A/N: More… you wanted more, right? Here is it… the secret won't be revealed in this CHAPTER but the pent up frustration will be understood when you realize what she's keeping to herself.

The pent up frustration, caused high anxiety and when Olivia woke the next morning, rolling over to punch her alarm clock, quite, she considered calling in sick at work. The last thing she wanted to do was go into work and have to face Elliot. Not when she had that dark cloud hovering above her head.

She dragged herself out of bed, as bad as she felt, and forced herself to take a shower.

As she drank her routine OJ, she found herself staring at a blank wall, she could barely focus. Her life was spiraling, she could feel it, and she didn't know what to do to make it stop. As much as she had wanted him the night before, as much as she had wanted everything he did, she had more sense than him.

She would have liked to believe it was for his wife, that she had stopped herself making a HUGE mistake it was his children she would have liked to believe stopped the urge to move closer and bring her arms around his neck, to feel that embrace that she had been longing for most of her adult life. But she knew it was none of those things, it was her secret, and she knew there was no escaping it.

One day soon, she was going to have to tell him.

Something happened to her when she entered the precinct. The pressure of work, of speaking to people, of having to actually care about the victims when nobody cared about her, the anger rose like a volcano in her throat and she did her best to push it down again.

In the Captain's office, Olivia knew that an explosion was just around the corner, she could feel it making its way towards the surface. It's coming. She knew it was, it was just a matter of the wrong word at the wrong time.

"Detective, you need to sort this out with Elliot. Whatever the issue is that the two of you are having, you need to-" Cragen stated.

"Captain, with all due respect, BACK OFF. This doesn't interfere with work and if it does, you have every right to approach me and pull me into line, but right now, I'm telling you that-"

"YOU don't tell ME anything, detective," Cragen looked like he was ready to smash her head into a wall. "I am your Captain and you obey MY orders, not the other way around. I have been tolerable of your behavior for longer than I needed to. Now it's your turn to return the favor, and I'd appreciate it if you were a little more respectful in the matter."

She sighed. "Yes, Captain."

"Good. Now… you have things to do, I'm sure."

Olivia slammed the door behind her.

She didn't stop at her desk, but she went into the CRIB to take a moment to herself. He followed her. Picked himself up from the desk chair and followed her in, hoping to solve the mystery of her behavior the night before, as if there could be another explanation other than just NOT wanting him. He wasn't buying that.

"Hey," he greeted.

"Don't," she warned. "Give me some space."

She knew she should have told him, she should have told him then and there, and she wanted to, but the idea that he would now see her as spoiled was overwhelming. It wasn't who she was it was WHAT she had done that had earned her this reputation for herself. A mistake! An insane mistake that had cost her more than she would have been willing to pay, had she known what it would come to.

Elliot ignored her plea and crossed the room to where she stood.

"DON'T!" she barked pulling her arm away as he reached out to her. "I don't want to be touched, I don't want to be comforted. I just want to be LEFT ALONE!"

He stepped back as if he was slapped, and a moment later, without a word, he left her.

She felt it come up. The vile. The anger. The frustration of the situation she could not longer control. It beat her, the anger, came up like red to a bull. She crossed the room and slammed her fist into the lockers, but it wasn't enough, she pulled the blankets from the cots and threw them on the floor, she throw objects that lay loose, she threw bags that sat neatly in corners. And when she was done, the place looked like it had been burgled, she dropped to the floor and sobbed.

Dramatic… I know… forgive me. Like I said, when you find out the secret, you'll understand why. Next Chapter comes with a few reviews. :)