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AN: Wel hello there!
Tempest: Hey everybody we're back! =) And speaking on behalf of Chickenn and myself, we would like to appologize for the long break between our last chapter and this one which by my count was 5 weeks ago. But we have a very good reason for the delay...
...END OF YEAR EXAMS!! I know, the dreaded time of year where schools test whether you have managed to retain anything over the course of the year. So due to the exams Chickenn and I went on a fanfiction free diet; meaning no writting fanfic, no reading fanfic and no thinking about fan fanfic. And believe me when I say it nearly killed me to do it and I have suspicions that Chickenn cheated on the no fanfic thing. Anyway to get to the point of my long winded tale for the 2 week befor exams and the 2 weeks of exams there was no fanfic posting so we're really sorry.
So this is chapter 4 a huge achivement and this chapter is going to be realy exicting at least it was to write.
I realy hope you like it and if you do don't forget to leave a review.
Tempest out =)
Chickenn: I totally did not cheat, 0___o well, not a lot.. Okay I didn't even bother cutting down, I just used the time where i would be in school to study then read every single minute outside of that :D
Okay so since Tempest did all the explaining I have no obligation to explain myself :D So how is everyone? Keeping healthy I hope :) I have come across a video game that I am quite obsessed with at the moment, my brother got 'Guitar Hero 5' and an Xbox 360 for his birthday a couple days ago, and I have played it ore than him :D It's quite aazing to play because it's the closest I get to playing an instrument :D
So yeah.. Don't have much to say but ugh yeah... oh! Well we are holidays now, so it will be easier to get chapters out hopefully becuase we have time now! :D Awesome right? I know!! And OMG me and Tempest are going into our final year of highschool next year HOW SCARY!! But totally exciting!! And yeah I think that's it...
WE HAVE A SUPRISE FOR YOU :D...Obviously that was me Chickenn... Tempest if the brooding silent type, all mysterious... I'm generally a little too excited for my own good...anyways, tell us if you like our little suprise!! :D
Okay this is sufficient enough for our dismal updating attempts! Enjoy!! AND REVIEW!!
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Chickenn and Tempest!
Sitting across the room from my psychologist where I spend 1 hour a week in a Mexican stand off with the shrink. In the five years that my mother has been forcing me in and out of these meeting the only thing that Dr. Cole has been able to deduce about my psyche is that I am an emotional unbalanced teenager with pyromaniac tendencies but let's face it, is there a teenager in the world that is considered normal?
And who doesn't like fire? If a teenager is happy well they must be high with a serious pot addiction, and if were caught crying over the last episode of gray's anatomy we must be emo cutting our wrist and sitting in dark rooms listening to depressing music. Stereotypes; don't you love them, they make being judge mental so much easier, FYI I'm being ironic.
So i suppose introductions are in order I'm Scarlett Ebony Storm welcome to my life.
When my mother was naming me she couldn't decide between her two favourite colours as an artist she knows all about that stuff light and dark so to cut a long story short, I ended up with a name that is basically a contradiction, laugh if you will.
I am the eldest of two; my younger sister Lara's biggest dilemma in life is whether she wants to be a princess today or a Ballerina. She is basically my polar opposite; she's like sunshine, lolly pops and rainbows not to mention her long blond hair as apposed to my general bleak out look on life and short raven black hair.
"Come on Scarlet, this is our last session together, are you going to let me know anymore than the information I have pried from you over the passed five years." Said Dr. Cole my just lovely psychologist; note the sarcasm.
"Yes, I have a secret passion for unicorns, bye bye now." I said walking out to my mother's car.
"So, how was your last lesson?" My mother, Juliet Storm, asked while looking down at her book she was reading.
"It was just lovely mother; I just had a riveting session." I smiled sickly sweet at her; she just scowled and started the car for home.
"Aren't you at least a little bit excited that we are moving tomorrow?" My mother asked in desperation to start conversation.
"Well let's see; I'm moving from my home town, which I love, I will be leaving its erratic weather and its heat, I will be leaving all the memories of my life, I will be leaving my school to do
senior year at a completely new school with a bunch of kids I don't even know oh and I'm leaving Oli, so I'm absolutely ecstatic mother." I named off all the reasons not to leave.
"Oh, don't be so pessimistic." She countered; I just rolled my eyes and put my iPod on and waited for the hour long drive home to end.
