Chapter 9: why

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"Before he left the room I whispered to him hoping he wouldn't hear. "I'll do it."

It had been about 6 days since I agreed to be the one to commit the betrayal. Sesshomaru warned that it will not be easy for both of us it will bring a great deal of pain.

But the longer I think about it the more I don't want to go through with this.

I may sound like a horny school girl but the sex is incredible unlike anything I have ever experienced. Not that I have experienced it with anyone else.

It's so right and wrong.

But I just can't help it.

Sadly he hasn't touched me since I agreed to do it. He said his beast was attaching himself to my person and it would make it harder for him when the time came, whatever that means.

Today is the day I will do it.

He set me up with one of his guards.

And right now I'm in the hot springs regretting my decision.

"Miko, it is time." Sesshomaru said from behind me staring intently at my back.

"Fine I'll be right out." I said with annoyance.

"No Miko get out right now." He said with a cold voice.

"Um no not with you there." I said daring him to fight me on it.

"It's nothing I haven't seen." He said smugly.

"And it's something you will never see again." I said in return.

With that I felt him pull me out of the waters as he turned me to face him.

"I will do with you as i please am I understood?" His eyes were lined in red; apparently something I said had upset him.

"No my lord you are not understood, now let me go before I am late."

Surprisingly he let me go and walked outside the door I put my robes on and slowly walked outside.

The servants had taken me to a guest room and bowed before leaving.

It was large but not as large as Sesshomaru's. And there was no bed just a mat with a pillow. Besides the mat was a man who was very handsome with Purple and white hair and a lean and muscular body. He seemed to be about 6 ft. tall and had striking green eyes.

"Wow. . ." He said as he looked at me.

"I'm sorry what that was?" I asked in slight annoyance I mean it wasn't bad enough I had to sleep with some random guy but now he was a pervert too?

"I am sorry fair lady but when they had sent me to sleep with a human, I never thought that the human could be so beautiful. You took me off guard was all I am sorry If I made you uncomfortable." He said his tone polite and smooth.

"No it's my fault; it's just that I feel a little uneasy about this that's all." I said with a blush stained on my cheeks.

"Are you a virgin?" He asked suddenly. It was clear he had no idea of who i was.

"No." I said embarrassed.

"Its fine, with looks like those I am not surprised. "He said smugly. "So shall we begin or was there something you wanted to say?"

"No, let's begin." I said all too eagerly, I mean I had this lust buried in the Pitt of my stomach ever since that day in the spring.

And this was my opportunity to relive myself.

He pulled me down to the mat and began kissing my lips gently at first and became harder as time went by I opened my mouth and I felt his tongue enter.

Surprised I stop to look at him.

"Are you OK?" He asked.

"No it's just I never been kissed like that I mean I have kissed twice before but It was merely a peck nothing like that though."

He looked shocked.

"But you said you weren't a virgin am I correct?" He said appalled.

"That's true I am not but I have only had relations three times and not once had I kissed him like that." I said a little bewildered by my own statement, which led me to wonder what it would be like to kiss Sesshomaru so passionately.

"He must not have been a good partner if he had never kissed such sweet innocent lips I am happy to be one of the first." He said with a grin as he continued to kiss me.

Sesshomaru's Point of view.

I could feel that the Miko had obeyed my orders. My mark was burning my body sending my beast into a craze of possession. The want to go and show her who her alpha male was, was seeping into my being slow and toxic.

I loathed her and her humanity but my beast could not seem to separate the two, his lust for her was stronger than anything I had ever felt in my life. Her comments sent me into frenzy but what was I to expect from a girl she had barely touched the waters of woman hood.

He wanted her in all the worst ways. He was beginning to think that in the months that passed he somehow had become attached to her, if only for her body.

I had distance myself from the wench because of her youth. Too be in relations with me she may become too attached and expect more.

It is getting stronger the need to go to her is almost unbearable.

I feel my control snap.

The beast has won this battle.

Back to Kagome.

