So has much has I wish I owned it I don't. If I did..the things I would do to Munro..Speaking of the sexy man..Is he 17 or 20 I feel I need to know this..mainly so my awkwardness of thinking he's hot will be known to me on exactly how awkward it is? I did just learn the kid who plays Drew is 15..i've got almost a decade on that kid lol... But enough of my awkward love of Degrassi and Munro...

"I've been swallowed by this wreck that you call your life.
I'm damaged from the inside. I've been broken.
Don't threaten me with what you think I feel.
If you could read my mind you'd be in tears.

I'm sick of your excuses you hold above me.
I've finally come to terms with what I am.
I'm nothing in your eyes, and this will not change.
I'm living in a dream."

"Heartless"~ A day to remember...

Addison was nervous, she'd been freaking out since Adam texted her during last period, saying he's left with Eli and that he'd be joining them after school. Even though she knew it was stupid, Addy couldn't help but be excited. Class seemed to go by slower than normal without Adam. She hated being in this class with Jenna, the girl never knew when to just shut her mouth. When the final bell rang, Addison jumped out of her seat and ran out the doors to her car, driving home to change quickly and head to The DOT.

She'd been there for almost thirty minutes when she actually started to think that she'd been stood up. They were twenty minutes late, Adam wasn't answering her calls, or texting her back. Usually she'd be slightly worried, but since she knew he was with Eli, she was almost certain that the dark-haired boy was stalling them.

"Why do you get excited' she asked herself quietly, dropping her face in her hands. This crush on Eli was stupid and completely irrational. She just couldn't understand, why the one guy she found attractive, was the one who completely despised her. "Stupid, stupid, stupid" Addie whispered.

"Talking to yourself now huh, Richards?"

'Wha..SHIT!" Addie exclaimed as she knocked her empty cup off the table. She quickly bent down to grab the cup, not noticing Eli doing the same. She froze as their hands collided over the glass, when he didn't immediately pull away; she carefully looked up from the floor. Addie couldn't hide her quick intake of breath, she'd always know that Eli had gorgeous eyes, but dear Lord, when the sparkled with humor, she could barely breathe. After a few seconds of silent staring, she saw the humor fade and the iciness return has he abruptly pulled away ending the moment.

"So..." Addie said as they slid back into the chairs.

"Adam said I had to apologize, so sorry" Eli stated bluntly not even sparing a glance in her direction.

"Um, ok then", she replied as they returned to the normal awkward silence. After ten minutes of avoidance, she couldn't stand it any longer. "Eli, Can I ask you something?"

He sighed dramatically and pulled his eyes from the window. "Yea, whatever" he replied in a bored tone. Taking a deep, steadying breath, Addie gathers the courage to ask the question that had been on her mind for months now.

"Why do you hate me so much" she whispered, suddenly extremely interested in the scratches and marks on the table. After what seemed like hours, but in reality were only a few moments, she gathered the courage to look up at Eli.

"I don't hate you, I just don't see it:

"See what?" she asked, clearly confused. She could feel his eyes raking over her face, as if trying to see something.

"Why I should like you, you're just like all the others. Just better at hiding it and less pretty, you only care about yourself, not who you hurt. I don't want to see Adam hurt when you decided to stop slumming and go back to the bitchy blonde bimbo's you were friends with. You can deny it all you want but sooner or later you will go back, they always do.'

She'd known she shouldn't have asked, and even with knowing that he didn't like her, let alone know the first thing about who she really was, she couldn't stop the tears from quickly filling her eyes.

"Well, um, o…ok" she stuttered, trying not to let Eli see just how much he'd truly hurt her. 'I'll um, tell Adam you said sorry" she grabbed her purse and quickly ran out of the café.

"Fuck" Eli said running his hand through his already messy hair."Shit", he quickly got up and ran out after Addison.

"Addie, Addie, and ADDISON" he yelled, finally catching up to her. He quickly grabbed a hold of her arm and jerked her in to the alley.

"What?" she spat, tears pouring down her face? Eli couldn't help but notice the icy blue color of her eyes. "Do you want to tell me more shit about me, maybe make me feel even worse, why not add in that I'm a slut huh, Eli you seen to know eve.."

Not knowing how else to shut her up, he did the first thing that came to mind and slammed his lips on to hers.