We stopped off at Lara's –my wonderful little lump of a sister – friend's house to pick her up from her going away party. When mum knocked on the door; about seven little girls came to the door, jumping around in different coloured princess dresses, gosh me and my sister are nothing alike, but that's why I love her.
They all had little cardboard crowns on which they had obviously made themselves, from the coloured macaroni and glitter on them. Lara hugged all the girls individually then skipped over to the car.
"Hey Lettie! You missed the most wonderful party ever! We made crowns and pretended to be princesses and ate lots of lollies then went in the back yard and played with hula hoops, Gracie couldn't do it very well but Tina helped her. Then we watched 'The Swan Princess' Odette is so pretty I want to grow up to be just like her! So, what did you do with Dr. Cole? Mum said it was your last visit." She said all in one breathe; did that kid ever breathe?
"Whoa kiddo, I'm glad you had a good time, sounds like it, yeah I just sat as usual, you know." I answered her long winded speech in one sentence; I'm not a kid of many words.
"Oh cool! I'm so excited Lettie we're moving tomorrow can you believe it?" Gosh she was an excited little six year old.
"Absolutely sweetie." I answered with a fake smile, I didn't want to hurt her feelings and tell her that I absolutely hated the idea of leaving my home and friends. We were driving now, and the car was silent as Lara was looking out the window and mum was driving.
I just sat and thought of all things I would be losing by moving from this wonderful state of Florida. I loved Orlando, I loved the weather, it was always unpredictable, could be a sunny day, but then be raining at the same time. Now we were moving to some place that I didn't even bother to find the name of since I didn't care, and mum said that it was cloudy or raining 360 days out of the year, so there goes my tan, not that I'm superficial I just like being tanned.
We made it home and I went straight to my room and stared around; there were boxes everywhere, just great, it was really happening I was leaving and there was nothing I could do about it.
I laid on my bed, one of the only things left out in my room, wondering what would happen at my new school; would I make friends or would I be the 'social retard' I was considered at school, the 'populars' loved to pay me out at any possible moment, the only time I had anything over them and didn't get in trouble was in gym.
I could kick their asses and not get in a single drop of trouble. Mum called us down for dinner, I wasn't quite sure what kind of mood she was in, see, I have two mums, not literally just there was two sides of mum; there was happy, caring mum, then there was drunk, moody, sad, angry, spiteful mum. She was an alcoholic by night and hung over mum by day.
Even being hung over she would at least try and be our mum, but slowly night time mum was becoming the entire time mum. She was drinking earlier in the evening and getting angrier through out the day. She was trying though; she was staying optimistic, that all the sadness would go away by moving, she thought we could leave the memory of… of dad.
Dinner was quite and not too bad; it was just fish and chips, but still good in my books, mum wasn't one for imagination when it came to cooking. Lara knew never to voice anything when we got dinner in case mum was in a bad mood, we began to eat and mum went over to the fridge to get her water bottle, it wasn't really water though, it was vodka not that Lara needed to know that.
Mum must've been in a down mood tonight because she walked silently into the lounge and left us to eat. Lara looked at me to see if it was okay to talk but I just shook my head, I didn't think talking would help mum's mood at all so we ate quickly and left for our rooms after putting the paper plates in the bin. I was in my room doing nothing in particular when there was a pebble being thrown at my window.
"OI HARLET, LET ME IN!" My most favourite person in the world called from outside.
"Keep your pants on, stupid." I called to him then opened my window.
"Hey, I don't have much time left and if I don't get inside soon, you'll be gone and I'll sit here and cry like a baby." He said smirking, he was the best at pulling out crocodile tears when needed, and he was just cool like that.
"I'm coming, I'm coming!" I yelled as I went down stairs to open the door.
"Scarlet my harlot!" he said opening his arms to me.
"Oli lolly bagolli!" I jumped on him with as much force I could muster; luckily he was a sports freak and didn't stumble back. He put me down and I initiated our old time hand shake.
"So we are going to chill in the Scarlet domain or stand here in the door way all night?" Oli said looking down to me, which wasn't because he was freakishly tall but because I was freakishly short.
