A/N: Thank you guys, so much! I'm sincerely glad everyone has been enjoying my story so far. As you all may know, I will update as much as possible. Please leave reviews! Oh my goodness! I'm the worst, I'm so sorry. It is the 13th now. I wrote two paragraphs on the first, then I haven't turned my laptop on since. I know! This weekend is my Birthday though, so I'll try to type ASAP! This will probably be a short chapter, just so I can put something out, since I haven't in more than two weeks!
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Recap: She is made for me, she was in high school, she is now. She just hasn't realized it yet. It will take time for her to forgive me, but it will be worth the wait. With those thoughts, I drift off to sleep with a heartfelt smile on my face.
Tris P.O.V.
Why am I moving up and down? I don't own a water bed. Who turned on the lights in my room? I groan, and open my eyes. The first thing I notice is that I'm not in my room. The second thing I notice is that the sun is shining through the windows in my living room, which is probably what woke me up. The next thing I realize, is that I'm lying on top of a hard surface. I'm too afraid to look, though. I take a quick peek at it- or should I say him? "Eek!" I scream as I fall off of the couch. I'm awaiting the impact of the ground, but, it never comes.
I open my eyes and am immediately met with concerned deep, icy blue eyes. I quickly look away, and realize the position we were in all night, and right now. I slept with him. Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god! I slept on top of him! Ugh! I can't believe we fell asleep. "W-what are y-you doing here?" I stammer out. I cringe I probably look like a hippo, right now. With my hair in knots, and my eyes sleepy.
"I must've fell asleep, Tris, I'm sorry." He looks genuine.
"Oh- "well DUH! Tris, that was a stupid question. "Right, well… um" he looks really good in the morning- oh who am I kidding, he always looks good! He holds out his hand and I stare at it as if it is a new species.
"A-hem" he clears his throat which makes me look up at him. His eyes gesture back to his held out hand. Oh, Right. I grab it and I wince at the tingling sensation, that always seems to be there. He helps me off my floor and I give him a small smile in thanks.
"So… there is a Café that I know of, that's great… if you'd like to um- "I don't want him to think it's a date!
"Do you have stuff here, to make breakfast?" he asked.
"Well, yeah, but I have to get to work." I didn't even know the time; I could be late for all I know!
"I'll be quick. What time do you have work?" Wait he'll be quick? Since when could he cook?!
"Eight, but what do you mean you're cooking? You sucked at it before." I accused him. He scratched the back of his neck and some color was flooding his ears. Aww.
"I took some cooking classes" he mumbled, I barely caught it. AWW. I smirked and tried not to laugh.
"Why, must I ask?" he kept blushing. I love torturing him.
"Because I wanted to learn, plus there would be a lot of girls." He smirked. I rolled my eyes. Once a playboy, always a playboy. "I'm just kidding Tris." He must have saw the eye roll. I roll them again. "I have taken two classes so far, here, in Chicago." He was acting nervous again. "We've only learnt how to make a few breakfast foods so far." The smirk on my face reappeared, "Okay, go shower and get ready, and I'll have breakfast done, by the time you get out of your room." He clapped his hands together, looking excited.
I turned around and walked to my room. I take a shower and blow dry my matted hair. I put on some mascara and change into some black jeans and the bakery's t-shirt. I smell a delicious smell drifting from the kitchen. I walk into the kitchen, and spot Tobias putting some whipped cream on the delicious-looking pancakes. Honestly, I think he paid a lot of attention in those baking classes.
"This set-up looks adorable." I state, knowing it will probably annoy him. He turns around and I notice he is wearing my extra small pink apron that Christina got for me once. Oh my goodness, he is so adorable. He acts like he is four years old sometimes.
"Mmm… thanks, wait 'till you try the food." He smiles shyly.
"I guess I will." I wink, I love how natural our friendship is right now.
