*Mistoffelees POV*
My soul had been torn and shredded. My heart was like a mirror, maybe you could fix it. But you would always see those cracks. I held Rimabeth close to me, rocking her back and forth back and forth. Her body growing colder. Simple worn out memories. I wouldn't be able to live with the fact. Knowing that the only reason Rimabeth, MY Rimabeth, was... gone... was because she was trying to convince me that she loved me. Why hadn't I believed her. Was it because I was jealous? Angry? Was I trying to push her away so that I wouldn't have to go through with this pain? It didn't matter now. She loved me and I loved her. All around me, they're familiar. The faces, the places. But they would never be the same. The tears filled up and spilled over, I wanted to drown my sorrow. The guilt kicks in. I want to have no tomorrow. I told myself I won't miss her. But I'll remember, what it feels like beside her. I'll miss her fur in my face, the way her innocence tasted.
I laid her out on my lap, her peaceful expression forever on her beautiful face. I smiled for a moment. Just a moment. Before the sorrow, angst, pain, hurt, anguish, misery, torment, anxiety, all flooded back. My true love, my whole world. Please don't leave me. I needed her. I told her that I'd be there for it all. That I'd save her at any cost. Ha. I hadn't even saved her when she was standing right in front of me. I watched my entire being die before my eyes.
Rima, had made my head spin with a simple glance. But when she was there with me, and she'd smile. There was only me and her. There was something about her. Everything she did was beautiful. Everything she did was wonderful.
I put my face in my hands, squeezing my eyes shut. Closing out the world, just feeling her fur across my own. If only she could see me mourning my love for her. I knew she loved me. I'd give up everything to bring her back. To live, to breathe. I have to be with you Rima. I can't let her go. I can't let go of that dream. I smiled again as I remembered every blissful second I'd ever had with her. I used to ask her how many times she would break me before I shattered. Now, I'd shattered.
You were the antidote that got me by. What I had really meant to say, is I'm sorry for the way I am. That I love you Rima. I never meant to be so cold to you. I should have known you weren't lying. But I had never wanted to you to see this screwed up side of me. I never really wanted you to go. If you could only hear me, I'd let you know how I miss you. Forgive me Rima. I was a fool to ever let you go. I want you to know. There's no one else I'd rather be with. I proven it's true, I will always love you. Every night I will dream about the time when you were mine.
Rimabeth. I love you.
"I love you Mistoffelees."