"Yeah I got some new music to hook you up with before I leave for the watered down version of hell." I said slightly bitter about it all. I really didn't want to leave, especially leave Oli; he was my best friend, my only friend. He was my brother from, another mother it's that same old story line; our mums and dads met at birthing classes, they became friends and the rest is history, except for the fact that Oli is 5 days and four hours older than me, that's something he won't ever let me live down. Oli was my best friend; tall, strong and loyal to a fault I honestly don't know what I'm going to do with out him he's the one that keeps me sane.
"Oh sweet, I'm in desperate need of some music education. My playlist is totally lacking." He said as we made our way back upstairs.
"Just let my tuck in Lara before we start our jam session." We detoured to Lara's room and she was already in her 'my little pony' PJ's sitting playing with a Barbie, she looked up when we entered and a Cheshire grin formed across her little face.
"OLI YOU'RE HERE! I'm going to miss you so much!" She said jumping up to wrap her little arms around his waist.
"Of course I'm here kid, I wouldn't miss this night for anything, it my last change to tuck you in and hang with your big sis here." Oli was the youngest of three so he was a big brother to me and Lara, even if it is only by 5 days. We tucked her in and Oli gave her a kiss on the forehead before we left; that is why he is my best friend, he just fits into my life so perfectly and this was my last night with him before we left and I would be all alone. We walked into my room and jumped down on the bed, and laid our heads next to each.
"So you how you holding up kiddo?" Oli asked staring at the ceiling.
"Yeah alright, how about you?" I replied.
"Well I would say alright too, but I'm going to miss you." He said quietly.
"Aw, Oli don't be like that!" I said rolling over to look at him and he looked over to me too with a small smile on his face.
"I know I know, I'm just going to miss you heaps, and what am I going to do without you?" He smiled, I just rolled my eyes.
"You have plenty of friends Oli; you will be so busy with your baseball teammates and the entire student body that you won't even notice I'm gone." I said lightly. He was such people person, everybody loves him and he is a great athlete, yet he seems to want to hang out with me, of all people.
"Yeah but it won't be the same! It's always been you and me, and those people are all players, even the baseball guys, they're nice and all, but they're all stupid." He whined.
"Now no whining you hear me Olive Jay Grayson, you will be nice to the guys and have a good time! Just because I'm not hear does not give you an excuse to be sad and all downy, you will be happy and enjoy yourself, or so help me god I will come back here and hit some sense into you!" I exclaimed now on my knees on the bed, he was also on his knees looking at me smirking.
"You know you are an adorable best friend, and I will do as you say, but only because I don't want to feel the wrath of your little hands attempting to hurt me." He said mockingly, so I jumped on him, trying to get to his ticklish spot on his sides but he grabbed me with his hands and pushed me off of him and started to tickle me and I was screaming and laughing at the same time.
"Okay, OKAY! I GIVE!!" I said between laughs, he stopped and got up to laughing as well, and went into my bathroom to put on his PJ's, I jumped up and put on a baseball T-shirt and shorts and jumped over the keyboard and began to play some tunes of my own, slowly going into my own world, then when I was almost half way through Oli blared a wicked beat on the guitar and I turned to him smiling; he was on my bed doing the air guitar stance leaning back pulling an awesome riff.
I let him lead and take the beat, which I complimented with some drum beats from the keyboard, then decided to take hold of the beat and lead Oli, he backed off while I owned the notes, getting to impossibly high notes, Oli brought the beat up to mine and we battled for dominance I smiled at him and threw in some deep tunes and he was lost, he followed me down and stopped and finished it off with one last lingering note.
"Dude you school me every time!" He said putting away the electric guitar on its stand and I turned off the keyboard and the plug.
"I know it's because I'm just naturally talented like that." I smirked.
"Yeah just like how I'm amazing at Mixed Martial Arts!" He said cockily.
"Just because you a national champion does not mean I couldn't kick your ass." I said evilly.
"Yeah true, since you stopped competing I was able to become champion." He said calmly though I could tell that he was trying to keep it light, I didn't enjoy talking about MMA.
"Yeah I just wanted to step out of the way to let you have all the glory." I sarcastically commented as I pulled the linen back and put the lamps on. Oli turned the main light off and moved over the bed. I jumped in just as he did and we pulled the blankets up.
"So I guess this is our last sleep over huh?" He said quietly.
"I guess it is, but it is only our last one in this house, you HAVE to come visit me okay, and I'll come back here all the time." I pleaded; I didn't want to lose my friend.