He places the strawberry bowl in the middle and sits down. In front of us lies a bowl of freshly cut strawberries, syrup, coffee, sugar, and cream. Also, he made sausage, turkey bacon, Swedish pancakes, made into different shapes. I don't know if that was meant to be on purpose or not but. Some pomegranate seeds, watermelon, and two cups of orange juice. Wow, he went all out. He takes a deep breath, and wipes invisible dust off his shoulders. I roll my eyes at that.
"Let's dig in" he states.
I take a bite into the pancake that looks like Oklahoma, and honestly I think I may have out a little moan. It is so, so, so, so good! He smirks at me so I'm assuming that he heard my moan of approval. "Good, huh?" I decide to tease him a little.
"I've had better." I say without looking at him in the eye. He narrows his eyes at me, as if testing to see if I'm lying. I keep a neutral look on my face, trying not to crack a smile.
"Mhmm… whose? May I ask?" Think fast, Tris!
"Christina." Shit! She doesn't cook! Well, how would he find out.
"Really? Hmmm, I'll have to try them some day." Uh oh.
"Umm, yeah, definitely." I smile. He bursts out laughing. What?
"Oh… God… you've always been… the worst… liar" he says in between laughs. Shoot.
"Hey! Have not!" I probably look like a five-year-old pouting with my arms crossed. Which makes him laugh even harder.
"Okay, okay, okay. Gosh, Tris I know my cooking's great." He smirks cockily, see this is why I didn't want to tell him it was the best pancakes I've ever tasted.
"Wow, that great, huh?" What?
"You say that out loud, Tris." Shit. I blush, while he laughs again. Jeez, he must have woken up on the right side of the bed.
"We didn't even sleep on a bed last night." He states.
"I really need to stop talking out loud." I say and then stuff my face with this delicious breakfast.
After we finish breakfast, he said he'll call me later today. I'm on my way to work, I was going to ask Tobias for a ride, but I thought he was going to be busy. The bus doesn't come for another half an hour, and I'm already late. I decided to walk, for being January, it's surprisingly not too bad out. It's like 35 degrees. I walk fast, because I hate walking past alleys and in this area, there's so many.
You know the cliché story, where a girl's walking alone at night down the street, and a gang jumps out and pulls her into an alley, mugs her, rapes her, and leaves her shivering in a dark corner. Where she is never found again. Yeah, I think everyone is afraid of that, that's why they always tell you not to walk alone. But it's mid-day and there would be too many witnesses.
Once I get to Sweeties, I hang my coat up in the back, and put my apron on. Today I'm working in the bakery part for my shifts. Al, who also works here, he is super sweet. He is like this big teddy bear. We have gotten really close lately. We opened fifteen minutes ago, I was late. But since Al is the only other person here right now, I'm sure I can talk him into not telling on me.
"Hey, Al" I say nonchalantly.
"Hey Tris, glad you could make it" He smirks.
"Yeah, about that… you wouldn't mind doing me a small favor?" I ask
"Well, whatever is the favor?" he wants me to beg, well two can play at that game. I'm a girl he's a guy. Hmmm.
"Al" I purr. His smirk never faltered. I must suck at seducing people, I wouldn't exactly know, though. I have only had sex once for Christ's sake.
"Tris." He sounds bored. BORED.
"Al, how 'bout we pretend I never showed up late, and I've been here the entire time." I try to sound seductive, but it probably comes off as that one fake annoying aunt, we all have.
"Tris I'm gay, you can stop rubbing yourself all over me like that." He shudders to prove I didn't turn him on in the slightest. He is gay?!
"Oh my god! Really?! That made me love you so much more!" I gave him a big bear hug. Before he could respond someone cleared their throat. I turn around to see Tobias. What is he doing here? He looks pissed.
"I thought you said you didn't have a boyfriend, Tris." He seethes. Al chokes on his water
"Well, actually I never answered you, you just assumed." Who does he think he is? He finally looks away from Al and looks back at me.
"Well I was just coming to tell you I really enjoyed breakfast this morning." He says that towards Al, as if that should make Al jealous. Oh if only he knew. Al just smiles and puts his arm around me.
