Josh couldn't sleep. He kept thinking about Maya and her words and the little baby that grew inside of her. He hated the way they left things off. He hated that they didn't agree on something so important, but most of all, he hated that now she was crying in another room and he was laying here, acting like it didn't bother him. He couldn't hear her but he knew. He got up a couple of times to go and talk to her but he never went pass the door. He couldn't make his knuckles touch the door. He would turn around and go back to bed and then after a couple of minutes he tried again. Thirteenth time was the lucky one. He knocked softly on the door and when she didn't answer, he went in anyways. She was asleep or at least pretending to be asleep. He crossed the room to the bed in a few quite steps. He slipped under the covers behind her and gently pressed his arm against her still flat stomach.
"You up?" He whispered and Maya turned around and opened her eyes. They were red from crying.
"What's wrong?" She asked a little panicked as she sat up in the bed.
"Nothing." – Josh sat up straight too. – "Nothing's wrong. I just couldn't sleep not knowing if you were okay."
Maya smiled. "I'm fine." – She whispered. – "We can talk about it in the morning."
"I am sorry." Josh said, needing to get it all out right there and then. "I overreacted. You were right. We need to make a decision together and I didn't listen to you." – He paused for a second and looked down. – "I don't want you to feel like you need to do this just because of me. If you are not ready and you don't want a baby right now, I get that." – He looked back at her. – "I want to be with you. And I want you to feel happy, not trapped. This just isn't our moment. We'll have another one. I'll be fine with that. So no matter what you decide I will stick by you."
Maya hugged him tightly. Josh nuzzled her neck and she inhaled his scent.
"I don't want you to feel like you are missing out on something because on me. I don't want you to say that you are fine with it for the sake of peace only so you can resent me or even worse hate me later on." Maya told him.
"I could never hate you. No matter what you did." Josh assured her and hugged her tighter.
"I still haven't decided. I just want us to look at all the options." Maya said. "I don't want to make this decision on my own. I want us to decide what's best for us together."
"Okay." Josh agreed. "We'll decide together."
"Will you come and sleep with me now?" Maya asked.
Josh didn't answer. He just laid down and put out his arm so that she can rest her head on it. Maya smiled and laid down facing away from him. He wrapped her in his arms and softly whispered: "That's better." before they both fell asleep.
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The next morning Maya and Josh decided to have a serious discussion about their options. They agreed on no yelling and listening to each other even if they disagreed with something.
"So, what are you leaning towards?" Josh asked her.
"I don't know." Maya said honestly. "I am very confused and maybe I over reacted last night. Or maybe I had the right idea and now I am making a mistake."
"You need to calm down." He said. "We'll make the right decision."
"But what if we don't?" Maya asked. "What if we make a mistake? It's not just the two of us anymore. It's another life. A whole person that we are responsible for. And no matter what we decide, if we screw it up, it's on us."
"It's a big decision. Possible the biggest one we'll make in our lives. But I think in your heart you know what you want." Josh said.
Maya nodded in agreement. "I need to talk to Riley about this."
"I thought we needed to make this decision. The two of us. Not your best friend."
"She knows me better than anyone else. She knows what I need to do." Maya explained.
"I know you too. I lived with you for the past three years. I loved you for a million more before that. We're in this together. You and me. Not anyone else." Josh was getting sick of Maya always running to Riley instead of him.
"You can't be mad at me for this. She's my person. She was there before you. Before anyone. You have no right to tell me I can't run to her for this." Maya was annoyed.
"It was fine when you were younger and you only had each other, but she's married now. And you are engaged and having a baby. You grew up. You found someone else to share your life with. She can't come first anymore."
"And who should come first Josh? You?" Maya was getting mad.
"Why not? You always come first to me?" He said. Then he continued in a calmer voice. "Look, I get it. You two depend on each other and that's fine, I'm just saying that there are some things you can't go through together because it's not her experience. It's yours and it's mine. And there will be stuff that happens to her and Lucas that she will deal with him and not you. And that's not a bad thing. It's the way things work." Josh explained his point of view.