He had taken off my robe and was now sucking on my chest.

"Oh God." I groaned silently.

I felt uncomfortable to put it plainly.

He was OK A handsome boy but clearly inexperienced.

But he was slowly learning and was now going further down to my woman hood.

I could not help but wish it was Sesshomaru, His mere presence would make me wet.

I felt jolts of pleasure pass threw me as he licked my womanhood.

"Oh yes!" I yelled suddenly not sure where that came from.

He removed His clothing as he pressed his mouth to my neck and I knew this was it the minute he entered me it would be the end of our bond.

I looked at his body he was beautiful but paled in comparison to Sesshomaru.

I looked at his erection.

And it was big but again small tiny bitty witty compared to Sesshomaru.

It seemed like everything looked pitiful when compared to Sesshomaru.

So I decided to do something with him that I never did to Sesshomaru.

"Lay back. "I ordered him.

"OK?" He said confused.

I bent In front of him as I grabbed a hold of his erection.

I began to move up and down watching as he groaned in pleasure.

"Are you OK?" I asked

"Yes ..." He managed to whisper.

Right as I was about to lower my head to his manhood I heard a scream, and a crash from outside the room.

And in walked Sesshomaru his eyes blazing red, He looked crazed.

As soon as he walked in the young man got up and before I knew it was dressed.

"Damn coward." I whispered.

"Come." Sesshomaru said his voice husky and rough.

"What the hell no!" The guard looked at me clearly surprised at my outright disobedience.

"You came right when it was getting good!"

I said, trying to push his buttons seeing how far I could take him.

"Out!" He yelled at the guard.

Without hesitation he left.

"What the hell you bastard!" I yelled "He was a better lover than you by far I hate you, you ruin everything!"

"SHUT UP! "He yelled at me. His fangs came out dripping dangerously.

"What you don't want to hear how he was possibly a better kisser than you and a gentleman and He was bigger than you so big I couldn't even fit my mouth around him." I lied. I knew he knew I was lying but that didn't stop me. He angered me and I wanted to hurt him as much as I could.

All of a sudden I felt his lips on mine.

It was rough and passionate his tongue danced inside my mouth massaging everything it touched

Heaven

That was the only word that came to mind.

"Wow!" was all I could say.

I felt him pinch my nipples and knead my breast.

I watched as he sucked my neck and jaws leaving purple marks everywhere he went.

"Your mine!" He said suddenly his red eyes glaring at me.

"No!" I said to him, "No I am not yours!"

I heard him growl with anger.

"Mine!" He yelled again as he slapped me.

It stung but it was obvious he was holding back. So I slapped him back.

"No Sesshomaru I am not, not for long."

I said as I struggled to grab my robes and leave the room.

"Now why don't you call your guard over here and I can finish what we started?" I said with sarcasm I mean that was what he wanted wasn't it?

To break the bond and be free?

I guess I pushed him to far next thing I knew I was on the ground with him hovering over me.

"Say it ..." He whispered in my ear.

"No I belong to no one!"

I said defiantly.

I felt him hold my breast in a painful grip as he bit down on my nipple.

I could feel him suck my milk out dry.

As he repeated the same action to my next breast.

"Fuck!" I yelled a mixture between pain and pleasure.

"This is the milk from which MY pups drink from." He said huskily.

I felt a breeze as he removed his clothing.

I could feel him travel to my neck.

His fangs per-icing into the mate mark as he licked my blood.

"This is my mark on your neck and my blood in your veins."

I felt him enter me quickly and harshly making me whimper in pain.

"And this is where my manhood will reside and only mine. I am the only male who will taste you and pleasure you am I understood?" He said as he pumped in and out.

"Yes!" I whimpered.

"So kagome tell me who you belong to?"

"You Sesshomaru!" I whispered.

I felt him pump into me faster and faster.

"Say it louder!" He yelled.

"I belong to you Sesshomaru!"

I said louder

"Again!" He said pumping louder.

"I belong to you!"

I yelled.

