Konnichiwa mina-san! I apologize that I might not be able to update as fast due to the fact that I resumed taking my Tae Kwon Do classes. I will have in between an hour and a half to two hours and a half of time dedicated to my Tae Kwon Do classes. And anyways here is the fifth chapter to my story Hesitant Love! I think some of you will hate me for this^^';;;;. And I decided to add Ayame as Kouga's love interest/girlfriend in the story and

Interruptions and Jealousy

Sango's pov (will switch to Kagome too)

I opened my mouth several times closing it each time. I didn't know whether I should answer her question or not and I wasn't sure how she would react either. I didn't know how I deny my feelings without hurting her feelings. I was saved from answering when the doorbell rang. My head snapped towards the door at the sound and I saw Kagome get up to look through the peephole and opened the door up.

She smiled in happiness as she opened the door to greet the person(s) at the door. "Hey Inuyasha it's been a while how've you been?!" she asked breathless from excitement, "oh I see Kouga and Sesshoumaru are with you too. I wonder why you aren't with Ayame Kouga. What about you Inuyasha? I thought you said you had someone you like, so didn't you tell her how you feel yet?" Kagome asked. It seemed that these people were long time friends of hers and none of them were human, or at least two of them weren't because I could tell that the one she addressed as Inuyasha was half human and demon based on the way he looked with his dog ears. It seemed that the one named Sesshoumaru was his half-brother, being a full blooded demon they must have different parents. I sensed no danger so I let go any hostile feelings that I might have against demons.

"Eh? Well Ayame's kind of … in one of her shopping frenzies. You know how boring and irritating that gets to be. So what about you Yash? What's this I hear about a crush? You never said anything to me about a crush." Kouga said rambunctiously. "I don't have to say anything about who I like," Inuyasha's response to Kouga's inquiry was quiet. Kagome seemed to remember that I was still in the room at this pointed and decided it was time to introduce me.

"Oh I'm sorry for being so rude come in, I'd like to introduce to my … um … roommate. Come on over this way everyone!" she said in a cheery voice. She stopped in the living room and pointed her hand in my direction as I stood up, "everyone, this is Kaoru-kun, Kaoru-kun the demon with the black hair is Kouga, and the demon with the dog ears is Inuyasha and the last demon is his brother Sesshoumaru. These three are good friends of mine Kaoru-kun!" She said this all, amazingly, in one breathe.

I smiled and bowed to each of them as they did jikou-shyoukai (introduction is in general but in this case it is a self-introduction), as I did. So it turned out that the reason I didn't know Kouga and Inuyasha was due to their attending an all boys' college. As for Sesshoumaru, he was training to inherit their father's company. I felt a bit awkward at first but then they started teasing me and asking me if Kagome and I were going out or not. I blushed furiously at the comments they were whispering in my ear.

At one point Kouga draped an arm around my shoulder and pulled me into a secluded corner of the room to ask me. "So really tell me what's going on between you and Kagome? You can't possibly be "just a roommate" there's gotta be more than that going on. You two are really dating aren't you?" He pressed. I blushed furiously when he whispered those kinds of things into my ear.

"No really we aren't dating and she's not my girlfriend. I really am just a roommate. She actually mistakenly forgot to add the question for gender on her application form for the renting of this apartment and she accepted mine without prior knowledge that I was a … guy … so yeah. She also felt bad so she didn't want to just kick me out without any other place to go so this has been our arrangement for the past couple of weeks." My blush had dissipated as I explained this and there was a dull ache in my chest having to admit it. I knew despite my words that I wanted there to be more between us but that there couldn't be anything either because of who I truly am and what I truly am. How could she accept me if she knew that I was really … a woman like her? My face must have shown a serious that indicated something of the arduous feelings weighing in my heart.

"H-hey, you ok? Yukimori-san, what happened? Was it something I said?" Kouga asked worriedly. He seemed to genuinely be a nice guy. I looked up at him confusion shown in my eyes; most likely he thought that he had offended me somehow. It was quite far from the truth though.