"Of course I'll come and see you; hey you never really specified where I would be sending me many letters?" He questioned.
"Oh ugh, well I didn't really pay attention after I heard the word moving come out of mum's mouth, I think it has to do with something a utensil; spoon or knife or something, I just know it's in Washington." I said lamely while he laughed at my explanation.
"Okay I'll Google Maps Washington and see if they have any towns with utensils for names." He giggled, but his eyes were slowly drooping.
"When I get my laptop set up I'll talk to you on IM so I can tell you where I'm living." I said quietly and yawned.
"Goodnight Scarlet my little Harlot." Oli said before closing his eyes and succumbing to sleep.
"Goodnight Oli lolly bagolli." I said quietly, I watched him as he slept, he really was a beautiful creature; he had long shaggy brown hair, and light hazel eyes, he had a smile to die for and wonderful olive skin. The only odd thing about his appearance was a deep blue streak through his hair, though he doesn't die his hair just like my red streak, though no one will ever know that little secret.
I fell into a deep sleep, of my times with Oli and mum and Lara and...Dad.
"What do you want? Vanilla or chocolate, or both, because you did so well at nationals today you can any kind of ice cream you want. Even the ones you mum says are no good for you." Dad said quietly winking at me while mum wasn't paying attention cradling Lara in her arms. I had just won against Laura Wattle-gate from Newport Oregon, she had been champion for 5 seasons and I had just beat her so it was celebrating time.
"Ugh just vanilla please." I said smiling up to dad.
"Whatever you want darling." He said and walked up to the counter to buy the ice creams.
The dreams changed then, from pleasant to not so pleasant.
"What do you mean you quit?! You can't just quit, think of what you're losing?!" Mum screamed in my face.
"I don't want to do it any longer, it's not my passion." I said timidly.
"Of course it's your passion; it's always been your passion! That can't just change like that!" She screamed.
"YES! It can, it has!" I screamed back trying to look strong.
"You will continue doing what your fa-" She cut off at the mention of dad, he was dead, he was gone and it was my entire fault.
"No I won't!" I screamed running away crying. "Scar! Scar wake up! Come on wake up, it's okay, come on Scar, wake up." Oli was slowly pulling me out of my dream. My eyes opened but everything was blurry.
"Oli?" I asked a littler disorientated.
"Oh Scar it's okay come here." Oli said relieved I had woken from my dream; I had started to get really hot, never a good symbol for someone like me. He pulled me into his chest while a cried, I didn't sob, but let silent tears fall down onto his shirt while he rubbed my back encouragingly.
"It's okay, it's okay." He kept repeating to me to clam me, which helped some, he was the only person out there that seemed to know how to help when I needed to be calm. Another reason why he is the most awesome best friend ever, we stayed lying while my tears slowly stopped.
"I'm sorry." I said and sat up to look him fully in the face and he sat up against the back board of the bed and opened his arms for me again, so I we sat in an embrace for a while.
"Don't worry Scar, I will always be around to stop the dreams, whenever you need me just call. You will always have me to help you through anything." He said while we sat.
"I'm going to miss this." I gestured towards his chest then mine.
"Me too, you're like my teddy bear as a child brought to life." He said smiling and I just yawned too wiped to laugh at his poke at my size. We fell asleep again and luckily there were no more nightmares.
When I awoke I could smell freshly made pancakes, I rolled over to find Oli gone.
Oh my god he left without saying goodbye. Ugh, I think I might just cry! After my shower I headed down stairs to find none other than Oli himself serving Lara some pancakes and syrup.
"Yum! Thanks Oli, these look great!" Lara beamed at him.
"It's fine Lara, you're just lucky mum had the supplies at home for me to bring and cook up a feast." He chuckled; Oli accidently dropped the pancake that he was in the middle of flipping.
"Show off," I said and he threw me a dirty look.
"Oi! Admiral Nelson clean up on aisle 12!" Oli looked around "Where's the dog?" It was probably the first time my sister's dog had not been hanging around; we had had the Admiral since Lara was born.
"He was sent over yesterday because of quarantine and all that protocol." I said nonchalantly, Lara sniffed and I rubbed her back. It was a sensitive subject for her; she's been attached to him since the beginning.
