So here is part four! I was very tired when I wrote this, so don't mind any typos kay? Spell check is for amateurs ;)
xo - Val
Billie felt slightly out of place as he walked next to his new friend Seth. Seth was so tall, and strong looking, Billie couldn't help but feel a tiny bit jealous of the bigger man's strong build. They stepped out into the courtyard of the hospital, a chill ran down Billie's spine as the sun peaking lightly through the overcast clouds shone on him. He was enjoying the early November weather. He hadn't been outside since the beginning of September, one month. Seth walked along, at his normal pace and turned to notice he was walking alone. He turned around to see Billie smelling the growing winter roses, as the tiny man pulled his hood off. "Are you okay Billie?" Seth asked, "Yeah.. I'm okay. It's really nice out here… it's so… calm." Seth smiled, acknowledging Billie taking his time. "It really is huh? Very beautiful." Billie nodded, "We better hurry up, or else all the jello cups will be gone!" Seth said in an amused tone, as he grabbed Billie's hand and dragged him by the wrist.
Filled with three hundred people, the cafeteria was a really loud place. "Wow, there's a lot of mental people in the world…" Billie said with a chuckle, Wow… it's even funnier to think that I'M one of them.. he thought to himself, as he laughed. Seth giggled, "You're funny Billie Joe." he said. They walked to the back of the long line, and stood there. "What's for lunch today anyways?" Billie asked Seth, "I have no clue.. all I know is that they have amazing jello, and if I don't get any I'll be pissed.." Seth said in an impatient tone, jumping around to try and see exactly how long the line was. "Haha, is it really that good?" he asked, "Hell yeah!" Seth said.
"I feel like I'm in high school again!" Billie said excitedly, "Oh my God, I know what you mean!" Seth replied. Billie felt a small urge of sadness rush over him, "Hey.. do you know why I'm here Seth?.." he said quietly, the tiny mans voice trailing off. "Not at all.." Seth said noticing Billie's hesitation, "You don't have to tell me if you're not comfortable with saying it…" he added, looking down at his shoes. "Well, nobody really knows I'm here…. Other than my two best friends, the doctors, and my mom…. I don't feel l-like I can talk about it with anyone…" he stuttered, "Well, Billie if it means anything to you, you can talk to me if you feel like you don't have anyone…" Seth said awkwardly as he ran his hands through his dark hair, that wrapped around his neck gently brushing the top of his shoulders. "Really?" the smaller man said. "Of coa-" Seth started to say, "Hey gay guys! Sorry to break the love fest but you need to move your asses! The lines moving!" a guy yelled from behind them. Billie felt embarrassed… Is that really what we look like? Two gays?… the thought made Billie shudder, he felt hurt… Seth had noticed the flash of embarrassment that flashed over Billie's mirror-like eyes. It seriously pissed him off…. "Hey, why don't you shut the fuck up and mind your own.. alright Trent?" Seth yelled back, Billie was shocked by Seth's reaction… his eyes widened, he felt a bit amused. Trent came over to where Seth and Billie stood, "What did you say Seth?" Trent said in a husky tone, bucking his chest out. "You heard me.." the tall brunette replied. "Why don't you just take you and your little dwarf and get lost!" Trent yelled pointing accusingly at Billie. Normally Billie would start swearing and cussing at this asshole, but right now he was so weak.. He just couldn't. Seth rolled his eyes, and started to walk off "Come on Billie, let's go." he said as he and Billie walked up the line. "What can I get you dear?" The smiling cafeteria lady said, "Um.. I'll just have the rice, and the jello.." Billie said. "Okay! here you go dear." she said pilling a mountain of rice onto the tray seeing how skinny the small man was, then handing the tray down to the short man, "Thank you." Billie replied reaching up. He waited for Seth, "What about you honey?" she asked Seth, "I'll take everything please!" Seth said smiling wide. "Okay, here you go big boy!" she sad handing Seth the heavy tray. Seth smiled seeing the jello jiggle. Seeing there were no seats in the cafeteria Seth pointed to the exit, "Wanna eat outside?" he asked eyeing his jello, "Sure." Billie shrugged.
It was so peaceful outside, nobody was out, Billie smiled in adoration of the clouds covering the sun. "So what'd you wanna talk about Billie?" Seth said as he took a mouthful of his jello almost devouring the whole jiggly substance. "Oh… um.. how I got here.." Billie said awkwardly. "Well, shoot, you can tell me." he replied chewing in delight, "Okay… well here goes. So, I was having these dreams for a while… and in the dreams... there was, this man.. h-he was cutting me, and l-like torturing me…" Billie's voice quivered, he continued "and.. I was trapped, and I would wake up fine… but then, the cuts he did on my body in the dream, would appear…. and I don't understand how…. I know this sounds crazy…" he said as he fidgeted with the end of his sleeve. Swallowing harshly Seth looked at Billie "Well, I don't think it's crazy at all Billie, I mean you don't know anything about it… So why the hell should you feel bad for it?" "Well, because…. nobody believes me! My mom doesn't believe me, my best friends Mike and Tre sure as hell don't, and they're my best friends! They all think I did this to myself!" Billie said as he lifted his shirt showing Seth the vicious stitched wounds. Seth gasped at the sight of them, "Well, why would they think you did this to yourself Billie?" he replied in concern, "Ugh…. because…. well a while back there was an incident…." he said ashamed, "What kind of incident?.." , "Ugh….. I was really depressed back then…. and I did some stupid shit, and my mom got worried. So ever since then, she lost some trust from me… and now whatever I do, she'll intrude into my life and just take control!" he said frustrated, "Oh… Well… if it helps, I believe you Billie Joe." Seth said with a faint smile. Billie glanced over to him, "You do?" he asked shocked. "Of coarse, why wouldn't I? You trusted me enough to tell me this, why shouldn't I trust you?" Seth replied. Billie felt so happy, he couldn't even describe how much those words meant to him, how much he needed to hear this. To be trusted meant something to the small man, it meant a lot. Without words, Billie sent what he wanted to say in a small smile. "Do you want my jello Seth? I got it for you." Billie said laughing. "Hell yeah!" Seth said taking the jello, "Thanks." , "You're welcome." Billie replied, dumping the untouched rice into the trash can. "You don't eat very much do you Billie?" Seth said in a teasing tone, "You sound like my mother! Just shut up and eat your jello!" Billie laughed, "Whatever you say Billie, whatever you say!" Seth ate his jello, happy to find a friend. So happy that he had a small something to get his mind off his pain, even if only for a little while, Seth was happy.