Inuyasha came bounding over just as I was about to answer and said in a rambunctious voice. "What cha' talking about over here in such a hushed tone? Are you sharing secrets or something?" He looked at each of us inquisitively. I immediately turned on my blank face and then smiled warmly at him.

"No, not at all Inuyasha, we were actually discussing about Ayame's bad shopping addiction and how I'm glad I've never had a girlfriend like that. Isn't that right Kouga?" I looked at him as did Inuyasha and Kouga sweat dropped, whether it was from my quick and easy lie or the thought of his girlfriend's shopping I didn't know, and a faint blush painted across his cheeks.

"Yeah that's right. It's such a nightmare carrying all of her bags for her, and it doesn't help that her father is so doting that he gives her a credit card and that's all she needs. You two are so lucky you don't have girlfriends." He sighed pathetically and bowed his head a bit, I almost felt sorry for him. I gave his shoulder a sympathetic pat and turned to look in Kagome's direction. It was apparent they couldn't tell I had been doing this the entire time due to my "attentiveness" to the conversation at hand.

"If you'll excuse me I think I'll go over to see what Kagome and Sesshoumaru-san are up to." I said and made my way over to where Kagome was seated and I saw as I made my way past them that Inuyasha had given me a thoughtful look. I wondered about it but didn't glance back at him for even a second. "Kagome, just what are you and Sesshoumaru talking about? I don't think I've seen Sesshoumaru smile at all until this very moment." I said and his small smile immediately turned into a slight scowl that looked more like a pout to me. I held back my strong urge to laugh at the serious but cute looking demon.

It seemed Kagome had the same thoughts as me as she gave me a wink and she seemed to have a gleam in her eyes that commended me for being able to keep a straight face. "We were actually just wondering what the three of you were talking about over there the way Kouga was blushing so madly I was sure it had to do with Ayame-san's addiction to shopping." I gave a bewildered expression at how accurate her guess was.

"Is it that apparent or is it because that is his usual reason for blushing madly?" I inquired and Sesshoumaru actually burst out laughing as Kagome gave a nod due to the fact that she was also laughing. Kouga and Inuyasha gave us confused looks. I smirked when I looked over at Kouga "we were just commending you on your tolerance for your girlfriend's shopping addictions Kouga." I explained and couldn't help but snicker at the mad blush that crossed his features and then soon after laughter from the other three followed. I felt at ease with these three demons and they really seemed to be good ones so I did not bother to pretend with them.

We eventually all sat down amongst the couch and armchair. Only three people could fit on the couch so it was in this predicament that the three guests sat there and I insisted on letting Kagome sit one the armchair but she refused and insisted I take it instead. I was feeling a slight irritation with that. All of a sudden Inuyasha grabbed Kagome and sat her on his lap. I felt myself grow angry towards the half-demon and my irritation increased ten fold. Kagome became red in the face and immediately stood up and walked over to stand by the armchair.

I immediately picked her up and sat her down on the armchair before she could react. "Kaoru-kun, w-what … I … uh … um … does anyone want some tea?" I felt my irritation flare again as she stood up. Sesshoumaru was the only one in the group who nodded. It seemed that the other two did not care much for tea. I sighed and sat down in the armchair for the time being as Kagome prepared the tea. Suddenly an idea flashed in my head and so I waited for Kagome with a slight smirk on my face that was almost unnoticeable.

When Kagome came back and set a glass of tea in front of Sesshoumaru on the coffee table I waited, knowing Kagome would come to stand by my seat, and before she could walk to my left side I grabbed her around the waist and placed her down on my lap. I had a feeling her reaction would be much different from when Inuyasha had done the same. My assumption was correct I knew for a fact she would become red in the face but I also had a hunch she wouldn't jump out of my lap as she had with Inuyasha and it would seem I was correct. I could feel my smirk widen in amusement as Kouga and Inuyasha smirked and tried to hold in the urge to laugh at Kagome and her current predicament. I could see that even Sesshoumaru had a slight smile tugging at the corners of his lips in amusement.