When Lara was born I was 11 going on 12 and dad had brought me a dog about 6 months before the birth when mum first brought Lara home she kept the Admiral at an arms distance from the baby at all times but when Lara started walking she flowed the dog around every ware and that how they became inseparable. So when the Admiral had to go before us she fully freaked out cry and everything. But I was able to calm her some; I explained that we would be with him in less than 48 hours.
"Oh that's okay, I guess." Oli said finishing up with the cooking, placing a plate in front of me and himself with maple syrup, strawberries and ice cream. He absolutely knew me inside and out.
"Thanks Oli, you are such a good friend." I said as I dug in.
We all finished eating off out disposable plates and headed back upstairs. Oli had gone home because he had baseball training so we got dressed and waited for the moving van that was coming early so it could beat us to the house. The moving van came and left with out a worry and we were getting our over night bags ready to leave. Our flight was at midday so we had 30 minutes to get out of the house and make our way over to the airport.
I looked around my room one last time, this room held my entire childhood, all the years of my life and I was leaving to go to some hick town and do my senior year with weirdo kids.
"Come on we have to leave now!" Mum called from the front door.
I raced over to Lara's room to check if she had left anything behind and herded her out the door, we went down stairs and stood in the door way looking back at the house one last time. Everything was bare, just floor, carpet and ceiling it was so different to my childhood home.
I walked out the door towards the car where Lara had skipped over and was waiting for me to help her with her get into her seat. I buckled Lara in and turned back to the house, I smiled a little and got in the car.
I pulled out my iPod and started to look through it for an appropriate song to listen to as mum backed out of the drive, we began to drive when I heard a faint calling behind the, all of us turned to see a very breathless Oli running up behind the car.
Mum rolled her eyes and stopped the car and I jumped out.
"As if… you tried… to leave… without… saying goodbye." Oli managed to squeeze out between heavy breaths.
"I thought we did that already?" I questioned, hadn't we just spent the passed 18 hours together?
"Well it wasn't the right kind of goodbye." He was slowly composing his breathing.
"Okay then." I said putting my hand out to shake, he raised an eyebrow and jumped at me, wrapping his arms around me pulling me into a massive bear hug. I wrapped my arms around his waist and we stood there just swaying in silence, I felt hot drops of water fall on my neck and I leaned back to see Oli's eyes glistened over and he looked absolutely heart broken.
"Oh Oli." I said hugging him with all the fierceness I could muster, tears began to leak out of my eyes without permission and we stood there a little longer wallowing in the sadness radiating around us.
"Come on, we have to go!" mum said honking the horn, we let go of each other with slightly embarrassed smiles on our faces and I went back to the car and got in, I rolled down my window and took his hand in mine one last time. He smiled and moved to the back window and pressed it against the window Lara did the same.
"Go on, get out of here!" He yelled smiling and we drove off, just like that, I cleaned myself up and went back to my iPod and pretended that nothing ever happened. My life's ambition is to move to Antarctica and study the behaviour of penguins and monitor the rate that the ice caps are melting, global worming is a bitch, and I'm kidding about the living in Antarctica but never seeing people sounds good because saying goodbye sucks. It's like having a dislocated shoulder it really, really, really hurts and won't get better until some one puts it back in.
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Air ports at best are chaotic but when you're travelling in the last weeks of the winter holidays it is absolute pandemonium.
Forks are a tiny town in Washington that is almost always covered in clouds an endless sea of gray and a constant persistent drumming of soft rain. This was the place that I would be landing in, in minus 15 minutes.
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Hell by definition is the abode of condemned souls and devils in some religions; the place of eternal punishment for the wicked after death, presided over by Satan. And this is I moving to sounds like a nice sort of place doesn't it?
So why is it that I find my self in this station moving it a new town, new state a new side of the freaking country. Now we were landing in the freaking place, Lara had fallen asleep a while ago leaning against mum, I was listening to Red Jumpsuit Apparatus's song; Cat and mouse, good band, I grabbed my overnight back from the overhead compartment and made my way along the aisle I grabbed Lara's hand while she rubbed her sleep filled eyes with the other and dragged her along behind me.
We made our way to the luggage pickup conveyor belt, we stood and waited for what seemed like an hour when finally Lara's bright pink luggage bag and my deep red luggage bag roll along; slowly following mum's purple one.