"That-a-girl! We are actually in an open relationship, where we can date who ever we want." Oh, that's good. High five Al! That is true except the relationship being a friendship. What Al said makes Tobias furious. Ha-ha, shows him.
"Tris can we talk?" he speaks through clenched teeth.
"Sure." He glares at me.
"Alone."
"Oh, right. Be right back, Al." I kiss him on the cheek just to infuriate Tobias even more. I don't know why I feel the need to do that, but it just feels good. For all the heartache he gave me.
We walk outside, and he paces around in circles.
"You wanted to talk?" I question.
"Yeah, Tris What the hell!?"
"Am I not allowed to have friends Four?"
"Don't call me that!"
"I'm going to call you that because that's who you are being! Four the guy back in California, the guy who I. don't. like!" His demeanor changes, he looks less angry. He looks sorrowful, upset."
"Just explain something, were you planning on stringing me along while you had whoever the hell was in there, the entire time?"
"Oh my god, he is Gay Tobias. Okay if anything he was trying to make you jealous not the other way around." He looks confused which is kind of cute. Then he looks angry again, then embarrassed, then finally, he looks relieved.
"So… you're not... um dating him?" he is rubbing his neck, how cute.
"Of course not, I only found out he was gay minutes ago, that is why I was hugging him. You idiot." I smile up at him. He looks insecure.
"Well can you blame me? You're hot any guy would kill to date you."
"Hmm… so I'm only hot huh?"
"No… no! of course not, you're super pretty, and funny, and smart, and- "
"Shut up Tobias! I was only teasing. Anyway, why are you here?"
"Didn't expect me to catch you and your buddy?" he smirks, well I'm glad he is over it.
"No, but how did you know where I work?"
"You were wearing the shirt during breakfast." Right. "Then I just looked up the directions. Wait! Did you walk here?!" he asks as we are walking back inside.
"Hmmm… Yep." Didn't feel like lying anymore today.
"Goodness Tris. Trying to get yourself killed?" he looks mad again. I'm not dead, am I?
"Of course not! Christina took the car today and it's nice out, for January." He pulls me into a hug, and I feel this huge warmness in my heart and my whole body. My entire being is tingling and his heartbeat is soaring. I smile against his chest as it's rumbling, oh he is talking."
"-okay, I just really couldn't handle you getting hurt, next time tell me! I would never, ever mind driving you anywhere Tris, Okay?" he kisses the top of my head, I just about die. Before I can respond I hear a girl's voice.
"Four Eaton? Wow I thought it was you, what are you doing here in Chicago?" she is looking at him like he is a piece of meat, or maybe I'm imagining that. Uh oh, who is she? An ex? Does he have a girlfriend? He tenses and let's go of me. Wow that hurt more than I thought it would.
"Shauna, hey." They hug, HUG! I start to walk away, they don't even notice. All for starting over, huh.
"I'm just going to go back to work, since you know. I work here, and I should be behind the counter and all." Stop blabbering! "Yeah, nice to meet you…"
"Shauna, and we didn't really properly meet, since Four here, was never really good at using his manners." Yes, he was! You just don't know Tobias! "We should definitely get to know each other sometime…"
"Tris." I give her a fake smile; no way am I ever hanging out with Fours girlfriend! How could he not tell me? especially since he just got at me for "Al" at least he is gay! I give Four a glare, where he looks back at me confused. Then I walk to where Al was practically gaping at the scene. He probably hates Four now too. Since he just got jealous FOR NO REASON.
Tobias P.O.V.
I pull Tris into a hug, so she can't see how truly worried I am. She could've been murdered! What was she thinking? I can't stand the thought of her getting hurt, why didn't she ask me for a ride?
"Tris, baby, I care about you so much, I know that seems ridiculous since I haven't seen you in years, but I never stopped caring about you. Don't ever put yourself in harm's way, okay, I just really couldn't handle you getting hurt, next time tell me! I would never, ever mind driving you anywhere Tris, Okay?"
