She stepped back a little, finally letting go Remy's hand.

"Clear!" The brunette's upper body jumped in the air and fell back onto the hospital bed.

Beeeeeeep.

"Clear!" Again her body rose and fell.

Beeeeeeep.

When you feel that hole
Inside your soul
Wonder what you're made of
Well we all find out
When the lights go down**

*Paramore – Fences

**Faith Hill – When the lights go down

I know it's a bit short but it's so damn late and I have to stand up in 6 hours and I'm so exhausted right now. Still I hope you liked that chapter and maybe now people can forgive Cameron because in important moments she doesn't care about being out anymore! Love does the trick!