*Karma's POV written by Blackindiaink*
Chapter Twenty-Two
Karma's POV
That night…
I'm sitting in the bathroom because she just turned me down. My best friend who is in love with me doesn't' want to have sex with me. She's trying to get me to come out but I locked the door and I can't go out there again. I'm humiliated.
When we got back from dinner I practically threw myself at her and she just let it go until I was unbuttoning her jeans and then her hands went to mine and she said, "Stop."
I just looked at her and I couldn't. This is why I was afraid. She doesn't want me like that anymore. I caught her in that stall with Reagan last night and I knew nothing was really going on but what if she got inside Amy's head.
Amy's still banging on the door so I guess I better go talk to her. Even if she tells me that she can't be with me I'll have to be okay with it.
….
She wants me to think about it but I've already done that. All the way here I wondered what it would be like and if I could make her happy. Mentally I'm ready and she doesn't seem to think so. Maybe she's not ready?
Maybe I need to prove to her that I am. I can wait. I just don't want her to move on to someone else. Not after we've been like this. Not after I know what it could be like. So, I'm going to say this. I decided.
"Please, I want to try this. You and me. I want to be with you. I know it's probably hard for you to believe but ever since I got here it's been like it's supposed to be and I want you. I really do and I'm ready but I'll wait until you think it's right. Just please don't do anything with … anyone."
Is that selfish? Probably. Maybe I shouldn't say the last part.