I kiss the top of her, just like old times, and it feels so natural. I sniff her hair, it still smells like lemons, with a hint of cinnamon. It smells like home. I smile brightly, but before she can respond, I hear a familiar voice.
"Four Eaton? Wow I thought it was you, what are you doing here in Chicago?" I tense up, and let go of Tris. I don't want Tris thinking Shauna was one of my old flings. Did Zeke not tell Shauna I was back?
"Shauna, hey." She pulls me into a hug, before I can even deny it. Tris! Please don't think this means anything to me. I hope she can read my mind, even though I know it's impossible. Out of the corner of my eye, I see Tris starting to back away. No! don't walk away from me!
"Gotta girl already, Eaton?" She's not just a girl!
"No, Shauna, that's Tris." I say her name like a precious treasure, as if I say it too loud, it'll disappear. Shauna knows all about Tris from what Zeke and I have told her. Her mouth forms into an O, and she smirks.
"Did I interrupt something, then?" Yes! Don't be a dick!
"Mmm… nope." She sees right through me.
"I'm just going to go back to work, since you know. I work here, and I should be behind the counter and all." An angelic voice says. "Yeah, nice to meet you…" Don't go!
"Shauna, and we didn't really properly meet, since Four here, was never really good at using his manners." I too, have manners! "We should definitely get to know each other sometime…" Shauna she doesn't know your insignificance to me yet!
"Tris." She gives her such a fake smile, either Shauna didn't notice, or just didn't care. She looks lost in thought for a moment, she's so gorgeous. She snaps out of it, and sends me a glare. I'm confused for a moment, because I was lost in Tris world, then I realize why she gave me a glare; she thinks Shauna was one of those girls from back in California. She's not Tris! I try showing her she's wrong about Shauna, but she already walked back behind the counter, and won't look back at us.
"Well, good luck with that one, Four." Shauna winks and walks away. She totally did all that on purpose. I roll my eyes; she is teaching me a lesson. God. I take a seat on a quaint, little table in the corner. I wait until Tris comes over to serve me, but she sends Al over, Ugh! She hasn't even spared me a glance.
I decided to wait until her shift is over, which I have no idea when that could be, because she hasn't given me the time to ask her. I'll give her a ride home, no way am I letting her walk home, especially since it's getting dark out! The bell on the top of the door, that alerts you when someone leaves or enters, is built into my brain now. Shit, how could people stand to listen to that for hours every day.
Christina walks in, and takes off her gloves, she looks at Tris and her eyebrows furrow. Then she looks around and her eyes land on mine, and understanding forms in her eyes. What? She walks over to Tris and they have a quick conversation, and then she makes her way over to me. Uh oh! She takes a seat across from me, and stares at me for a moment. "Four, lovely to see you again" wish I could say the same.
"It's been brought to my attention that you're back to your old playing ways. Please correct me if I'm wrong." She pauses, I'm assuming this is where I'm supposed to respond.
"Shauna is Zeke's girlfriend." I say truthfully, plainly.
"Right, see but Tris doesn't know this. I'm assuming she closed herself off and has ignored you?" The way she says it, she already knows the answer. "She's changed, Four. You breaking her heart, changed her, as a person. It formed it to rarely trust people, she wouldn't let people in. It was like she was on autopilot. She different now. She's not going to keep you around long enough to break her heart. She is stronger, brave, don't ruin her again. I'm warning you. If you aren't going to stay around for the long haul, then leave her alone. Let her live her life, let her finally be free.
If you are staying, to love her, love her with your entire being, with your entire heart. She deserves that. She deserves to finally be okay, without pretending. She was a wreck Four. Even though you guys were young, she cared so deeply. So much and with everything inside her, that when you left, it was like a light inside of her turned off. But today, even though she's mad right now, I saw some of that light shining through her eyes again. You must love her on her bad days when she is moody and irritated just as much as you love her on days where everything is going well."