Kouga then said in a fake nonchalant way "well I think it is best that we left now, well that is if Sesshoumaru is done with his tea." Kouga had drawn out the first well and looked at Sesshoumaru who nodded with another slight smile on his lips and mischievous glint in his eyes. They left before Kagome could even try to get up to walk them out. They locked the door before closing it. I could tell Kagome's face was grower redder by the second. Even with her sitting in my lap her head didn't even reach past my chin. I smirked when I felt her tense up when I wrapped my arms around her middle and I tilted my head down so that my lips were right by her ears and whispered into her ears, "Kagome shall we resume where we left off before we were interrupted?" I felt her shiver and heard her breathe hitch as my hot breathe caressed her ears. She shuddered when I leaned my forehead against the back of hers lightly.

Kagome's pov

I felt myself grow very red in the face and my nervousness gnawing at me. My breathing was very slow and shuddery. I had never seen Kaoru-kun acting like this before. He wasn't being rude or ungentlemanly, for from it but still I had never seen him act this boldly or … forward. He was still being gentle with me in his movements and still very gentlemanly but … he was being very uncharacteristically bold in his actions and words, not that he was being inappropriate either. I did not know how someone could be so … alluring without being inappropriate or crude and rough. Even now he was still gentle in the way he spoke, the way he touched me, and the way he spoke was still gentle. It was so confusing the way he uttered his words in such a way that was so … husky and yet it sounded so gentle. I found myself shivering and shuddering at his warm breathes traveling along my ear and along the back of my neck. How could one be so innocent and gentle and yet be alluring and … sexy, there was no better word for it that I could think of, at the same time?

"I … I … um … yes … I never got to hear your answer … Kaoru-kun. So do you … um … know who … um you like … if you um … like anyone?" I asked. I cursed myself for sounding so breathless and for pausing so much in between two sentences. I could feel him shake a little as if he had just stifled an urge to chuckle at my reaction. He might not have made any noise but I could still feel him shake a little.

"Well … do you want to know my answer Kagome?" This time I could hear the seriousness in his voice and I felt my blush dissipate at the question and my mind became a bundle of nervousness and trepidation. I felt quite a bit uneasy and he must have sensed my unease as I felt him give my hand, which had went and covered his hand that was still around my waist without my noticing, a gentle and encouraging squeeze. I nodded slowly and I heard gulp in nervousness as well. Even Kaoru-kun could get nervous over these kinds of things!

There was a long pause as I awaited his answer. I could feel the tension growing when I finally heard him say, "Well based on what you said earlier … I think there is someone I like the way … you said. She is so adorable and sweet. She is so kind and she makes me blush a lot. I … I really like her voice when she speaks, the way it always sounds so kind and gentle, it's so soothing it puts me at ease when I'm around her. She … she's always helping me out whenever she can. I … I think she is a very beautiful person." There was a slight pause that felt like years to me when he said the next part, "but I know that … I … could never be with her … no matter how strongly I feel about her." I could hear a slight hitch in his voice when he said that last part and he almost sounded like a lovesick girl to me. I could tell that he really did like this girl, maybe even love her, based on the way his voice sounded dreamy as he described her to me. I felt jealous of this girl, whoever she might be.

He had stopped talking altogether and I could feel his breathe on my shoulder and I could tell it had slowed considerably. "Kaoru-kun … how do you know you ... can't be with this … girl? How do you know she doesn't … return your feelings? You know all those girls at school are always after you so … how do you know she's not one of those girls? I mean you are a really sweet guy and you are always the perfect gentleman and kind. You are so cute especially when you blush. You … you're the ideal boyfriend for any girl. This girl is lucky that you like her Kaoru-kun." I felt my heart break with each word.

