/JADE/

[TheScissoringQueen has just signed into TheSlap Messenger.]
[ToriVega_Docious has just signed into TheSlap Messenger.]

TheScissoringQueen: Ugh. What do YOU want?
ToriVega_Docious: YOU'RE the one who messaged me first!
TheScissoringQueen: Yeah, lucky you.
ToriVega_Docious: Hey! I think this is the first time we've actually talked to each other on here!
TheScissoringQueen: Well aren't you the observant one?
ToriVega_Docious is typing...

I drum my fingers against the keyboard, watching in slight amusement as the message icon flashed and disappeared over and over as Tori struggled with what to write in response. I scuff my feet against the carpet to spin my computer chair, rotating around and around in slow mindless circles in my room. I hadn't been back to Vega's house since our little private moment and she mercifully hadn't pried for an answer as to why. Not that I was going to give her one.

Not like I even had one myself.

ToriVega_Docious: It's amazing but you're even more sarcastic over text.
TheScissoringQueen: I'm taking that as a compliment.
ToriVega_Docious: You would.
ToriVega_Docious: So since we can't see each other anymore, I guess we'll have to do the blog stuff using this.

I grind my teeth together.

TheScissoringQueen: I never said we couldn't see each other.
ToriVega_Docious: Yeah you did. Two days ago. You told me to back out.

I scowl at the lit computer screen, physically feeling Tori's words burn into me. I could picture her in her bedroom, most likely wrapped up in some hideous blanket while she types, maybe a cup of hot chocolate gently steaming beside her with those dorky glasses perched on her nose...

TheScissoringQueen: Allow me to elaborate. I never said I didn't want to see you. We obviously still have to see each other to work on this stupid blog.
ToriVega_Docious: But this isn't about the blog anymore, is it?
ToriVega_Docious: You said you knew exactly what I was doing a few days ago... what did you think I was doing?
TheScissoringQueen is typing...

Fuck.

I type and retype my response, deleting each paragraph before slamming my hand down in irritation. Within a matter of days and without even fully realizing it, Tori and I had gradually started crossing over into unstable and unexplored territory. No man's land. Even though I had done everything to push her away, she seemed to be taking a battering ram to my castle walls and winning. A subconscious part of me noticed I was even starting to note small stupid things about Vega every time we got together and it scared me. Not because I had suddenly started taking an interest in the Latina but because I didn't think I could stop my observations even if I tried.

I had a sneaking suspicion the feeling was mutual.

TheScissoringQueen: Forget it.
ToriVega_Docious: No. Don't shut me out, Jade. Tell me.
ToriVega_Docious is typing...

My mother has always said my moods have always been similar to a roller coaster, the violent twists and turns equivalent to the storms that brewed in my mind. The coaster cart would run along steadily before pitching down, making my stomach lurch then crawl back up again only to drop and repeat the vicious cycle. I was never really 'happy' for an extended period of time and it was what I had grown accustomed to, always rocking and riding in between. But now, I felt like everything had changed with Tori. Instead of falling, the cart continued to keep climbing and climbing, reaching breathtaking, incredible heights I'd never even known before. It made my head spin. I'll admit it. I liked being with her. I didn't want it to stop. I didn't want to come down because in all honesty, I was terrified of the alternative without her.

ToriVega_Docious: Do you want to come over? Trina and my parents are out and I was gonna make molten chocolate lava cake...
TheScissoringQueen is typing...

My teeth sink into my bottom lip, reading and re-reading the request. Playing with fire meant getting burned, but a sick, twisted part of me believed I enjoyed the pain, no matter how much I fought against - whatever we were. I couldn't nail down what it was and I wasn't sure if I wanted to know, but God. There was something about Vega which stirred an unknown part of me, something I knew I should run away from but I wanted to keep coaxing it closer, drawing it out with curiosity because I couldn't help myself. My fingers are automatically typing out my response before my brain signals had a chance to race through my body and stop me.

TheScissoringQueen: I'll be over in 15 minutes.
[TheScissoringQueen has left the conversation.]

A/N: Absolutely overwhelmed with all the reviews and follows! They have most definitely restored my faith in this story, so thank you!
Did you all catch the victorious reunion? They wore onesie pajamas and watched Victorious! So adorable.
Please keep your reviews coming! Almost hit 100!