"I love you. But I don't like you very much right now." Maya said.
"Maya…" Josh started but she interrupted.
"I am going to go for a walk and we'll continue this when I come back." She said.
"You can't just walk out." He said.
"Why not? You did last night." She reminded him.
Josh didn't say anything. He just watched Maya walk out of the door. She needed to talk to Riley. Riley will know what she should do and then things can go back to normal and she can stop fighting with Josh. She took a cab to the hotel where Riley and Lucas were staying.
The ride wasn't long and Maya couldn't stop thinking about her pregnancy. When she arrived at the hotel and entered the lobby, she wanted to head straight to their room but she stopped. She can't do that. She can't ruin her best friends first day of marriage. Riley would never do that to her. Instead of going up to Riley's room, she sat in the chair in the lobby. They were very comfortable. Maya looked at the very decorated ceiling of the hotel lobby and she thought about how perfect her life was just a few days ago. And now she is pregnant with a child she didn't plan and she is in a fight with her fiancé who is acting like a jerk. Or maybe she was acting like a jerk. She didn't even know anymore.
"Maya?" A familiar voice woke her from her thoughts.
"Riles? Lucas? What are you guys doing here?" She asked her friends.
"We can ask you the same thing." Lucas noticed.
"It's a girl thing, honey." Riley said to her husband.
"I'll get our car." Lucas said.
"You don't have a car." Maya reminded him.
"I'll go get one." He kissed his wife and headed out.
Riley sat next to her friend. "What's wrong peaches?" She asked worried.
"I am pregnant." Maya said bluntly.
Riley's jaw dropped to the floor. She was speechless.
"Are we happy or sad about this?" Riley asked, treading carefully.
"That's why I'm here. I need to you tell me. What should I do?"
"Peaches, I can't tell you that." Riley answered. "It's your life and your decision. I can only tell you that I will stand by you no matter what, but I can't tell you what to do."
"Then why am I keeping you around?" Maya joked.
"Does Josh know?" Riley asked.
"I told him and we've been fighting about it ever since he found out." Maya said.
"Why?" Riley asked her best friend.
So Maya told her everything. She told her how she found out. She explained why she was fighting with Josh, she told her everything they said to each other. And then she told her what she was thinking and how confused she was. Riley listened carefully. She nodded and gasped at the right moments and she tried to give her advice.
"You both have a point, Maya. I think you are both too scared to think rationally and that's why you have so much trouble communicating. And even though he's a jerk for saying it, he might be a little right. You have to figure this one out with him, not with me. This is his child as much as it is yours." Riley said.
"That's what he said too." Maya said.
"It's a Matthews thing." Riley said jokingly. "We are were smart."
"Don't push it." Maya warned. She sighed loudly.
"I should go talk to him." Maya finally agreed.
"And I should spend another day in a hotel with my husband." Riley said.
"Thanks Riles for always being my friend." Maya said.
"Anytime sweetie." She concluded.
"And don't tell anyone yet. No one knows." Maya made her promise.
XXXXXX
She came back to the apartment and walked in on Josh still sitting on the couch. He smiled when he saw her. "I didn't know if you were coming back."
"I'll always come back." She said and sat next to him.
"You are a jerk." She said. "But there is a small chance you're also right."
"I'm sorry about everything I said. I know I've said that a lot in the past two days but I mean it. Of course you'll go to Riley first. She's your person." Josh said.
"You're my person too." She said. "I am ready now."
"Ready for what?" He asked confused.
"Would you go with me to a doctor's appointment tomorrow?" She asked with a smile.
Josh smiled back. "I'd love to."
A/N: Hey guys. I am sorry you had to wait this long and that the chapter isn't that long but I hope you still like it and i am looking forward to your comments.