"The rental car will be here in 5 minutes, we will use it until our cars are here, they are only a day away though, but still need some form of transport while at the hotel." Mum said being efficient and to resolve any of my protests for sharing a car.
"Whatever, what model is it?" I asked, I didn't want to ride around in some lame ass car.
"It's an Audi, but it's a family car as well, so don't worry Scarlet; it's fashionable and will fit our luggage in it." Mum tried to tease, I smiled slightly, and at least she tried.
"Okay." I answered blankly.
While we had waited I had come to the realisation that we were at the Port Angeles Airport and we were about an hour away from the hotel we were staying at while the house has the finishing touches done to the renovations that mum has been doing via phone for the past month, she would be going there every day for the next week while we stay at the hotel and do nothing. Maybe I could drop mum their and take the car for a drive around town.
The car came around the corner then, it was a nice Audi A6, it was a nice car indeed and I couldn't wait to see how it handled.
"I'm driving." I slurred, I was in awe of the car.
"Ugh, if you must." Mum said exasperated, obviously she wasn't in the mood for arguing. We packed the trunk with all our bags and jumped in the driver's seat. Mum put Lara in the back and she stared out the window looking so content and happy.
She then jumped in next to me and looked over to me expectedly and before I left the spot I plugged my iPod into the connection that was already connected to the stereo. I put on The Fray song 'She is', hoping to relax the tension in the car.
Mum's eyes were fixed on the landscape outside the window, Lara was sitting peacefully swaying to the music while I drove, I loved to drive; I felt powerful and in control when I was driving, like I was the one in charge, not that I wasn't already when mum was having a down day.
The ride was pleasant and then mum started to give directions to the hotel once we were off the highway, we came up to a swanky looking hotel and mum grinned widely, I guess this was where we would be staying for the next week.
"We are here!" She exclaimed, I just rolled my eyes and after we parked made our way into the hotel.
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It was Thursday night and I our last night in the hotel, mum had been at the new house the whole day everyday this week, me and mum got our cars the Tuesday and I was happy to see my baby.
I took Lara out for a drive and saw all the tourist places, the schools we would be going to we went up to Port Angeles and did a bit of shopping and had a nice lunch and we just chilled in the hotel room watching movies and playing hide and seek.
Mum had come home every night to tell us all the amazing things she had done to the house; she explained that the rooms were small and she had the builders expand everything so it would not feel too claustrophobic, she would also go on about the murals she had painted everywhere; she said she had painted a big ocean themed mural along the wall where the stairs were that led to the second floor.
She also said that she had decided to make the yellow themed and did bright happy murals of the sun and yellow flowers everywhere.
"Mum is my room a princess room?" Lara asked on the Wednesday night after mum had come home so excited she put on some music and started to dance around with Lara while I watched and laughed.
"Of course it is sweet heart, it's what you asked for wasn't it?" Mum laughed.
"Yes thanks mum!" Lara squealed as they continued to dance.
But tonight was different we had ordered dinner; chicken risotto, Lara and I ate quietly after putting mum's share away until she got home, we had another day out looking around in my car and having some good old time fun.
Mum stormed in the door suddenly making Lara jump, I was so used to mum's unpredictable that I was immune to her down moods.
"Hi mum, your dinner's waiting for you there." Lara said timidly, she knew to not step out of line when mum was like this. She just grunted and made her way to the mini fridge.
"How was your day?" I asked in a monotone voice, to see if I would get angry mum or silent mum.
"How was my day? How was my day?" She asked incredulously , "Well, I just had the day from hell; the paint order didn't come in so I couldn't finish the lounge, I have to buy a new lounge because the movers broke it bringing it inside and there is no one to help me with anything!"
I stood up and looked her straight in the eye. "It is not appropriate to be speaking like that right now." I tried to indicate to Lara but she wasn't having any of that.
"It is PLENTY appropriate to be speaking however the hell I want to." She argued, great we were going to fight now.
"Mother, if you don't stop this inappropriateness then you will have a lot more to deal with, like I don't know, maybe two missing children in a foreign place." I threatened darkly.
"Why do you have to be so damn stupid?" She yelled,
"You will go for a walk now, you will go down to the bar and get a glass of 'water' and relax and come back when you are willing to be civil with you children." I said implying that she should go have a drink and that she should learn not to lash out; these were the times where I became the adult figure and she was the child being told what to do.
