I'm sorry it took me so long but since it's the end of the term, I have tests at all my classes and don't have much time to write since I'm all stressed out. I'm not sure if I like that chapter myself but still I hope you like it.

All the way to the OR House had to support Cameron's walking. He led her along the halls and when people walked by he just gave them a look that was sure to say 'Don't you dare open your mouth'. When he felt the ER-doctor leaning more and more against him and walking slower he stopped to look at her. Noticing that her eyes were only barely open, he sat her down on a nearby chair carefully.

"What are you doing House? We're not there yet," she slurred quietly.

"Just wait here. I'll bring you some coffee. If Cuddy sees you like that, she'll send you out in no time."

The blonde only nodded and sighed, leaning back in the chair. She tried her hardest to not just fall asleep right then and there. She knew she couldn't. Remy needed her. Still she closed her eyes, trying to make the horrible merry-go-round that her head was producing stop. Everything was spinning and she pressed her feet against the ground making sure it was still there while she felt she was swaying around. Her stomach felt more and more sick with every passing second that her world kept spinning.

She remembered Remy making her feel like she left the ground, remembered how good she felt back then, her soft touch always making her fly. Her hands that wandered down her body carefully, making sure not to hurt the blonde. She touched her like she was touching the wings of a butterfly, anxious to break her. Every wall that Cameron ever had built around her broke down in front of Remy. She never let anyone get as close as she let the stunning brunette. She felt vulnerable and naked in front of her, the young doctor looking at her as if she was looking directly into her soul and yet she felt safe. The way Remy looked at her, making her feel more beautiful than she ever did before. The way her eyes would study her whole body would always bring a smile onto Allison's lips. God, those eyes. Every time Remy looked at her, Allison felt as if she was holding her with her eyes. As if she was holding her so tight that she couldn't move.

Being around Remy made Allison redefine her world. Everything she knew before was shoved away as a lie, being replaced with the truth that was Remy Hadley. She knew she belonged to her and only her. She was like a song to her. A song that she knew by heart. A song that she wanted to sing all her life. That was something she was sure of. More sure than she has ever been before about anything. She wanted to wake up with her every day for as long as possible.

The way the sunlight lit up her face always made her breath get caught in her throat. That's what love's supposed to be, isn't it? When you melt into each other, when all the walls tumble down, when you don't need words to express your love to each other. The magic that's floating in the air every time Remy touches her is indescribable.

She loved Remy, she knew she did. She loved everything about her. The way her hand fit in hers, the way she had her arms wrapped around her when she woke up in the morning with her head on the younger woman's chest, hearing her heart beating slowly and regularly. She loved the way Remy said her name, the way she smiled at her, giving her eyes that special sparkle. Remy was beautiful, beautiful in every single way. She loved Remy and she wanted to love her for the rest of all time.

Feeling her stomach making turns, Allison pushed herself up from the chair and made a mad dash for the bathroom on the other side of the floor. Stumbling she crashed open the door to one of the stalls and threw up all the alcohol that she drank earlier. Choking over and over again, she felt as if her body was cleaning itself inside out, settling all her sorrows.

When she felt as if her stomach didn't have anything left to give, she slowly sat down on the cold flagging, leaned against the wall and closed her eyes, not yet feeling ready to stand up again.

"It's not as bad as it seems," she remembers Remy's words. "Everything will be okay baby, I promise." She remembered the salty taste on her lips when she kissed Remy before the operation and couldn't hold back the tears that ran down her face. "This isn't who I am Allison, you have to understand that," she heard her voice as if Remy was standing behind her in that little cabin in the bathroom. "Do you still love me despite all of my insecurities?" –"Of course I do. How could I not love you Hun?" The blonde remembered the smile that her sentence brought to Remy's lips. The smile that was only reserved for her.

When the nurses came in to take her to the OR she looked down at her lover once more, leaning down to kiss her forehead softly, lingering a few seconds. "Will you be waiting for me when I get out of the OR?" Yes, she thought to herself but thinking back knew that she didn't answer her question. She just gave her a half smile, squeezing her hand once again before the nurses rolled her bed out of the room. There' so many things that she wished she had said at that very moment but she didn't say a word.

Upon hearing the door to her stall open loudly, she looked up at a grumpy House.

"Can't I even leave you alone for one second?"

Not being in the mood for his bad jokes, she bent her head down, breaking eye contact and closing her eyes again. When he realized that she wouldn't answer he let out a silent sigh.

"Come one little ex-duckling, the dying girl is waiting for you," he said and as soon as he saw the single tear running down her face, noticed that this wasn't the best thing to say in this situation. He contemplated to apologize but decided against it, seeing as it might be used against him at some point.

"God, I won't wait forever," he said, holding his left hand out for her to take it.

With tearstained face she looked up at him, hoping to find hope in his eyes, but found none. Only this sympathetic look that she never thought she would ever see on his face. Glancing at his hand she slowly laid her hand in his and let him pull her up to her feet.

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