"Again." He said going almost a demonic speed.

"I'm yours!" I Screamed.

I felt him take me hard and rough.

He made me cum 3 times before he came.

His seed once again hot as it shot onto my womb.

"Do It." He said suddenly.

"What?" I said

"Do what you were about to do to the guard." He said harshly.

"Oh. . ." I said as I got on my knees suddenly embarrassed.

I looked at his dick it was huge It Had to be more than 14 inches way more.

And it was thick I wasn't sure if I could fit him at all.

But none the less I lowered my head to him and licked the tip it tasted of my juices.

I licked once more before sucking him.

I swirled my tongue massaging him as I went up and down.

I felt him become harder as I continued becoming bolder I took as much as him as I could him I could feel him In my throat.

It was long before he came.

And boy did it hurt for a moment I forgot how hot his seed was.

It was like drinking a cup of scorching hot yogurt.

"Shit!" I said after I swallowed it.

"Get on your hands and knees. "He said as he looked at me.

"Ok." I said as I obeyed.

I felt him enter me from behind... It hurt.

He took me long and hard.

Making me repeat over and over again who I belonged to.

Damn did he have problems or what?

I couldn't help but comply as he made me cum over and over and over and over again.

We kept going until I thought I might pass out.

He pumped into me for the last time as he came.

He fell besides me not even bothering to disconnect himself from me.

And I was way too tired to care. The next thing I knew I was pressed against his chest and fast asleep.

When I woke up I was pleased to find Sesshomaru still there.

For some unknown reason of course.

I felt full I wasn't sure if it was because he was near me or because he was in me.

I felt him move on to his back as he pulled me with him.

I took this opportunity to slowly sit up and try to get away.

So I sat up on top of him and slowly tried to pull out.

But I was stuck and it hurt.

So I made the mistake of tensing up.

I saw his eyes open as he stared at me.

"What are you doing?" He said. I could feel him harden with in me making me hiss in pleasure.

"Trying to get out." I said quietly as if i were a kid who had just stolen a cookie. My throat was raspy from last night's activities.

"Why?" He asked as he put his hands on my hips.

"Um I wanted to check on the ... kids." I said.

"There fine."

"But-"

"There fine!"

"Fine then I won't go!"

"Good."

"Your voice is it ok?" He asked suddenly.

"Yes considering, how you kept making me scream louder and louder that I was yours I mean damn!"I said glaring at him.

I slowly started to get up but her shoved me back down.

"What?"

"We need to talk."

"Fine."

"I can't do it." He said finally.

"I figured that."

''And I refuse to be the one to betray you I refuse to slander my name."

"So what do you want me to do?'' I said with sudden annoyance.

"I don't know the thought of you being with another man is sickening but at the same time the thought of being with you forever is . . ."

"Whatever." I said as I once again attempted to get off of him I guess he had enough of my wiggling because he turned me onto my side so I was facing him never once exiting my womb.

"What the hell?" I yelled my voice scratching in protest.

"Stop moving." He said suddenly kissing me.

"What do you want?" I said.

"I don't know." He said.

"Well decide because I refuse to be a toy, I have enough of that with Inuyasha, I mean imagine if he knew what he would think? I love-"

"Shut up!" He yelled suddenly "you will not speak of him in my presence, you are mine not his you bore my children not his and you're in my arms not his."

"What do you want Sesshomaru you fuck me and hate me, you don't want me but you don't want me to go, what the hell!"

I yelled frustrated.

"I don't know." He said.

"Well I'm leaving."

"No." He said as he slowly started grinding against me.

"Stop." I said.

But he didn't this time he pumped into me three times before grinding into me again.

"I hate you."

"Like wise" He said smugly as I succumbed to his wishes.

The next couple of days went on like that.

We would argue and have sex sometimes the arguing got physical I would slap him and him me.

But I liked it, it made for better sex.

I never knew that being his mate could be so pleasuring.

I mean yeah we had gotten to know each other; I now know he hates paper work and loves only two things rin, his children and killing.