She looked at me and then down to Lara, she understood that my threats and instructions were serious, she huffed then left the room. Lara looked very distraught so I soothed her and put her to bed, I sat up and waited for mum just listening to my iPod and relaxed.
Mum came back at about 2 am; she stumbled in and fell on the bed and completely passed out immediately, she never knew when to stop when it came to vodka, my guess is that someone had told her to go to bed or was helped to the door.
I watched her and Lara as they slept it was a peaceful sight I laid and slowly began to doze, then my dreams started;
I was in the kitchen with mum and we were making hamburgers for dinner and we had the radio going; John Cougar Mellencamp's 'hurt so good', it was one of mum's favourite, my dad had just come home, sliding into the room holding a bunch of flowers like a microphone "come on baby, make it hurt so good, some times love don't feel as it should you make it dun, dun hurt so good." Dad was chasing mum around the kitchen and we were all laughing.
Then there were the head lights on the highway, the horn sounds and everything is spinning…
I sat up with a start, sweat covering my face and I panting, my heart racing a million miles an hour.
"Fuck." I whispered into the darkness, it was like 5 in the morning, was it just me or were these walls getting closer? I needed to get out; so rolling of the bed I got dressed and went for a run, forks was a small town and in the pre dawn darkness was silent it was sort of eerie and I was running I didn't know where, but I didn't care the nightmares started about 5 years ago it use to be every night but over time they stared to fade like everything else in this miserable existence, time heals all wounds.
I got back to the hotel at about 7 am, mum hadn't stirred but Lara was starting to stir. I walked over to the mini fridge and grabbed a bottle of water and sat by the window, it's what I used to do, but it didn't feel the same, instead of the warm sun blazing down on my skin, it was just dreary clouds that looked like they were going rain on this town any minute. This was so stupid, I hated this place and I was being forced to live here.
I called room service and ordered a bunch of food, some hangover food for mum, and some treats for me and Lara. I jumped in the shower and as I was drying my hair the room service arrived. I got Lara up and got her dressed, we ate and relaxed, mum started to stir, she was rolling around groaning until she finally trudged out of bed and made her way to the bathroom.
That morning was much the same as any other when mum had had a big night, no one talked much, only using minimal talking when absolutely necessary. We got out of the hotel by 10am and went in separate cars because our cars had come to Forks, the second day of being here, I took Lara and Mum took most of the bags and other supplies for the house.
I should have said when we got there I was amazed, that the house was beautiful and I stared in awe, and gushed at its beauty. But I didn't all I really did was stare and laugh a little at Lara's excitement, mum explained where both our rooms were; supposedly mine was facing the road, upstairs on the left side. Lara's was the same but on the right side, we walked in and the house did look nice, it was what my mum did, the entrance way was all coloured deep browns, moving into light browns, to the left was the kitchen; the was hot yellows and oranges, it reminded me of the beach and the heat.
The lounge was still covered in the drop sheets and all the furniture was covered, and mum was bringing in all her supplies to finish that room. I walked over to Lara who was studying the wall by the stair case; it was blue and green, creating a wonderful ocean themed, there were lots of different patterns and swirls, and some ocean creatures even in the mix of it all.
I took her hand and she smiled at me as we made our way upstairs, we stopped briefly by the violet spare room and went straight passed my room that hadn't been painted yet, that was my job, I wouldn't let mum touch my room with a ten foot pole, and she likes to let me do my room, she believes I have her artistic instincts, and wants to let me express myself and find my passion for her career fat chance of that.
We walked into Lara's room and she squealed; it was pink and everything had been set up for her, she ran around squealing and jumping up and down, i couldn't help but laugh and admire her joyfulness, mum had given her a feature wall where her window was so it looked like it was a castle and her window was placed in the right spot.
"Oh my gosh, it's perfect, Lettie look!" She said running around.
"That's great sugar baby angel cakes, I'm going to head over and start on my room will you be okay here?" I asked.
"Yeah, I'll be fine Lettie, go do what you want." She said distractedly.
"Okay, I'll be down the hall if you need anything." I said as I walked down to my room.
Everything was in boxes and my bed and furniture had blankets covering them. On one of the boxes there were several paint pots with the colour samples on the top to tell me what colours she had got me. I had specifically told her to get me a bright crimson and some other complimenting colours, she had bought me all the colours I had asked for specifically and for that I was grateful.
