I'm so sorry for not updating the last 2 months but I was at my parents' for over a month and wasn't really in the mood to write. So now, I hope you won't have to kill me and I won't have to fear Vanamo's wrath.

Cuddy just stared at the scenery in front of her, unsure what to do. House comforting Cameron? Thirteen dying on the operation table? This felt so unreal. What was she supposed to do? She saw House staring at her, begging her to do something, anything. Looking down at the operation going on, she saw Chase, looking at her with pleading eyes and knew there was only one thing she could do right now. Nodding at him she turned to House and simply said.

"Get her out of here!"

"What?" To say he was furious would have been an understatement.

"I said bring her out of here," she repeated slowly, strength filling her voice again. "She can wait in Dr. Hadley's room."

"You have to be kidding me," he said, an incredulous look plastered to his face.

"Do I look as if I'm kidding? Do it, or I will page someone else to do it."

He looked down at the blonde woman in his arms. She didn't even realize there was a conversation going on, let alone one containing her. Slowly he tried to stand up, taking her with him.

"Don't leave me," he heard her mumble into his chest again. "Don't leave me."

"Cameron?" He waited for a few seconds, hoping to get her attention but she stayed silent.

"Cameron," he tried again, shaking her a little bit at her shoulder. Finally she looked up at him, confusion written all over her face. "We can't stay in her, come on."

"What do you mean we can't stay here?"

"We just can't okay? Let's go wait in her room."

Without another word he escorted her out of the room, up to the next floor and to Thirteen's hospital room. Sitting her down on an empty chair he watched her, hoping to find out what she was thinking about. She didn't budge at all when he brought her up here. Not even a little bit. It was as if she wasn't really there, only a shell of the woman she was, her mind somewhere else.

Back at the cabin observing the operation room, Cuddy was staring down at a thankful Chase. Seeing his ex wife break down didn't really help trying to save Thirteen's life. Cuddy watched the doctors doing their job getting more edgy with every second that the brunette's heartbeat didn't return. Nervousness started rising in her too. She felt helpless standing there, not able to help in any way. It felt impossible to stay. She contemplated leaving the room, turning around, when she suddenly heard it.

Beep Beep Beep

There it was. Her heartbeat. Cuddy turned around as fast as possible looking at the monitor that showed a flat line just a few seconds ago. Relieved she looked at Chase who gave her a slight nod. She knew this wasn't over yet but at least now they could continue. It was now or never, she wouldn't survive another operation .

Cuddy walked back to Thirteen's room, ready to deliver the good news to Cameron and House. She quietly opened the door and saw the blonde doctor sitting on a chair, her elbows on her knees, hands supporting her head and tearing at her hair. She didn't even notice Cuddy entering. House however noticed and immediately looked up at her, his eyes questioning her.

"So far everything went well," Cuddy started and as soon as Cameron heard the voice of the Dean of Medicine she looked up, hope shining through her tearstained eyes, but she didn't dare interrupt her.

"They're stitching her up right now and after that they'll bring her back here. Then we'll just have to wait for her to wake up."

"If she wakes up," Cameron added bitterly and returned to her previous position.

"Shut up," House snapped at her but she didn't even flinch,already back to her state of numbness.

"She's strong. Have some faith Cameron," Cuddy said before leaving the room and motioning for House to join her.

Letting him walk out first so she could supervise his every move, she silently closed the door behind her. She turned around and was surprised by the worried look aimed at the room he just left, watching the distraught doctor sitting in her chair through the glass walls.

"How did it really go?" He still didn't take his eyes off of the blonde woman, a stern look on his face.

"Well, it took some time to reanimate her which could lead to complications when it comes to her waking up but they went through with the operation after her heart rate was back to normal and hopefully, if she wakes up, she'll also be able to walk again."

"Not if. There is no place for an If. WHEN she wakes up. She has to wake up otherwise we'll lose both of them and you know that," he said now looking down at her seriously.

"Yes, I know. All we can do is pray."

House scoffed at this. "Oh come on, don't be ridiculous. As if that would ever really help. Just remind me to kill her for making this stupid decision as soon as she wakes up."

"I thought if someone would understand it would be you. If you had the possibility to walk without a cane again wouldn't you do anything for it?"

"Of course I would but I wouldn't pull anyone with me. It would only be me. I'm allowed to be selfish, she isn't. If she would really love her, she would have just tried to live with her situation and have her happy ever after with little Miss Sunshine. Instead she destroyed little Miss Sunshine."

"This is so typical. What do you even know about love? Did you ever notice the way she looks at her? Why am I even talking to you?"

"Because you can't help it, I'm just too damn sexy," he said, a little smirk forming on his lips despite the situation. "And you just can't stop the urge to be with me as much as possible."

"You're a jerk, House," she said rolling her eyes.

"And you aren't denying what I just said," he said his smirk growing bigger.

Just when Cuddy was about to answer she saw a few nurses wheeling a still unconscious Thirteen through the hall, towards them.

Opening the door for the nurses, Cuddy watched as Cameron's body shot up when she noticed them bringing in her girlfriend. She impatiently waited for the nurses to finish hooking her up to the machines and leaving the room. She took her chair and placed it right next to Remy's bed, watching the peaceful woman on the bed. Hesitantly she took her hand and started rubbing her thumb over her lover's knuckles. She lowered her head and softly kissed her knuckles, lingering a little bit, tears welling up in her eyes again.

"Please, don't leave me," she whispered, repeating her words from earlier.

Slowly she lifted her right hand, the one that wasn't holding her girlfriend's hand, and removed a strand of hair out of Remy's face, looking at her beautiful facial features. She moved her hand through her auburn hair and down to her cheek, caressing it lightly with her thumb.

"I love you, hun."

When she heard the glass doors slide open again she turned around to look into the saddened eyes of Victor Hadley.

So this is it. I hope I at least could make it up to you a little bit with that update. So liked it? Tell me ;)