Permanent :- Twilight- Jasper Hale.

Chapter six- What is that?

Summary: "This is reality now. This is my life." She pulled Jasper towards her, stroking gentle fingers over his cheek, jaw line, red eyes meeting golden, "You're my life now. You are all there is." JASPER/OC

I DO HAVE TO SAY THAT RENESMEE DID NOT HAPPEN AND JACOB IS WITH ALICE =] (They got over their differences!)

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Jasper Hale was a smart man. A strong man. He was never easily swayed by emotion despite his gift. Through long years of learning to cope with not only his gifts but also with his newly chosen lifestyle with Carlisle and his family, he had managed to reel in his gift, push the emotions of those around him to the back of his mind and almost completely ignore them. This, despite what one would think, was much easier to do in crowded situations like school, though Jasper believed this to be because he was concentrating so hard on not killing the humans around him that he couldn't pay attention to their emotions also. So, when he was home, though his family was large, there were not enough people around to completely pull his concentration from their emotions. He would, though he tried extremely hard not to, be able to feel the elation that Edward felt every time he had Bella in his sights. He could feel the anger emanating from Emmett when he lost a game against Edward or one of the females. He would feel the adoration from Carlisle, Esme's need to protect and mother everybody and Alices pure love and sometimes slight fear when it came to Jacob. It was not often that he interfered with his families emotions. He would deliberately leave them be, after so long together they knew exactly how it felt when Jasper interfered wit their emotions and they were alert enough to tell the difference between their own emotions and Jaspers on the rare occasions he forgot to or couldn't control his own. To others, if he felt the need to interfere, if someone's emotions were so overwhelming that Jasper himself couldn't handle them then he would send a sense of calm or happiness their way. To them it would just feel as if, suddenly, however they had felt before no longer mattered and they were okay. Only Jasper would know any different and even after so many years there was still a small feeling of satisfaction he felt once he had done a good deed. At home if he concentrated hard enough he found he could, not ignore, but look past the fleeting emotions of his family, though it had taken a lot of practice, however, the emotions of one who is going through the change are impossible to ignore. He had felt it with Bella and then with Emma.

The emotions a human felt when going through the change were overwhelming and unbelievable, especially those of someone who was not prepared for the change as Bella had been and who knew what to expect. The fear, the agony, the unfairness of it all was the only thing they knew and with his gift the only thing Jasper knew too. No matter how much calm or happiness Jasper would try to send their way it never reached them, their own emotions and pain a thick wall that nothing could break through until they had come through the change at the end. Jasper, especially during the 1860s, the days he had spent changing people and building the army for Maria, had seen a lot of innocent people unfairly changed and struggled valiantly to help them through it, to no avail and Emma had been no different. He had felt the familiar agony and unadulterated fear long before Edward and Bella had even entered the forest, it masked Edwards curiosity and Bellas anxiety. Then, he had felt the worry from Carlisle and Esme as they fought to restrain the screaming girl and make her as comfortable as was possible as she went through the change. The curiosity from the other members of the house and the anger from Jacob as he realised another vampire would be around and he would have to be the one to inform the rest of his pack. Then, for the Cullens everything had returned to normal, they continued on as was usual apart from Carlisles checking on the girl. However, for Jasper, those days were anything but normal, it had been a while since he had felt so mach terror and agony and he had suffered as much as the girl herself aside from the physical pain. Then everything had been a haze since she had awoken and he had been able to send her the calming emotions once her body and mind were open to such which had helped Carlisle and Emma herself more than Jasper himself could have known. Emma, new to all of this and completely unaware that vampires could have these gifts like Jaspers emotion manipulation and Edwards mind reading, believed, like the humans did that her emotions were simply out of control and not knowing that someone else in the house could feel her emotions she made no move to try and hold back her extreme guilt at attacking Jacob, though sometimes Jasper still believed that the dog deserved it. It had nothing to do with Alice that Jasper didn't particularly like the dog. Alice and Jasper had been apart for years, their relationship never really going very far once Alice had envisioned, then found him in that little café, therefore it was not jealousy it was just his instinct. Plus the boy was in even less control than an adolescent female on the cusp of puberty, when it came to his emotions. Jasper shook his head with a wry smile at his musings. "Do you feel much better Emma?" Esme asked from the bottom of the stairs and Jasper heard her voice reply that yes, in fact she did feel much better though her emotions said something completely different, all Jasper knew as he concentrated solely on the girl was guilt and fear, not of her surroundings but of herself and a little relief at being clean and fresh out of the shower. Though Jasper thought it may have been more prudent for her to have showered after, any vampire within a ten mile radius could smell the carcass of the venison lying on the table in the kitchen ready for Emma to feast on and hopefully quell some of the pain that she felt in her throat. Pain that would be felt fro a long time until she was finally ready to be in the company of humans without eating them, Jasper knew from experience that it would be a long and arduous journey beforehand.