I was lying on the floor of the kitchen every thing hurt my arms legs and neck I was ready to crash, I had been painting for the passed 3 hours and I was finally finished, I had been working at a super speed to get it finished and I was done, around of applause please .
I made my room look freaking awesome, I just had to wait a little longer until I got the feeling back in my arms so I would be able to set up my room. The oven timer went off to indicate that the frozen pizzas was finally ready, I dragged myself off the floor and opened the oven, I put on the cooling rack when I realised that the bottom of the pizza base was charred to a crisp, Jamie Oliver I am not .
"Lara, dinners ready!" I heard little feet on top of the stairs.
"I don't want it you burnt it again!" She yelled back at me. How that freaky little monster knew that is beyond me she always seems know things, it's like she's psychic or something.
She eventually came down looking like a sulky kid which I suppose she was.
"What's wrong sugar baby?" She sniffled and then ran over to me nearly bowling me over, damn I wish I was bigger some times, my petite frame can be a real disadvantage.
"Lettie! I'm scared I have a really bad feeling about tonight, I don't want to stay here lets go back to the hotel." She was really worried you could see it in her eyes, they were frantic and darting around then pleading into mine.
"Hey, it's okay," I said giving her a little hug, "I promise if the boogie man comes I'll kick him out, I swear I will go Jacky Chan on his ass." I said letting go and posing like a martial arts fighter.
She laughed forgetting her worries and I went over to the cooling pizzas, I cut off the bottoms that weren't burnt and chucked them in the bin. We sat down and ate them peacefully, by the end of dinner I heard mum's car pull into the driveway, I smiled, she had gone to get Admiral Nelson and I knew exactly how Lara was going to react.
While I was putting the dishes in the dish washer I heard an intake of breath then Lara squealing at the top of Lungs singing 'Nelson, Nelson, Nelson!' I turned and looked out the window, but mum hadn't even opened the door for Admiral Nelson, how that kid knew things sometimes blew me away.
We walked outside and there was a dramatic reunion between Lara and Admiral, then they both ran inside to her room to show Admiral his royal sleeping chamber, as Lara called his doggy bed that was by her bed. I walked and saw mum, attacking the living room finishing it off in her own creative way, I went upstairs to my room, there were boxes everywhere, this is ridiculous, my whole life in boxes, I walked over to my desk where I hade my IPod and docking station and scrolled thought I need a song that worked in with the mood; Alexis on fire's 'rough hands', the music started and I got to work. I was dancing around listen to the rough beats I really do love this song;
'Was I left behind?
Someone tell me, tell me I survived
And don't look so surprised…'
It feels so appropriate for my life; the words rang through my head while I put all my photos by my bed.
'…that I'm home, but just for tonight
With rough hands and sore eyes
So don't speak, I am tired
Let's just live through this lie'
I was pulling out the last of the contents of one of the big boxes and was making my way over to my bed to lay it all out and didn't estimate the distance and stubbed my toe, and let me tell you, it freaking hurt, I dropped everything and started hopping around.
"Ow ow fuckity! Ow." I said hopping around holding my foot, I sat down and checked my foot no blood, good. I rubbed my toes until I was able to feel them again when mum barged into my room looking at me livid.
"SCARLET WHAT HAVE I TOLD YOU ABOUT SWEARING!" Mum was all red."SWEARING IS NOT PERMITTED AND TURN THAT STUPID MUSIC OFF!" I got up and slowly walked over the iPod docking station, turned the music off and looked at her.
"Don't try to act all high and mighty, you swear more than a fish monger's wife; don't act as if you are some kind of saint, who gives a crap!" I said icily to her.
She didn't know what to say so she just groaned and grunted a little and stormed off with her arms flailing, damn I can be evil when I want to be. I continued to clean around my room and to chill, I put my iPod back on and ran my hands through my hair, looked out the window I could go for a walk or a run.
But I had the strangest feeling I was being watched, exasperated for being stuck in the house continued to stare out the window, my hands now by my side, I felt them heat up a little, and my eyes turn that unmistakable red. I took a deep breath and felt my hands cool and my eyes change back, I slouched on my bed and turned up the iPod to full volume by the remote and drowned everything but the lyrics and the heavy beat of the music.
"I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase I'm Scarlet Ebony Storm; and this truly sucks.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along"
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