A few days later as Sarah walked to her dorm she was stopped by a boy named James. "Hey there beautiful! I was wondering if you want to get coffee with me some time?"
Sarah looked at him in shock before nodding slowly. "Sure when?"
The boy smiled "How about now?"
Sarah nodded "Ok sure." They headed to get coffee and talked and talked. Sarah knew the feeling that she was having but she didn't pay it any mind. It lead to them making out and him tugging at her clothes. "No, no stop, we can't."
He stopped and looked at Sarah. "You cant make out with me and then not give me sex." James said.
"I'm not ready." Sarah said worriedly.
James smiled "Oh a virgin even better." He went back to kissing Sarah and tugging at her clothes. She broke free but he caught her. "Come on slut. Give me what I want. Lets see how much of a dirty whore you really are."
She broke free again and ran to her dorm, tears falling. She locked herself in the bathroom with her blade. She undressed after she decided to leave a note on the door for Jen. She climbed into the tub full of water and pressed the blade to her stomach carving "Whore" there. She then carved "Slut" into her thigh. As she was doing all this Jen came in and saw the note. She started pounding on the door, calling Sarah's name. Sarah let more tears fall as she put the blade to her wrist. "Just go Jen! Stop acting like you care." She called out before pressing the blade into her skin and made a cut.
"I'm not leaving! I really do care!" Jen called.
Sarah cut into her wrist again. She watched as the blood dripped down her arm. More tears fell as she cut again a little deeper. Jen got the door open and she rushed in. She gasped at the sight Sarah looked up at her."Don't look at me. I'm fat and ugly." Sarah made another cut mindlessly.
Jen grabbed Sarah's wrist that held the blade, and held it in her hand. "Stop Sarah you aren't fat and you're not ugly. You're beautiful." Sarah shook her head as the blade slipped from her hand. Jen took the opportunity to pull Sarah out of the tub. She grabbed a towel and wrapped Sarah in it before taking her to Sarah's bed and laying down with her. "Talk to me." Jen said softly. Sarah sucked in a deep breath and explained to Jen what happened. Jen held her the whole time and after Sarah finished Jen felt anger and another emotion she placed as jealousy. "That fucking dick. Sarah you aren't a whore or a slut."
Sarah shook her head. "I am though Jen."
Jen held her tight and shook her head. "We'll argue about that after you get rest." Sarah closed her eyes and slowly drifted to sleep. Just as Jen closed her eyes there was a knock on the door. Jen got up carefully and quietly then opened the door.
"His, is Sarah here?" The boy at the door asked.
Jen's eyes narrowed at the boy she knew as James, she closed the door behind her and glared angrily at the boy. "Listen short stack, you leave Sarah alone, she doesn't want anything to do with you. If you mess with her again, you'll have to deal with me." James slowly backed away and left then Jen went back and laid down, slowly falling asleep with Sarah.
Whenever Jen woke up Sarah was no longer in her arms or anywhere in their room to be found. Jen got out of bed and searched for her worriedly. She didn't find her in the bathroom and so she left their room and went searching. She ran into Charlie and her eyes widened as she stopped him. "Do you know where Sarah is?" Jen asked, knowing how close they were.
"She asked me to leave her some time alone in my dorm since nobody is there and nobody visits when I have a sock on the door." Charlie explained.
Jen looked at Charlie. "So, you out a sock on the doorknob and left to give her some privacy?" Jen asked.
Charlie nodded. "She needed guaranteed privacy."
Jen hugged him. "Thanks Charlie." She ran off to Charlie's room and when she got there, she stopped and stood outside of the door, listening.
Jen heard Sarah's beautiful voice ring through and she listened carefully. "She's only 17, her whole life's ahead of her."
Jen heard Sarah start singing and she instantly recognized the song. She knew that it wasn't Sarah's normal type of song to sing but she also knew it was helping Sarah express how she feels in what she thinks is privacy.
"She hates school because the people there discredit her."
Jen thought of how Sarah had been bullied and used and she frowned, cracking the door open slightly.
"Her boyfriend tries to show her that's not how it seems. But everyday she just gets lowered by her self-esteem." Sarah opened her eyes as Jen slowly walked in and she looked at Jen but didn't stop singing the song. "He let's her know that every night will bring a brighter day, she even tried to overdose and take her life away."
Jen watched Sarah and her eyes caught sight of a pill bottle of Sarah's dumped out on Charlie's dresser, and Jen's eyes widened slightly.
"She's feeling hopeless there just sitting down beside her bed, then he takes his hand and places it beside her head. He tries to hold her but with every touch she still resists,"
Jen slowly sat down on Charlie's bed watching Sarah.
"And then he sees the scars that bury deep within her wrists." Jen saw Sarah run her fingers down her covered left arm. "She's feeling numb, he tries to beg and plead and ask her 'why?' She says this way she has control of the pain she feels inside. He asking her 'how long its going since you've felt this way?
Because you got me here just feeling so damn helpless.' She says 'Its been a while I guess I needed better luck."
Jen slowly shakes her head at Sarah knowing how much Sarah really believes that.
"And then he screams at her and tells her 'Baby never cut!'"
Jen watches Sarah as she sings the song, looking at Jen every now and then. As the song drew to a close, Sarah walked over to the IPod dock. "You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut."
Sarah unplugged her IPod and went to Jen. Jen stood and wrapped Sarah in a hug, Sarah hugged her back and laid her head on Jen's shoulder. "Its ok. I'm here. I'm not leaving. Ever." Jen whispered. Sarah nodded and hugged Jen as tightly as possible.