He was still silent throughout my speech and even after I had finished. "I know," he paused yet again, so long this time I thought he wasn't going to say anymore, "I know … because … she … wouldn't accept who I really am … and because she … only sees me … as a friend. She's never … shown any interest in me … more than a friend. She's … probably in love with someone else. From what I can tell … I know she's in love with someone … just not me." He sounded so broken with each word he spoke. I shook my head vehemently.

"Kaoru-kun! You have to be more confident in yourself! You're such a good guy that any girl who can't see that is … is … stupid!" I yelled for lack of better word. I heard him chuckle quietly at my outburst. "Any girl that is lucky enough to have caught your attention had better be grateful and happy because you're such a rare find! Any girl stupid enough not to see that and accept you … is … it's her loss!" This time he was laughing hard at what I had said. I couldn't help but join in his laughter.

When our laughter had finally died down he asked me with a serious tone, "are you sure of that Kagome?" I felt myself grow red when I realized his breathe was blowing against my neck and ear again.

"Of course I am Kaoru-kun! I don't say things I don't mean! What are you trying to call me a liar?!" I asked which caused him to laugh at me in amusement yet again. I turned around a bit to punch him playfully against his arm. He laughed even harder but calmed down soon after and I felt his hands tighten around my waist a bit and I saw him smirk at me. "W-what's that look for?"

His amusement seemed to grow when I felt my face color at his smirk. His smirk disappeared the moment after and his face became serious, his eyes became a dark emerald, as he looked at me and the intensity of his stare made me freeze. He continued to look at me with such an intensity I could not seem to will my eyes away from his gaze. I couldn't decipher exactly what emotion it was in plain view for me to see. It seemed like a hunger almost as he looked at me.

"You really are amazing you know that Kagome?" He never broke eye contact with me as he said it and he didn't even seem to blink the entire time we had been looking at each other. I couldn't seem to blink either to break away from his gaze.

I was still silent as the intensity of his gaze somehow seemed to intensify with each second that passed. "W-what … exactly do you … mean … by that?" I cursed myself for wavering yet again when I spoke to him.

He seemed unwilling to explain further what he had meant. He finally broke eye contact to think. He was deep in thought when I felt his hands tighten again and his eyes looked back at me with determination.

"Can you really not understand what I am trying to tell you?" He asked me his eyes unwavering, "can you truly not understand the message I am trying to convey to you?" He was so serious and his face so determined.

I nodded to each of his questions and I heard him sigh. "I'm sorry Kaoru-kun. I really don't understand what you are trying to tell me. It must be very frustrating for you." I said gently and laid a hand against one of his cheeks causing them to warm up considerably but he did not blush. He looked up at me with confused eyes. "Please tell me what you are trying to say. I understand you are trying to tell me who you like but … I can't understand who it is you are trying to say you like because … you are being to … vague and … unclear.

He looked at me with pleading eyes. As if I could understand his eyes better and I thought I started to catch on a little. It was as if he trying to tell me that the person he likes is someone I know so I voiced that. "Is it … someone I know?" At a nod of his head I began thinking again when his voice broke me out of my reverie.

"Well I don't know if you can say you know this person but … in a way you do and don't at the same time. It's … hard to explain but … if you really want to know … I will tell you who it is I like." He looked at me with dark intense eyes.

I nodded, "yes Kaoru-kun. Please tell me. I do want to know, I really do." I sounded desperate to myself the way I had said it.

He looked at me with a slight grin before he said, "the person I like is someone who is … around me very much and … her name is … Higurashi, Kagome. I think I like this girl very much but … I … don't know if she feels the same way I do. So what do you think?" I was shocked to say the least. His hands had tightened around my waist as he said it. I felt one of his hands move from my waist to cup one of my cheeks and gently rub it in a soothing manner. "What do you think her answer will be … Kagome?"

Well here's the fifth chapter for everyone!!! Again I apologize for the long period of time between chapters! It will be really hard when school starts again because of Tae Kwon Do and school altogether-_-. Well enjoy this chapter while I go off to Tae Kwon Do in a few minutes. I hope you guys like cliffy's because I think I find them very fun right now!!!

Hikaru Himemiya