Woah..Man, how long has it been since I updated? Jeeze, Liek. Months O_o;;

Anyways, heres a long awaited (not really?) update!

First POV

I feel as if I'm floating in darkness, there is no escape. Who am I again? Why was I created again? Do I even exist?
The pitch black abyss was the only clue I had.

Hey, you gonna wake up or not? You're just gonna give up, is that it?

Give up? Give up on what...I can't remember..What was it?

Heh. Kid its time to snap back into reality.

Suddenly I hear soft beating every second. Something is wrapped around me, which I soon recognised as bed sheets. My whole body seemed to realise that I'm awake, and aching of agonising pain in my stomach and shoulder.

"Did she make it?..." I heard a voice, a soft womanly voice.
There was a sigh and a pause. "No...There was just too much damage. There was no way Miss Shikei was going to survive from wounds like that." Another more masculine voice said.
There was silence for a moment. "A whole entire clan wiped out, even the servants. This is horrible. How could someone do this?"

Finally I remember who I am. My whole life seems to just flow back into my mind. And of what happened last night.
My heart beat started to increase, so did that beeping noise near me.
I sat up. "NO! IT CAN'T BE! IT'S A LIE!" I yelled, struggling out of my bed. I realised that I'm in a hospital. And the two people talking were a doctor and a nurse, they rushed over to me who is yelling at the top of my lungs. Trying to escape.
I don't know why I was trying to get away, I was so frightened and shocked my body just did whatever it wanted.

"Calm down Saharu-sama! Its going to be okay!" The nurse tried to reassure me.
But I screamed and slapped her away from me. "N-No! THEIR ALL DEAD! I'M COVERED IN BLOOD!" I scream.
"You're fine Saharu-sama! Look, see?" The Doctor said, showing me my own hands, trying to imply that I am clean.
But I refuse to believe him, still struggling away from his grasp.
"She's in shock, we'll have to sedate her if she doesn't calm down! She'll re-open her wounds!" The nursed advised nervously.
"Saharu. Listen to me." The Doctor said sternly, grabbing my shoulders. "Its going to be okay, now can you please calm down?" He asked, looking straight into my eyes.

I looked into his eyes, then fell to my knees and started to cry. The nurse bent down and hugged me and looked up to the Doctor. "What are they going to do with her after she recovers?"
The doctor sighed. "I'm not sure. Our village, Tora is only in alliance with the Catelleon clan housing. Technically our leaders do not own it. But now that the clan is wiped out...Its their responsibility to decide what to do with the child." He looked to me who was still in the arms of the nurse crying. "But even if she does heal from her wounds...Mentally, her scars may never heal." His pager beeped, and he left for another patient.

The nurse was unsure what to do with me, so she just sat there with me in her arms. Until her pager too went off. "I'm sorry, I have to go." She said, geting up and helping me up. "If you need anything, please push that red button beside your bed, it will alert us and we will come to help you." I tried to smile and went off on her way.
Leaving me all alone on the floor of the hospital.
"I'm all alone. Just me..." I mumbled to myself. "Why...Why do I still exist? I have no purpose!" I yelled.

So, now you know what its like to lose everything. Big deal.

"..."

Is that it? You're just going to give up?

Suddenly, I see a huge barred cage in front of me. With a 'seal' tag on it. I looked blankly at up the door, up to the huge golden eyes before me.

Heh. This is nothing compared to what I've been through. Honestly, be glad that you're alive.

A large claw peaked out through the spaces in between the bars, pointing at me.

Thats right, You're lucky. Lucky that your measly little life is able to continue. Don't just grieve about your damn loss. Keep moving on, unless you want to just die here.

"But why?..." I asked, looking to the floor of the dark space I stood in. "Why should I keep living?... I have nothing to live for!" I yelled. "Nothing...Nothing at all..." I started to sob.

There was a sigh.
Then find one.

"F-Find one?.." I said through my sobs.

A purpose! Hell, even finding a purpose could be your purpose.

"A purpose..." I mumbled, rubbing the tears out of my eyes.

Thats right. Now stop being a pain in the ass and go away. You're in my breathing space.

Suddenly, I opened my eyes. I was still sitting on the floor of the hospital. My heart still ached from the pain of losing all that is dear to me.
I climbed over to my bed.
Even though I knew everything was gone. I still couldn't beleive it.
Otou-san was so strong, how could he be defeated so easily.
"It hurts...It hurts so much..." I mumbled. "But I...I must keep moving forward..." I tried to tell myself, tried to convince myself to move on. But it wasn't as easy as Sazuki had said.
I lied down to sleep, trying to forget about my sadness. All my trauma.

"Sa...ma...Sah..ru-sa..."
I started to hear a soft voice calling my name. But I ignored it. Wanting to stay in my bliss of sleep.
"Saharu-sama..." Another call, I roll over, but am tapped on the shoulder. "Saharu-sama, please wake up."
I look to see who it is. "Okaa...-sama?..." I mumble, seeing my mother. But I blink a few times more, the fairy tale washes away. And I realise its a nurse.

"Saharu-sama?..." She blinked at me, confused. "You need to get up and get dressed..." She said. "I'm sorry to disturb you. But the leaders wish to speak with you."

I sit up, still half asleep, but some clothes are handed to me. "Will you be alright dressing yourself? Its only been a few days since..." She paused looking to my face. She could see I was going to cry.
I stood up, taking the clothes in one hand. "I'll be fine." I said sternly, trying to act tough.
"You haven't been doing much exercise..." She said with a worried look. "You've barely been out of your bed for days and you eat such small portions...The other nurses and I are getting worried...Please, if you need to talk about anything don't hesitate to tell us."
"You pity me...Is that it?" I looked to her, and she quickly looked away. "I-It's n-not that..I-Its-" She stuttered, but was interrupted. "-I don't need your pity...Its my business how much I eat." I walked off to the bathroom to get changed.

The nurse sighed and went to the other nurse that was standing next to the door, both of them sighed. "Its getting harder and harder for us to get her to open up...She may be healing, at an extremely faster rate than expected no less. But her mental state is getting worse."
The other nurse nodded. "I hope she'll be okay infront of the leaders."

After getting changed, I was leaded by two ninja guards. I could tell they were ninjas, because of their head-protectors. They pulled such a scary face the whole time I was "escorted" to the leaders. I myself was scared, I had no idea what was going to happen. Those whole 6 days that I had been healing in the hospital, I was thinking about my clan. And my "purpose".
The doctors were confused about how fast my wounds were healing. They said they had never seen anything like that before, I myself wondered why my wounds healed so fast.

I finally arived at my desination, I walked into a traditional room where the floor was neatly polished. Three people sat in front of me, middle aged, two girls and one boy. Their dress was formal, extravagant and above all neat.
I was forced to kneel before them. Looking down to the floor.
"So, you are Saharu Catelleon, am I correct?" A masculine voice.

I simply nodded.

"You may look up." He ordered and I did so looking straight at him.

"I'm Kinnosuke." He said, then paused. "I have called you here, because I am going to tell you the truth, about what you really are."

End chapter~~

Fewh, I worked hard on that one~~ _;; I havn't read over the whole thing, so sorry if I made a few silly mistakes.

I think I'll skip OC profiles for now, unsure if I even have any OCs left to do a profile about.