A/N : Not mine. All Kouga Yun's. I don't own Loveless. I don't make any money out of it.
I'm sorry it is a shorter chapter but it was a good place to stop. On the plus side, I'm leaving it on a happy note. I hope you will like it. Reviews would be delightful.
Chapter 4
January 2005
Mother will kill me one day. I've barely escaped her tonight. I'm not sure what I should do. I'd like to move out but what will happen to her? Will she die of grief? Can I abandon her when she believes she lost both her sons? Should I stay? But I'm not always quick enough or strong enough to hold her back. It's becoming difficult to fall asleep. I've found myself getting up several times to check my door. I've locked it for years. Now I've taken to putting a chair behind the handle. I lock my window. I've moved my bed so it's in the most protected corner of my room. On the worst days, I climb out and go to Natsuo and Youji's place. Should I stay? But there are memories here. Good memories of Seimei. Memories of Soubi. Do I want to leave this place? Maybe I should just take some physical training so I can restrain her more violent urges. Makes me believe what a good Sacrifice I could make if I had a Fighter... Is that cynical?
February 2005
Kio has been really excited these last days. He won't tell why but I know it has something to do with Soubi. He wouldn't be so tight-lipped otherwise. Kio is exuberant. He wouldn't keep a secret if telling would make others happy. Kio is honest. And he's been searching for Soubi for years now. I'm happy to know he has never given up on him. Kio has always stayed in touch with us. He had no obligation to. He did it because he's good at heart. There are so few people like that that we have to treasure them. I'm glad to know him. But hey, I don't want to be near Kio and Soubi when they meet again. It will be — memorable for sure. He's been quite mad at Soubi since he has disappeared. And Kio is never shy to speak his mind. Very, very loudly.
April 2005
This is my last year in chūgakkō. I wonder if it's going to be as uneventful as the previous ones.
May 2005
Yes! Yes! Kio has found him! I knew it. I knew he had something up his sleeve and I just knew it concerned Soubi. I'm feeling giddy. Is that normal? I'm— happy. It's been a while. I've almost forgotten how it felt. I wonder what will happen now... What is the best course of action?