Grief
By: Kary G.
Chapter 6
A/N: Here's another chapter… I put a flashback of Jules negotiation with Dale, and somehow fit that whole flashback into the story as best as I could… I hope you like it, and one more thing like I said in the beginning I don't think Lewis was married or with kids, but you'll see that in this chapter. Enjoy!
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Click!
Spike sighed. He decided to cut the blue cable, and after all he did a good choice. "He's safe!" he yelled out loud giving Robert a hug.
Jules wiped her tears, and laughed. "Yes!" he ran towards her brother, and gave him a big hug. "Thank god you're ok," tears of joy traveled down her face.
"It's so good to hug you, Julie," his brother lifted his sister on the air. Everybody came to where Jules was and all the people around them celebrated with the SRU officers.
It felt so good to have her brother back… she look at her bracelet o her left hand, and look up at the sky thanking Lewis for everything, but still the grief that Jules felt for his fallen friend was still fresh… Jules excused from the group, and told one of her brothers that she was going to go to her apartment. She needed time alone… after all that happen…
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Jules Callaghan sat in her living room. The TV was off, her cell phone lying on the sofa next to her, no sounds just the sunlight coming in and invading her house like a stranger. Her eyes focused down on her wrist band with the name of her fallen friend L. Young BADGE 1902. She never thought negotiating with a person the way she did with Dale could cause such an impact on her team and also herself. She never thought she would remember how she helped Dale until Greg words with Alexander hit her head.
Just like her words with Dale, so true, and yet so heartbreaking, the pain was unbearable… same as her words..
**Flashback**
"Hey Dale. My name is Jules..." Jules said to Dale taking a few steps forward.
"You stay back!" he barked pointing his gun at her, at the same time trying to protect Zoe.
"Absolutely," Jules reply putting her hands at front so Dale could see that the SRU female was not a threat. "I'm going to take a few steps back here, and give you some space," taking a few steps back Jules waited for him to calm down.
"Now remember it's all about keeping Zoe close to him, He just found his daughter, he's not going to let her go," Sgt. Greg reminded Jules of the situation.
Jules waited until Sgt. Greg finished what he had to say to her, and then she began to make Dale to change his mind, not only for his sake, but for Zoe's also. "Dale, you're really close to the edge right now, You want to keep her safe, you might want to take a few steps forward," Jules let Dale know as he drag Zoe to his side, motioning and speaking at the same time.
In the meantime, Leah and Sam prepare to place themselves right down the cliff to save Dale of Zoe, just in case Dale decided to go down that path.
"Quick question Sergeant," Jules told his boss by the ear piece she had at that moment. "If he thinks Zoe's his daughter…" Greg cut Jules off immediately.
"Don't contradict him, but don't reinforce his delusional either," Greg announce to her.
"Find common ground," was her response.
"That's right. Your job isn't to cure Jules. Your job is to get him out of this crisis. That's it your doing great, just keep doing what you're doing."
"Hey Dale! Can you tell me something about the woman you're with? I can tell that she means a lot to you," Jules kept talking to the guy. Slowly approaching more and more to where he was with a scare Zoe. "You know I admire what you're trying to do right now. I do, you're putting up a fight to what you think is right. You're putting yourself on the line," she kept walking towards him.
"No response means that he got your attention," Sgt. Greg spoke once more to Jules.
"We all want the same thing here," Jules let Dale know one more time.
Spike spoke holding the earphones tightly, interrupting Jules. "Hold on. I think I've got something," he waited a little bit more and heard Dale speak thanks to the special devise Spike was holding in his hands 'she's playing mind games with us again,' were Dale's words.
"He says you're playing mind games, Jules."
"They think after all this time, I'm going to give you up," Dale told Zoe still holding her tight to him. Dale kept his focus to the team, giving time to Zoe to get away from him.
Zoe took her opportunity to elbow his stomach. "No,, No, don't go Wendy!" Dale yelled at Zoe.
"Please trust me! Don't go!," Dale pleaded with Zoe.
"Zoe, take it easy," Jules told the scare girl.
"Come on you guys talk to me. What's going on?" Greg started to fire questions at his team.
Ed was the next one to talk. "Boss, Zoe tried to run, he got her back. He's escalating,"
"Boss, we're in position," Same let his boss know his status.
"That's good Sam, wait in position until I say so," Ed told the blonde officer.
"Please don't go, don't leave me!" Dale hugged Zoe by the waist. She couldn't get away.
"Take it easy Zoe!" Jules yelled in the back trying to calm down Zoe. "Dale, why don't you let her go? Let's see what she has to say," Jules kept speaking.
"I will NOT LET HER GO!" Dale shouted back.
"Jules you gotta jump in, and take control," Greg had to let Jules what she had to do next.
"Dale, what happen to Wendy was not your fault!" Jules wanted to jump and save the girl, but she knew that a wrong move and Zoe was dead.
"I will not let her go! If I let her go, I'm going to loose her forever!" Dale kept saying. Pushing Zoe a little bit more to the edge of the cliff, Zoe took her opportunity and with her elbow, she hit Dale in his stomach, and gave her time to run. Dale's body began to fall off the cliff, but Sam and Leah caught him. Dale took a hold of Zoe's ankle and dragged her with him.