He decided, as had the rest of the family except Esme herself that it was best not to be around when Emma first ate, it was a strange experience for any vampire. Therefore, Rosalie and Emmett had ran off somewhere and Edward and Bella had decided to hunt themselves after bringing back the food for Emma. "Her emotions are rather overwhelming yes?" Carlisle asked from his perch on the comfortable couch opposite Jasper in the living room. Both of the blonde men had decided it best to stay in, Jasper to calm her if the need came, Carlisle because Emma, like pretty much everyone else who met them, felt a sense of calm in their presence and where Carlisle was the head of the house it was only right that he be around fro such things. "Yes." Jasper said in reply, "She is not aware of my gift and I believe that if she were she would not be able to control them anyway. This is a very turbulent time."

"It is." Carlisle paused as Esmes voice told the girl that the venison was for her and to drink until there was nothing left, it was not only survival but the first step to living the moralist life of the Cullens. The newborn vampire made no noise as she drank, but for a few small noises of pleasure at the taste of something she had so long been longing for. "I still," Jasper began, believing it polite not to listen to another eating, " cannot believe that you went through all of this alone and still chose the right path."

"You would have too, had you been alone or had your maker been different." Carlisle replied without missing a beat. He believed that no matter what had happened in the past, you were still a good person if you chose right eventually and Jasper was thankful he had finally chosen right and now had a family. He would always thank Alice for bringing him into this new life even if he didn't necessarily care for her boyfriend.

"Thank you Esme." Emma's voice interrupted both the doctor and the soldiers musings. "My throat feels a bit better. Still burns though."

"It will for a long time Emma, as you adjust." When there was no reply, Jasper imagined her nodding.

"She's a sweet girl." Carlisle mused, "She took all of this very well."

"Yes." Jasper responded to both statements. Emma did seem like a sweet girl. There was no denying that, there was also no denying that she was very beautiful too and probably had been before the vampiric genes had taken hold, turning her into this mythical beauty, attractive and deadly to every human. Her hair auburn, body lithe, athletic, skin of the usual pale, bloodless variety. Features soft, beautiful and if Jasper thought back to when she had first arrived he thought her eyes may have been blue.

"No doubt she feels guilty?"

"Extremely." Jasper mumbled, obviously unable to hide the emotions from his own face, "No amount of interfering has helped." At Carlisles widened eyes Jasper scrambled to say, "Oh, No, she is not immune, I have helped a little and Edward has read her mind, Alice has seen her decisions, it is just as you said, she is very emotional."

"A young woman, on the cusp of life, suddenly faced with this difficult future and dreary existence." Jasper thought for a minute that, that was how Carlisle things until the doctor and father figure continued, "At least, that is how she will see it at this time."

"Yes. We all did at one point when we chose to go against our natural instincts and live in this way." Soft footsteps made their way into the living room, two pairs, and a small smile crept onto Carlisle's face, a warm smile. Jasper did not turn to look at them, he could feel the new arrivals apprehension and embarrassment so he waited until she was seated next to Carlisle where Esme had led her before he turned his attention to her and aimed a small sense of calm. Emma frowned, and glanced around the room, "What is that?" she asked turning her eyes to Carlisle, "I keep feeling… not how I feel."

"That would be Jasper here." Carlisle gestured to the other blond, "He can sense and manipulate emotions."

Her eyes widened, "Really?" Jasper merely nodded in response as Carlisle continued, "Some humans gain gifts as they change, Jasper here, in his human life was rather sensitive to emotions and then his gift came about. Alice, in her human life all those years ago was considered crazy because she saw things, now, as a vampire, she can see the future and decisions someone will make in their lives. Edward can read minds."

"Edward reads minds?" she questioned, "That explains how he seemed to know what I was thinking."

Jasper couldn't help the bark of laughter that burst forth at the obviousness of the statement she made and mumbled, "Sorry," as Esme shot him a warning look. Though the new arrival smiled slightly and a little happiness mingled with the apprehension.

"Will I have a gift?" she wondered out loud.

"We'll find out in time." Carlisle replied, "We can never tell these things until they show themselves."

So yeah this was mainly Jaspers point of view =] and a crappy end but it is 3.14 am right now so yeah hope you liked it anyways!