"She is going to have those bad days; you're going to have those bad days. She is going to try and push you away from her when she gets insecure, or when she doesn't feel worthy. You're going to have to stick with her, through everything and anything. When two people are meant to be together, they will be together. It's fate. I'm not going to be willing to let you get away with hurting her again. You weren't there in the dorm room, when she would cry herself asleep, but would face away from me because she hates when people see her weak. Or when she would sometimes skip meals and just stare out into nothing as if thinking was too hard."
"So you have to put on some big boy pants right now go over there, force her to listen and tell her what you want. She is just confused right now. confused about you, confused about what she wants. Go reassure her!" She walks away and out the bakery. Tris looks kind of shocked, as if she didn't expect Christina to leave her. I take a moment and think about everything Christina had told me. It makes me feel horrible. That Tris unintentionally hurt herself, because of me. I think about what I want.
I know that I want Tris, but do I really know her? It's been years. I would never want to hurt her. But I already have. Do I deserve her? Do I deserve a second chance? Something Christina said comes to the front of my mind. "When two people are meant to be together, they will be together. It's fate." Was her walking into Wills apartment that day, fate? I want to think so. I believe so. I will love her until the day I die, I know that for a fact. I practically jump out of the chair everyone looks at me. I push in the chair and I walk over to the counter. I know what I want. I want Tris, no, I need Tris. I'm sure of it now.
"Hey, Tris I know you probably don't want to talk to me right now, but, just listen. Shauna is Zeke's girlfriend; I have no feelings for her whatsoever. I never will. I will never have feelings for anyone other than you. I have never had true feelings for anyone other than you, Tris. Okay, I need you, to survive, for happiness. I know depending on people is wrong, and you shouldn't do it. But I can't help it. I want to be it for you. The one, because I know that you are the one for me. you're it, you're my past, present, and future.
I don't want you to have any doubts about my feelings for you. I know right now, you may not exactly reciprocate the feelings, but I just don't want you to give up on me. I don't care if you want to start as a friendship, I'm willing to wait for you Tris. I will wait however long it takes." She looks flabbergasted, I don't know if that is a good or bad thing.
"To-Tobias… wow umm… you've never exactly been the type to spill all your feelings and emotions out like this." Her voice sounds shaky.
"I know it might make me sound desperate, but I just know what I want in life, it's you, wherever you are."
"That's a lot to take in, Tobias, plus I'm supposed to be working right now."
"I know, Tris. What time is your shift over?"
"5:30."
"Great, twenty more minutes. Would you like to go out to dinner and talk?"
"Umm, sure, yeah. We will have to stop by my apartment so I can change, though." Success!
"Of course, yeah, we will. I'll get out of your way then." I smile at her, I'm still nervous, though. She could always say no and crush my heart.
Once she is done working, she goes in the back and Al approaches me. "Hey, man. Sorry about earlier I saw an opportunity and took it. She isn't my type by the way. If you know what I mean." Yeah, I know what you mean, doesn't mean we can be friends. "Anyway, I just wanted to warn you. If you hurt Tris in anyway, again?" he says again as if he doesn't know the story behind Tris and I. Good. "I will crush you, I may not seem the physical type of guy, but I will for my friends." I almost want to laugh, I feel as if I poke his stomach right now, he'll burst out laughing. That is just the feeling he lets off.
"Stop harassing the customers, Al." Tris teases, as she walks out from the back. She takes out her high ponytail and shakes her hair around, it looks H.O.T. "Bye, Al, see you Friday." She kisses his cheek and I have to take a few deep breaths to stop myself from getting jealous.
"Come on, Four." I nod my head politely at Al and hold out my hand for Tris to hold but she just raises an eyebrow at me. Right, baby steps. I open up the passenger side door of my car for her and then jog over and get in the driver's side. I turn the keys and start to get anxious, what if she doesn't want to pursue a relationship with me? Is it too soon? Does she even still have feelings for me? Has she even forgiven me? So many situations are floating around in my head, and none of them end up with me being happy. I gulp.