Which wasn't much but it was something I also know that he deals with a lot on a daily basis one time I followed him around the castle and I found how tough it was. there where always some urgent letter or something that was going on.

He handled everything carefully It was obvious he loved his lands, I might not like him yet but I respected him.

He had a lot on his plate, and for that I respected him as a lord a lover and the father of my children.

I wasn't allowed to be seen by anyone but the servants though I had to keep our relationship under wraps.

I was usually with the kids, or I was being trained my Sesshomaru in combat, he said I was supposed to know how to protect me and the children and for once I agreed with him.

"Are we done yet I'm tired!" I complained, were at the dojo and he was attacking me with his whips and so far I was covered in scratches.

"No." He said.

"Well then I quit.'' I said walking way, but I stopped when I felt him whip my backside.

"What the-" I yelled only to find him sitting there with a slight grin.

So I attacked I used all my training to try and dodge the whips and get a hit on him.

Right when I was about the punch him he caught my hand and tripped me onto the ground.

But it didn't matter and it didn't stop a grin from forming on my lips.

"Why are you smiling?" he asked.

"Because that's the closest I have ever gotten to hitting you and I am pretty damn ecstatic about it."

I said getting up.

He was not that bad Sesshomaru in fact I could maybe say he was decent, handsome a great lover and he was becoming a great father. He taught me a lot about becoming stronger as a mother and a warrior. He drilled me hard and sometimes I think I hate him until I realize that he did something that no one else had ever done with me. He believed that I was more than just kagome he saw that I had the potential to become so much more than the defenseless girl he met.

Though in actuality I'm sure it was for the benefit of the children as well as himself. He would tire of saving me from all his enemies I expect that one day he would like me to be able to do a little less in playing the role of "damsel in distress."

I don't know he was selfish arrogant and he screamed asshole. But I was beginning to see something else, something that I myself had not yet figured out.

"My lord my lord!" Jaken came screaming.

"What is it Jaken?" He asked with a board expression.

"Inuyasha my lord he is demanding to see you."

Hearing his name sent chills down my spine. Inuyasha was here for me? I thought he was a chapter of my life that had long since passed. How could I face him now? I am fucking his brother on a regular not to mention I had his damn children. Inuyasha the love of my life the reason why I stayed for all these years in this barbaric time was here waiting on the other side of the field.

Walking toward them was the hardest thing I ever had to do, poor Inuyasha. Wait. Poor Inuyasha? No way poor kagome! He left me not the other way around that stupid prick abandon me in a forest to fend on my own while he had his way with that corpse!

Why should I feel sorry for him he was the reason why I was here in the first place, if not for him I would be at home still a teen and still ignorant of all things sexual? I would have not experienced the cruelty of feudal japan.

Fucking Inuyasha and to think I felt sorry!

I could hear him now yelling at the guards. "Where is she, tell me where she fucking is!"

Yeah that was Inuyasha crass and loud.

I froze behind Sesshomaru afraid to go any further. 'Why was he here!' what did he think he was doing here after leaving me the way he did?

"Sesshomaru what are you doing with … Kagome?" Inuyasha said spotting us from across the field.

I saw him take me in assessing the cuts and bruises practice had given me. "What the hell did you do to her?" He ranted his face becoming flustered and pink.

Behind Inuyasha I could see Sango and Mirkou both waving happily from their place in the field. I smiled back trying to run into their arms and hug them for all I was worth. Until a certain demon stopped me.

"What the hell? I whispered looking at him and the arm that was currently lifting me from the ground. "Do not move." He said looking more serious than I had ever seen him. I stood still, mute and submissive.

"What do you want Inuyasha?" Sesshomaru demanded looking at his brother with a coldness I had never seen.

"I came to see Kagome and tell her why I left her not that it's any of your business!" Inuyasha said looking at his brother with eyes that where equally as stubborn.

"So explain follow me into my study all of you." He said while grabbing me and walking off.

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