Hey guys, sorry I havent updated in a while. It was the first week of school this week, and you know how that goes. This chapters kinda akward for me, seeing as I have to describe how Dimitri thinks of Rose half naked. I don't think like that, so I'm counting on some opions of my guys friends toward Megan Fox. Lol. So enjoy my akwardness, and Review please:)

Chapter five

I left Rose for the day, and I was glad to have her at an arms distance now, but for some reason I was still worried.

Of all the things that could happen to some one, every thing for her has to be horrible. Its perfectly normal to be worried about her, she's been through hell.

The thoughts didn't make a difference. if i didn't know any better, i would say we were friends. I wouldn't have minded that. But to bad something told me that I knew better.

I was to sit in some classes today, out on the elementary campus. Nothing exciting, so I had time to think. Should I start Rose fighting? Or should I keep her running until i knew she could survive until she was far enough away or around people? I out that off until later, trying to be as observant as possible.

I loved being a guardian, but it was a pain sometimes. They come first. They come first. They come first. Thats how I live my life, and my boredom doesn't matter. I don't matter much. I may be a good guardian, but i can be replaced. Any of us could be. So I tried to do my best, hoping that it would get me some where. Just hopes. So there I sat, watching nine year olds answer multiple promlems too easy for words, bored.

But I wasn't bored for too much longer. Later that night, more happened than I wanted it to.

"She's where with who!" I demanded. The janitor told me once more, and I stormed off toward an empty party of Rose's dorm. I looked around, finding a shut door. The lounge. There was a couch in there, and i could only image what was going on in there.

I took a deep breath, preparing myself to have to face the worst possible situation,when something ran through me. Jealousy? Hate? I couldn't deal with that now, and i burst in the door to find the boy the janitor told me about hovering over a shirtless Rose, who both sprang part. Rose looked ready to tell someone off until she noticed who was here. I ran up to the boy, grabbed him by the shirt, and started my questioning.

"What's your name?"

"J-Jesse, sir. Jesse Zeklos, sir" he stuttered.

"Mr. Zeklos, do you have permission to be in this part of the dorm?"

"No, sir."

"Do you know the rules about male and female interaction around here?"

"Yes, sir."

I was angry. No, I was beyond angry. i was extremely pissed. I hated to see Rose disobeying the rules, but this boy clearly planning on taking advantage of her?

It enraged me.

It also reminded me off my mother, and the man who helped in the process of concieving me. I wouldn't dare think of him as a father.

I spit out," Then I suggest you get out of her as fast as you can before i turn you over to someone who will punish you I ever see you like this again,"" i pointed to Rose, standing half naked to our left," then I will be the one to punish it will hurt. Alot. Do you understand?"

I was angry enough to let my russian accent take over my words, and as I evaluated my voice, I knew I had sounding terrifying. To this ignorant child, I seemed like a monster hovering over him right now. A Russian monster at that. Definately not the person to piss off, that much was true.

"Yes sir!"

"Then go." I growled, and released him. in a blink of an eye, he was gone. I turned to Rose, ready to give her a lecture fit for satin himselft when I Noticed something.

Rose was beasutiful. I knew she was pretty when i first seen her, that much was obvious. But It hadn't had much effect on me.

Or had it?

Yes. It had. All of my feelings were now explained, all of my opening up, my concerns, my standing up for her, it was all explained. I felt something towards Rose. I mean felt. But mind babble aside, I focused on her more.

The Dark wavy hair was slightly out of place, giving her a bit of a wild, sexy look. She had on a black bra and jeans, and she looked good in them. She had perfect curves, comlimenting her breast. And I could believe I was sitting there staring at my students breasts, but there I was, noting how wonderful her boobs were. I pulled my gave to her eyes, and i could have stared in them for ever. It was at that moment when I started to fall in love.

Scratch that. it was at that moment when I realized I had been falling in love this whole time. But it was also the moment where she stopped blushing and commented,

"You see something you like?"

Yes. But I snapped out of it, feeling horribly guilty, and Praying that I had just imagined that stupid realization. Nope, it was real. I still felt it. No way was she going to know that.I hardened, making her think that I was a brick wall again.

"Get dressed."

She pulled her shirt on an asked me if I had followed her.

"Be quiet." I had things to shove out of my head, fantasys that could never be. I bent down so we were at eye level. "A janitor saw you and reprted it. Do you have any idea how stupid this was?" When i said I realized i wasn't just speaking out of my feelings. It truly was stupid, and if he'd wanted her bad enough he could have bit her, and she would have been powerless under the endorphins. She would have wanted everything he had to offer. Rumors would spread, she would seem easy and cheap, and there goes all of her future.

"I know, I know, the whole probations thing, right?"

"Not just that. I'm talking about the stupidity of getting in that kind of situation in the first place." My earlier anger returned full force now, allowing me to momentarily forget about my feelings for Rose.

"I get in that kind of situation all the time, comrade. It's not a big deal." She was angry now to. Not that it mattered, mine definately overshadowed hers.

"Stop calling me that. You don't even know what you're talking about." I snapped.

"Sure I do. I had to do a report on Russia and the R.S.S.R. last year." Yeah, and now she knows everything. Couldn't she just let this be handled without arguing for once?

"U.S.S.R. And it is a big deal for a Moroi to be with a dhampir girl. They like to brag."

"So?"

"So?" I demanded. I was wondering if she respected herself at all. "So you don't have any respect? Think about Lissa. You make yourself look cheap. You live up to what alot of people already think about dhampir girls, and it reflects back on her. And me." Yes, it was mean to go there. But I knew she wouldn't want to ruin our reputation. Not that it would really hurt me, but still.

She caught on. "Oh, I see. Is that what this was about? Am I hurting you big, bad male pride? Are you afraid I'll ruin your reputation?"

I spoke the truth when i said," My reputation is already made, Rose. I set my standards and lived up to them along time ago. What you do with yours remains to be seen. Now get back to your room- if you can manage it without throwing your selve at someone else.

I could practically hear the slap I had jusr verbally hit her with.

"Is that your way of calling me a slut?"

" I hear the stories you guys tell. I've heard stories about you.."

She backed down, and asked me why should couldn't have fun. i told her because before long someones life would depend on her, and she didn't have time to worry about fun. i told her i was the number one student in my class, and that still wasn't enough.

"And its too late." I said after a sigh.

Then she guessed at something that had been bothering about what had been bothering me- that Jesse was a reletave of my former charge.

"You hurt. Every day. Don't you? You miss him."

I wanted to cry. i wanted to throw something. I wanted to scream and pout. I wanted to hold her and let her have the life I wish she could. But instead i stood there surprised that she knew that about me. But I straigtened back up, pushing all thoughts of my sorrow and lonelyness away.

"It doest't matter how I feel. They come first. Protecting them.." She finnaly agreed. Then, i sighed.

I told her she could fight, if i could trust she wouldn't go doing stupid things. I told her she was strong, and that she would be tired. I didn't warn her that I was going to beat the hell out of her, but i'm sure she realixed that.

"We'll start tommorow."I told her, before walking back to my room. I needed sleep. I just hope it found me.

Surprisingly, it did. And I dreamed again. This time, it wasn't a strigoi.

"It was the whole Jesse and Rose thing all over again. I was watching it, not stopping it this time. Infact, I felt like I was watchin it was a movie instead of being right there.

It wasn't Jesse who was making out with Rose, either. It was a long dark haired boy, very filled out I might add. I couldn't see his face, it was pressed into hers. Her shirt and jeans were already off, leaving her in a bra and underwear, and She tugged at the only remaining clothes on him, his pants. He leaned up to help her when-

I saw who it was.

Me.