"No!" Jules yelled at the top of her lungs, and she took Zoe's hand just as Ed came running, and took both of the girls.
"I got you, I got you," Ed told to the girls.
"We've got him!" Sam yelled letting Ed know that Dale was safe. "Guys secure the ropes!"
Spike and another member of the team, did as they were told to do. Leah looked up at Dale. "You've got to let her go now, ok?"
Dale's didn't release Zoe's ankle. "I will not let her go!"
Jules had to do something so that Dale could let Zoe go. "Dale! Is this what you call having someone safe now? Listen to me! I'm sorry that Wendy disappear from your life, I cannot even imagine what you have been through, But I do know what it is like to lose some body, who had absolutely no business dying, and not to have a chance to say good-bye, and to be disgusted with people for just walking down the street like the world is the same place, that if you have just done something different, he still might be here... So, you can keep on struggling, and get both of yourselves killed, and that WILL BE your fault. Or you can let go, and let yourselves live. What would Wendy want you to do?" Her eyes revealed all the emotions that fought deep inside her, her eyes never leaving Dale as he sobbed. "What would she want you to do, Dale?"
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," Dale sobbed more, and finally let go of Zoe. Jules and Ed help Zoe.
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Jules had to wipe the tears that were now running down like raindrops. She missed Lewis so much. She just couldn't imagine the pain that his wife was going through right now, and his kids. That hurts the most, his kids.
Every member of the team were getting out of this emotional roller coaster, but Jules..she was going down, and fast. She was on time at work, and help in everything, but she didn't get together with her friends anymore. Everything was so different without Lewis..it was a torture walking to her job, and not see him, it was a torture not having to greet and joke around with him, and then his brother Robert..
She looked again at her wrist band. Her hands were shaking of all the pain, and the sobs that wrecked her body in the moment. Everybody on the team notice her sudden behavior. They knew she was hurting, they were too, but they learn to move on. That word sounded horrible 'moving on'. If they didn't move on they were going to be in that deep and darkest hole their entire lives.
Jules heart hurt even more, when she saw Spike. The way he screamed when Lewis told him that "Everything was going to be ok" the way he screamed when he heard the horrible sound the landmine deliver, the way Spike's tears hit the ground.
She remembered she couldn't scream, she wanted to, but instead she cried. Her legs felt butter; she had lost a special person. Lewis to Jules was family. She felt like a lost child. Sam noticed how Jules began to withdrawn from them. He tried to talk to her numerous times, but Jules, stubborn Jules...all she could do was turned around, and let him standing there.
She wasn't hearing his speech, but he needed him so much right at this moment.
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"Robert. Where's Jules?" Sam questioned the female SRU brother.
"She went home. She didn't look so good, she needs time Sam. She needs time to recover from what just happen, she needs to let go of all that rage, and sadness that's consuming her life everyday."
Sam nodded. "I'll go talk to her"
"Thank you, Sam" Robert patted Sam's back. Sam climbed to his truck, and instead of going to Jule's home immediately he decided to pick up someone that could help Jules more than he could to mourn Lewis.
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Sam parked his truck outside Jules home, and for the third time he looked at the woman beside him. "Are you sure?" he asked to his companion.
"Yes." The woman's skin was ebony, and her hair was black, and straight, down to her shoulders. Her eyes revealed a peace…something that couldn't be said with words. She wore black pants, and a black blouse. Her shoes were black also, and her left hand showed a wedding ring.
Taking a deep breath, she opened the door of Sam's truck, and walked to Jules's door. Sam right behind her, Sam sighed hoping, praying that Jules could be better after this.
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Sam knocked a few times. Jules answer the door, and fake a smile, even though her eyes revealed another thing. Her smile erased when she saw the woman next to Sam.
"Tanya. Did something happen with the kids? What's going on?" Jules fired questions. What was the reason that Tanya was here, and with Sam.
"The kids are fine," Tanya simply said.
"Please come on in. Take a seat, would you like something to eat? Water?" Sam and Tanya shook their heads.
"Thank you Jules, but I'm here to talk to you," Tanya told to the petite officer.
"Me? About?"
"Jules, look at you. Don't feel guilty for what happen to Lewis. Don't blame yourself for your brother. Thank god he's fine, and safe…he just was in the wrong place at the wrong time…same as Lewis, but your brother is alive" Tanya took her hand.
"I don't know what are you talking about, I'm fine. Why…why are you doing this?" Jules tried to hold the tears back.
"No, you're not honey," Sam moved a few hair strands that were on her face.
"Jules, what happened to Lewis was an accident. It's been a little over a month. You have to let him go. We all learn to. The kids ask a lot about their auntie Jules. They need you as much as they need me and the team to heal and walk through the grief. If I'm doing it, I know you can. Lewis wouldn't want you to be like this. You're not living…"
"I just…" Jules broke down. Sam had never see Jules in this much pain. Tanya's arms went around Jules.
"Please do it for him. The boys need you, the team needs you, Sam needs you," Tanya kept talking softly to Jules. Sam never letting go of Jules hand.